ITT:We vent about things that are bothering you or made you angry recently
Thats alot cebruzposting in one pic
>grades are dropping like flies
>finals are closing in, probably not going to pass that either
>my cat's probably gonna kick the bucket soon
>realizing that i'm gonna die alone
>i am absolutely fucked
>my future is looking incredibly bleak
the only reason i haven't offed myself yet is that i'm too afraid of death
>>27943314
You just had to post Tomoko didn't you...now fuckheads like >>27943337 will derail the thread. Thanks alot, asshole. Now no one's going to vent.
>>27943396
you just vented about how much you hate people who derail threads so therefore you are following the rails of the thread
>>27943421
still a vent
I serve lunch at a middle school.
I'm stupid and I can't focus on anything and I'm scared and nervous about everything, so I dropped out of college, so I'm going to work at a fucking middle school for the rest of my fucking life.
I am going to spend the entire rest of my life getting bullied by middle schoolers.
I want to shoot myself in the fucking face, but OF COURSE, I'm too fucking pathetic to do that too.
Just fucking kill me, god, please kill me.
>Think I have "friend"
>Only ever played vidya with me even though all his real friends would do things like go to concerts, plays, museums, shit like that
>Gets a job in another state
>Claims he's just going on a 2 week trip with another friend
>Find out he actually moved
>Didn't even tell me, he lied to me, and didn't even say good bye
>Last phone call he had with me he didn't even sound emotonal or anything, had a "whatever" attitude
>Realize he was only hanging out with me to leech of off me to play vidya and laugh at me not with me
>Realize that I never had a friend, I've never had one, and once again I'm a 24 year old hhkv with no friends, life, future, gf, etc.
>Now I go to my local cinema and pretend to be going with another person
>Really just end up crying to myself once the film starts playing
>>27943460
why don't you kill yourself and a couple of the bully middle schoolers with you? or pop the kids then just surrender plea for insanity and get help?
>>27943485
I want to kill all but three of them.
Three of them are pretty okay.
But, like I said, I'm a scaredy cat piece of shit.
I like to think that maybe after a few years of this shit, I'll be so far gone, I'll be able to do it.
I almost made it and now I'm incredibly pissed
> start talking to a camera shy qt3.14
inb4 catfish, read on
> great personality, wonderful sense of humor
> divergent interests but nothing incompatible (like a crazy vegan)
> talk for a month, both still interested
> finally it's time to meet up
> doesn't want to trade pics, too shy...
> meet up and it's a 3/10 at best
> think seriously about just driving away
> fuck it man
> go in, have an okay time
> get tipsy, make out
> "wantsumfuk?"
> not sure I could stay interested during, if you know what I mean
here's where I fuck things up
> ask 3/10 if they would change minor physical detail that I cant work with (not anything big, like weight kek, think small like hair length)
> sjw activate
> no change, no compromise, take me as I ammmm
so yeah I'm pissed and drunk and never gonna make it
>>27943314
>graduating in a month with a degree in EE, average GPA
>have no work experience
>didn't join any nerd clubs that builds shit
>didn't talk to anyone
>went to 1 networking event and I was a nervous wreck the entire time and didn't get any business cards
Guys I am so fucked lol, I'm never going to get a decent job in electrical engineering. Best I'll get is a code monkey job if I'm even lucky.
Fucking fag enablers that run rampant on /r9k/ bug the fuck out of me
>why haven't you gone gay yet
>boipussy this and that
Never mind the fact that these degenerate wannabe women are even CRAZIER than the standard model, they have standards and demands too high for the average robot and they would literally cuck him over a weekend. Fuck traps, fuck trannies, fuck boipussy, and fuck everyone pushing this meme.
>>27943477
where do you live, we will be friends.
>>27943511
there is hope yet for you my man it could be possible if you went to a hospital and said you didn't feel safe around other people they might be able to help you but i don't know how the mental health institutions are in your country so for all i know they could just throw you in jail
>>27943577
Burgerland.
They're most likely to just say "go home."
>>27943314
I recently started talking to people and trying to make friends but everyone would much rather text than talk to me in any meaningful sense.
I think I will kill myself soon.
>>27943613
that honestly sucks i think America needs a complete turn around on the mental health system
im sorry man i hope things will get better
I have never had a friend. Everyone I know has me pegged as a school shooter type or a creep. I guess I'll just sit quietly and do my work and try not to be noticed. I can only fantasize about having a girlfriend or friends.
Oh well. Back to watching anime. At least 2d girls won't ever make fun of me or be disgusted by me.
I'm 49. I've never held hands. I am a virgin.
Is this it?
>>27943396
See>>27943421
Im Ontopicc!!!
>>27943650
>America needs a complete turn around on the mental health system
hit the nail on the head, senpai
thank you
>>27943691
>Born 1967
Wow. How has the world changed?
When did you discover anime?
What was the closest thing to 2d girls before?
>>27943691
>At least 2d girls won't ever make fun of me or be disgusted by me.
Believe me, they would if they could
>>27943874
No they wouldn't because their personalities and thoughts are dictated by the creators' desires.
I really want to be a kind of intellectual person but I'm just not very smart.
I love archaeology and history, and I'm doing a degree in both, but all of it makes me feel so stupid. I wish I could be one of those cool people who discuss interesting things and are admired for their expertise and stuff, but just the idea of being something like that seems impossible to me. Those kinds of people are really good at reading, writing, analyzing information, coming up with new ideas, explaining what causes things, and that kind of stuff. All I can really do is think a lot about stuff I like without really doing anything. I'm slow, I can't talk normally, I'm a bad reader (slow and stuff doesn't stick in my mind), I'm uncreative and unoriginal, I'm bad at writing, I can't concentrate, I can't do anything on my own, and I'm basically a failure as a person in general. I can do okay on a test, but doing anything practical just seems beyond me.
It's no good. I can't imagine ever being anything other than mediocre.
>>27943949
There is at least one creator who will be disgusted by you, sorry but you just proofed it yourself.
>>27943978
>I can't concentrate
Thats easy to fix, take adhd meds/ritalin
I can't stop getting boners, I fucking hate it and fantasize about cutting the fucker off. I hate being horny. I can't take it. Every fucking time I ride the bus or go to the shops or talk to another person for a few seconds I have to constantly try to suppress that piece of shit mother fucker. Erectile dysfunction sounds so wonderful to me.
>>27943978
What periods/regions are you interested in?
>>27943574
To be honest, a masochistic part of me enjoys having no friends.
>>27943691
This can't be real.
But really mister, you shouldn't care. When you're old nobody gives a fuck about what you do/wear/say.
How old do you look, mister? There are people who are 40 something and look 60. If you look old just fuck with people and verbally berate them for your own amusement. If you're not going to get laid, you might as well pick on the people who do it without repercussions.
>>27944167
>This can't be real!
Roastys (ugh) and robots, I present to you a classic example of a normie.
>>27943691
you could always be that guy you see in pictures on the subway that looks like he saw jfk get shot but is wearing neko ears and tail with an oreimo shirt on just roasting the shit out of the obnoxious niggers on the subway
>>27944099
Pre-modern civilizations in general, no specific region. Anything from ancient Egypt to 15th century Java is interesting to me, though prehistory and modern history can be pretty interesting too.
>tfw you'll never have two college cuties play with your giant cock
Hard to get over having a low average size dick (15 cm x 10 cm around)(5.9x4)
Today we had a friend of my mother over. She got wasted with, like, 2 mojitos.
So my mother calls a friend to drive her home in her car. Now everything was so annoying, but the worst part was the lack of sensibility in all this. My mother's friend arrives and my mother stands up and says "welp, time for you to leave". Her friend comes in, says hi, and then "let's go".
Then they try to shove her into her car while of course she doesn't like the idea AT ALL. She's shoved into her car with a random stranger (a guy) without her consent?
And they didn't allow for a moment of silence, they were all talking the whole time, never did I get a chance to try and calm her down or something, they were so anxious to get the fuck rid of her.
Agh
>>27944253
if archeology and history truly is your passion then just go for it. embrace loving it, go to an archeological dig in Egypt or somthing. You don't have to be the best at what you do their is nothing wrong in being "mediocre" just do what you love and I'm sure happines will come to you. Also if you feel depressed or feel like your worthless you should find someone to talk to, a therapist, a role model, even just a kind hearted anon on here who is willing to talk to you and guide you out of this hole you have found yourself stuck in. You fell in this hole of sepf loathing on your own but that doesn't mean you have to climb out alone.
>>27943541
Work in IT. Network Admin. Systems Analyst. You'll be over qualified in a sense, but you'll have a deep understanding of WHY things work, not just how. Get a few certs completed and you'll easily make a 70k a year living.
>>27944304
>Implying you would get the girls for that
>>27944375
>Giving a /pol/ subhumans tips
get out
>>27944304
that guy having a big dick is only a plus for those girls they had no way of knowing his dick size when they met he just is an awesome guy to be around
I have a gf of a year and a half and I'm leaving for the navy in 9 days and shes dead set on a future with me and wants me to write her a goodbye letter and to write once I get to bootcamp and I don't want too and am mad about it
>>27944234
>unironic use of normie
>use of lengthy sentence instead of "norman detected this comment is original"
fuck off reddit cunt
>>27944363
I am going for it, but the problem is I'm sure I'll be worse than mediocre.
Thanks though.
>>27944421
do you love her anon? I don't think it'll be that much trouble writing her letters occasionally.
>>27944421
>Going to any kind of army
Hello subhuman who dont deserve to life, hope you die while your gf fucks someone else. That cheating part will happen even if you dont die
Woman hate threads infuriate me. People whining about false rape accusations, muhffirmative action, muh 50% of assets... women are pussies. If you're a man you'll keep women in line. If you're married, you own your wife - that's what the fucking word means - and you had ought to train them well. If the bitch thinks she can extort you in a divorce, obviously you have failed as a master and are reaping the consequences of your cowardice.
If a woman thinks she can get away with a false rape claim, when the enforcers of the law are mostly men who know how damn often women lie, first of all you're probably a dindu or you act like one which means you get what's coming to you. Secondly, if she's not aware of the consequences for her should that claim fail, you're a spineless bitch, and of course people walk all over you when you don't present any credible threat of retaliation.
I'm not a Chad, I'm a KV, I just happen to have interacted with the other gender at any point during my life and see how readily they take the lead of an assertive person. I have no sympathy for demonstrated idiots who probably brought their own misery on themselves by believing inane myths about how women act / should be treated. And it makes me really question what kind of "people" populate this board given how much sympathy is provided.
>>27944455
Hello false flagging leddite. KYS.
>>27943337
It's fucking incredible how this one avatarfag managed to ruin Tomoko for everyone.
>>27943380
If you take the attitude of "I'm not gonna pass" you'll end up thinking thoughts like, "what's the use in studying, I'll never pass anyway".
The only way out of this for you anon, is to charge straight ahead into study. Just get it done now or you'll regret it.
I'm angry at myself because I can't get out of this rut and I keep hurting myself every night. I have what's most likely permanent scars thanks to being an emo faggot.
I just want to stop obsessing over this shit
>>27944690
You're basically saying to be happy you have to learn to play the game and be content with its absurdity as long as you can find happiness in it. I understand that line of thought, but that doesn't prevent me from feeling sympathy with those apathetic to the rules themselves. Many robots find it disheartening that women typically view honesty, integrity, hard work, and contribution to society as all less important qualities in a mate than HEIGHT. Clearly to successfully navigate life one has to accept things as they are, but they can still be disdainful of it all.
>One of the new trainees at work openly flirts with me from day one
>Manager, even another trainee notices
>Decide to start taking better care of myself by working out, getting more sleep, hygiene, etc
>Find out yesterday that she probably has a boyfriend and one of the other workers thinks that she's crushing on said manager
At this point I don't even know if she is interested in me or was just being nice the whole time. After twenty years of having every girl either get blocked by someone or already be dating someone, I was hoping that if I acted on this one I'd finally break my streak. I've been so depressed all day that I couldn't even get up the energy to fap while my friend had four girls talking to him and had to fight to get some time for vidya. I work with her tomorrow and several more days this week and don't know what to do about it.
I'm meeting my sister for the first time ever in a week and I'm terrified
>>27944901
Your struggle is all for nought, you post here and thus acknowledge your inherent worthlessness. A girl was civil to you, she doesn't want you.
>>27944405
Reddit subhumans were never welcomed here faggot.
>>27945495
>Implying Justin isnt based as fuck
Hello 16y old edgy newfag who felt for the /pol/ trolls
>>27944405
>>27945528
What are you talking about? I gave the guy good advice.
>>27945528
Liberal arts student detected. Trudeau manipulated you to gain power.
>>27945528
Wipe the cum out of your eyes you eternally butthurt libshit. I don't even go on /pol/, but continue to cry crocodile tears and making ridiculous assumptions over a fucking image.
>>27945601
>>27945652
>Underage edgy /pol/cucks who have no clue about real politic are this easy to trigger
My sides
>>27945528
>Justin
>Based
Jesus Christ you're pathetic.
neighbors dog that wakes me up at like 9 am every fucking day, when i got insomnia and struggle to sleep by 6 AM and need to take pills to help me sleep
>>27945668
The only one that's triggered is you friendo
>>27944405
>>27945698
>/pol/ is the reddit of 4chan
>Just tell not to support cancer
>HURDUR YOU WAS TRIGGERED FIRST >:
>>27945762
I posted my situation, someone gave me advice, and you brought politics into this out of nowhere.
Like holy shit dude, I don't know what a /pol/tard did to rustle your jimmies but not everyone you see goes there or even agrees with them.
>>27945668
Congrats on taking sociology 101. The fact that you're an sjw shows you're incapable of critical thought.
>>27945844
>>27945865
>/pol/cucks already hardcore triggered so they just start to call me sjw and rustled
There is a reason why this whole site makes fun of you cucks
>>27944747
Audily chuckled.
>Nihon-moot desires originality.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vK53IQyXEjc
>>27943380
Thanks annon, I realized I need to study for a chem test!
>>27945528
I bet you aren't even Canadian
>>27943314
Not really angry, just lonely, but my sort of gf hasn't talked to me in like 3 weeks and I have basically 0 other people to talk to so it's making me super lonely.
>>27943314
>having to hang out with parents' friends for first time since leaving to Uni
>"So, how are the bitches?"
>>27943314
Honestly, the one and only penis size. It's just one thing, but makes me undervalue myself as a man, overvalue women, and jealous of other people. I'm not shy, i'm just quiet.
>>27945882
Tell me, where do you see me spewing any political opinions?
>>27943541
>work in supermarket
>working on registers today
>see customers buying trashy magazines like womens day and tv weekly
nothing fills me with rage more during work than seeing these people take an interest in these pathetic magazines.
>>27946009
Your unfunny forced meme that only underage kids use told me everything
>>27945999
Plus, i'm getting close to the end of college, responsibilities and people's expectations are getting closer, and i'm not ready at all for that shit
>>27945528
>>27944521
>>27944405
>>27944047
>>27943874
>>27943707
>>27943337
>>27943314
>>27946075
Thanks anons, didn't realize there was a new chapter of watamote out.
>>27946180
It is cebruz you newfag but no problem.
>>27946075
What a world we live in, where posting a stupid maymay is reason to make rash generalizations about one's political stance.
I posted the image because I thought it was an accurate representation of my current struggle to find a job. But instead I caused an anime poster to have a meltdown thinking that, god forbid, someone may browse a particular board on 4chan aside from /r9k/.
>>27944304
>>27945999
you and me bro
I called in sick despite having documentation that I couldn't come in and my bosses were too pissed to answer me back. I really skip like once every month, but idgaf. I think they're going to lecture me when I get back, but fuck them, it's not like I had a cold.
>>27945528
why exactly do you say he is based?
>>27944458
Dude my passion is history and archaeology too. If you can, go on a dig, it is seriously so fun. I know this sounds like shit, but try and enjoy learning about, rather then being good at it.
>>27946307
Nope because i'm not even participating in the competition, so i'm not losing.
>have OCD
>my family knows this
>brother provokes me, then tells me to grow up when I get angry
>parents don't give a fuck despite paying expensive psychologist's bills every month
Fuck the NEET life, I am getting out of here as soon as I can.
>get new gf
>She's super clingy
>find our she's a virgin
>find out she's never had a bf before
>She's never had a bf to show affection with before so she's starved of it and can't hold back
>constantly texting me about how much she likes me and how great she thinks I am
>wants to hang out every single day and gets sad when I don't want
>won't stop hugging and kissing me when we do hang out
FUCK OFF YOU BITCH
>>27948819
>guys I posted it again
>haha xD :^)))
>>27948819
have you fugged? you could do anything to her, while you're balls deep choke the shit out of her till she's blue in the face trying to move your hand away
also pics
>chat with girl for a few weeks
>arrange to meet irl
>at the last minute she flakes out and disappears
>>27948861
We haven't fugged she won't even touch my peeps.
Also she's fat but pretty but really fat and also tall
>life is starting to stagnate
>living as a neet at my brother's house watching anime everday, often with a friend who comes over since we are both watching currently airing shows
>have downloads plenty of books on things such as programming or systems administration
>can never really bring myself to read them
>video games stopped being fun a long time ago
>feel like I should be doing something besides anime and sleeping
>starting to put on weight
>sometimes think about going back to my parent's house where it's more acceptable to be a leech than it is at my brother's house
>I store a lot of anime that won't fit on my computer anymore on a file server here
>always watch anime on the big tv here
>meet up with friends here
>nicer toilet, toilet paper, paper towels, I'm allowed to adjust the thermostat, etc.
>my not-so-great life would probably get even worse if I went back
I feel like the solution is to stop being a NEET and start paying for my own food and things while I'm here at the very least, but I don't want a shit job and I'm having trouble motivating myself to learn skills related to what I'm interested in. I want a tech job, but I don't want to have to use Windows ever again. I feel like programming would open up a lot of things for me if I could do it.
>>27948869
might have been some old man masquerading as a grill, he probably jerked off to some of the convos you had
>>27948878
I don't even know what to tell you or where to start man...tell that bitch to suck your dick after a nice date, if she doesn't, drop her
>>27943644
>but everyone would much rather text than talk to me in any meaningful sense.
what's wrong with this? I have always preferred to text or IM or whatnot people instead of talking in person or with voice chat if that's what you mean.
>>27943691
you're my parent's age.. god that sucks man
>>27944074
I don't have it that bad but I sometimes think about that too. I remember it would be a probably on the busride home or in class in high school and I'd try to mentally talk myself down from the boner when it was almost time for me to have to get up. Really awkward and bothersome. I looked up tips once.
I heard that flexing your legs can help, also thinking of something complex (and non-sexual), I think the idea for both was to make blood rush to a different area from your penis.
>>27948819
I went through that in middle school with one or two girls. Lost my virginity and basically lost interest in women after that. Just break up with her if you don't want to be with her.
> dont talk to my family enough, even though theres so much love
pondering for a minute on what else is wrong with my life...
> house im living in isnt very clean, my room is a bit messy as a result, housemates wont keep things clean
> i dont have my farm yet
on a less personal note...
> humanity hasnt reached the potential that it deserves.
> hate not concentrated so densely as our planet for hundreds of light years
I left somethings out but this sums it up.
My best friend hasn't gone out with me in like 4 months. Says she's always busy or not in the mood.Now her holidays have started, says she'll "consider my offer of going out". She did link me to a ghibli movie marathon next month she wants to go to but I feel like I'm being taken for granted.
The only hope for companionship I hold are some drunken club sluts or desperate fags but don't want that. It's disgusting. I just want to be cared for or appreciated and I try so hard to give this to others but they just abandon me or spit it back at me.
Grades are getting worse, even in those subjects that you dont need to study for. Failing 4/5 courses even with all the work I do.
Counting calories is a pain in the ass and I don't feel like I'm getting stronger or slimmer doing muay thai twice a week. Recntly upped my training to 5 days a week so maybe that will work to make me look like one of the pretty boys in the magazines and not some skinnyfat cunt.
Probably gonna end up like >>27943541 or drop out again.
>>27943314
>dad has a new wife
>gets child with her
>child needs to be born early
>a hole in his heart
>bitch asks money to take care of the child
>find out she is using it to buy shoes and shit
>want to help the child get through this and take care of it
>can't because law tells us to keep it with the mother till 11 or 12 years old
>while the mother is a fucking chronologic liar and a suicidal whore.
why are the laws of germany so stupid.
>32 yo neet
>terrible sleeping patterns
>cant get up in the mornings
>no career
>no skills
>no savings
>no gf
>schizophrenic
>have to take anti psychotic meds
Just kill me
>>27948819
You try to hard, refine your technique m80
>>27948912
What does your brother think of you
>working nights has made me lose all motivation to do anything.
>job pays just about enough for rent
>Cant move out because need more than rent
>Cant get another job because exhausted after working all night
>No Motivation, no energy and no money
What the fuck do I even do to get out of this cycle?
>>27949316
>chronologic liar
KekSeriously though, fuck all women.
>>27943460
Get fit and enlist in the military.
>>27949316
Sei ein Ehrenmann und schlag sie tot
>>27951636
I'm 100% serious, try testosterone supplements.
>Father is a alcoholic who is also a prescription drug addict
>He's not a piece of shit, just a damaged person, when he's sober he's a good dad
>He just had a 6 month relapse on booze and hasn't drank in about 2 months now
>He used to spend a lot of his time at his brothers flat doing prescription drugs like morphine
>This stopped when his brother started showing signs of what we thought was schizophrenia, (paranoid delusions etc.)
>turns out he apparently just had a psychotic episode and it can 'happen to anyone'
>life was honestly better with him out of the picture, my dad has been 100% sober for over a month when they weren't in contact, albeit he was going through intense clinical depression
>I would spend a lot of my time trying to get my dad to do things and to generally keep him company and make him feel better
>My mother went on holiday the other day and won't be back till Wednesday
>My dad went to his brothers house on Sunday, without telling me beforehand
>Came back, obviously on something and saying his brother was all better
>This is just the start, he hadn't drank in 6 years and then got back in contact with his brother when his brother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and that's when he started having some of my uncles drugs, and we all think this is what broke his sobriety and what eventually lead to him falling off the wagon and drinking again
>my dad is such a damaged person and is so weak willed when it comes to addictive substances
>won't hesitate to lie and manipulate to cover his ass
I've literally been doing my best to pull him out of his depression, all I want is for him to be genuinely happy and to have a life. Not just for him but so I can also stop worrying and get on with mine. I'm very close with my dad and always have been and it's awful seeing him at these low points.
I'm pissed at him because I've been trying to help him and then he repays me by going behind my back and doing drugs and lying to my face about it.
>>27951856
Also, his brother is a piece of shit. He's always been a bad person and even his own daughter hates him. He is effectively an old NEET. He doesn't work and just does nothing but take copious amounts of morphine all day and watch conspiracy videos and smoke like a chimney.
I'm convinced he is responsible for my dads downfall. He has brought my dad to his level. I wouldn't mind if he died, like if his cancer killed him. If it meant my dad would be sober for the rest of his life, I would like my uncle to die. He's nothing but trouble, I feel no sympathy for his cancer
>>27943314
People saying my waifu is a shit
>>27943691
Praise be, O Grand Wizard!
>>27943460
Make them pay
I can't talk to anyone. I'm just anxious and boring every time. I can't talk with voice at all so I just type but even through that medium I repulse people. I have dreams of hitting the road and adventure and friendship and togetherness but I'm not even capable of settling for an internet friend to exchange messages with because I keep fucking up at making any.
>>27948912
>I feel like programming would open up a lot of things for me if I could do it.
I taught myself to code and now I'm making six figures in beautiful San Francisco. Life is great. You can do it too - coding isn't hard once you get started, you just have to be able to bear it for the first few months when everything seems impossible. Learn front-end Javascript, seeing things come to life in the browser made it much easier for me, and now I can do boring database stuff as good as most back-end engineers.
mom fed my dog a bunch of raisins and now hes dead
killing myself tonight, bye guys
I'm lazy as fuck when it comes to studies and want to shoot myself for this.
>>27943314
>worked all last week
>excited to get my day off today
>boss changed the schedule and now I have to work the next few days
>>27943314
>put others before me
>always helping people
>no one ever aknowledges me
>when they do i must be "up to something"
Im just trying to be good.
>girl asked me first thing in a class if I could help her study for it
>gave me her number so she could ask when she needs help
>helped her a few weeks ago and she seemed to be interested in me if not romantically, as friends
>leg up against me, face really close, always pointed towards me
>drives me to my car smiling/laughing at jokes
>I take the initiative and ask her if we can work on something together in a public space
>only responds the next day just because I would see her in class
>acts like she might
>I know she won't
>I've asked another girl who acted the same to hang out before
>she feigns interest in going with me but doesn't
Is this how it works? Just get rejected by everyone until I find someone who is as desperate as me? I thought I finally understood signals but apparently not. Why can't people just be forward, why do I have to sift through fakers and teases to find someone?
