Disregarding all of r9k's personal inadequacies, does anyone just feel fucking dead on the inside?
Does it feel like you're in a waking purgatory, waiting to go hallow? I've lost my purpose, and my will to live is only superficial.
pretty much
thought i had some incredible insight to share with the world, or at least some sort of mission. my task was to share it with other people. the reality is i'm a crazy fuckwit desperately looking for a sense of meaning because that's the only thing that keeps me afloat.
>>27679532
Absolutely. I know I am missing something, but I have never had anything in which I can focus and understand this sense of loss through.
Used to feel like this until I realised A LOT of people also feel like this. It's basically a self-rescue mechanism of the ego.
as a young teen I thought I was special and unique, as an older teen I thought I was equal to everybody else and ready to find my humble place in society, in early twenties I found out I am special and unique after all, but in a bad fucking way.
I deserve this. I don't know how, or why, but it's the only explanation for this life I'm living. I don't deserve a fulfilling life. I exist in order to suffer.
>>27679532
I've felt dead inside for a very long time.
That's why i can't relate to this tfwnogf bullshit. For me, having a gf wouldn't change a single thing.
>>27680058
This, there's no way I could handle a gf even if I got one
>>27679532
Allow me put your broken soul at ease, anon.
It is time to rest.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bofe__k4EdI
>>27679532
thats exactly how i feel.
nothing gives me joy, there is nothing im waiting for and nothing will come. thats all, i dont even have something to write.
if i would die tomorrow it would be ok.
