On a scale of 1 to 10, how depressed are you?
about 7 baby, if it's not better by 25, i'm bouncing.
>>27925726
7 here as well. I still can hide it from parents, so they dont get sad about how pointless my life is, that's 7 cause of it.
I guess when you don't even care to hide it, that's end.
>>27925714
8/10 all days, every day
because i feel lonely, not able to live in this society, don't like to live in this world, don't like to be a wageslave and do thing to be a good person for this sick society.
last night i've cried myself to sleep, because i felt lonley
It's been more manageable lately
swinging wildly between a 2 and 6 most days of the week
Was 8-9 back in december, then I somehow managed to reach 6-7 in march, but now I'm more like 7-8.
Being depressed is the most blue pilled shit.
I've not been below 5/10 in last 5 years. On good days I'm around 5-6, on bad ones I go to about 8.
I reached record breaking levels of depression 2 years back. I was a steady 9.3 back then. I forced myself into a form of taoist meditation. Since then, emotions sort of just roll off my soul. I still feel crippling depression, but Instead of it being debilitating and lingering. I can forget about it and focus on nothing at all. I wonder if I would want to shrug off happiness the same way
>>27926256
Phone text. My aplogies
>>27926256
What happens on 9-10? Do you just die emotionally there?
>>27925714
Probably between 7 and 8. My parents either haven't noticed or they simply just don't care. I usually cry or tear up when I'm trying to sleep because I think about how different it all could've been.
7
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5-6
>>27925726
you won't be
>>27926327
I don't think the human being is capable of reaching a 10. Some say that only during the moment of conception do human beings experience 10
>>27925714
Dunno. 5 or 6 I guess? I swing in and out because I'm no longer a wageslave, but holy shit was I in a bad way when I was 9-5 in an office. I'm just numb and on autopilot now because thinking of the future too much sends me into panic. The depression never truly leaves.
7.8 exactly
I wish I was a confident chad so I'd have the balls to off myself
7 and slowly slowly increasing
it's getting difficult
solid 5 right now.
I fluctuate anywhere from I'd say 1 to like 3 on average, with bad days being 4 or 5. I've never been to the point of suicidal, and I am 95% confident my depression could be cured by a change in environment.
before tonight 5/10
right now 10/10
I'm so fucking scared I've fucked up fatally. If shit hits the fan tomorrow which I suspect but hope it won't then I don't think I'll be around for the following sunrise. Currently thinking of how I'm going to cover up my death to my friends.
9.5. I'm to the point where I'm constantly daydreaming about suicide.
>>27925726
That's the only thing that gives me comfort anymore. If things aren't better by the time I graduate, I'm taking my life. Cheers me up.
>>27925714
8 most days. Sometimes it bounces up to a 9 or 10 and I would not be able to do shit.
I don't think I'm depressed. I mean, some days suck, but I think I need to talk to a therapist more than anything.
I have no problem, eating, sleeping, and there are definitely good days.
>>27925714
>On a scale of 1 to 10, how depressed are you?
9.9
I'd say 10, but it can always get worse.
>>27927266
Whats bothering you pal?
>>27929294
Are you on drugs? How long you are depressed?
10/10 i havent left my bed in 3 days
>>27925714
A 2 or 3
I'm not happy, either
Or really much of anything
>>27929354
No, my insurance doesn't cover mental health and I can't afford to pay out of pocket.
6 or so years now if I had to guess
6 ar the moment but i have been a 9 this past few weeks. For months i was a 9 but i have been trying to pull myself out of it
>>27929395
I hope you will get at least a relief though, anon.
>>27925714
Probably around a 6/10
Thats a pretty light rate considering I haven't left my room in three days and I've only slept once
I've cried twice in the past hour
>>27929370
At least you likely dont have to work which may make you even more suicidal.
>>27925714
about 9/10, i wake up and just lay in bed for hours on discord then get up just to go on my pc to do the same thing, then go back to sleep
8/10 but only cause I don't know how much worse this can get
I haven't left my house in 7 years and every day I just beat my self up over the fucking years I've wasted, it all went by so fast it feels like I entered a time machine, in my head it's still somewhere between 2009-2012
Suicide sure is appealing right now
>>27929573
>I haven't left my house in 7 years
Anon, I am sure that not many people here know that feel, if you want you should tell in details what you were doing those 7 years?
Varies between 3 and 6, with no middle ground.
I mostly manage to distract myself and ignore it, and even though I feel pretty happy right now it's just the booze. I secretly want to die because I don't think I can make it in this world.
> 1 and 10
1
>>27929674
Mindlessly browsing the internet, it's all I have the strength for
I wish I could tell you I did something productive with my time, but I didn't do shit
>>27929674
>i havent left my house
bullshit.
>>27929839
Why would I lie about that? We're on r9k
The fact that it's so unrealistic to you makes me want to kill myself that much more, time goes fucking fast when you're not doing anything, from my point of view 7 years is more like 1 or 2
It's because I have no memories of the past 7 years, cause every day was the exact same shit
