hey robots
i dont come here very often but let me ask something
>been with gf for over 4yrs
>she has a mental disorder that disables her from vag sex
>rarely about once every 1,5 months or more we do anal
>once a week we masturbate each other
>i grew up with my grandparents
>paps died when i was like 10
>he was my best friend
>my parents we're drug addicts
>my mom kept on using til i was like 17
>i have two half brothers
>my girl had depression two yrs ago
>i gave up on my entire social life pretty much to help her for two years
>she now has more and more friends
>i feeling downer and downer
>moderate severe depression and severe panic disorder here
>i was today with my aunt and couldn't ask for help to pay for a mental doctor
>the shame was too much
wtf do i do now
>>27934834
>>she has a mental disorder that disables her from vag sex
you can't say that weird ass shit and not elaborate
>>27934936
look up vaginismus. she also had depression. i gave up on other girls and friends to help her but now when my brian is failing me she doesnt give a fuck. she says she cares but she doesnt do shit
anons help me ive been self medicanting with calming drugs so i can function without panic attacks but depression still hits hard. just give me a light please
please i dont want to kill myself what do i do
>>27934834
>been with gf for over 4yrs
then why are you here?
>>27936104
>""""""""gf""""""""
if you read my post you know why it doesnt count as a real gf
Learn how to be selfish for once. It's clearly not a healthy state to be in. Maybe you shuld meet up with your old friends againt. I fou can't break up with her then at least start careing less about her.
>>27936236
I completly lost trust on my friends... One of them start hitting on my girl by PM and lead him on (got in her fb) and turns out he was trying to cuck me, I knew he was shady she told he was weird. And the others kept hanging out with him so I stopped hanging out with them.
Should I go to a doctor or is there hope for me? I can only semi function with drugs now....
>>27935697
What have you been taking mein freund?
>>27936358
What I can get my hands on legally, a natural plant called valerian root extract pills. I take about 625mg twice a day. It's nothing but it really help stopping the heart race and hyperventilation
>>27936451
Why don't you see a doctor?
>>27935000
people are selfish and disappointing sometimes. i really hope things get better for you, but honestly, a lot of people just can never treat you the way you treated them.
>>27936344
Stop taking drugs find a hobby instead that is rewarding and makes you feel good about yourself. Boldly said: find something that can help you compensate for your faliures. Working out for example did wonders to me. Picking up a new hobby will probably help you start socializing again, that I still think you should do. If you feel like its neccesary seek professional help, If its that serious then at this point you are just avoiding treatment. And I really have no right to say that but seriously you shuld dump her. Are you gonna spend your life with someone ho drags you down, you will never be abled to start a family with or get any kind of fullfilment in life?
>>27936535
shame really
>>27936543
i have child trauma with that, my parent emotionally maniputaled me to get drugs when i was 5/6 and never treated me well back
>>27936604
yes i want to break up with her but
>i am afraid of the depression after the breakup (might killmyself)
>afraid of not finding anyone else
>huuuuuuuuuuuge sacrifices and investment over the span of 4 yrs
i want a girl to start a family i dont know she wants a family too but shes getting more and more career focused we barely have time for each other
>>27935697
Go see a fucking physician and therapist, for Christ's sake.
>>27936697
>i want a girl to start a family
I thought you couldn't into vagina
>>27936741
I don't want to get ripped off and I am ashamed.
How many sessions will I need to get better? I dont have much money, I have to ask for it from my aunt (still in uni)
>>27936826
its treatable. 6 months ago i started to be able to put 2 fingers in her when before i never could. i have a huge cock so we need to put at least 4 fingers in
>>27936922
You're not going to get ripped off. Your university should provide it at no cost.
>>27936955
I am ashamed really to go get help in my uni. There's secrecy after, but the fact I made an appoitment is public. How many sessions does it take to ""cure"" moderate severe depression and moderate panic disorder? just give me a pointer
>>27937097
I can't give a number. I think somewhere around 75% of clients are recorded as seeing improvements after 6 months.
>>27937217
Thank you, how many appointments per month?
>>27937232
For a university, I'd imagine it being 2 per month,
>>27937284
Thank you so so much. Do you have training or are you a faggot on a Bulgarian Orange growing collective book?
>>27937348
No, I'm only in nursing school. I have a lot of experience with therapists though.
You can do it man, believe in yourself, better times will come for sure even if you don't think so. Think about the good things you have, be always optimistic
>>27936922
>huge cock
>depressed
dude start apprechiating the things you have :^)
>>27938084
its crooked as fuck tho.
>>27938153
I believe in you and your crooked cock, anon. I'm in a similar situation to you, the doc prescribed me beta blockers and I feel much better. Try watching some ebin films to calm you down
>>27938190
>Try watching some ebin films to calm you down
I already do this it helps focusing on other things. isn't that shit addictive or something? the beta blockers? if you get off the meds you go crazy right?
>>27938229
You might be thinking of benzos (xanax, valium, etc). Beta blockers just chill you out by stopping adrenaline reaching your heart I think. I'm still fucking insane, but I don't feel like I'm going to have a heart attack all the time
Have you seen 2001?
>>27938300
>Have you seen 2001?
yea why?
>>27938330
It's a good film senpai, puts my anxiety in perspective
>>27938341
I relate more to Eva
>in perspective
like your life is meaningless and small?
>>27938398
Eva?
Yeah, my life is nothing compared to space babies. Comforting feel
>>27938494
>Comforting feel
not to me. the fact that im meaningless causes me a lot of stress really.
yes eva as in evangelion as in neon genesis evangelion that greatest anime of all time
>>27938576
Is it as GOAT as kubrick?
>>27938649
I would say its better than 2001 without a doubt
Dated a girl with vaginism for like 7 months. It's no joke. Bitch even lied to me that something terrible happened to her (ie hinted that she got raped) and of course it seemed super believable because she totally froze when I tried to finger her. Of course I was terrified and worried a lot about her. Only much later she admitted to have fabricated that story and told me about her vaginism.
>>27938777
why did you and her break up? vaginismus is the worst
>>27934834
ANByonE got the source of this SICK webm
Sounds like she sucked the life out you, OP.
>>27938805
Because she came also with a whole set of issues and anxieties. I guess the vaginism was just a symptom.
She definitely had social anxiety. We actually got into a fight over this which led to us breaking up, cause I wanted to see some friends and also her so I thought I could just bring her along.
In the end there were tons of signals that she was in a bad place mentally. I remember one time when we were naked and fooling around I told her that she was beautiful in an honest way because that was what I was thinking in that moment. She actually was very beautiful 8/10. She got angry and said that I don't have to flatter her and to cut the crap. I guess she couldn't believe me because she saw herself in a different way.
She gave very good blowjobs but god I felt like shit afterwards because everytime after I finished she immediately got up and went to the bathroom for 15 minutes. Made me feel lonely as fuck. One time she let the cum drip on my belly and then got up and left without giving me a tissue. I was lying there unable to move without getting it all on her sheets.
Also was concerned what she's doing in the bathroom for so long...crying? Then came back as if nothing happened. Of course I tried talking to her about it, but she blocked always
>>27939008
sounds like my girl in the beginning. she was just cleaning up her wet vag anon, trust me. she was very sexually self consious like your girl. in her infancy they prolly told her that sex was bad etc.
I help all those issues that you metioned with my girl curing them all except for vaginismus (she way better now anyway) and now she doesnt give a fuck about me. girls are truly selfish kids
>>27939002
I know she did, I'm a fucking shell now
>>27939086
why don't you dump her? you don't need people who don't give a crap about you. Relationships are about reciprocating.
>>27939243
basically i have a lot of emotional & time investment and am afraid of throwing that away
>>27939271
on the other hand you've been already throwing away 4 years of being with someone decent that you could've had
>>27939458
i wish i could turn back time
>>27939500
Me too. It's way too late. Should have gone to bed 3 hours ago. I wish you all the best anon. Respect yourself and you'll make it.
>>27939658
Shouldve gone to bed too anon. I wish you the same
>>27934834
The same thing you do everyday anon you glorious faggot
