No
Its a bad sign when you spend a whole day with a fucking gun placed to your head and trying to force yourself to pull that trigger when it feels like your finger is tied back with a thick fucking cement rock

>>27624420

We don't have guns in my stupid country or else I I'd probably be dead anon

>>27624430
Pulling that trigger aint as easy as just doing it senpai
Its like some fucking animal primal instict kicks in and fights fucking hard for you to not do it
That experience was very powerful for me though i agree it can be overcome

I've been thinking of getting an exit bag. I'm also from europe so it's probably the only way to go. I've got the money for a helium tank and ive been thinking about it for a long time now.

>>27624379
This might mean nothing to you but i really do hope you feel better and find reasons to be happy. Good luck. I love you.

>>27624420

Do you always have to one up everyone? How fucking insufferable, you should just kill yourself or something.

>>27624521
Not at all my good chum i just wanted to remind my fellow anon that taking your own life is something you need to strongly consider and not just do in the middle of a phase

I've got this weird thing where I can't figure out any reason not to kill myself, but I don't have any desire to do so. It's weird, I get the impression it's usually the emotional side that wants to die and the logical side that doesn't, but it's backwards for me.

>>27624489

Objectively speaking, I know this is just a meaningless platitude, and it would normally irritate me but for some reason this time it touched me a little, thanks.

Maybe you have a way with words, anon.

>>27624562

"Here's the difficulty about suicide: it is an act of ambition that can be committed only when one has passed beyond ambition."