so sorry i haven't been on in a while, i went from bad to good to bad to good and now i'm not doing so hot
Really haven't been able to shittpost with the best of you recently either.
Hows everyone doing tonight?
>>27964701
>when a tripfag is apologizing for not shitposting and thinking we miss him
>>27964749
man you were just looking for an excuse to use that image
>>27964749
>tripfag
OP is one of the nicest guys on this board and has helped countless anons with their problems. fuck you.
Hey skelly, I've actually been missing these threads lately. Did you do well on that last big paper you were working on?
>>27964768
I have all the excuses to use my images
>>27964781
I'm sorry, I'm a newfag and don't pay attention to trips
nobody will ever care about me
I will never mutually care for someone
wtf
why must I suffer in this way?
>>27964802
From last semester? Hah no I got a fucking C because I'm trash. I deserved it, I picked a topic that was outside of my flex zone
>>27964781
Thanks, I'm technically a fag but i dont really like using the word.
>>27964804
>>27964823
babies first 4chan images.
>>27964828
Why could you never care for someone/someone care for you?
>>27964847
nobody shares my interests.
nobody.
I will die forever alone, never being able to express the things I like.
Maybe I'll express just a few things, but never ever the whole truth.
There is no one that will like me for all that I am.
Something snapped in me last weekend when I was hanging out with my friends. I think I realised I don't really enjoy their company, but their my only friends. I'm distancing myself from them right now to see if spending time away from them will help. I don't know.
Also fuck exams. Just fuck them.
>>27964847
I'll make sure to get off your b-board soon
Like shit.
University started two months ago. I was happy at first, after a year of NEETing away I was ready for all these new people and experiences.
I'm already crumbling, though. I hate everyone and I hate the personality I created to be liked. I hate waking up and the fucking queue for lunch every day. I hate the classes even though I like the contents. I hate knowing that tomorrow I'm not free. I hate tests.
But what I hate the most is having to be around people every single day. I don't feel anxious anymore. I feel full of hate. I don't wanna be with them, I don't wanna talk, but I don't wanna be alone either. I don't wanna be seen by them.
I fucking hate people and I hate hating them.
good taste in music op
>>27964902
What are your interests?
>>27964905
I kinda felt the same way a little bit ago, they're my only friends as well. As long as we keep doing things though I think I'lll be fine
Also agree glad all mine are take home this year
>>27964934
Its hard man, any way you could live off campus? I too dislike being around people for so long. Glad I got to live at home
>>27964701
Hey op I always see these threads and never respond just want to say hi and I'm feeling super social yet sad today it's a bitter sweet feeling
>>27965009
>What are your interests?
you will start hating me now
>leftist politics (class consciousness, not sjw shit)
>artificial intelligence
>eroticroleplaying
>space
>existentialist philosophy
>expressing feelings to people
>>27965100
>expressing feelings to people
Please please please be my friend
>>27965009
I don't live in campus. I'm not even american.
I live at home, but it still blows. I can't handle being exposed to people for too long. I feel like I'm slowly but steadily imploding and I'll reach a breaking point and I'll go back into depression.
I'm not depressed right now, but it's imminent. I don't wanna be depressed again. It was hell.
>>27965122
I would love to ;_;
here is my tox information:
AF00206B2DF62664F4AA34BD3340CDDDF6405F00DFC61F0A370C04C04874101E5C2E32ACD6DB
is this for real anon? I always wanted a friend that would just talk about their feels to me all the time and I would talk about my feels too
seems too good to be true
>>27965033
Hey, did you get out and do anything with society?
Also hi
>>27965100
You'll never find someone with your exact interests, but you can find someone who shares some of your interests. A lot of people I know are interested in those subjects. I myself really like expressing feelings anderotic roleplaying uwu
And space is cool
>>27965165
Can you cut down on your class hours?
>>27965184
Whats tox?
>>27965236
jesus christ how'd i fuck up this badly
im an idiot
Nothings changed. I just cannot bring myself to try to improve my life. I feel like its too late and I'm too far gone.
I'm really scared of how bad things are going to get if I don't kill myself.
>>27965236
>Whats tox?
https://tox.chat/
a p2p chat client. I recommend qtox.
>>27965184
Yes yes yes ok I don't know what tox is but I will figure out I promose
I lust for love and to be with someone every day.
Everytime i see a loving couple or nice romantic scenes it makes my chest hurt,
I crave to be with someone and i have the worst sex life ever. Only fucked once and it was with a obease chick that i didnt really wanted to fuck in the end.
Help me
>>27965295
Ugh man I'm on an iPhone I don't think I can get it
>>27965236
I go to college so I mean that and I always get such a rush interacting with people but it's so hard to be "normie" and not act weird
>>27965388
I had so much faith in you anon
I thought atleast you wouldn't be an iphone normie
I thought maybe you'd love free (as in beer and freedom) software and that you would whisk me away into a realm of friendship
why does fate have to be so cruel?
>>27965423
I'm sorry anon :/// I guess it's fate maybe we would have end up killing each other or falling in love
>>27965291
Its never too late man. Its only too late to change when you're dead.
But yeah it is hard to chnage.
>>27965295
IC. I'd use it but I don't think anyone would ever talk to me on it.
>>27965373
Yeah i've been feeling that way myself, super lonely feeling.
>>27965411
Whats acting weird to you?
>>27965423
As a twenty year old single male I think it's very hard to find a girl who's actually interested in free software. I've had girls jokingly ask to "Netflix and chill" but when I tell her that I don't use Netflix since Netflix requires proprietary software to stream content, they stop talking to me. And worse if they do stay they think I'm weird since I blocked google IP's in my host file and we can't even watch youtube. I can't ever seem to get girls to come over to my place and I can't text them either. Once I get their numbers since I've added customs roms to my phone and refuse to use sms since it's a security concern I require all of my friends to download a free and open source messaging app and I share with them my public gpg key so that we can verify that our conversations are secure. None of my friends are willing to do this. And I can't use sites like tinder since it's not only proprietary software but a major privacy vulnerability. How come it is so hard to find a girl concerned about software freedom. I feel like I'm going to be a virgin forever.
sorry your post reminded me of this copypasta that i love
Whats the best way to end it all but not fuck my organs up, gotta help out someone who wants to live amiright. Headshot seems like the most efficient
>>27965474
pls I want it to be the latter
surely perhaps there is a normie app we could use to communicate or something
>>27965500
Just not cueing in on social things or when I take things too far I'm always scare I'm going to mess up anyways tell me about you. You always seem to talk and ask about others how do you feel anon what's your story
>>27965521
Skype???? Kik I don't know but how do I know your not go oh to treat me different
>>27965542
>feel
Like garbage and tomorrows gunna be shit
>my story
very boring i have no real reason to be depressed except my shit genes
Still alive tho so whoo :<
>>27965500
I've been dealing with my love and sexual furstaions into writing smutt for other Anon's which provide me with a good fap but just end up making me feel worse.
I feel really lonely because i am around some girls but those women are usually taken or just not interested in me, and i dont usually go out of my comfort zone for other girls.
I've been trying craigslist to see if anyone wants to do a blind date thing with me but that ends up me getting emails from gay 53 year old men.
>>27965582
Why anon what in your life has brought you to such despair:/// I want to help you
>>27965568
m-maybe we're just not meant to be :/
maybe I'm never going to find a nice friend because of my unwillingness to compromise.
I'm sorry it has to be this way.wake me up
>>27965623
Stop being foolish anon tell me your skip so we can kindle this fire between us
>>27965100
>existentialist philosophy
>space
That's not bad at all anon, I like those things. The only reason I see that someone would hate you for is the leftist stance on politics, and whoever would hate someone over that is not a good friend anyway.
Couldn't be worse senpai.
>parents despised each other but never divorced
>neglected me and shit talked each other
>spent teen years alone
>emotionally broken adult
>losing only person I've ever loved
Not a good time
>>27965591
Craigslist is shit for dating, its more of a hookup service.
Maybe try to go a little bit out of your comfort zone for other girls? Not a whole lot at first, but its good to do occasionally.
>>27965610
shit genes and staying in my basement all the time
>>27965650
kiss kiss kiss
>>27965679
Whats happenign right now to you anon?
>>27965513
could I get some /you/'s
>>27965500
>literally choosing software privacy over getting laid
>being this autistic
>>27965691
Would you like to be friends drop your skype so I can add you and whenever you
Need someone to talk to I'll be more than happy
>>27965650
I'm sorry but I just cannot.
Proprietary software is not something I will use if I can avoid it. d-don't you have a laptop you could download tox on?
>>27965746
Sorry my dear I guess it's definitely the universe telling us something it was nice chatting
>>27965715
Sorry man, I don't give suicide advice anymore. Makes me feel like shit
>>27965716
dont be enslaved to proprietary software
>>27965721
Give me yours and I'll add you, although I don't use it too often
>>27965691
Well thats the problem, i don't really know any girls at all, only a few but there uninterested in a losser like me.
Like literally i dont know where to find chicks at all. I usually hang around my male friends and do our geeky shit but thats it.
Plus it would feel weird meeting new people.
>>27965833
Haha, man desu i feel the same way. I even like dudes but no one in my circle is queer. And even if they were I wouldn't date them.
>>27965884
I like dudes a well and like non of the guys in my local area are queer. hell i think my town is actually anti gay.
So basically all the guys in my area arn't my type and i know very few women. Feels really bad.
>>27965965
you know how fucking easy it is for gay guys to get laid!? holy shit man. make yourself look as good as possible and literally just go to any gar bar or club and just stand around till someone hits on you.
>>27965965
:( it sucks. Sucks hard. Wish i didn't live in a small ruralish midwestern town.
>>27966014
>literally just go to any gar bar or club and just stand around till someone hits on you.
thats hard.
>>27965772
It is; the universe is telling you to never interact with a /g/entooman
>>27964701
I feel pretty crappy. Right now i just want to end it. But i don't think i have the courage to.
>>27966111
Whats on your mind anon?
oh man i got muted
I've never said hi to you Skelly but I've seen you around. I hate myself. kthxbye
>>27966210
Hi, whats wrong anon? ALso bye i gues hope you feel better
>>27964701
Hey Skelly. I've been trying a lot about killing myself but I don't have the energy to do it. If I ever get better I hope I don't do it.
>>27966259
I hope so too anon. Rooting for you
>>27966259
thinking*this comment is certainly original
Much better. I had a mental break down, and ended up in the emergency room. Dr. took me off prozac, and wrote me a prescription for wellbutrin. I don't think see it working either DESU.
How does a subhuman like me find happiness?
>>27966233
I'm just drunk and everything comes out when I'm drunk. I just want a hug and a sail boat.
>>27966300
Glad to hear youre doing better. I'm on wellbutrin, best stuff i'vee ever been on desu.
>>27966318
stop thinking of yourself as a subhuman can help. But its hard
>>27966321
I'll hug you anon, acnt afford the boat tho
It's been awhile, I miss these. I'm finishing up second year of colllege. The problem is that I have a 15 page paper due in two weeks. Haven't started. I have some research done and I think I can get about 6 pages so far. I just need to lock myself in the library for 5 days straight and just do the damn thing. Fuck, why do I always procrastinate. I know I'll regret it. It's because I don't want to be in college, but my parents are paying for it so I feel obligated to at least try. The depressions being coming and going recently, which I guess is better than last semester where it was just crushing me every waking moment. I even felt kind of happy last friday. It was kinda nice. And now I'm rambling. Good night everyone, I got those 8 am classes tomorrow. Wooptie fucking doo
>>27966350
That's okay. I have enough pride to at least try to get my own boat with a hand out. Thanks anyways. But a hug would still be nice. I've been stuck in this rut for a good year and a half. It hurts my soul.
>>27966350
I'm currently living with my recent ex, and roommates. I don't see things getting better until I move out and get away from her and the constant parties my roommates are throwing. I see about an apartment tomorrow.
>>27966358
>Fuck, why do I always procrastinate
I'm the same way, put things off till its too late. Good luck man, college gets easier after the second year (for me at least)
>>27966398
<3 Hope things improve for you soon
>>27966435
Oh man, that really bites. Good luck leaving, hope everything goes smoothly for you
>>27966476
Even though I can't get a hug can we still talk? I haven't spoken to ayone outside of my mother for a good 2 weeks..
My feels: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sX7fd8uQles
My coworkers invited me out to the pub for the first time in my 2 years working at this job. I tried to numb my shyness by drinking but I got too drunk and started spewing retarded shit out of my mouth and posed like an asshole for the facebook photos. Looking back it's pretty obvious that everyone wanted to get away from my retarded ass by the end of the night but I didn't notice back then. I guess one positive is that it's kind of comforting to be reminded that socializing with people is not meant for me and although I occasionally feel sad and lonely that I'm not part of any group, I really shouldn't.
Anyone else have a decent life, but every moment spent alone is hell? Cycle of self hate, anger, and synonyms? I can't enjoy anything and this sucks
I've felt like shit for so long that I feel coming to terms with the absolute nothing that is life, my mind is starting to just collapse on itself. I fucking hate life. It wouldn't be as bad if the mirage of a possible normal existence stopped lingering. Hope is a godawful thing.
>>27966536
Of course! So whats up with you recently anon
>>27966538
Nah, next time just drink a bit less and you should be fine
>>27966547
by all means i have a good life, i just have horrible depression and anxiety
>>27966566
How long have you felt this way?
>>27966639
Almost ten years.
>>27966680
Damn, what all have you tried to do to get/feel better?
>>27966639
Just at my mothers kitchen counter on the verge of tears drunk off me ass and listening to music. Contemplating being homeless again because liveing with her and my youngest two siblings is absolute hell in my mind. Yourself?
IM GOING TO FUCKIN DO IT NIGGA
>walk to Walmart
>buy helium and tubing and bag etc
>uber to some motel
>get a room and set everything up
>rip
What do you think my chances are of someone stopping me from achieving this are
>>27966717
:( sorry to hear that. Why's living with them so bad?
I'm doing better than earlier, separated myself from the project that was frustrating me and got a root beer float because its the only time i ilke soda
>>27966729
pretty high, especially because of the shit they put in helium now.
>>27966771
When I'm here I just become the "house nigger" and expected to be at everyone heel. I'd rather be living in my nearly broken car trying to get into college in Louisiana or Missouri rather than being a house nigger in fucking Iowa.
Root beer isn't bad. I've stopped drinking soda as much as I used too. I somtimes treat myself with it though. I've switched to beer, lol
>>27966852
That bites dude, sounds awful. Hope you can get out soon.
Where in MO would you be? Thats where I am.
I cant do beer lmao, it tastes too much like bread to me
>>27966771
I know which of the brands are pure helium already, I'm talking about people like store clerks etc calling the cops on me
I've been feeling worse than I ever have. I'm failing out of college. I can't get a job. I'm a failure at everything I've ever tried to do. I'm really having a hard time finding a reason to keep living
>>27966709
Everything short of getting prescribed drugs. I think it might be my final hope. However it's too expensive and joining the military might be a necessity for me soon, so avoiding any indication of mental illness would be beneficial.
Therapy has never worked. Exercise doesn't work. Friends don't work.
>>27966933
Oh. Pretty low, people are kinda shitt and dont care
>>27966936
When did you start feeling like this?
>>27966952
Drugs can help, they do a lot for me.
>>27966929
My one friend I graduated highschool with moved down there and he recommended I look at the Christian College of the Ozarks as it's basically free provided I work for them. I'm considering it. It would surely beat North East Iowa. For a while while homeless in my car I went all the way to Louisiana and I learned I need to head south because fuck the Yankee laws and fuck the northern cold.
I fucking love bread. I could survive off bread, beer, and anchovies!
Not good. Projects to do. Exams coming up yet here I am. Thanks for the concern though
who's /crying/ right now?
>be me, 18
>kissless virgin
>normies from classroom know it
>tyrone has a girl
>his girl sets me up
>kiss/make out with girl's friend
>3 days later
>girl texts me
>says her friend liked kissing me
>give me her wpp
>text her
>set up again
>she tells me I can lower my hand
>kiss her again (forget to lower hand)
>I keep bugging her
>she unfollows me
>decide to go all the way out
>after a little bit of texting asked if she'd like to do it again
>she says "sorry, no"
>"ok, if you change your mind I'm here"
>"ok"
she will change her mind, right??
>>27966977
I've always felt hopeless and inadequate but it's become more prominent recently due to failing more / everything good leaving my life
>>27966995
Do it dude, sounds like a good idea.
Oh man anchovies? They scare me haha
>>27967016
Good luck with end of school stuff
>>27967018
desu i dont usually cry anymore
>>27967043
im not sure what you mean
>>27967071
I gotcha. Yeah, those things can really make a person feel like shit
>>27967122
I gotta get the ones with the head chopped off and gutted. Else I couldn't. Thing is I just can't get the motivation to get up before 2 in the afternoon and do anything beyond do the few choirs prescribed and then drink myself to sleep again.
>>27967122
girl refused 3rd time
what should I do?
>>27967174
How often do you drink?
>>27967198
Probably stop messaging her.
>>27966182
I'm just fucking tired man. Nothing i do works out. My shit is always getting fucked up. My life was doomed to be fucked up before i was even born. I know I'm going to die alone. I'm too afraid of being cucked to even take a chance. I can't imagine decades more of this.... nothing life.
is apathy the true answer?
if I can't have a happy life at least I can try to have a non-sad life
>>27967245
As often as I can. Today. Didn't yesterday. Three days straight prior. A day sober before then before I can't remember. I'd be able to handle sobriety much easier if the youngest wasn't a six year old spoiled piece of shit or if I was under a bridge but no I must force myself to live here becuase I'm supposed to love me mother and I'm supposed to be greatful and I just sulk and hate myself.
>>27967279
But cucking is pretty much a meme, not something to fear in real life
>>27967320
There is no true answer.
>>27964701
Hey Skelly. I hope you're doing ok. I was worried something happened. I love these threads. Keep up the good work brobot. You're the diamond in the shit
>>27967328
FUck em, just because they're family doesnt mean you owe them your entire life. You should try to get out as soon as possible.
>>27967342
There is the most efficient answer, however.
losing my kv definitely made it harder to cope with the fact I spent my whole life doing nothing
>>27967369
I know I just don't know what steps to take and I don't know how to find the courage to take them.
>>27967342
>cucking is pretty much a meme
No its not. People cheat ALOT these days
>no hobbies
>cant even wake myself up for school on time, I'm failing out
>all I do when at home all day is check 4chan and scour normiebook for people who are looking to hang out so I can go fifth wheeling
>I don't even like video games or anime or anything I just have no interests whatsoever
WHYY
>>27967352
Thanks, desu i dont even browse r8k anymore
>>27967384
Yeah, i can see why
>>27967392
Cutting down on drinking can help how you physically feel.
>>27967441
Shitty people have always cheated, you just hear about it more now because the internet makes it easier to hear about.
>>27967498
What are some thhings you would be interested in as hobbies anon? Also drop out if you're failing, or start going. One of those.
when I go out I feel like everything and everyone is testing me
shit pulls up for me to deal with, normies trying to persuade and use me, wannabe chads trying to show off putting me down
I'm honestly tired
>>27965650
if you're still here..
I'm willing to compromise.
I made a kik.
my account name is Probot_r9k
(you're worth the privacy concern)
>>27967526
But I still felt the same when I was in my car I was just happier, more sober but just as hopeless I guess. I guess I just need to sober up tomorrow and send them an email. I just don't wanna end up work some shit job right here and never leave this shit town. I need to leave mye family and find my own way. I just wanna sail. If I can get on a sail boat I'll be happy, I know it. Te first time I saw the gulf coast a month or so ago I fell to my knees and cried. The water was so beautiful. It's all I want'
There is this qt3.14 chick in my lab that started randomly working with me about 4 weeks ago. We talk casually, but I don't think she is interested in me beyond lab partners.
I always come up with an excuse of why I shouldn't bother trying to get to know a girl I like better. I have a huge foot fetish and feet are pretty much make or break to me in a girl. She always wore running shoes so I just told myself she must have terrible feet and I am not missing out on anything. Today she throws me a curve ball and wears sandals.
Wew lad.
She had some of the best feet I've ever seen. Long toes, great nails, not big feet but the length of her toes made it look like she was a size 10 instead of what she really is, probably a 7.5-8.
So at this point I've got about 4 weeks to keep being an HKV or man up and ask her to lunch or just to study together and see where it goes. It's been putting me in a series of highs and lows today. I was so motivated that I actually went on a run today after class, but right now I feel like shit.
>>27967526
I don't have anything in mind for hobbies. I listen to music and shop online for clothes sometimes because those things take the least effort.
I don't really have much time for hobbies in between work and sleeping through school t.bh
>>27967567
Where do you go where you have to deal wit hthis shit
>>27967584
This is adorable
>>27967592
Good luck man, get your boat man. I believe in you and your boat
>>27967608
lmao thats pretty funny, its always people who like feet.
Anyways, ask her out, worst thing she could ssay is no
>>27967663
All my feels x10...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4fVQwzv5Qfc
Why do I torture myself skelly? Why do I stare at the doors and sit in sorrow rather than standing and walking through one of the few doors before me?
>>27967663
everywhere I go, everywhere I have to interact with acquaintances/friends, and even strangers
>>27967735
Because sometimes its easy to be complacent. You can do it!
>>27967663
I think I will ask her out before the semester ends. Not only are her feet amazing, but she is white and Asian. Those are my favorite types of girls, but I have never met one that showed interest in me. If I slip up here I think I will just call myself hopeless and accept that I will die alone. Such acceptance can be liberating.
>>27967795
Good luck anon
Man i remember the last time I tried to ask 'out' a girl
lol
>>27967784
It's much too easy. I hate myself so much but I don't know if that's really me of if that me inadvertatly cursing me instead of the situation. Luckily my ma brought a 12 pack home so I can keep drinking. Maybe I can forget it all by the end of the night again..
>>27967835
Part of what makes me apprehensive is how badly I botched it the last time I attempted it. This was freshman year of high school, so about 6 years ago:
>You want to be my girlfriend
>No, sorry
>Are you sure?
>Yes
>Okay
>Walk back to my friend who was watching it all unfold from a distance
I had spent 3 months prior talking to her and texting her leading up to this event. She later said that I reminded her of her cousin and I was just a friend. Two years later my friend fucked her in his truck.
>>27967779
So how are they testing you?
>>27967854
It doesn't help for long though, does it?
>>27968021
Oh man, thats pretty bad, but its only freshman year, not a big deal. You've learned from your mistakes.
>>27968056
It actually brings clarity for the durition of my intoxication. I've made the best decisions of my life while intoxicated. It's just finding the courage to implement them the next sober morning/
>>27968120
I would ssay "always be drunk" but thats such a shitty idea
>>27968151
Hahah! That's what my sober self tells me but my drunk self says just do this and that and only drink or smoke occasionally so you can access my knowledge but my sober self just ssays fuck it and I get drunk and then my drunk self says "fuck you, you ignorant shit head" and then I fall into self loathing.
>>27968221
:(
Its hard man, its hard. Breaking habits, that is. Also stopping self loathing
>>27968254
I sould switch back to weed. Atleast with weed I was happy and could do stuff normally while high. Right now if I tried to stand I'd nearly tip over and I'm not much happier just more realistic.
I'f I was still in Missouri I'd buy you a beer and we could drunkenly giggle until the sun comes up.
>>27964701
My girlfriend left me and it's all my fault. I might kill myself tonight.
>>27968313
Sounds good man. It would be nice
Anyways, I'm about to fall asleep, so i gotta go
Goodnight all!
>>27964749
fuck off skelly is one of the good ones
>>27968336
Oh man, what happened anon? Whys it come to this?
>>27968339
This soon? Oka, skelly. This next beer is for you. Maybe in the slighty distant future we can grab one together. I can't promise I'll have showed if I go back to living in me car however! Haaga, goodnight,
>>27968394
showered*Fuck me sideways...
>>27968394
Always welcome to use whatever shower i may have at the time! See ya later manill probably still check on the thread while im in bed
>>27968434
Am I really? I would be very greatful. I'm thinking about going back to homelessness real soon because my younger sister is treating me like trash and my mother keeps brings odd men around.How could I maybe let you know it's me if I wanna say hi if I do make my way south again?
>>27968516
Pretty much saying anything about boats would do it haha. No one here talks about them. Or we could exchange some sort of contact information.
It's pretty bad.Is IRC still a ghost town?
>>27968572
No one but me is ever in it unfortunately.
Cute anime girl I think i remember you
>>27968549Boatsit is. I'll see what my sober self can do in the meantime. I'll ttyl, you're a cool m80.
Here's some more seafairing stuff that gives me feels to the verge of tears: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDjOAsxeokw
Goodnight.
>>27968361
>been dating this qt fembot since high school. ?>She's fucked up and depressed, just like me. I loved her.
> We've had relationship problems in the past, but we've always come through because we needed each other.
>Last time we hung out, she was having one of her "episodes" where she gets super depressed and needs her space. I eventually took her home.
>Over the next few days, she suddenly stops replying to my texts. I keep texting her, and she eventually replies.
>She says that she can't continue this, it wasn't meant to be, and she doesn't trust me.
I don't know why she would suddenly do this. I miss her so fucking much. I want to talk to her, but I don't know if there's a point. She put her twitter on "protected" so I can't see what she posts. I don't know what to do. I love her so much.
>>27968700
That doesn't sound like your fault at all anon.
>>27968743
I don't know what I could have done to make her not trust me and leave me. I'm so scared. She's all I have. I don't know what to do.
I've been feeling strange. I was feeling good and hopeful earlier today, but I burst into tears only a little while later. I don't know what to make of it.
Missed you skelly.
Depression is worse than ever, damn can't find the motivation or will to put any effort into classes, and just stopped going altogether. There is some relief because I don't feel guilty a pilot not doing school shit anymore, and I don't have to start paying anything back for like 6 months. Of course, once I do start having to pay it back, I'll probably just kill myself because I can't afford it.
>>27968831
It's on her end not yours.
>>27968890
Mood swing type of day I suppose.
>>27968946
When did you start feeling so badly?
>>27968981
>Mood swing type of day I suppose.
I guess so. I'm just in a really weird state. I've been doing well recently, and it makes me feel worse than when I was failing.
>>27968981
So should I try talking to her, or should I wait and see what happens? She's too autistic to get a job and needs me to support her. Unless she found Chad, but she was never a shallow enough person to just leave me for another. Sorry, I'm just extremely frightened and lonely.
>>27968981
How long have I felt depressed? My whole life. Recently? Been a steady crescendo for several months now.
hey skelly. nothing to report but glad to see youre still around
