When I was six years old, I constantly fantasized about loving a girl (random girl) so much that I would eat her shit. I literally spent days as I imagined a girl going to the toilet shitting on a plate and me eating and enjoying that shit.
I am a cyborg now but I know deep down that I was too fucked up way early to have a normie life.
>>27925315
I have this weird death fetish that I had even when I was like 6.
I also used to manipulate my friends so I could perv out on them.
Nope, the "weirdest" thing I wanted to do was grabbing the big round butt of a kindergarten helper when I was 5.
Thinking back that was some good ass. I'm kinda regretting I never did it.
>>27925315
Was my 18 yr old sitters secret cumslave from when I was 5 for about four years. Nobody ever found out. I feel like everything people know me as is fake and nobody will ever really know me
>>27925315
I've had a bondage fetish for as long as I can remember and I couldn't make friends as a kid.
>>27925315
Where is your pic from?
>>27926868
what do you mean by cumslave
also story time
>>27925315
when i was little kid my parents used to leave me at my grandmas place, i remember her being pretty big and tall but also kinda nice, she turned to be a real bitch later on
anyways i believe i tried to grope her a few times, but got scared of doing it properly, also i got really pissed off when my father was groping or kissing my mom, i used to kick him in the butt when he did
also i remember my two sisters kissing me in the mouth a few times, later on i wanted to kiss them again but they didn't want to, i would have probably fucked them if they were willing
my family is really fucked up in so many ways, and now i am 26, almost a neet besides sometimes going to uni lectures, never had a gf or a job, only had sex once with a whore
>>27925315
Did you actually eat some girl's shit, or did you eat your own shit while imagining it was the girl's shit, or did you imagine the whole shit eating scenario?
Communicate more clearly
>>27925315
I don't think I even come close to your level.
I remember craving sex with a mature 30+ woman at a very young age though. There were quite a few living nearby with kids my age. When I would go trick or treating or otherwise be around their house I would fantasize about them asking me to stay and eat their pussy. Not put my penis in because I was afraid of that. Just eat their pussy, I would've done anything for them to let me eat them up. I was like 9-10 years old.
I also felt up and licked the breasts of my sleeping babysitter once.
i tried to have my younger sister sit on my cock when i was like 10
i'm a complete fuck up now and don't deserve any better, i just hope she doesn't remember or was scarred by that event
>started being ==really== sexual very young
>literally no empathy for other living things until it was beaten into me by familyafter they caught my 5-6-7 year old self repeatedly harassing animals
probably some other stuff too if I think hard about it, but I generally try not to
I had weird sexual fantasies and almost all of them included me being a pregnant woman, usually one who is used as a broodmother to raise large numbers of young.
I'm a man btw. And I don't have particularly feminine inclinations outside of this weird sexual quirk.
Boy oh boy where do I start!
>incredible sex urge at a very young age to the point where I considered raping girls
>cruelty towards animals and siblings
>retarded father that couldn't figure out that it wasn't my mother's fault for how she raised me, or that no amount of discipline would set me "straight"
>emotionally manipulated most of my friends
list goes on
>>27927174
Wow, are you me? This is spot on. I like to think I've moved past that point though
>>27927272
Weird question but did you ever hit your head hard as a child?
I did and I read this can lead to a loss of restraint leading to very erratic and reckless behavior.
>>27927116
That a trait for being a psychopath...
When I was 10 I used get turned on when kids in the movies got kidnapped by antagonists.
>>27925315
yep me too
my scenario was pretty elaborated. Every night I thought about being the slave of a girl, living in a dark hole underneath her bedroom and she would crap and pee in there and that's the only thing I'd get to eat and drink. I was about 9 or 10 years old.
Also had a giantess fetish before I even knew that's an actual thing. I thought about being the size of a lego figure and a normal sized, mean girl would trap me under her sweaty feet, put me in her butthole and all that stuff.
currently I'm a 26yo virgin.
>>27927444
Tell me something I don't know captain obvious!
I'm pretty level now though. Self imposed moral restrictions.
I go out of my way not to harm anything or anyone ever anymore.
Animals love me, I can get along with humans if I have to.
>>27927311
Holy shit, I remember hitting my head hard when I was a child as well. Later on I did some disgusting stuff due to lack of restraint that haunt me since then.
Could it be true? Share some links on it if you've got any.
>>27926905
it's a shop of "Heidi, Girl of the Alps", a 1974 anime by Isao Takahata
I don't know if this is a fucked up dream or a partially suppressed memory, but ...
> about 10 years old. Gay uncle and his husband take me out.
> go to this flat above a shop.
> blank memory.
> abused?
I can't socialise, have autistic traits and suffer from depression. I have a job but just turn up, do nothing and come home where I do nothing. I manipulate people (hence managing to get a job) and have no empathy. I have to keep reminding myself of Icarus so I don't carry on lies and scams for too long and get caught.
>>27927566
I have no evidence whatsoever. I just know I read or heard about it somewhere. Something about it causing a hormonal imbalance maybe. It's very vague in my mind. I might even be completely mistaken on the whole thing.
>majority of fantasy involved people having sympathy for or pitying me
>cried nearly every birthday because I hated getting older
>everyone always mentioned how I was such a well mannered, sensitive boy
>did things obsessively, reading books in one sitting which turned into autistic MMO grinding
I think what ended me on the day of my birth though was that my identical twin died out of the womb and I was born to abusive parents.
0 chance
>>27925315
when i was a kid i used to steal my sisters barbies and tie them up and have my action man rape them
yeah
I humped a girl when i was like 6
Being in a military family, I didn't stay in the same place long enough to develop many meaningful friendships. It permanently destroyed my ability to form relationships with people.
Even now that I'm in college, most of my classmates rotate out every school semester because I'm in a co-op program, and internships have me working for different companies every second semester. Also, there are no girls in my program or my workplaces. I never stay in one place or interact with the same group of people for more than a few months.
>>27927653
You're pretty much me only with different "reasons" for why I ended up the way I did. Makes me realize I should probably stop blaming others or life's circumstances for my failures.
As a child I always fantasized about killing people or some animals. I still remember completly the need I had to take a huge blade and cut a horse's stomach. I regret never doing it. I also drew a lot a things considered fucked up. I drew people dying, people killing other people, corpses...
My father used to bring me with him when he went to the moutains. When we were up there, I always wanted to push someone off the cliff.
All of this was around 6-9 years old. I still feel all of it but I don't express it the same.
>>27927677
SAME
I had fantasies about Kim Possible getting fucked by machines and injecting things into her. I wouldn't actually fap but I'd tickle my leg. I also took barbies and such and cover them in play-dough and pretend they were getting covered in that black rubbery stuff from The Incredible. I also used to squeeze my mom's tummy fat and touch her leg. I'm not sure if its true, but people say when I was around 5 I tried to rape my upstairs neighbor. Strange times.
I got slapped by a guy that was older than me when I was a kid. For good reason, I was a prick to him and he eventually caught me and slapped me.
But I remember very clearly thinking that if I had a knife or any kind of weapon I would've had no hesitation to kill him. This wasn't some edgy 12 year old angst. It was calculated and cold blooded. It felt like any restraint or moral values I had went away for a very brief period.
I've had rage issues ever since just became better at handling them. But every single person I've ever interacted with for a longer period of time I've eventually raged at. It's something I just can't keep completely in check, even as I know it's wrong.
I've always been a little worried that I'd fly off the handle some day and get arrested for assaulting someone who was doing something mildly annoying. Like when a group of frat bros gathers outside my window at midnight to scream at each other about sucking cock at the club or smoking weed or whatever. On more than one occasion I've run out screaming to get them to clear out, one time while swinging a golf club. My brother also has serious anger management issues (used to beat his girlfriend, punched out glass doors, etc.), so I have an idea of where it comes from.
>>27927994
I don't think there's anything wrong or unnatural about wanting to kill someone every once in a while. Usually though when you actually start to think through the process and the consequences of killing someone the urge dies off.
>>27927948
i used to tell my mom i wanted to marry her and i used to wash her back in the bathtub. i also used a pacifier until i was like 10.
fuck i was a weird kid thank god i turned out so well...
>>27925315
here's my autism bucks qualifications list guys
> fondled my flaccid dick out of my pants in front of my parents while i watched tv
> got a hard on in 2nd grade when i imagined a 2000 pound woman in front of me while i was doing a book report
>tfw you were that kid who played legos by himself in kindergarden
> cryed like a little bitch when i found out my two friends weren't in my kindergarden class
>>27925315
I beat up other kids randomly and refused to let my mother touch me until I was 14 or something, I don't even know why
>>27928856
>fondled my flaccid dick out of my pants in front of my parents while i watched tv
Holy fuck, that's suicide-tier nightmare fuel
Did they just not say anything and pretend not to notice? Or did they try to get you to stop
>>27925315
The scene in jackass 2 where they milk a horse made me really horny. I would imagine being a millionaire and paying women to fuck animals. I couldn't fathom it was a thing people could be into. You couldnt imagine my boner when I got internet and discovered bestiality was a thing.
>>27927948
glad i'm not the only one who felt uncomfortably turned on by that scene in the incredibles as a kid
>>27928908
Well since I was a kid they probably knew I didn't know what the fuck i was doing, so most of the time they pretended not to notice but when they did try to get me to stop they just told me to stop and nothing physical was ever involved and I didn't get treatment for it. It was pretty much something that went on for a couple years and I grew out of it.
>>27928856
>cried like a little bitch when i found out my two friends weren't in my kindergarden class
I did this when I got moved to a new school. I don't think it's that unnatural desu.
>>27929202
maybe not, i just didn't know the dynamic of kindergarden so i thought that the two people i knew would be in the same class. I then realized that one of them was a grade higher than me and one probably went to the other end of the school.
>>27927463
>When I was 10 I used get turned on when kids in the movies got kidnapped by antagonists.
Oh man this feel.
I used to love children's films and tv series with the young protagonist or side characters being held captive, thrown in dungeons or even tortured/murdered.
Especially when the evil autocrat/queen/empress was a woman.
Any sort of forced subservience out of fear of being arbitrarily punished by an absolute ruler was also great.
I actually recall having dreams when I was about 8-9 of being tied up or thrown in a dungeon awaiting my fate wearing nothing but a skimpy Grecian tunic.
Old un-pc books and shows with children getting their butts whooped gave me butterflies in my stomach as well.
>>27928908
nad dude, one time i had a jock strap on backwards and i was fondling my flaccid ding dong like i was playing the guitar in front of my mom and little sister. my mom said "what the FUCK are you doing? " real loud.
i discovered bondage at 8 and drew girls that were all tied up at 10
yes, and put them on deviantart
as fucked as my childhood was, i do bondage fetish art for a living now and it's given me a $1,000+ bucks a month on patreon
>>27929660
can you link it? or maybe show a piece you did?
>>27929698
>revealing my powerlevel to my clients
>>27925315
i can't relate but please delete that stretched image off your computer and use this one instead
>>27929911
>1.17M
I can't relate either but optimize your images.
>>27925315
We all had fantasies like this, we just didnt get to act them out. I know a Chad who had similar thoughts as a kid but he got a girl to sit on a tire and take a shit while he masturbated watching through a hole he cut into the side of the tire. You werent too fucked up to ever have a chance OP, you were just as much of a robot then as you are now and just never lived out your fantasies.
>>27927533
did you know you make me cringe so hard my face hurts?
>>27929911
I only had that version and felt too lazy to find the correct one. Thank you anon.
