What feels have you never felt?
>>27966195
Passion. Never cared about anything. Not school, girls, boys, sports, music. Nothing. I have no hobbies, I go to work, eat, and sleep. I can't remember not feeling like this.
Feels I have not felt:
Tfw life has meaning
Tfw happy
Tfw not alone
Tfw gf
Tfw friends
Tfw want to live for the sake of living
Tfw don't hate every person on this godforsaken planet
Etc.
I could go on for days.
my parents dying
thankfully I haven't experienced it yet, it's depressing that I will eventually experience it though
>>27966195
It's gotten to the point where I can't even comprehend what it's like being romantically involved with another person. The concepts and basic rites of passage that 99% of people go through have been completely absent in my life. I've never asked out a girl, flirted with one, gone on a date, held hands, hugged, kissed etc. I have no clue how to do any of this stuff, but any opportunities that could lead to any of that have disappeared long ago.
Soul crushing irredeemable guilt. Either I block it out, or I never really sought to ruin anyone's lives. I can forgive myself for everything I've done. But people sure as shit went after me unprovoked and for that, they're guaranteed 100% of the wrath I am capable of.
Baby rabies. Its more like "Tick tock, why is it taking so long to give a shit like everyone says is normal"
>>27966268
passion from hobbies isn't that magical. at times it feels like more fun and immediate than video games or shows. that's why it's not really a problem of attention span.
