This is it /r9k/ I'm going to do it. I'm to die in this shitty apartment tonight. I'm not even sad, the life I had is gone and there is no hope of ever creating something better for myself in this world. Even though my life in the real world is shit I always came here to connect with people who understood me because they're lives were comparable or worse than my own. It was nice being able to vent about shitty events in my life or to see and respond to other people who tell their own stories and it gave me a sense of belonging. God this has to be the lamest suicide post ever. For the sake of not rambling on about stupid shit I'm going to stop here. I just want to let you all know that I'm glad I spent the time that I did connecting with all of you in spite of all of the shit posting and trolling.
See you on the other side eventually robots.
wait wait wait
livestream please
what is this? a noose for ants?
>>27621001
i hope you're a midget anon. no one else is dying from that height
Oh boy, here we go. Posting in ebin bread!!
>>27621001
See you, Space Cowboy.
Bang.
>>27621001
Send me all your money, first.
Why are you killing yourself? Remember, there are things you can do.
If you kill yourself because you are a virgin, you can go out and rape some women. If you feel weak, put on a mask and kill some people. Became an hero. There is much to do once you have nothing to lose anymore. Don't be limited by normie rules. Normies don't care about you, why should you care about them?
>>27621001
Good luck, my man.
>>27621001
I was just at a funeral yesterday for another anon I new IRL, he did it last week. It really fucked up his family and friends bigtime.
I'd say wait a year at least man, were gonna get VR porn and another final fantasy game.
Who knows maybe I'll join ya then.
>>27621039
I think, even if your legs are still on the ground, the weight of the torso is still enough to strangle someone to death.
Post your face so I can rate myself to you
>>27621001
Please Anon, Don't do it.
Do not live-stream anything.
There are people in the world who do love you. There are people in this world that are compassionate for you. Someone out there loves you. Even if there on a BBS or chan.
>>27621001
do it faggohomo
>>27621070
VR isn't going to be legit for decades, man.
What the fuck kind of rope is that? Thin as shit. It's probably gonna snap.
Anyway, on the off chance you succeed, see you in Sheol.
kek that looks like a shoelace.
but then again i read up on how easily a human can die with constricted neck veins so I can see how it can still kill
just don't let anyone save you or you will end up a vegetable, or don't even try to suicide then.
>>27621075
Yeah, but that's not a good way to.
If I ever an hero it I'm gonna set up a hitman to kill me, kill me when it looks like im immersed in something happy, just shoot me in the head from a distance so I don't know it's coming.
>>27621094
Occulus porn and my fleshlite sounds pretty solid and they have that now, I bet shitll be way more legit in a year
>>27621145
Unless you live in some shithole 3'rd world country, that isn't how a hit works.
>>27621001
don't kill yourself man, please
>>27621087
That's kind of you to say anon but I'm too fucked up to be loved by anyone
>>27621051
I'm not going to hurt people because I fucked up my life man.
>>27621086
No you're probably better looking than me anyway.
>>27621044
Don't have any money
Why am I even still responding I'm not doing this for attention. Goddamn it guys I would say that I'll miss you but I don't think it works that way.
>>27621001
Do it. Stop fucking telling people you'll do it and just do it. Why even tell us?
>>27621237
dude I'm in tears right now. Don't do it man, please.
>>27621001
At least don't do it like that, you'll only hurt yourself more.
>>27621001
Please don't do it OP.
>>27621237
Anon what I did is write a list of things I wann do before I off myself. Now these are simple things anyone can do. Its a list of movies I wanna watch, vidya I wanna play, and books I wanna read. Intermixed are some albums I wann listen too, places I wanna go, and foods I wanna eat. Once the list is done I might do it then. I would advise doing this.
Have you ever played chrono trigger? Or seen drive? Or had a fried Oreo? My senpai that just did it didn't I feel he missed out. Give vidya a chance
What if OP's actually a piece of shit? Tell us about yourself, OP.
see you on the other side homie
i wish i could have gotten to know you, but i'll be with you soon enough
>>27621001
Dont do it man.
The world may be cruel, but my god, you can always just distance yourself from the bad parts of your life.
Are you killing yourself over not being able to get a gf? Please, snap out of it if you are. Women are not worth it!!!
At the very least, tell someone in real life about your sorrow and at least give them a chance to help you.
Fuck, man everyone goes through hell, but you have to carry on because after you get through it things get better I promise.
You may think it is the end, but its not. Get help. Please dont do this
Just do it, this world isn't worth living anyway
Good luck mate, I'll join you in a few days
OP here, thanks guys, you convinced me not to do it.
>>27621327
do it faggot
originally
>>27621327
LOL nice try troll poster
>>27621327
Prove it with a timestamp so we have some peace of mind
Don't do it OP, it's not worth it. If you have nothing to lose, go all out. Experience some shit, do drugs, steal a car, run away, do something crazy. Live a little.
It's strange knowing that someone talked to us before dying.
It takes balls to do what you're doing,if you end up following through with it anyway. Life is shit I'll see you on the other side soon enough.
r8 my noose
also op don't do it
>>27621140
on second thought you should just not do it. Too much of a chance you'll end up a veggie
>>27621001
>these are my last moments
>better make a thread on /r9k/
attentionwhore/10
>>27621402
I know that feel. I watched a guy inject some shit into his arm here on /r9k/. Was surreal
>>27621431
Oof the ropeburn on that looks horrendous
>>27621327
You aren't OP. Troll poster pls go.:^)
>>27621461
Why just a few hours ago I watched a guy cut out his nuts
>>27621327
Real OP here this guy is not me. I'm not dead yet because the music I'm playing keeps skipping and cutting out every time I get to the noose it's fucking annoying. Internet is back now though so I'm good to go.
>>27621560
All he did was slice open his right nut and then he pussied out and hopefully went to the hospital
>>27621566
Stop being crazy and untie the noose. Youre drunk with emotions, your mind is clouded with doom and gloom
I dont care who it is, call someone and get help. It can be the police or anyone. Break the secret and get help.
>>27621566
Maybe thats a sign you shouldn't do it OP.
>>27621690
>>27621691
I've already gone this far I'm not going to pussy out this time.
Ethnicity? Age? First name? Main reason you're doing it?
Have a will? Going to post on Facebook or send an email so someone can come get your body right away?
>>27621720
Think about it man, it can't ever be undone. Anything you've done in life that's bad can be !Ade right with hard work. Suicide can't be undone cuz ur gone after it. Make things right before you go
LOOKS DON'T MATTER IF YOU HAVE MONEY. MGTOW BRO! AT AGE 35 ALL WOMEN ARE LOOKING TO SETTLE DOWN AND EVEN UGLY GUYS GRT LAID. JUST MAKE SURE TO HAVE A NICE JOB AND YOURE SET!
>>27621720
Just tell us your story.
>>27621560
Is this newfag bait?
gib me sauce if it's not
Have you at least had your last meal yet? You can't do it until you make yourself the ultimate meal
>>27621302
That's exactly what I did. I just hid my depression by having a lot of fun with movies and video games. I didn't even know I was depressed until I found out. I've sort of flirted with suicide but I am too pussy to do it. Tonight I tried choking myself to death with a belt, which I tried a week ago. It's impossible, but I was hoping to pass out and die.
>>27621455
Listen to the dubs, hanging leads to quite a lot of botyched attempts you don't want to end up a vegetable permantly conscious but unable to move
>>27621720
Well if you werent a pussy about it you wouldn't have made this thread. You are crying for help, and you're turning to complete strangers on the internet.
Look, just contact someone irl who can help you immediately. If you have no friends or even family, the world is filled with good strangers. Im telling you, if you get help you will overcome this. Pray to god if you have to, just get someone in your life to help you.
Tell us about yourself, you might as well
>>27621844
I've fuckin been there man, I've held guns in mouth for hours. I'm not gonna lie things don't magically get better, but there are fun moments evrynow and then. Since then I've got to actually get laid, been to the best concert of my life, met some awesome people, seen some of the best movies, played some of the best vidya. I'm still depressed and anxious but I have fun in between. I also see a therapist and that honestly does kinda help. Just think about it man that's all. I've lost 2 friends to suicide and it fucks a lot of shit up. I think about em everyday.
post yfw op is kill
I would understand if you have cancer , or are blind, or have some kind of chronic illness but the people who kill themselves over
>no friends
>no gf
>no money
never deserved to live in the first place. If you are one of those faggots drink a bottle of bleach then hang yourself.
>>27621955
I had cancer and made it through, I did wish the cancer would kill me everyday but I'm still here
Okay I'll answer some questions I feel kind of at ease right with a rope around my neck. It's soothing like this is the most control I've ever had over my life.
>>27621743
>Ethnicity
Mulatto
>Age
25
>Reason
I wont bore you with too many details but basically I hate myself and I can't stand living as the piece of shit I've become. No I don't have a will and I'm not going to post anything on facebook or email because I don't want to risk getting interrupted and then becoming a vegetable.
>>27621801
This isn't about getting laid
>>27621814
It's a long story do you really want to know all the details about the events that lead me to this decision?
>>27621828
Yes I had my last meal several hours ago.
>>27621720
How far exactly, just tying the noose? If this is over just being lonely you can always make friends or find a gf. If you killed yourself you would never be able to accomplish any of this. Like other anons have said talk to someone irl about it, even if you don't know anyone there are still people out there willing to listen.
>optical illusion and in reality op made a mini noose and he looked around the house for the closest small thing thaf looked like a door
Clever op
>>27621955
I don't really get it. Why should those people kill themselves and not the other?
But wait, then you tell them to commit suicide anyway? pls explain
>>27621982
We got time let's here it. And I know how it feels with the rope its comforting in a strange way
>>27621982
what music are you listening to if i may ask?
>>27621982
>I hate myself and I can't stand living as the piece of shit I've become.
You can always improve yourself though, and if you've tried before and it didn't work just try harder. As long as you live you will have a chance to make yourself better, if you go through with it you will never have that chance. Almost all suicide survivors have said that once they finally decided to go through with it and stepped off the ledge as they fell they immediately regretted it.
>>27621982
Not sure where you are, but you might find your mood improving as spring gets into full swing and summer comes around. Winters and stormy/cold springs can be brutal.
Check out The Myth of Sisyphus and the conclusions Camus makes about suicide.
>>27621991
Yeah seriously. OP, if you turned to someone, I guarantee you that you will overcome this nonsense.
>>27621994
it's not a mini noose
>>27622024
Albinoni's Adiago in G
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMbvcp480Y4
>>27622060
Jesus mam, that type of rope will just turn you into a vegetable. Put it down and give someone a call
>>27622060
Please write "Erica did this" on your forehead before stepping off.
>>27622093
this
looks flimsy as fuck
get an actual rope
>>27622060
Whelp shiet, can't reallly blame you 'cause life sucks, but I guess I hope it doesn't hurt too much anon
>>27622077
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FOwRW8ee4S8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S-Xm7s9eGxU
Would be my picks.
>>27622028
Its true. Logical thought processes kick in when its too late.
There is literally no reason for you to do this op. Its not like youre going to inevitably die of cancer or something like that.
These bad emotions have made you go crazy and you need help from another human being to normalize your mind.
>>27622093
>>27622104
It will do i'll only become a vegitable if someone finds me before I die and it's late here no one is awake
>>27621001
What a shit idea, step infront of a trucker somewhere
>>27622137
>2016
>wanting to risk getting cut in half by spooky truck
>>27622127
That's not true if the rope snaps half way through and your unconcious on the floor half dead your fucked. Tomorrow is Monday someone will come looking for you bye Tues or wed in that state you won't dehydrate or starve. They'll resescitate you with permanent brain damage and boom your terry fuxkin shivo
>>27621001
why are you still talking to us, its been an hour and a half, just fucking do it!
>>27622127
OP I want you to duck tape a knife to your hand incase you have second thoughts
No friends or family OP?
Fuck, man. Just run away to a Buddhist monastery and start a new life or some shit. You obviously wouldn't have an attachment problem since you're about to let everything go.
>>27622117
You have good taste I was going to listen to Samuel Barber originally.
>>27622180
This please, if you feel like you have to do it, its your call but in case you have a change of heart be prepared.
>>27622175
fuck off you dirty preying cunt
>>27621001
postpone it
>>27622175
I don't know I've spent so much time on here I keep wanting to respond to everything. You're right though I should stop replying to these posts and just get on with it.
>>27622214
Give it a day sleep on it man. You can't undo it if you do it
>>27622214
And you haven't even posted your story yet
>>27622077
>use moodtools to alleviate your depression :^)
>Download from the appstore or Googleplay
I don't have a phone because I have no one to call. Fucking normies REEEEEEEEE
OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING OP IS GOING TO BE KILL SOMEONE DO SOMETHING
>>27621001
Make sure the rope is anchored tightly, or your thrashing body will unhinge it and you will wake up in the hospital half brain dead. Youll have some real problems then.
that's your biggest fear atm that u will regret as soon as its too late
Op only think I can do is wish you good luck. Tell God good word about us. I don't know you but I will miss you, those are my reall feelings
Did you molest your little sister or something?
>>27622222
Respect the quints OP and think it over more.
>>27622242
he could just tie it very tightly around his neck,
no hanging required
>>27622214
op no need to rush it, this ur night keep talking as long as your feel
>>27621982
>Mulatto
Well.....what are you waiting for?
>>27622222
QUINTS ACKNOWLEDGED
PLEASE BE MY BOYFRIEND
>>27622222
You have to do this, fuckin quints broh
>>27621827
>he didn't see the bread
It looked pretty bad he had a boxcutter and some superglue or some shit and tore off the skin on the right side
was brutal, probably regretting it now though
>>27622276
R u a qt3.14? If so I'll gladly pass you along to op instead
>>27621001
Immortality will probably be invented in our lifetime. You'll have as many chances as you want.
>>27622287
give me an archive link
I'm not on r9k all the time
https://m.youtube.com/watch?list=PL-YhLPr6iAYiPAcb_OHQLBpXTggeZvbCC&v=JmZXtDbc2OE
Listen to this album before you do it, that'll be some time to think about it
Op don't kill yourself, imagine all the laughs we could have posting anonymously we may have already talked before who knows. Please don't kill yourself :(
he ded yo
>>27622214
this looks like his last post.....
>>27622175
nice job faggot
Idon't know who you are. Or whether you're a man or a woman. I may never see you or cry with you or get drunk with you. But I love you. I hope that you escape this place. I hope that the world turns and that things get better.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wZlGk1pXI4U
Please stay. You have something to give to the world, you just need to find it.
He's dead retards, stop replying to him
>>27622233
Okay anon for you I'll share my story. I was born to a single mother on the western most point of Canada. I lived there for a time with my mother and half sister for the first 3 years of my life and I was allowed to visit my father on occasion. Eventually my mother got married to my step father and we moved to Ontario. We were poor and as a result we had to share a house with my aunt and my cousin two of the worst human beings I've ever met. We lived in a shitty town close to Toronto called Scarborough which was packed with niggers.
One day when I was walking home from school alone I was jumped by two niggers who then proceeded to rape me. I was only eight at the time and they were at least in their mid to late teens. They told me if they ever saw me around the school that they would beat the shit out of me unless I sucked their dicks after school. After this incident I pretended to be sick all the time so my mother wouldn't send me to school.
After several months of this I failed the third grade and my mother sent me to live with my father back in British Columbia. We were very poor as my father was an artists who did sketches for people in his gallery which didn't make a lot of money. I didn't care though I was happy going to work with my father and painting in his studio. A woman even admired one of the paintings I made and offered to buy it but my father insisted that we keep it. I had a hard time adjusting to my new school life. People could just tell I was different. When I told my peers that I failed the third grade in the last school I attended (because I never went back) they mocked me and called me a retard. I started failing my assignments because I just wasn't interested in doing them. I played with toys in the back of the class by myself or played my old grey game boy in the library. This made my teachers think I had some kind of metal disability and they sent me into a separate class full of other "struggling" kids. I'll continue
>1 hour and 45 min ago
y-you still there op?
I dont have any sad reaction images on this hard drive, this is all i have.
Anyway God speed.
Benedictus qui venit in nomine Domini
If you did it OP I'm glad I got to talk to you here. It might have been brief but you'll live on with me. I consider you a friend, and I hope you are truly at peace now.
>>27621087
normie shitstain get out
>>27622456
hes still here
hey man, you really expect me to read All That Shit, by: You ?
write a tldr
>>27622456
O-op....is that really you?
>>27622456
You have any painting handy? Post them
>>27622507
dont be a lazy cunt, fuck you this is his life story
if your too lazy to glaze ur eyes over the words you dont deserve to know what its about
>>27622456 Im sorry anon I didnt know. I teased kids who were like you as a kid and thought it didnt matter. Whatever steps I continue taking in life Ill have you in the back of my mind. Goodbye anon, I love you
>>27622456
This world is hell
>>27622456
God damn dude you clearly don't want to die if you're wasting this much fucking time so untie the noose and just go to sleep.
>>27622542
>I teased kids who were like you as a kid and thought it didnt matter.
This is the absolute worst feel, fuck peer pressure and shit like that, why was I so easily influenced? I ended up a fucking robot anyway, makes me hate myself a lot that I did this shit too
>>27621982
Don't do it based anon.
if your gonna an hero on 4chan your supposed to make a stream of you doing it so people can record your death and be remembered, how ever short lived it it will be.
>>27622542
>>27622576
You've already made the difference in 2 peoples lives, you could make more
>>27622456
Continue please. I'm starting to climax and I need another rape story to help me along.
>>27622456
Did you enjoy the Rare Elliot thread and all the Harold Shipman posts?
Don't let thread die, we need OP's story now.
>>27622456
You have a story my friend you need to express you couldhrelp a lot of people just like you. Inspire them op you can do it put down the noose pick up the paint brush
>>27622456
This obviously only made me more of an object for mockery among my peers. Which I didn't really care about anyway because I was more interested in playing old games on the MAC computers they had in the portable class they stuck us in. It was also during this time that my father started dropping me off at a daycare while he went to work. You see eventually he had to sell the gallery because it wasn't making enough money to pay for the space he rented so he had to get another job. I made my first real friend in a long time there. The son of the day care owner was a boy my age and he had a Nintendo 64. I could never even dream of having one of my own because we were so poor but every time my dad would drop me off at this day care I would play super smash brothers, star fox, and starcraft 64 with the owners son all day. Those moments were probably some of my fondest memories, just playing vidya with this guy for hours on end. After a few more years my mother demanded that my father send me back to Ontario as she and my step father had just purchased a house and were now financially stable enough to live in a decent neighborhood. I moved back to the east with high hopes for the future. When I arrived everything seemed like it was going to get better from there on out the house was gorgeous and all of our neighbors were friendly. Life was good again. That was until I started school again and once again the skeletons in my closet came back to haunt me. I was around 12 years old when I entered school again. By this point I was a total nerd I never got involved in sports I spent recess playing with the nerdy kids talking about anime or games. Early on there were girls who were interested in me because apparently I was attractive but being the little sperg that I was I had no desire to do anything about it and as the years went on those same girls who would eventually attend high school with me saw me as a beta faggot that they didn't want to be associated with.
OP!!!!
WHERE ART THOU
your story, though dark in nature has a message for all
as every life implies all others....
>>27621001
ITT op is a lame ass faggot and doesn't an hero like he said he would
>>27622701
Alright, I'll settle for mental abuse instead of rape. Seriously, give me something, please... I'm so close.
Don't worry OP. I'll join you soon enough if college doesn't work on me.
>>27622302
https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/27597757
The robots of today are the castrati of tomorrow
>>27622738
you have the entire internet, and this is the best you got right now?
or is it that u want his story?
>>27622701
Sounds pretty typical. How were things after hs?
>>27622794
It's more that I'm just shitposting to keep the thread alive. I want to hear how OP ended up in this situation.
>>27622822
Even this guy cares op
>>27622832
>Even this guy
not sure what you mean by that, but yes OP, finish story please
>>27621001
Im off to bed tell me later how it goes big fella
>>27621164
Can you tell more of the story about how anon killing himself fucked up his family and friends? Did they regret it?
>>27622840
Let's here it op. Its well passed my bedtime but u got me hooked this is well worth my gbp
>>27622701
High school for me was probably about the same for me as it was for a lot of people on this board. I wasn't short but I was skinny and I played world of warcraft and other computer games instead of doing sports or trying to date girls.
The kids who played football would always call me a fag or say I was going to a 40 year old virgin (Steve Carrel's movie had just come out) or some other assorted insults. when I got to my second year in high school I was planning to murder my entire class with a gasoline bomb I built in my step-dad's garage. My grades were so shitty that my parents were regularly trying to take away my games and constantly told me to get a job which I never did so they decided to send me back to live with my dad and finish the rest of high school in BC. My father lived in the same neighborhood he always had but it had become completely run down and full of drug addicts. One night at around 3 am I heard a blood curdling scream coming from the parking lot outside our townhouse. I looked through my window and saw a man stabbing himself in the neck with a knife while a horrified woman looked on. Eventually the police and paramedics showed up and held the man down while he was bleeding from his neck profusely. They put him on the stretcher and took him away. That was the first time I think I had ever seen someone attempt a suicide. The whole thing kept me up all night and I was late for school the next morning because I missed my second bus.
High school in general was much less eventful than it was in Ontario. No one knew me, no one talked to me, I made no effort to open up to anyone. I would just go to my classes then sleep in the library at lunch time and during my spare until it was time to go home. When graduation came I skipped prom and grad ceremony and decided to play wow with my friends from Ontario instead. A year after grad my family really started to push for me to get a job which was understandable. Tbc
>>27622904
continue and don't commit suicide we only live once.
>>27622904
>40 year old virgin
I ever see Steve Carrel IRL, I'll punch him in the face for that movie.
>>27622874
Which guy there were 2? First guy shot himself in front of his gf. That totally broke her. His dad fell into horrible depression and couldn't stop drinking. His sisters have nightmares aboutt seeing him all the time.
The second guy I didn't know as well I was buddies with his brother. But at the service there were lots of people. Everyone had stories about him and were crying there's eyes out. His sister was detroyed and broken and so were his folks.
Don't do it Anon. We are here to listen to you while you vent. People love you. Just cry till your head hurts and take a nap, you'll be glad you didn't do it in the morning
>>27622944
First guy was when I was living out west I since moved so I don't know how that's going. But I remember he did it before mad max which he had been so stoked to see. He loved tom hardy. I cried when I eventually saw it without him. I still can't listen to rolling stone dead flowers cuz we used to jam the shit outs that song, he plays guitar and sang me on keyboards
>>27621001
Why not just play vidya until you die
>>27622987
The other guy here is the only person I know IRL that liked final fantasy. I still have his copy of x2. I'll always think about him when I play it
>>27622994
not op, but i have gotten so tired of vidya,
depression and apathy make them usually pretty boring
>>27622987
That sucks man. I'm sorry. I always think if I killed myself how much it would hurt my dad so even if my life sucks I can't do it. I just like to imagine it destroying the people who worked so hard to kick me down.
OP, it's been over two hours now. Are you sure you want to do this?
Don't just throw away the most valuable thing you have, your life. Even if you've had some really awful things happen to you, you can try to pull yourself off the ground and make it better.
I've seen other people who were very suicidal eventually rise up and make it. You can too. Plus, killing yourself would probably be really hard on your family. Maybe you might not feel loved or cared about, but it always tears people up when a family member kills themselves.
If all else fails, we're here for you bro. ;_;
>>27623032
Ya man that's basically where I'm at, my old man has always had my back I couldn't do it to him
>>27621001
Cheerio Anon, all the best
>>27622904
Continue story pls, I want to know
>>27623022
Read fantasy books then, like LOTR or other mythical type books. If you find a good one you can get lost in it for hours and forget about all your problems, it's really nice
>>27623056
Pls op we wanna hear more
>>27622904
Eventually I made my first suicide attempt when I was 19 I came to realization that I had squandered the best years of my life by avoiding people. I told my mother and she told me to come back to Ontario to try and get some kind of a life going. I was introduced to weed by my old friends who I used to play wow with and I was pretty content after a while. Eventually I got my first job working in a used clothes store where I worked for a radical feminist who absolutely hated me because I'm a man. The job was easy because the place was dead so I would just sit there and let the day pass me by. Eventually I quit this job though because I had enough of the abuse I was getting for being a man at the hands of the cunt who ran the place. My next job was much more exiting. By this time I was 23 and one of my friends offered to get me a job at our local zoo. It was my first experience working with exotic animals never before had I had the chance to play with baby lions and Tigers it was incredible. I fell in love with the animals at the Zoo it was like I had finally found my purpose in life I looked forward to waking up early every day so I could go in and take care of my animals. I worked hard and made friends with everyone I worked with. I finally found a place where I was a part of something and it seemed too good to be true. It wasn't without it's flaws though the owner of the facility is a psychopath and worked his employees to the bone while treating them like garbage and paying them nothing. But I didn't care I was too happy that I had a good job and people who I could relate with. I was also in pretty reasonable shape at this point so now the girls were giving me attention and I had even managed to have sex for the first time with one of the girls who worked at one of the food stands. It was a one night stand but I my confidence went through the roof after it. I felt like nothing could hurt me anymore. tbc
>>27623046
I also got an old buddy who both his dad and older brother did it so j couldn't do that to him
Shut the fuck up, you egotistical, attention whoring dickmuncher. You're a selfish, spoilt little brat for even considering suicide, and fuck you for wasting everyone's time here. You're the fucking reason why this place has gone to shit. Go outside, run away, explore the world, and just generally stop being such a gigantic fucking faggot before you ruin some other person's life. Boo hoo, waa waa, your life sucks. Fuck yourself. Everyone has shit to deal with in their life, so grow the fuck up. Jesus fucking Christ.
>>27622904
If youre still reading comments just remember that you are a part of this universe and the gift of consciousness has been given to you for a reason. It is youre job to figure out what that reason is
Do it faggot, you're a worthless beta anyway
>>27623077
>not a virgin
Suffering disregarded.
An hero please.
>>27623064
i just get lost in 4chan instead lol,
music and 4chan make me happy
or if i find a good anime
>>27623077
I don't get it. Do you have a pet? Do you want to become a veterinarian or something? Clearly animals make you happy, why not do something with that?
Enjoy the eternal peace. People wanting you to suffer and exist in misery for the sake of their own ideologies and values are the truly selfish
>>27623077
That sounds wonderful, imagine if u had gone through with your first attempt none of that would have happened
>>27623086
Did you live in a shitty area growing up? I always remember my friend telling me on the bus to school that his uncle had killed himself. I didn't really get it at the time. Then later in highschool a kid I knew jumped in front of a train, thought about it a lot more then.
Holy shit. You went through all of this for attention. If you're truly suicidal you would of just done it already, no post, np pictures, no talking. You're just crying for attention. I have no ssd sympathy for people like you. When my roommate an heroed, he just did it. No one even knew he was going through that. Fuck off OP. Either do it, or untie the noose, and make friends with the normies who have invaded the board.
>>27623138
No there were some poorer people around but it wasn't rough. Its a very white area but its mostly blue to white collar with some rough kids thrown in. Drug abuse has always been a problem in the area though.
>>27623077
Lol @ hating you for being a man. She hated you, because you're a beta--essentially subhuman. Even Lesbians secretly salivate over Alphas.
>>27623171
don't kill yourself man, there are so many things to live for. Life really sucks at times, but in between all that make something work for yourself, find something you like, LIKE POSTING TO R9K, and make the most of that.
>>27623171
We were white collar at first, but because of a nasty divorce and my dad getting fired we quickly dropped in status. My mom took a ton of my dads money and don't know what to do with it, lost the house we were in, and moved into some apts. My dad hasd to live with his mom until he found a job.
>>27623077
After my first season working at the Zoo things took an unexpected turn for the worse. All of our senior staff quit because the owner was a massive cunt to them and expected them to do way too much for him. This left me in an interesting position because now I was one of the few experienced staff left. I didn't mind though I worked through the winter without complaints. Even though some days I was mining shit out of a horse pen in 40 below 0 weather I was happy. When the summer started back up again I was called in to help clean up the facility and prepare for the open season. One day during this clean up period I was paired with this girl who worked as the host for the circus shows that the zoo held during the summer months. She and I used to always playfully make fun of each other and joke around during my first months working but now the jokes were becoming sexual and we were flirting as much as we were goofing off. At the end of the day her and I went up to the back stage where the shows were held and we kissed for the first time. I was so excited this girl was really cute and I had been interested in her before but she had a boyfriend. She told me she broke up with him earlier that day so I had no more barriers to moving in on her. I went on my first date with her a few weeks after we kissed (she went to France the day after) and by the evening we were making out again, I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend but she said she wasn't interested in a relationship.
This pissed me off because she was single and I thought we could have been something since she was okay with kissing me albeit she did say I was a terrible kisser which is probably true since I was a virgin only the year before. I brushed the rejection off and decided to pursue some of the other girls at the Zoo. After all they were interested and I was single. Everything seemed to be going well until our annual summer staff party. tbc
so all you need to make a thread blow up is to take a picture of a noose? lol
>>27623205
Thanks man, I'm not gonna do it anytime soon. But I got a plan for when I do and a buddy we got a pact. But it won't be till 25 plus years. I just want op to think about everyone he could be affecting before he does it. That's one thing I've really seen this last year
>>27623212
I'm starting to think that you might be chad. Sure you're not trolling us?
>>27623232
ya.....
whats really going on here.....
Don't you see that you are being completely irrational? I know you understand that what you're doing is wrong, which is why you would contemplate getting talked out of it for so long. You know its not an actual coping mechanism, its the opposite of coping. So cut the god damn noose in half, walk outside, and throw it in the dumpster. While you're outside pull air deep into your chest, and push it out. Just breathe man its a beautiful exercise. Have you ever wondered what in the fuck happens when you die? Obviously you haven't thought about it enough because it is the most terrifying, dread inducing concept in the universe. In the FUCKING UNIVERSE.
>>27623232
This
originaliss
>>27623302
Thanks Joe Rogan you're the best!
>>27622222
quints are god-like. listen to quints, OP.
ABANDON thread. OP is normie.
Sleepy sleepy time for me.
>>27623333
Nice numbers.
>>27623333
Check 'em quads though
>>27623212
>>27623232
this, and i'm starting to think that all this shitstorm is bc she went back to her ex bf, pls dont be a faggot op, dont disapoint us
>>27623212
So when I got to the party I saw her sitting on one of the benches by herself and I walked right past her grabbed a beer and sat down next to two other other girls I was interested in. This must have made her jealous because after 10 minutes of me laughing and carrying on with these two other girls she plopped her self down next to me and started trying to compete with the other girls for my attention. I thought the nerve on this bitch, she rejects me and now she wants me to give her attention because I'm hanging out with other girls. Anyway as the night progressed I we all got very drunk and as I was chatting with one of the keeper QT's she approached me and said "Anon can I have a word with you in private?" Oh boy here we go I thought. Her and I walked away from the party until we were inside the area of the zoo where the big cats are held. Once we were away from everyone else she burst into tears and hugged me, she told me that she had tried to kill herself before because she had been raped when she was 15. I can't even describe how I felt that night after she told me this. After this we started getting closer again, flirting at work and sneaking off to kiss. Then we found out that we were going on a work off site together with just her and I and 2 other girls alone with some animals and a tent. She told me that we could share a bed there a few days before we left. I could hardly wait, there had never been a higher point in my life. Then during the ride she was contently texting someone during the 2 hour drive. Our coworker who was driving us asked her "Who are you texting?" to which she replied "Oh just my ex-bf I wanted to invite him to our offsite" my heart sank in my chest. "What are you going to give him a rebound?" he said to which she replied "Yeah I might :)" I couldn't take it at that point I called her a fucking bitch in the truck and things were relatively silent during the rest of the ride. There's more.
>>27622222
>>27623333
How did he do that?
>pickup trucks again
>>27621001
Honestly, just call a suicide hotline and don't do it. I care about you even though I don't know you and I'd be willing to talk to you. But if you're dead set on doing it, live stream it.
>>27621001
Press F to pay respects.
F
See you on the other side, robro.
>>27623437
>I care about you even though I don't know you and I'd be willing to talk to you
Why? That makes no sense. This person has nothing to do with you, and it makes no difference in the world when someone kills themselves if you know about it or not. Why should you ever wish to talk to him, if so then why not all the other people offing themselves? You should stop caring about them dude.
>OP STILL attention whoring
You've had 3 fucking hours nigger.
Keep it coming op
Origami continento
>>27623364
>>27623370
there you go original
>>27623370
The second night we all decided to get drunk and play cards against humanity. Half way though the game I became pretty belligerent towards her and started calling her a bitch and a cunt in front of the other two girls and then I told them about how she said her and I were going to share a bed and then she invited her ex boyfriend to the site so she could fuck him (he never showed up though). After this outburst she told me to meet her outside by the trailer so we could talk in private. I broke down I told her how much I hated her for leading me on like she did and then saying that she was going to bring her ex to the site. I told that that ever since she told me her rape story I fell in love with her. She told me he didn't come though and we could still share a bed together so against all of my better judgment I went to bed with her and we slept together for the rest of the trip. She wouldn't have sex with me though, even though she sent me a message saying that she was super horny the night I called her out for being a bitch she said if we had sex that night it would have been for all the wrong reasons. Like an idiot I forgave her and we started getting closer again after the trip. I would constantly try and get her to be my gf even though she kept telling me shit like "I'm incapable of love" or "I just wish I knew you before I was raped then we could be together." It was frustrating beyond belief and I couldn't find a way to get through to her. We hardly got to see each other because in addition to working at the zoo she was also working at veterinary clinic and was taking care of two baby Nilgai who she saw as her children. I was also working all the time as we were severely understaffed and I found myself having to work overtime in order to compensate. Eventually I was told that I would have to go to Quebec with my boss and 3 other keepers for a massive animal show being hosted at an expo.
>>27623496
this, OP wasn't going to do it anyway. he just wants some attention
>>27623481
I'd talk to them too. If you don't understand why, I can't make you understand. You're either not normie enough or you're under 22 years old and the parts of your brain responsible for deeper levels of sympathy and empathy aren't fully developed yet.
>>27623533
Seems to me like you are just wasting your time.
>>27623570
We're on 4chan. We're all wasting our time.
>>27623520
So that's it? keep that job or you will have truly reasons to off your self desu
>>27623496
I'm trying to finish the story for the anon who wanted it for fucks sake It's probably the only legacy I'll have when this shit is over. I don't care what you think.
Anyway back to where I left off. So basically I had planned to drop this job so I could spend more time with this girl but when I told them I wanted to drop it the only other person they could get to go in my place was her. So I said fuck it and I left for French Canada that following week. One night after a particularly hellish day of work I got a message that change d my perspective on this girl completely. One of my female coworkers who was one of my good friends told me that this girl who I had confessed to have loved and had told her everything about my childhood was now accusing me of being a stalker and acting "rapey" to all of the remaining staff who were still at the zoo while I was in Quebec. She also said told them that she had no feelings for me and said that I was pathetic for chasing after her for all this time. At that moment in time I had never been so angry in my life I couldn't believe this girl would accuse me of acting like a rapist when I told her that I was also raped when I was a kid, for the sake of time I wont repeat the messages I sent her after finding out about that but apparently she put herself in hospital after I blew up on her. I still had two more weeks in that place since I found out too so I was just destroyed. I focused all of my energy on working to put my mind off of what happened. About a week after all of this went down she started messaging me again and somehow I found the strength to forgive her. I should have known better but I by the time I got back her and I were back on speaking terms although never at the level of attraction that we were at before. Eventually we decided to hang out a couple more times before she left for school. tbc
>>27623641
We both know you're not going to do shit after you finish. You're gonna keep reading the thread until it 404s then go sleep away your miserable life for a couple hours.
>>27623641
just do it already..
originalderidorumdumdumbadumts
bum for the rest of the story god damn it
>>27623769
this bump
>>27623619
Oh there's more friend
I also forgot to mention that while I was on this Quebec trip one of the girls who I really liked and was very attracted to was fired for something really stupid and I at the time combined with the shit the show girl said about me behind my back I had decided to quit. The work was becoming overwhelming anyway and the stress was outweighing my love for the animals. I hadn't come to that point yet though. So during my time after the Quebec trip her and I decided to hang out a few times. We came really close to having sex the first time hung out after I got back but one of my friends cockblocked me when he showed up unexpectedly while she was getting undressed. But the second time would be the night we finally had sex. This was the last time we would see each other for 3 months. I constantly told her I would come visit her if she gave me a day when she wouldn't have classes so I could spend the day with her but she would never say. At this point I had quit working for the Zoo but I was still in contact with her. Then one day she out of the blue she came back and she told me she wanted to hang out after work. So I drove down to the zoo to pick her up and what did she tell me when I got there. "Oh btw I found out about tinder while I was at university and now I have a BF :^)" I think I was too disgusted to even be sad about it I was just disappointed in myself for ever being attracted to such a rancid human being. Eventually I found out she had a BDSM fetish and had over 13 sexual parters with men who were twice her age. All of which she lied about to me. Eventually I met her boyfriend and got to embarrass her quite spectacularly when she attempted to make me jealous at a new years party so I had my revenge. It's been several months since then and I've fallen back into what I was before I was a zookeeper. A NEET a useless drain on society living off of tax money with no future prospects. Anyway that's my story, I think it's time now.
>>27623814
but why do you want to kill yourself
suicide is a permanent solution
stream it, youve gone this far so now you must
>>27623814
This is a retarded reason to kill yourself
You have barely experienced life
Posting in suicide thread
See ya, brother
You better do it OP. With pics and webms ofc
>>27623814
I dont wany you to kill yourself but fucking hell bro that story was disappointing as fuck
It started off so good too
I fucking regret reading all that bullshit, you lived more of a life than 85% of /r9k/
Why not leave everything behind and live your life like a hobo, traveling around the world for free. Or live somewhere deep in the woods.
Its like the reset button on life.
>>27623814
cmon man, you have to go back your job, thats why you are kind of fucked up, get your shit together and get a trip to somewhere, i feel you been a neet is the worst thing that could happens, but not to an hero, good luck and thanks for the history bro, i hope you see the light again.
>>27624048
disregard this post, just do it fagot
posting in suicide thread
OP is gonna be kill tonight
thanks for ur time on this earth man im sure everyone that met you has forgotten about you but will get upset when you die
just remember ill think about you in a few years when im putting that noose around my neck
Ty OP love u bro
if next post is dubs op will not an hero
>>27624084
Aadasaaaas
>he hasn't killed himself yet
We're waiting faggot
>op begged for attention
>didn't kill himself like every other attention whore
Nothing new, sage, report etc..
>>27621001
Why did I start laughing, really laughing good when I opened your picture?
>>27624144
Because you have autism
Origami posti
>>27623496
Are you really surprised? this was his plan all along.
>>27622456
Can confirm that Scarborough is a complete shithole
>>27621001
SAM? Is that you? First, why /r9k/? Okay, don't do it for me.
Even though we don't fuck I really ACTUALLY DO LOVE YOU. I know it's not the kind of love you want but it's got to mean something.
If you are not the person I am thinking of, let me tell you still don't do it.
It's just if life is so pointless why not live anyway?
I understand the concept of suicide can be comfy but just whatever you are going through just take care of yourself and live instead and don't do drugs or cut yourself either. Just TRY to find happiness.
I've tried to die and been in hospitals for attempts but eventually you just have to find reasons even small ones to live. Good luck.
I know, I'm gay, blah blah I'm lame.
>>27624144
Because that looks like a little girl's jump-rope. Look at how colorful it is, and then he's gonna kill himself with it.
>>27624208
That's actually kind of what good rope looks like. Like the kind at home depo.
>>27624197
Dammit I knew it was a hyde ruse
>>27624197
>Even though we don't fuck I really ACTUALLY DO LOVE YOU.
I think I know where this is going.
>I know it's not the kind of love you want but it's got to mean something.
Yup. Sounds like some real self-righteous shit you got there. Why didn't you just fuck him?
I was gonna rip you apart but your image suggests you have decent taste in music, so I won't do that.
>>27624237
>Why didn't you just fuck him?
I don't have the genitalia he prefers or gender identification.
>>27624273
Maybe if you became a girl he would have reconsidered...
>>27623064
Fantasy books are stupid.
Daily reminder that niggers are really fucking stupid
Exhibit A: this thread
>>27623814
Lad I read your whole story and yeah it's shitty, but it's in no way reason enough to kill yourself.
>>27623814
so let me get this straight
you were a friendless virgin nerd in highschool (same as all of r9k)
but in your 20s you became a failed normie and had sex with at least 2 different women and for a time worked a decent job that you enjoyed
remind me why i am meant to feel sad for you
i'm 23 perma neet
i didn't even get to be that nerdy kid in highschool because i left school at age 13 and have been off the social radar ever fucking since
you think you got the short end of the stick?
you had it pretty fucking good for awhile there
do us all a favor and fucking kill your worthless self you fucking failed normie piece of shit
>>27621001
Do it faggot, just DOOO it
>>27623370
Jesus christ what a fucking bitch. I wouldve gone in to an autistic rage, crashing the truck with no survivors.
Are you gonna kill yourself soon or what. Don't make a attention whoring thread and then drag out on it.
Reminder to never feel sympathy for "suicide" fags because they're literally attention whores at same level of your typical "lonely" stacies
