who /ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LOSING IT/ here?
>>27915216
Not me m8 I have everything under control
That picture reminded me I could go buy a gun and shoot myself any time I want, and that's comforting.
So yes. Time to continue putting off my Seroquel taper in the name of continuing to sleep.
>>27915216
Right here senpai.
>spend 3 years at a community college
>finally able to transferout
>get accepted to a decent 4-year public university
>lose admission because financial aid din't process in time
>meanwhile parents don't give a shit
Out of my entire family I'm the only one that had an actual desire to go to college.
Getting fucked up helps to prolong it but yeah pretty much close to loosing it
>>27915216
I am keeping on the edge of fixing my life and losing it
It kinda sucks because I still have some false hope
>>27915216
>tfw I want to learn the way of apathy
>about to get kicked out of university
>never had a job in my life
>no useful skills
>no future
>no hope
EVERYTHING YOU SAY TO ME
I think im reaching the breaking point where i eaither get my shit together or fuck my shit up.
>>27915534
Ikr. No waiting periods on long guns invmy state so i could be dead in 40 minutes if i wanted to
>>27915216
>massive debt
>no friends
>no job
>no meds
UWWUUOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
>>27915216
Don't whine about it, get off your ass and kill some people.
i am, no idea what is right and wrong of what people have said to me
>>27915216
Right here
I want to die so fucking bad tonight I hope I don't fuck up
>>27915999
All ur issues are there to make u forget death. Realize the event of death is coming and work on improving ur chances to get to heaven life is but a dream one has on a nap during the journey of existence. Life is fleeting, soon u will die, and none of this will matter in the end.
>>27915216
>tfw everytime you think there is hope it comes crashing down
>JUST
I'm ready
>>27915216
me,
I lost my sock and it's really bugging me because they are my favorite pair and I really don't like walking around with only one sock on but I've looked everywhere and I can't find it, I have totally lost it.
>>27916050
Debts are the worst. But remember than even normies have to suffer with them.
>>27916050
>>27916125
>>27915216
Will you be cool guys and take others with you when you finally snap?
I think most of us robots would appreciate the entertainment.
>>27916196
I wish I at least got my money's worth, I dropped out of college twice.
Thousands and thousands of dollars down the drain.
LOL
I lost it many years ago my friend. I sometimes literally post from the psych hospital.
IM READY, IM READY, IM READY
I got a shit ton of problems. Most of them stemming from the fact that I don't see reality like normies. Really I don't see reality like most people. There is more to this universe than matter.
>>27915804
Don't worry anon, you will be ok, I care about you, just keep up the good work and all your efforts will always be remembered. I know you will do fine!
i'm never gonna make it guys
losing my mind being at home all day doing nothing
i want to fix it but its too late
i wish i didnt mess up
>not snapping
You won't regret it
I've learned this week what makes people into obsessive ex-boyfriends and how it is that people violate orders of protection and how it is that people continue to try to contact people despite everyone in their personal and professional life telling them not to under any circumstances.
>>27915999
shit bro hope you figure something outnice trips
>>27916272
Thanks senpai. I really hope this is just a bump on the road.
>>27916331
How did you mess up?
>>27915216
My family came to see me yesterday. The first thing my sister said to me was that I was looking small and did that hand thing to say I was short. She had grown almost as tall as me. My vision went white and my eyes started watering and I just went into my room until they left.
>>27915216
Finally starting to make it desu. In the process of starting a business. Has potential to make me lots of money if i succeed. Going to be dropping out of cc after this semester to focus full time on it. Hoping that by july or august at the latest, i should have it up and running. End goal will be selling it to a similar company that im going to be taking lots of business from for a couple hundred million. Luckily i have no competition in specifically what im going to be doing.
I'm a lifer from Silicon Valley. Both parents from reputable tech companies. I've attended competitive high schools, then attended a well-ranked college, and am now enrolling in a part-time masters program for Finance.
I know the startup scene. I was once a part of it (started my own, then worked for a friend's, then worked for a venture-backed start-up, now I'm employed with an older tech company).
Don't believe the startup hype.
It annoys me when I read the tech blogs reporting of yet ANOTHER startup that magically scored a venture round of x amount million dollars. It annoys me when a bunch of my friends talk about leaving their jobs to start their own ventures and then selling their nonexistent company to Google for a bajillion dollars and retire on an island.
But mostly, I'm annoyed with how the media portrays startup life and startup culture. You won't believe how ridiculously difficult it is.
>>27917130
1. Programming ability. If you don't have it, don't think about it. If you can't learn it, don't think about it. I've seen people talk about hiring great programmers or outsourcing programmers but the reality is this: those guys don't want to work for you. Why would they? Are you more attractive than a 120k offer, free food, free laundry, etc. from Google? This kind of programming ability doesn't come from Codeacademy lessons or Udemy. It comes from years and years of discipline and cultivated creativity. You might as well be learning the piano or violin.
2. Money. You need a ridiculous amount of money to get started. The days of cowboy angel investors and venture capitalists funding your business pitch are long gone. They want numbers. They want revenue. They want proof-of-concepts. I would say don't even think about dropping out unless you can sustain YOURSELF and your BUSINESS for at least a full year. Don't count on outside investors saving you. They won't. And if you leave your job, you better hope you have enough connections to be able to find another one.
3. REVENUE. Alright. Let's say you've miraculously made your product. You've build the front-end, the backend, and you've even fronted a couple thousand dollars for a few months of server capacity and time. You're a miracle worker and you're good to go. So now what? Where are you gonna get your users? Are you gonna blast your product on Facebook Ads? Google Ads? Put it up on the App Store and hope people start downloading it? Start using the Freemium model? Let me ask a further question: When's the last time you saw an ad on Facebook for something and you didn't just download it, you PAID for it too? And now you're hoping a couple hundred thousand people will do what you wouldn't? Right.
>>27917149
4. STRESS. Here's where the media partially gets it right. Imagine this. You've dropped out of your cushy job. You've lost your dental and health insurance. You got no cushion. Best of all, you just dropped around 5k to pay for server capacity (either outsource or Amazon). The users are trickling in, but by your math, you won't make enough money to even cover the expenses. You got about 3-5 months of runway time. How are you going to increase your revenue? What's your attack strategy? Imagine waking up everyday knowing that time is ticking out. Imagine that feeling in your gut knowing that you are living on borrowed time, and if this thing goes belly-up, there goes your personal finances and credit score. Not to mention the public embarrassment (see: Elizabeth Holmes, Theranos).
5. DON'T TRUST THE MEDIA. Did you know Zuckerberg received a 50k loan from his parents during his first summer of Facebook to sustain server capacity? Did you know Evan Spiegel's (Snapchat) dad is a rich Hollywood lawyer? Did you know Kevin Systrom (Instagram) was approached by Zuckerberg to become a programmer when Systrom was still at Stanford? Did you know the current CEO of Palantir used to debate with Peter Thiel while both were in law school (and guess who suggested who should become the CEO of Palantir when the time came)? Look up about the PayPal Mafia.
Can anyone post more suicidal/angry wojaks? Need to refill my folder
>>27917170
6. BIG COMPANY COMPETITION. Big companies hate you. You think they're going to buy you out for a billion dollars and help you get your private yachts? Don't bank on it. They'd rather kill you first. They'll do anything in their power to stop you from acquiring market share (assuming you've survived that long). They'll sue you and drown you in legal work (which can take years). They'll release fake announcements for new product features that coincidentally seem exactly like yours. They'll straight up buy your nearest competitor instead of your nascent startup, so good luck trying to beat your competitors when they're financially backed by a behemoth.
If you look behind the startup lore, these seemingly "rags-to-riches" stories of young upstarts defying an olden industry are nothing more than lies. These people mostly had privileged upbringings and were already incredibly talented to begin with. They developed the right skills, at the right time, and were lucky to meet the right people (ex. do any of your friends remind you of Elon Musk?).
THE DECKS WERE STACKED IN THEIR FAVOR.
And even when they had all of this going for them, success was still elusive and difficult to attain. It was not a given. So, yes, there is a component of hard work, but only when they were already through the gates.
>>27917182
REACH AND YOU WON'T LOSE ME
>>27917185
Steve Jobs could not have been Steve Jobs had he not he found Wozniak, who just happened to be tinkering with a very peculiar, certain invention. Where's your Wozniak?
The CEO of Zenefits was just kicked out of his role due to an insurance scandal. You could be the head of one of the fastest growing startups in the Valley and you can still be knocked off the throne. Does this sound like the road to billions to you?
It sounds counterintuitive to the media, but your best bet to building a large amount of wealth is to STAY WITH YOUR COMPANY. Live off of their resources like a leech. Some companies provide training programs and will offer to sponsor some graduate programs. Do that. Make your resume as gold as possible to ensure future employment.
Rise up the ranks. Play the corporate game. Save up your money. And only when you have comfortably saved enough money, read up about conservative investing techniques and allow compound interest to take over.
People confuse wanting to start your own company to wanting to be rich. If you want to be rich, there are more rational, probability-favoring ways to get there than going through the hells of trying to raise capital and build your own company. It's an uphill battle, and you haven't even gotten to the actual war yet (when big companies sue each other, ex. Apple's swiping/zooming technology).
>>27917195
Thanks family
this is original
>>27917206
thx for that origami pasta.
>>27915216
SOON. VERY SOON!
Summer is coming and everywhere I go I'll be reminded of everything I miss out on
I think this is the year I finally kill myself
>tfw mom keeps bugging me about taking drops for autism
>>27915804
Sounds like the valedictorian of my class, a nerdy homely chick who had to go to the local CC because she couldn't afford college, while chad s parents paid for his college, now he works a six figure job
What's up, I'm losing it.
Only hobbies are working out, reading, and meditating.
I smoke weed every weekend alone and promise myself that this time will be the last time; shocker, it's not.
>>27918493
I wish I could get myself to smoke on the weekends only shit
>>27915216
If you haven't absolutely fucking lost it between the ages of 20 and 25, then you haven't really lived imho
>>27918632
how do you smoke?
I use an apple pipe every time. Every single time I throw the apple in the woods and say it's time to get my shit together and be sober. But I'm still productive and smoking weed is the only thing that brings me happiness anymore.
>>27918708
with a pipe your bonehead jesus
>>27918727
I would probably break the pipe in a last act of defiance, then spend an hour gluing it back together to smoke the .5g I found at the bottom of my wrangler
>>27918791
why do you want to quit so bad?
>>27915216
>no friends
>no gf
>on anti-depressants
>cry every night
>handholdless virgin
>started talking to myself to ease the pain
>fucked up sleeping schedule
>no motivation
>can barely look anyone in the eye or talk
Can anyone else relate? Pls tell me I'm not alone robots
>>27918809
I spend every weekend alone smoking weed.
Used to be fat and gross but was invited to parties every single weekend.
Now that I have gone full robot on my fitness and aesthetics, all my previous friends are shunning me.
I guess there's no real reason to quit, just feels like a waste of time if I'm not doing it with other people in a social setting. It's pure escapism, but I love it because true reality (no social events, only studying/lifting) is depressing as a high school senior.
You have no idea... i'm actually getting worried about my mental health. I might be seriously fucked up.
You haven't lost it until you want to /beta uprise/
I am in a living hell day in and day out
>>27918928
no wonder you're using apple pipes then
even I, who was never invited to a party, had a few homemade bongs by that point
>>27915216
Im losing it...Idk what do do right now. There was this girl i been tryna chat up, and she's so amazing. Was gonna get her # before this semester ends (which ive done before, im not an afraid robot), but i found out she has a bf. Ive been single for my whole life, and im 21 right now. I've had chances to get with girls, but i didn't because i actually care about personality, character, and morality, and most girls are degenerates that i fucking hate. ive had other girls i wanted to be with and it never happened, but it never effected me as much as this because she is literally perfect. Amazing body and face, never any make up, easy af to make convo with and actually decent convo, got amazing work ethic, she is smart, she works out, she doesn't act degenerate or come off as it in any way, doesn't have the 2000 fb friends for attention, doesn't 'like' guys posts on fb that compliment her, religious so she has morals, and we share a lot of general interests. literally everything i want. And so im fucking destroyed mentally knowing i wont even have a chance. What the fuck do i do? how do i deal with this?
>>27918821
Same boat except I'm not on anti-depressants
>>27915216
>see an ant on the floor crawling with a sprinkle from a cookie
>he's struggling
>break half of the sprinkle and give it to another ant to carry
>didn't even kill them like a normal human being
the fuck is wrong with me
