I just realized something robots. I don't think my mother has ever said anything positive in her entire life. As far back as I remember, all she ever does is complain, criticize, and speak ill of everyone around her. I remember being a child and all she ever did was talk about how terrible everyone around her is. She's never praised me for getting good grades in school, asked me what I'm doing in my life, what I want to do ... just totally focused on herself and what she wants. Probably up until 18, she's always phrased the term "WE are doing (not) this/that" anytime a decision concerning me has come up. My father was completely distant and never spoke to me or anyone inside the family outside of alcoholic rage. My sister is 5 years older and an alcoholic, drug addict bitch who I never got along with. At the end of it all, I literally have no idea what proper communication is like. I can barely hold conversation for more than a few minutes. I can't imagine dealing with a long term partner or having children.
What's your family like robots?
>>27982015
Pretty shit mate
>absent father
>neurotic mother
I think that pretty much summarizes most robots.
pretty much the same OP minus the alcoholic dad part
+ my mum hating her life and constantly making sure everyone of the family is aware of this.
>>27982976
Summarizes me basically. My mom tried but it was hopeless.
>grow up being told how horrible my grandparents are
>they constantly bail my mom out of financial trouble, every time we can't pay rent or she can't afford cigarettes they help her with a check
>whenever we visit it would end with her taking me home early because they're a "bad influence" on me
>ff ten years
>they are almost dead
>Mom comes in my living space at 2 am last night to tell me I've fucked up my relationship with my grandparents and they'll be dead soon and I'm doing a horrible job as a grandson
>I seriously suspect she is only being nice to her parents now so they leave her in the will
Fuck
>>27982976
>>absent father
>>neurotic mother
My story exactly.
>>27982015
Imitate others
>>27982976
Got the same set
>>27982015
>I don't think my mother has ever said anything positive in her entire life. As far back as I remember, all she ever does is complain, criticize, and speak ill of everyone around her.
That's perfectly normal for a woman, that's why you're supposed to have a good relationship with your father.
My mom used to laugh at my dick when I was young.
Turned into a fetish which spawned several other ones...
>>27982976
literally me, did your father spend time at home but never did anything with you besides scolding or making fun of you?
>>27982015
overprotective parents who sent me alot of mixed messages growing up.
my parents are alcoholics, I thinks its enough to say
>>27983395
That's pretty funny desu. Why was she laughing? Just being a bitch?
>>27982976
same here fampai
holla atcha boi original
neglect, alcoholism, emotional and physical abuse
they are both narcissistic scum that didn't deserve to breed in the first place
>>27983458
I experienced this too.
>>27982976
Pretty much this. People like our parents shouldn't have children. Exactly why I never plan on having kids or getting married.
>>27983488
I don't even know. Probably trying to make me laugh/embarassed. I'm average sized.
>>27983488
>>27983599
How would you react, if you were her?
>>27982015
Holy fuck, your parents sound exactly like mine! I didn't realize how fucked the dynamic was until I escaped that house.
I deal with crippling social anxiety/depression to this day and can barely leave the house most days
>>27983395
>>27983599
Have you tried fucking her to show her who's boss?
>>27983634
Like it's a normal thing for a boy to have a penis? Do you burst into laughter when the sun comes up? When you see a tree? When you eat food?
Dad was an asshole and not there
Mom is and was a crazy leftist anti male whore
Basically I've been alone since birth
>>27983576
Anyone who wants to be a parent needs to take tests
>>27982015
autistic/violent father and overprotective helicopter mother, also add a manipulative drug addict/autistic older brother.
Every week for like 3 years it would be the exact same routine.
My brother would refuse to go school for like half the week because he was too high, and/or he would steal from us, and then my mom was too much of a wet mop to discipline him so she was just like WAIT UNTIL YOUR FATHER GETS HOME THIS WEEKEND MISTER, because our father worked in another city.
Our father would get home, my mom would just sort of upload all of the problems that she had with my older brother onto my dad, and my dad would just beat us around because he wanted to come home and find a perfect family and not have to worry about raising kids. Everyone but my older actually, he had the good sense to not to be around when our dad was.
I also have an older sister but she had the good idea of latching onto the first guy she could get and move out with him when she was like 17 or something.
Even before that family life was weird & bad. I remember when I was a kid I was at the top of my class, and when I presented my report card my father would just immediately find my lowest grade (an A-) and be like WHAT IS THIS THAT'S NO GOOD, never even throwing me a "hey good job buddy let's keep it up", so when I reached middle school I just stopped giving a shit about grades. My mom thought that computers and video games gave kids ADD and brain tumors, so I never learned how to make friends. I would always try to be friends with the kids who had the most video games so I could play at his house, and then immediately ditch them when another kid got a better consoles or something. Also because we grew up without computers & the internet I never got a chance to hop onto the whole STEM, video games & start-up boom that's been happening the last 10+ years.
>>27983395
lmao what the fuck senpai
I'm old-ish now (30) and my sister has kids that she often brings over to be babysat by our mother.
Anyways they're both boys and our mom was talking to them about how if they need to go to the washroom they can just piss on a bush ( because we're savage animals) and she said "something something your little penises" and I just thought that she probably just fucked them up for life.
ike they'll be 18-20 years old in 10 years time about to have sex with a girl and they'll just think of grandma going "YOUR LITTLE PENISES" and then won't ever get hard.
>>27983634
Not react at all? Penises are normal, I think she was doing it "innocently" but I started developing weird fetishes and I realised why in the middle of watching a porn video...
>>27983679
Starving Africans would do that. I don't think she should laugh though, the kid's confidence is at stake, the kid will think about weird things, fetish and shit
>>27983710
lmao
My mom's routine was to get drunk and take my electronics (literally all of them, unplugging consoles and PCs) every Friday/Saturday. For barely any reason (You didn't do the dishes in five minutes!).
Both my parents worked in a hospital, so no fun allowed. My father was a complete pussy, so I never taught self worth and to stand up for myself. My mother worked nights so I was passed off to the neighbor during the day. My mother would go into these fits of rage screaming and throwing things. I was basically given everything growing up as well, so working for anything never stuck. Had I been kicked out of the house I'd just die a neet in some shit hole.
>Dad was harsh towards me at an early age (though he meant well)
>Now have negative self esteem
Mother has narcissistic personality disorder, father died and got replaced by a beta stepfather.
>>27983576
I like to think that knowing how my parents fucked my up, I could be a better father because at the very least I know what NOT to do. But then again, I can't see myself as a father because I can't see myself connecting with anyone (especially a woman). Maybe it's for the better. I wouldn't want to risk creating someone who is going to suffer even half of what I suffered so far.
>>27982976
triple that and you've got me.
damn cunt's schitso and my dad never really bothered.
now all i have is depression and i'd like to blame it on inheriting some mild form of her condition... even if it might just be not being raised properly gave me shit self esteem and anxiety.
>never got compliments (I was best in my class)
> got slapped in my face for every mistake
>they telling everyone how shit I'm at life
>my brother is now a depressed borderliner
>I'm depressed with social anxiety
>>27982976
spot on
Father left when i was 8 and mother always had depression
>both parents neglected me
>mother a subservient coward
>father an abusive domineering, tatted up, ex-drug dealing, degenerate scumbag
>am a bastard child
That about sums it up
Oh yeah, and I'm autistic and got beaten and emotionally abused regularly for being an autist. Keeping Chad manlet happy and his violence under control was more important to my mother than her childrens welfare.
>>27983710
>>27984562
sounds a lot like my family, senpai.
>all these evil parents
Boomers and Gen X'ers truly are scum of the earth.
My parents were totally antiviolence/aggression. Setting me up as a victim for my young and teen years. Especially considering I ended up in a shithole school.
That and no matter what if I was in trouble they were on the adults side. It was a betrayal I never really got over. I told my mom this one day just in passing and I've never seen someone so racked with regret and sadness in my life.
I never really judged them on their parenting again because that shattered my illusion they were preprogrammed parents who knew what they were doing.
No hard feelings these are just two things I will do differently with my kids.
The former less enthusiastically as not being allowed to play with gun/sword toys has made me a textbook example of Freudian rebellion.
I was working with a guy recently who knew me from birth though I had no memory of him ofcourse and he said. 'I had to laugh at your mother when you were kids. She never let you play with any guns and there you were running around church shooting people with books in your hands!'
>>27984623
poor you, such a hard childhood you had
>>27982015
My mom was the opposite she said positive things NO MATTER WHAT to the point where i didnt even want her opinion anymore because i couldnt tell if it was genuine.
My dad was like your mom op. always negative, always trying to put me down like he was jealous of me or something.
NEET alcoholic single mother with a drug addiction
My life was over before it even began
>>27982976
Right here bud blox
>>27984641
Oh no it was good. Whining isn't a parameter if this thread or the true intention of this board.
>>27982015
My dad scared away the only girl that loved me.
>>27984670
Where's your father?
>>27984685
>Whining isn't a parameter if this thread
You fucking dumb or what, kid?
>>27982015
" How Did Your Family Fuck You Up? "
Also, back to /b/ and /pol/, newfag normalscum. Probably an underage too. Piss off kid.
>>27984704
someone's drunk today.
also i think it was sarcasm from that one anon. i feel him
>>27984623
What a whiny little faggot.
Your parents never beat you or told you you're worthless. You never had to grow up in a loveless, emotionally void family. You never had to deal with alcoholism and addiction. You'll never have life-long physical and emotional scars that no amount of anti-depressants can even marginally help.
Shut the fuck up.
>>27984739
>>27984704
i think you anons miss his point of having been raised ina shitty way, to the point of not being able to fit in any more.
>>27984700
My mother claims to know who he is and he is aware of my existence but he and his family never cared to meet me.
>>27984768
I get it, it's just such a hilariously trivial thing compared to what other anons have gone through
My mother has fairly severe anger issues - she'll sometimes do the thing where she'll walk into a room and clearly be scanning around for something she can yell about. I'm from a first-generation immigrant family too, where I grew up speaking English while she grew up speaking Russian, and despite us both being conversational in the other's native language it's not really enough to have anything but the most basic conversation. I was sleeping with a knife under my pillow as early as 5th grade because I was genuinely worried she'd kill me for getting bad grades. I once tried to run away around the same time too.
The father was absent, stayed behind in Russia with the family move. He had a bunch of jail time back in the USSR for being a black market third-trimester abortion provider. After getting out he decided to learn some actual medicine and ended up an anesthesiologist. Humorously my psychiatrist suspects that I've got antisocial personality going, and I'm thinking I'll go to med school for surgery because I'm certain that because I hate normie fun I'll kill myself within the next decade unless I can find meaningful work. If that works out I'll be the second in a short line of sociopathic medical professionals.
All in all, I ended up with rather severe trust issues and a chronic feeling of not being to rely on anyone. I also never talked to anybody about my emotions until maybe age 22 or so because it was simply never once a thing I grew up doing.
>>27984623
I hope your children will be as autistic as you
Who foreign parents here?
>>27984739
Well all have different issues causing us suffering. A poor kid in a third world country would probably trade places with anyone ITT.
>>27984779
Who provided you with money then?
>>27982015
Yer mum sounds like a narcissist. There is a whole subreddit dedicated to it called raised by narcissist. I think that it would help to read others experiences. You are not alone.
>have shit bottom of the barrel older brother who has been abusive towards me
>have overprotective mom
>have a decent dad who always works and is only home in the weekends
>one time my dad wanted to teach my brother manners when he started getting rebellious around his early teens
>mom tells my dad not to touch him or interfere in his life
>dad gets upset one day and smacks the shit out of my brother
>mom calls the police and they take my dad away for a night
>mom and dad file for divorce a few months later
>brother starts beating me up from age 8 till 15 because dad isn't there to protect me
>mom never does anything to stop him
>now I never associate with them and they wonder why I'm so silent all the time
Yeah I developed into a robot pretty early in life and learned how cruel a mother and siblings can be. Atleast I can speak regularly with my dad now.
>>27984589
Birds of a feather flock together senpai
>>27983644
How did you escape that house if you can't leave the house? Where did you get the money and what money do you live off now?
>>27984952
kinda sounds like him leaving was what made him realize how shit the world is.
>>27984854
Good ol Uncle Sam and whatever she could get from "boyfriends" which was more like longterm prostitution.
Money was rare to come by, I was wearing the same three shirts through most of highschool.
>>27984704
Shut the fuck up you autistic faggot. Go wallow in self pity about the fact that you'll never pass on your ugly genes. I'm not even any of the people you replied to but it's clear you are a miserable little shit and if I knew you personally I would have crippled you by now. Shithead
>>27984985
Kinda sounds to me like he's an overprivileged piece of shit getting free money and opportunities from somewhere. Or just a woman.
>>27985154
if you're just dropped into it all unprepared, it can feel impossible to bee yourself
>>27982015
siblings would call me gay/fag and we would get in fights now I hate people and want to hurt people
Mom was alcoholic and had tons of temper tantrums where she would break/smash things. Dad was nice because he didn't want to be like his own parents who were terrible, he was like a successful robot. After my sister was born from my father and his girlfriend (from after my dad and mom split) all of my family on my dad's side shunned me and thought I was cruel to my younger sister behind their backs, but it was quite the opposite; she would punch me and spit on me and take my stuff and ruin it but I couldn't do anything about it because she was a child, and whenever my father caught her in the act they would yell at both of us and especially accuse me of instigating her.
>>27984509
Replace brother with sister and it's a perfect description of my family as well
>>27982976
+1
absent father
neurotic mother
douche brother
grandparents all died when i was still a kid
all my relatives are assholes
never knew a real sense of "family"originality
>>27983184
>>grow up being told how horrible my grandparents are
>>they constantly bail my mom out of financial trouble, every time we can't pay rent or she can't afford cigarettes they help her with a check
ik this feel, my grandma is rich but my mom dumb bitch and went to art school and has been unemployed since i was like 7 (i'm 19). Grandmother literally bought 90% of my clothes and groceries growing up, and my mom complains about how her mother is a terrible person.
>>27982015
>dead father
>mother ignores me
>spend childhood on computer (4chan, wow)
>first step-dad was wagecuck (never saw him much)
>mother re-marries stoner guy(don't really talk to him)
>i still live at home (19) going to community college
>my relationship with my mom consists of her telling me if she brought home food after going out, and the occasional "Why do you sound miserable?"
Mother
>told me I was handsome
>told me girls like nice, respectful guys
>taught me to be a polite and caring person
>taught me to have pride in my race
>pampered me as a child and a teen
>spent a lot of time working so she didn't get to keep a close eye on my development
Father
>walked out on us while we were on vacation
>gave me his asthma
>gave me his dyspraxia
>came back into my life to fuck me up some more.
>constantly made me feel like shit for "not being manly enough"
>fostered my low self-esteem by cuffing me around the head and pointing out my flaws
>made it so I'm constantly looking for father figures elsewhere
>>27982015
>I literally have no idea what proper communication is like. I can barely hold conversation for more than a few minutes. I can't imagine dealing with a long term partner or having children.
iktf
>>27982976
this
my mom used to say my and my siblings were her only friends and demanded that we listen to her gossip about her sisters and complain about my dad. she never treated me as an actual human being and neither of my parents ever actually talked to me, just at me.
I grew up with single father who became alcoholic. And I developed huge codependency issues because of it. I always wanted to take care of him and "fix" him. I still do. I blamed myself forever that he has that problem. Only now I'm starting to get over it when I get to talk to a therapist. He says my "too nice" personality comes from the fact I'm too used to fix someone, hide their problems from others while ignoring mine. I wonder if I'll ever get better? I don't really believe so.
>>27982976
this
father was non existent from 0-8 then out of desperation my mom got him back till he left us for good when i was 12
never had a masculine figure in my life, never learned how to talk to girls
mom always depressed and spent most of her time working so she could buy worthless stuff to fill up the void of her existence
so basically from when i was born i grew up alone in my home, no wonder i turned out like this, without a single friend, job, dropping out uni and etc
My mom tried to kill my dad cause he was cheating on her and bringing "friends" over at home. I cant remember well, i think i was 6 or something, but my mom might came in the house earlier than he expected and caught him while i was digging up holes in the backyard, i was usually told to go play outside when he came with a guest. SO I havent seen them since and i moved to florida with relatives. I still have nightmares about that day, I hope I never see my parents again
Mother only got pregnant out of desire for having a girl. I was a boy. Mother blames me for all of her shit that goes wrong and how she can't find a job. Sister's born with a light allergy that fucks her skin up as a little baby. At this point she absolutely detests me because her perfect daughter was born with allergies when I wasn't. Beats me with martial art weapons most prominent being these thick rolls of hard bamboo. She also liked kicking me. She ended up making a shrine to my sister while hating me.
Stopped me from going out and forced me to stay in my room, going to bed at like 6pm with a big window next to my room as I'd have to watch all the other kids having fun. Forced me into more and more 'introvert' (idk what to describe it)/1man hobbies. Everything I made my perfect sister broke over and over again.
Dad didn't really do much. Serviceman so can't really blame him. Always bought me some cool stuff when he was there. Apart from that he was pretty useless. Was obsessed with parading me as a normal child so he forced me to play football (the one sport I never wanted to do, but it was the most prominent/normal kids sport). I was absolutely useless at it and was only left in because they all liked my dad.
Mother then cheated, broke up the marriage. Dragged me across the country several times over so she could optimize her bennies or some shit after the breakup.
Left out any info about my little bro. Basically facing the same thing as me just without a father at all. I tried helping him to get into sports/make friends while I was there but my mother wasn't really interested. She'd rather have him play Xbox all day and grow up as autistic as me.
My sister grew up pretty normal her allergies pretty much cleared up.
Pretty jealous of her tbqh famalams, can't lie. I don't know what me, or my bro did to piss her off so much.
>>27984623
>My parents were totally antiviolence/aggression.
Mine were too, except when they were using it on me, it was completely ok then. At least it toughened me up and I finally learned fighting back was the only way.
>>27982976
It's like a metaphor for reality:
where god(male) is absent and nature(female) is senseless and cruel.
>>27982015
I just recently realized how my family previously affected me subconsciously.
They all have this attitude that everything they do is the only way to do something, everything they think is the objective truth.
This made me subconsciously beta, I became a people pleaser.
Glad this came to my awareness.
>>27984952
>>27984985
By "escaping," I meant I left my hometown for college. It wasn't even for a couple years afterward until I realized how fucked up my family was/is. Sometimes a person has to be removed from the situation in order to fully realize how much it affected them.
>>27988630
>>By "escaping," I meant I left my hometown for college.
How? Who paid for it? Who paid for your life while you were doing it?
>>27988897
I did.
Student loans. Worked 30-40 hours a week during college. Still don't have a really good paying job and will be a slave to the loan payments for several years but shit could be worse I guess. No, I'm not an overprivileged piece of shit that had it paid for.
>>27989014
>got free money
>didn't have it paid for
Alright if it makes you feel better I guess.
>>27989086
Loans aren't grants, nigger.
>>27982976
This.
Father was physically home but mentally/emotionally checked out. Nothing but sitting in the garage getting absolutely wasted on cheap beer, then coming inside every few hours to scream at us and break things. Used to be absolutely terrified of him. Still remember the sound of my mom's "scared voice" when she thought he might hurt us. Divorced her the day I turned 18, which means he "did a good job." Total idiot who still tries to call me and larp as a good dad.
Mom was either depressed or manic pixie. Spiritual person. Dependent on for protection against monster dad. My whole childhood was a fucking hero-myth meme. Turns out you don't actually become a hero, you become a fucked up person who can't relate to other people.
How does having an absent father and crazy mother lead to being a loser? Is it fixable?
>>27987808
>I don't know what me, or my bro did to piss her off so much.
Probably penis envy tbqh familia. Still makes me want to beat her to a pulp.
>>27988565
That's deep man.
originalw
>>27989385
It sets back the development of your social skills and other skills, gives you money problems self esteem issues, depression, fears, phobias
>>27989244
Ok can I get a small million dollar loan then? Thanks in advance!
>tfw no parents, brother or sisters to rely on
>>27982976
>tfw I'm helpless and self destructive as a result of this
>>27982015
They created me.
>tfw parents don't have millions in the bank
brother died
dont talk to sister
father liked my cousins more than me and ignored me then left when I was 12
mom is super loving. never wants me to leave home, wants to spend almost 24/7 with me and can be overwhelming, but she's nice and I think of her as a friend.
>autistic or retarded since an early age
>taken to a psychiatrist several times for something I dont remember
>jumped the border when i was 7
>father died two years later
>mother worked all day so I barely saw her
>friendless loser all throughout school
>mother died when I was 19
>friendless loser with no family ties
>going to be jobless and running around like a rat in eight months
Yes, they did.
>>27982015
>autistic mother with borderline personality disorder
>alcoholic father who never worked and toned him muscles on my face
>rapist uncle who enjoyed showing me what a gay man feels
>idiot racist grandparents who were way worse than the people they constantly talked shit about
>>27982976
Yup. People make fun of places like Tumblr for being full of women with daddy issues, but we're basically all men with mother issues.
My mom is a narcissist, and my dad worked as much as possible to avoid her. I never realized just how much my mom manipulated me into being emotionally "attached" to her by playing with my self esteem until I was in my 20s... It wasn't a normal, healthy relationship at all and I am still struggling with both trusting women and my self worth.
My dad, meh. He wasn't a bad guy at all, just never really gave a shit unless it was to berate me and he worked a lot. I still don't mind him, but he was more or less absent during my childhood and let my mom raise me and my siblings as she saw fit.
>>27982976
I see myself as an experiment of sorts. My dad left when I was young and my brother went with him but I stayed. Today my brother is a healthy well-adjusted person who has a good job, a long-term gf, his own house and everything that we think of as normal. I'm either at work or sitting in my room trying to avoid interaction with my mother. I have no friends, have never had and never will have a gf, and have severe anxiety issues. My brother tried living with us for a while but had to get out because he couldn't stand mom. I defended her in their arguments but if I could go back I would never do it again.
She did nothing but pour poison in my ears for years. Everybody and everything (except my dad who is a manly saint to her) is awful and has to tell me about what she thinks is wrong with them. I was basically someone for her to offload all her problems onto. She never complimented me on anything and would often throw emasculating remarks at me. Not in a vicious way, she'd just state them as matter-of-fact.
>>27982015
Glad you made this thread OP. I realized something earlier today and had nowhere to say it.
>emphasized individuality over conforming
>encouraged asocial behaviors
>would laugh at jokes I told that weren't actually funny
>generally rewarded social actions that would be derided by anyone else
I guess the biggest thing is they very much brought me up to not be a normie. It has pros I guess, but I think if I had a child, I would do anything to make sure they didn't end up like me. I'd encourage critical thinking, but I would also encourage fitting in. It's just an easier life.
>>27982015
They passed down bad genes. I have 2 autoimmune diseases that both cause arthritis at the same time so I'm crippled, also several cancers are in my family history literally everyone in my family dies of cancer.
It's hard to have a good life when you're genetically predisposed to misery.
>>27992720
>She did nothing but pour poison in my ears for years. Everybody and everything (except my dad who is a manly saint to her) is awful and has to tell me about what she thinks is wrong with them. I was basically someone for her to offload all her problems onto. She never complimented me on anything and would often throw emasculating remarks at me. Not in a vicious way, she'd just state them as matter-of-fact.
My life story. People like this don't deserve to have children.
>>27982015
MUST HAVE BEEN ONE HELL OF A STRONG ROPE
>tfw have wonderful supportive parents
>still turned out a loser
at least you guys have an excuse
>>27982976
Switch the two and you have me.
>>27987808
>>I don't know what me, or my bro did to piss her off so much.
I think it has to do with your mom is worshipping her so much
>mom wants girl
>gets boy
>fucks him up because "not what I wanted"
>gets girl
>has allergies
>takes this out on boy
>all the while treating girl like a god
>girl noticed this
>girl catches on
>realizes she's the favorite and because of the way the mother acts towards the boy, also acts this way towards the boy, developing her mothers personality
>acts this way because mommy did it and brothers are just poopy heads
Prettt simple shit familia
>just be kind to others and they will like you
little did i know that "liking" meant treating me like a doormat
>>27983788
Yeah, cause you obviously can't say the word penis if you don't want to scar every kid in a 5 mile radius.
Jesus dude, don't be such a fucking prude. Let me guess, you're American?
>>27982976
Yep that's me. Father didn't give a single fuck about me, my mother and my sister. Mother tried to be the best mother she could but shit, she didn't teach me anything when it comes to the social thing.
>tfw mother wasn't a bad person but failed at being a good parent
>tfw father wouldn't give two fucks if the fucking planet imploded
And that's why I am who I am now. No self esteem, no social skills at all, don't know how to be "a real man", scared of everything in life.
>>27993909
That's a good post, I liked the bit where you set up a strawman and knocked it down like a pro.
I thought I was probably fucked up from having cancer as a kid.
Maybe a little, but now I realise it was the hitting and intimidation tactics.
Eternal reminder that physically hitting children as discipline or for any other reason is abuse.
>absent father
>nice mom, but no common sense / responsibility to speak of (no financial sense either)
>live with single mom
>can a friend come over?
>maybe some other time
>can you take me to my friend's house?
>maybe some other time
It's no wonder I don't care to go out and do shit.
I have mommy issues because my mother is defensive, distant and emotionally reserved. Acts of kindness and love were pretty damn rare from her. My father tried to compensate for it but I suspect the damage had been done early. My father even said (during their divorce when a lot of shit I shouldn't have heard came out) that after I wasn't a baby anymore she sort of lost interest, as she felt like she couldn't relate to me anymore because I was a boy and all. She herself was adopted and from what I understand her adoptive parents treated her well enough, but never seemed to consider her their real daughter. Something was wrong with them though, as one couldn't have kids, and so my father suggested they were bitter and took their frustrations out on her because she was what they couldn't really have. She was just a lesser thing to fill the void.
So I've grown up to be an aloof, theatrical, bitter, somber and hateful person because of that. I want to be close to people but I myself have a few emotional and physical hangups that fight me on everything and make me feel like I'm a disgusting person. Ever since I was a little kid I've dreamed of having a woman that would love me because I guess it never really felt like my mother did. Beyond my parents we had no other family, save my mother's adoptive grandparents. That didn't help. I've also always wondered what it's like to have a big family, or at least a family at all.
