what do you still enjoy?
food and music here
I literally enjoy nothing at this point. I'd kill myself if I had the guts and energy.
finding a really good song I like and just listening to it on repeat for about 2-3 days straight until I get burned out from it and it loses its magic
pretty sure this is proof my brain is fried
>>27783488
Sleep.
I would have killed myself months ago if I had access to a gun.
>>27783488
i like to drink until i black out and send cringey texts to oneitis and old friends.
>>27783508
seriously? thats rough man.
aside from the 2 i said, i also kind of enjoy playing shitty ps1 games from my youth. the nostalgia and simplicity eases my mind
>>27783547
if it makes you feel better this is pretty much what keeps normies going too
sleep, anime, drinking
can't indulge any because I need to graduatelife is suffering
>>27783488
I'm a glutton of experiences
Once I find something I really like, I keep on doing that thing over and over and over again until I tired myself out of it
It's partly due to what I'm assuming is autism or OCD
The experience has to be exactly the same in the exact specifics recreated precisely as possible, or else it won't be good enough
I haven't watched my favorite movie since I moved because I can't find the exact same food I ate because it tasted so good and I love the movie so much
>>27783547
i do this as well, have for a while
>>27783634
it didnt use to be like this
i used to have a wide music library, browsed what.cd alot, really had some good variety
now i listen to meme rap and shitty pop
song related, currently looping this because of the amazing background beat
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GL9JoH4Sws
>>27783687
are you me?
lately iv been marathonning that fifth harmony song and these:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X04lChTKkBg&nohtml5=False
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K_9tX4eHztY&nohtml5=False
meme rap is the best. downbeat slow faded beats.. still listen to the depressing mobb deep stuff a lot (survival of fittest, shook ones, hell on earth..)
>>27783508
Same for me. Sometimes I just lay down all day waiting until night so that I can go back to sleep.
>>27783771
couple more suggestions for ya which i marathon'd..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-uT2CVaGZFo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0ifztPR90k
Mahjong.
I've missed the last three meets due to family reasons, but I can't wait to get back to the tables
Music,movies,WW2,motorcycles.
i still enjoy playing smash bros and smoking weed. that's about it
I don't even enjoy music anymore and it used to be my life. I still enjoy food and have gotten fat. I like driving. Drinking booze at night. I still like shitposting and jacking off but I'm not interested in sex anymore. I still like sleeping.
Anime, guns, and benzos
Alcohol and... That's pretty much it.
Fuck I hate myself.
>>27783975
> I still enjoy food and have gotten fat
i feel ya bro, an i used to be a skelly
my friends
sex
girls in general
surfing
food (sushi/steak/seafood in general)
traveling
painting/drawing
hiking/nature in general
meeting cool new people
music
movies
anime/manga
some vidya I guess don't really get to play much
cars
some drugs I guess
effay shit
>>27783488
food
practicing melee (playing makes me frustrated that i'm bad, even thought i known i need to remove emotion from my play)
lifting weights, but they also depress me because im so weak
sleeping
tv, anime, movies
>>27784073
This is bait and weak also.
>>27784073
> that image
> this list
nice b8
>>27783771
>>27783898
>are you me
I know a lot of people who have had their interests shift in a similar way tbqh. I honestly believe it has to do with the music industry and the way they utilize 5th order harmonics. It's like they've cracked the brain and can produce anything that pleases as long as it follows a specific rule or sound
anyway good songs m8, the weeknd one is fire (but you already knew that)
this is one Ive been marathoning, its an oldie I recently discovered but I just love the beat and the lyrics
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qC6mEqCHJkk&nohtml5=False
>cause players like me don't see nothing funny
>bitch better have my mothafuckin money
>black eyes and bruisin up a face I den done it
>to let her know these bonified pimps who run it
>She make a G a night but she told me 200
>but thats what I get fuckin wit a snow bunny
also i love gucci mane and atmosphere, i could listen to those two all day
TV and pic related. I used to enjoy porn but it seems like my dick may be broken.
>>27784143
You're probably just severely depressed. I can't enjoy porn anymore either.
>>27784143
shit is this power rangers. N O S T A L G I A
is it still good?
>>27784073
normie, why are you here? Do you seriously think you can relate to robots? Because you can't, clearly you have a good life with many friends, lovers, adventures, and attractive / "acceptable" hobbies and interests. You have little and less in common with us here
Just leave us alone man
>>27784171
Its not that. Like, it used to take me about an hour of fapping before I would cum, now it takes like 5 minutes. I also think I may have vertigo. Sigh.
>>27784231
>power rangers
Its Super Sentai. From what I've read PR has been bad for awhile. The current season is getting some praise though.
>>27783595
i wish I couldnt relate
>>27784458
Same. I jack off about twice a day but usually spend less than 5 minutes each time. I used to really get into it and have an hour+ session, now its like alright, lets fucking get it over with. I'm sort of glad, porn and jerking it is a waste of time.
>>27784509
i'm feelin with you bro
>>27784509
Shit, this used to be me as well until I made a conscious decision to never, ever text or use the phone while drinking alone. Just way too many cringey memories.
Haven't sent out any cringey drunk texts in almost two years.. Feels good man.
sleep is nice
>>27784607
Yea, same. I used to save vids and pics and spend literally hours edging myself before coming.
Not like I have anything better to do, but it was such a waste of time. Now I'll just take less than five mins each time.
Running, Music, Reading, Cycling, warm spring weather, going to the beach.
Nothing. I feel empty and even 4chan is only worthwhile as my sole source of socialization. I think I finally understand what Bob Ross meant when he said "you need a little dark to make the light stand out".
>>27784799
> running
> cycling
shieet how do u get an appreciation for exercise? do u gotta take speed or something..
if i liked exercise i could stop being such a fat shit
>>27784607
I really don't like it. I'll admit it that I do like that I get over with it quickly but all my kinks are gone now and I'm jerking to the sort of vanilla shit a 10 year old finds for the 1st time. Plus, I have over 1TB porn. Getting over porn would be shitty as fuck. I'm just hoping I get into it again.
Music under the influence of weed.
Inb4 dude weed hurr durr.
Fuck off, it helps enjoy life the way confident normies do and it eases my back pain.
>>27784965
take it past where it hurts, endorphin is a hell of a drug
>tfw used to love music but realize I now listen to it obsessively to drown out negative thoughts and that I can barely focus on anything when it's on which makes me unable to do anything
Either I leave it on and be unproductive or turn it off and want to kill myself/cry myself to sleep
What do I do
>>27784106
>>27784114
>>27784359
not baiting, but yeah I don't have it as bad as some people here I guess, but that's probably why I'm here lol.
Doing big cums
Recking noobs
Shitposting on meme chan
Fapping to some good shit
Buying random shit
Training on my kickboxing and lifting to beat up chads
i love dreams (when sleeping)
listening to tunes i used to listen to (i.e https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4R2f8fkoOu0)
i love movies (recently watched beginners, it was a nice watch)
trails
spending time with friends, making friends (happens less and less as the years go on)
i also like to enjoy the pretty things in life wherever they are. i like to think i have a solid appreciation of the aesthetics in everything. i save aprticularly pretty images i come across on the web
i don't really enjoy gaming like i used to, nor weed (it's losing its touch)
>>27783488
I still enjoy my studies, and I like drinking whiskey, even if I don't often get to drink to inebriation.
>>27783488
Sleep,music and talking to my few internet buddies
I love music. I love playing music, playing in a gigging band too.
But as much as I love it I cant bear to listen to it anymore. I like the feelsiest pseudodeep shit that just makes me even more sad or lonely than I am. The worst of all, I substituted music with podcasts. It's bad for your psyche, you start devaluing your friends because you will never have interesting conversations and chemistry with then like people on your podcasts have. It's a whole another level of isolation. Walking around town or going home from work and chuckling to dumb shit coming out of your headphones since its the funniest thing you heard in days is not a good feel.
I also like cooking, it calms me a lot. Problem is I live alone and cooking is not really worth it because it takes me an hour at least, plus all the cleaning.. and I usuallyu end up throwing half of it away because I either make too much or it just goes bad because I can eat everything within two days.
Oh, I also enjoy women. Havent fucked one in a year and havent had a relationship in 5 years. That ship has long sailed I guess.
>>27786240
Idk if that's you, anon, but i saved the fuck out of that gifsauce/moar?
Good coffee and cool dogs.
I like taking photos (still a pleb though). I like watching movies and films. I like listening to music. I like lifting (3 months dyel). I like writing. I like drinking. I like nightwalking. I like travelling. I like shitposting.
>>27783488
i subsist on music, anime and manga. saying i enjoy it would seemingly imply some amount of happiness, but i just enjoy the relatability of the misery it makes me feel. it's all dirt for me to shovel down into the bottomless pit. it's scenery for the passing of time. it's the prison food to my death row.
although i am feeling genuine happiness and laughing like an idiot while reading yotsubato!, so there's that.
>>27783488
Music and being productive. I actually briefly enjoyed food when I was on Prozac, but it eventually became bland again. Eating now still seems like a chore, a chore that brings some happy relief. Thankfully not a fatso.
>all these people with similar interests
>some of them are articulating feelings of alienation and suicide that are only getting stronger in me
I wish I could have met many of you in a life outside of my computer. I think that would have made my life a little more tolerable.
I just want to this to end. I'm tired of all the failure and painful memories. There's nothing here any more except the constant pain of what could've been.
It didn't have to be this way...I can't go on like this any more.
