Who was your biggest love /r9k/? And how/why did you loose her?
If interested ill post my story
I married her.
>>27929690
Yeah go on then anon, I'm listening
>>27929690
A girl in senior year of high school. Never was with her so couldn't lose her.
Tell your story
>>27929690
i can't love people, i only do have crushes sometimes
>girl friend when I was 8
>she moved away
>tfw haven't had any friends since then
>tfw found her on facebook but didn't contact her thinking it would be creepy as hell contacting her almost 20 years later
>>27930097
well, you got nothing to lose anyway,probably she will just ignore your request
She's gay..
Fucked from the start.
>>27930078
Same only it was junior year
>never loved anyone
>never been loved
>dead inside
kill me
It was a girl from my class in high school. I adored her throughout every year and suffered a lot for not being with her. The thing is, I never wanted a shallow relationship with her. I wanted to have something serious with her. I really got attached to her and it started eating me on the inside.
>>27930175
you are the perfect robot. Become a politician or something and stop underestimating your gift. Because this lack of human weakness makes you powerful.
I was Mormon and in love with with a woman a year older than me. I suspect she was also, but the year difference meant she was done with school and settled in her career while I still had a year of college left. Since Mormonism has no sexual component to dating, we couldn't have a physical relationship to tide us over until our situations matched better for something more serious. We both went with other options more closely aligned with where we were in our lives. I eventually left the Mormon church and all religion, and have always held part of my resentment for my time in the church because of this lost love.
I dumped her because she smoked weed
>>27930269
dude weed lmao what a faggot weed is awesome lmao dude have you even tried it yourself lmao weed is life 420 blaze it lmao
>>27930289
I smoke multiple times a week
>>27930289
t. average stoner
>>27930052
Thanks anon op here
>girl called sophie
>met when i was 14 she was 13
>she had just lost her mum and her dad had run off
>pretty damaged girl but i ended up helping her through that and getting passed around family
>we ended up dating, flirting etc when we were 15
>she was raped by another lad when she was 16 i helped her get counselling and had her cry on me so many nights helping her get through her hurt
>i out my all into helping her and loved her for years
>one week i end up going to Berlin when i was 17 it was great
>send her a text saying id be gone for a few days replies with "okay i love you lots"
>send her a few texts over the days asking her how she is. No reply
>message her that im back, still no reply
>figure shes been busy with worl and school etc...
>weeks pass without contact
>get a message from her uncle asking if i was the one who had been helping her
>say yes
>tells me she went off the rails, took drugs, stole shit from shops and smashed people up
>tells me she whored herself out to 50+ lads and sent porn of herself to them
>>27930777
2/2
>this shit put me in shock
>work with her auntie and uncle to get her back on track
>she goes missing for a few days and turns out she went for sex with randomers
>help her more
>goes on for weeks
>get text from her auntie one morning "anon thankyou for helping sophie, but we dont need your help anymore we will make sure she doesnt leave the house again"
>my shock turns into depression
>weeks of what seemed like torture went by, finally get a email from sophie asking how i was etc
>months of this secret messaging goes on and she finally gets a phone again and texts me
>"hiya anon youve been a good friend and have made me the person i am today, but desu youve served your purpose and theres nothing else i can take from you. You helped me through a lot, you even bought me clothes and even helped me understand how to look after myself but i dont feel like i owe you anything, you have served your purpose, later."
I have never had such a streak of suicidal depression and hatred for women since
>>27930805
Thats one of my stories anyways anons
>>27930805
woah senpai, that's pretty heavy
>theres nothing else i can take from you
think about the stuff you took from her, like caring for somebody, being a good friends, etc... You can always find a bright side of the thing
>>27930921
not only that anon i helped her through rape, self harm, theft, sexual addiction and taught her to look after herself, fuck i even showed her how to cook, wash and eat, even how bra sized worked i even bought her out of my own pocket money her first set of bras and shit because she was only 12 when she lost her mum and her dad ran off she diddnt know how to do any of that shit.
I cant explain how i felt anon i really cant
>>27930971
>I cant explain how i felt anon i really cant
i wouldn't understand it anyway anon, just analyze what happened and move on with your life, but with all the stuff she "gave" youalso, considering your story, i wouldn't be surprised if she change her mind in some years/monthes
>>27931033
I certainly hope so, im in a lot better of a place now but theres always that piece of me that wants her back in my life, i hope she does one day anon.
well thinking about it my heart may want her back into my life but i know full well she was a toxic influence that i would be better off without
>>27930127
I feel you anon
>be in year 9 in high school
>girl in my class called helen
>start to become friends with her and over the christmas holidays she literally sprouts tits out of nowhere, goes from a 34 A to a 34 D, comes out of literally buttfuck nowhere
>suddenly gets an ass too, end up becoming super close friends with her
>go over to hers most days for 'homework' and shit
>end up watching her undress and try on bras
>this goes on for a year or so
>we dont speak much over the last 6 months due to exams and shit
>she texts me and asks me to meet up again because she missed me
>get to her house
>hey anon i have some fantastic news, this is my girlfriend Daniella
>MFW
>>27929690
>hanging out a lot with girl i like
>we really like each other
>haven't seen her in few days
>hey anon this is chad, my new boyfriend
>mfw
>>27930175
same, but right now im in a content mood about it.
>>27930094
care to explain why you cant love people? i just want to know if we have the same issue
>>27930097
I did something similair. Go for it famili it is flattering. Imagine if someone did it to you
>>27933149
i spoke with at least 2 other /aspie/s, and i finally came to the conclusion that it's becausewe all had a troublesome relationship with our fathers during our childhood/puberty
>>27933199
anon, fuck.
i've never met my father.
>>27933256
you are the 4th, congratulations, now you know the source of your troubles
>>27933199
HOLY SHIT! That explains a lot.
>>27929690
Picrelated.
I loved her for like 3+ years, and we were just close friends.
She was the only person that tried to help me bear my anxieties.
(There was a long story but to tl;dr - she used to be cool, helped me a lot and all that jazz, now we don't talk to each other and I still can't forget her).
I really wish I could at least hug her.
>>27933429
>blue hair
baka desu
>>27933476
Yeah I liked that color. She used to dye her hair pretty often
There were two girls I was close to and almost dated in HS, Karen and Katie. Both were incredibly cute and conservative Christian. I look at old pictures and its unreal how beautiful they were, of course women are peaking at ages 15-17. I "lost" them by just never taking a bold enough step, then later moved away and just didnt put the effort into keeping in contact with anyone. I think i could have married one of them. I regret moving away to a big city and not staying in that rural americana lifestyle and marrying one of those girls, even if they wouldve been extremely prudish and only had vanilla sex for the purpose of procreation. I did talk to both again later and they said they were waiting for me and could've seen themselves with me. Of course they are happily married now and forgot about me years ago, and I'm posting here alone.
>>27933199
>tfw father wasn't there for most of my childhood/adolescence because he was busy as fuck working
>this could possibly explain a lot
>now having close to the same issue as >>27930094
>>27933679
2 (You)s in one post, noice.
Also welcome to the club, you are the 6th
>>27930805
Fuck. If that's true she's heavy duty cluster B. Common in people with a fucked upbringing. You backed the wrong horse sorry fampai.
A cluster B girl ruined my life too. I have a domestic violence conviction and no friends.
>tfw still with the ho
Well, I've never had a love that reciprocated that love. However, there are several rejections that do stand out in my mind.
My most recent infatuation was roughly a decade ago. I was quite taken with the woman, however, I simply was not acceptable. This in itself would have been par for the course for me, and yet I kept in touch with her every so often.
She eventually found a boyfriend, as is natural and good, and got pregnant by him. One of the funny things about it is she was hesitant to tell me, fearing I would consider her some kind of slut. Why she would even begin to care about my assessment of her remains a mystery, but I suppose that, at least in some sense, the Other will always remain a mystery.
Her boyfriend became an obsessive stalker who she eventually had to have evicted. Homeless, he lived in shelters until he met his boyfriend. Yes, it turns out he was gay all along.
So this particular example was a unique and memorable one for me. No woman has ever considered me acceptable. However, this is the one time I can say I was rejected for a homeless man who willingly and gleefully accepts the erect penises of other men up his ass.
Sometimes you forget the truth of the revulsion you see in women's eyes when they look at you. It's examples like these that remind me to look more carefully, lest I miss it. After all, it's always there.
Bumping for more
stories
please
>>27933149
Well shit, add me to that list. Non existent relationship with father, 100% dead inside. Never felt genuine happiness or anything even approaching love, even in past relationships that have spanned years. Not trying to be edgy, it fucking sucks and I want to die.
