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>have 25 year old female cousin
>have always been extremely attracted to her, probably because we weren't around each other much when I was really young
>spill spaghetti every single time I have to meet her, because for some reason, my brain won't stop seeing her as a potential mate
>this is extremely awkward when we are required to hug because I get sick sexual pleasure out of it
>even shamefully masturbate to the thought of her
>hear over the phone that she will soon be getting engaged
>she probably knows
>actually kind of mad about it because I subconsciously feel like I am being cucked
How do I keep family from finding out that I am upset about it when I inevitably have to go to the wedding?
>>27668493
To be clear, I mean that she probably knows that I am very attracted to her.
>>27668493
Just don't go to the wedding.
>>27668537
That would make me seem like an asshole.
Plus, she is coming here over the summer, presumably with her boyfriend in-tow.
Cucked by your cousin? Never a dull day in the life of a robot
>>27668654
I still don't even know how I ended up madly in-love with a cousin who is six years older than me.
And, with all the spaghetti I spill around her, I think she is probably aware that I have feelings for her (that we don't talk when left alone I think is good evidence for that).
>>27668559
Make up a prior commitment.
E.g. job.
>>27668493
Why be ashamed? If you're not having kids, what's wrong with fucking relatives? I would be down fuck my cousins or aunts if they were attractive, or even my sisters, if I had some.
I don't really give a fuck about society's rules and neither should you.
>>27669132
What prior commitment could I possibly have? And I don't have a job, I'm just a Uni student, and it will be during the summer.
>>27669212
That's the thing though, it isn't just sexual, I have deep emotional feelings for her.
Plus, I have moral reservations about it, though I still fantasize about having been born in the past so that I could perhaps be put in an arranged marriage with her for some contrived reason.
>>27669354
> and it will be during the summer
Internship
Find anything.
>>27669527
Here are a couple problems with that
>they will be staying with me
>I am forgoing work because I have to get psychiatric treatment
Basically, I am going to be in close proximity to them regardless of what I do, so I need to find a way to hide my feelings on the matter.
>always had a degree of social anxiety but nobody scared me quite like my extended family
>treated all childhood at family functions like the proverbial elephant in the room
>nowadays don't show up
>haven't seen anyone but mom in years
sometimes i just wish i were normal is all
You have three options...
(A) Don't go to the wedding. Ignore her for the rest of your life.
(B) Take a girl that's hotter than her to her wedding like an alpha male.
(C) Go to the wedding stag and feel like the cuck that you are.
>>27669785
A) Unless I go full recluse from my family (though, I actually have an uncle that did that), this isn't really an option. Plus, very suspicious.
B) I am beta as fuck. I get attention from girls, so I think I am fairly attractive and could pull it off if I were alpha, but I can't approach girls, especially with something that big. I've never even kissed a girl.
C) Fugg.
