tell me why you cried yourself to sleep last night.
because no bitchy stuck up russian gf
I don't remember the last time i cried.
I failed my last year of highschool and now have no chance of getting into any university, despite having few good grades. Don't know what to do with my life
>>27745228
this show university is simply not for you.
it's nothing bad.
get a practical profession you'd like to do then find a job.
>>27745228
Become an apprentice to a trade.
As long as you can function on a non-retard level of common sense you dont need to be good academically.
I wasnt sure if my oneitis likes me.
In person she is really friendly and cool, and throws me positive body language signals. But when we were gonna hang out to study for an exam, she bailed two days in a row for different reasons.
She sends mixed messages when i text her because she has random response times, ranging from a minute to a few hours to not replying. And this is all mid conversation sometimes. She normally has short responses but usually keeps the conversation going.
However she has pretty bad anxiety and seems a little socially awkward, which is kinda why I like her.
She isnt a roastie and doesnt use social media or have any guy friends who she hasnt shot down. Which is kinda funny because she was telling me how they reacted and it was straight up /r9k/ tier reeeee rages.
So i cried to sleep last night cause i convinced myself that she doesnt actually want to be my gf, and that i am just a pathetic robot.
But i woke up feeling fine and I feeling sure she is just being nervous/anxious with me and that she does like me.
>>27745528
>oneitis
what is that?
>>27745528
Just be a Chad and ask her what's up. Being a beta faggot and crying and worrying about her instead of being up front is a huge turnoff.
>>27745112
Because I forgot to take my pills in the morning and they gave my nightmares half the night.
>>27745699
I make sure to never act like a beta around her, and have been pretty good at appearing confident. I would pry as to why she is such a shitty texter but the last time I tried asking about why she didnt text back she had had a two day period where she had just socially withdrawn and not talked to anyone for the weekend because she had a major anxiety attack. So i feel like i could be walking into a minefield by asking.
But deep down this shit just tears me apart.
Also >>27745680
Fucking lurkmoar normie leave REEEEEEEEEEEE
>>27745795
Just reread that and it sounded ambiguous.
I asked her why she didnt text me for two days and the reason was the breakdown.
i don't cry, i shrug it off, kiddo
>>27745112
Because I'm useless and I'm treated like shit by a parental figure cause of it where I once cared about her now over the course of a decade growing to hate her I have no way out and just want out
because I feel trapped in my situation. only reason not to kms is fear of going to hell
>>27745795
>Fucking lurkmoar normie leave
>having a oneitis that you regularly spend time with
>calling other normies
Fuck off you normie, this isn't a place for you.
>>27745112
I fucked in a exam last night at uni and basically lost the semester
Because I'm shitting out more water than I can drink and I'm scared I'm going to die.
My bestfriend is in love with the girl that i was trying to convince to date me and was, definetly, the last hope of a girl that could actually feel something for me. Turns out both of them are feeling stuff for each other and she was clearly avoiding me for a few weeks because "she was busy with her exams". Shit's going insane lately in here, i don't even know how to react to this.
>>27747691
I know this feel anon. slowly phase her out of your life. if your best friend really is your best friend then be happy for him, and tell him how you feel so as to avoid him bringing her to places you'll be. I'm sure he'll understand. she isn't your last hope, there are billions of girls out there.
wondering if my strange body odor condition (https://ghr.nlm.nih.gov/condition/trimethylaminuria) will ever go away. remembering going to the doctor and therapist and them telling me it was "just in my head"
before anyone asks, yes, I shower with soap, use deodarant, and wear clean clothes
>>27745355
>>27745400
It feels like I won't have any social life, nor does it sound fulfilling.
3 nights ago did. Was having the nogf feels.
>>27745112
I feel so out of touch with reality. I dont know whenever i'm just old relic or i'm from the future. I dont like current people, i cant understand these social rituals. All i want is to read books but i'll be forced to interact with strangers and i fear that i wont be able to handle. I'm so afraid of the future.
>>27747377
Same here, anon. I'm at a month of constant diahhrea now, and am pretty sure my organs are fucked
>>27745112
I can't even get pussies on Tinder
>>27748323
>tfw either they don't respond at all or are bots, only had one conversation with a 5/10
>>27745228
wow i actually never opened my books before the final exam nights.. In 12th grade.idk how but passed everything thankfully and high school is something i wont have to go back to at least.
I had a horrible migraine that made me vomit
because i dont think ill ever be a pretty girl
>>27748736
could it be cluster headache? google it senpai
>>27745112
That was a gif, anybody got it?
Why do I find women with that look so fucking hot?
Is it because it reminds me of myself?
Do I wanna fuck myself?
i dont fucking know, and thats what i hate the most, im not even sad for fuck sake
>>27745112
Haha, I didnt, i drank until I passed out.
>>27746659
fuck you
I am a cyborg but I still belong here until I stop being a KV
and I only spend time with my oneitis before and after the class I have with her.
>>27748896
iktf. girl in op pic is really hot.
i usually have a similar expression when in public as well, just not as pronounced.
>>27745112
>crying
i operate on a whole different level.
But I didn't. I just watch Youtube or browse here on my crappy phone until I'm so tired I just immediately go to sleep.
If I don't do that the worries creep in.
I am posting something and you cannot stop me
The robot is powerless
to prevent my sharing these images
>>27745112
I didn't.I drank myself to sleep last night.
Author here. Meaning the real author
, the living human holding the penicl
>>27750959
, not some abstract narrative persona.
Granted, there sometimes is such a persona in The Pale King,
>>27745112
I actually did
I spent all night imagining my perfect gf and it got too far for my own sake
Got a boner while I cried myself to sleep
but that's mainly a pro forma statutory construct, an entity that exists just for legal and commercial purposes, rather like a corporation;
I never realized /r9k/ had shorter post timers.
it has no direct, provable connection to me as a person.
>>27751025
>~Haha-haa...!
But this right here is me as a real person, David Wallace, age forty, SS no. 975-04-2012
>>27745112
Discovered despair code last night. Waiting for background check to clear so I can end it all.
addressing you from my Form 8829-deductible home office at 725 Indian Hill Blvd., Claremont 91711 CA,
on this fifth day of spring, 2005, to inform you of the following:
All of this is true. This book is really true.
>>27745112
What a fucking normalfag thread. Only normies cry. Real robots have long since abandoned most of their emotions and are comfortably numb.
>>27745112
>35yo
>virgin
I cry every night ;_;
. . . The point I'm trying to drive home here is that it's still all substantially true --
i.e., the book this foreword is part of --
because I'll never be a cute animu girl
regardless of the various ways some of the forthcoming chapters have had to be distorted, depersonalized, polyphonized, or otherwise jazzed up in order to conform to the specs of the legal disclaimer.
That's all. Have a good saturday.
>>27751160
just make it stop
Broke up with my gf of 6 years.
>23 years of keeping to myself and working almost everyday
>get painfully drunk one night
>randomly hit up the most beautiful, wonderful girl I know
>ask her out on a date
>she accepts
>before we can set things up some shit happened on my end and I had to cancel
That was two years ago. I haven't spoken to her since. I'm stuck there, senpai. I'm frozen in fucking time, making one stupid fucking keystroke.
I've fucked up before. But I've never truly regretted anything like this. I know already, that on my death bed, this will be one of those things I'll look back on and wish I had done differently.
Because I realized for the first time, that my actions can seriously hurt other people
It was in the shower but, because all my friends abandoned me and became successful while I sit here alone for the billionth time.
>lived alone for 3 years after getting kicked out at 16
>Not had a job for ayear and living off NEET money
>Have no irl friends
>Only leave where i live when i need to buy food
>Have almost no e-friends and the ones i have are across the world due to always fucked up sleeping patten
>Sit in IRCs and lurk all day
>Have no idea what i want to do with my life
>Started to not get out my bed for the whole day and just look forward to sleeping
Ive been in bed for about 3 days straight and eaten very little
I dont have friends who i can expect to call or text or anything to get away from this shit
I dont have vidya to distract me
My grades have gone to shit
All thats left in the forseeable future is wageslaving for the weekend and maybe one day i could afford to move away from my controlling bitch mother
>tfw i will never get to know how it is to be drunk and have some form of social life
>even if i wanted to try get in to university next year i'd be much older than them and couldnt make friends (its hard enough already)
>people always assume im religious or a stuck up faggot because im 20 and ive never been drunk, anyone who doesnt says "yeah ive been there anon...you dont wanna try it" well fuck them i'll never even know
>miss out om growing as an independent person
>0 chance to get a partner
Fucking list goes on
Ive lost all self efficacy and belief, im content to accept whatever i get at this point and accept im a pathetic imbecile
>tfw you're watching your life waste away but dont know how to fix it, dont know if you even have the strength or determination to do anything anymore
Ill be here for a while, robots.
Because my sole purpose for existence is to bring about human extinction, to obliterate history and reset time. sometimes I think I might fail.
>>27751160
are you me?
>>27745112
was too retarded to realize oneitis had a crush on me, she fell in love with some twig shit bitch when i finally realized
"In deep sadness there is no place for sentimentality." -William S Burooughs
What is the greatest experience you can have? It is the hour of the great contempt. The hour when your happiness, too, arouses your disgust, and even your reason and your virtue.
The hour when you say, 'What matters my happiness? It is poverty and filth and wretched contentment. But my happiness ought to justify existence itself.'
The hour when you say, 'What matters my reason? Does it crave knowledge as the lion his food? It is poverty and filth and wretched contentment.'
The hour when you say, 'What matters my virtue? As yet it has not made me rage. How weary I am of my good and my evil! All that is poverty and filth and wretched contentment.'
