>>27983965
For me its just that I can't do it. But I feel it will change soon enough?

>>27983965
May sound cheesy bur mentally I died years ago. Now days I just continue to struggle in hope it might get better while letting my body enjoy itself. Hence I'm not fat lazy outsider with no hopes for future.

I...I don't know
no reason to be
but here I am, alive
why am I not dead already?

My mother is disabled and doesn't have anyone else. She gets scared and lonely on the few occasions I ever need to leave.
She cried one day months and months ago telling me I could leave if I wanted. She feels bad that I'm getting older and here with her instead of finding someone and starting a life for myself.

A single, solitary friend. Without them I'd of punched out long ago.