when was the last time you was genuinely happy?
>these people exist
Age eight.
>>27619036
they go out more than you, probably have friends more than you (if you have any friends) and generally they live a better life than you
>>27619036
I wish I had like minded friends
>They posted this online for everyone to see with no shame
>>27619063
i once saw a group of anime nerds walk into a place i eat at often. they had such a large social circle and they looked like they were having so much fun. i need more friends ;_;
>>27619069
>>27619036
At least they seem happy, guys. Can you all say the same? If you can, you should probably get the fuck off this board.
>>27618986
>those two guys probably doubleteamed the white girl and the anime chick
life is unfair
>>27618986
this morning, hanging up the phone after talking to my AA sponsee for a few minutes. He went to a family party and made amends to a bunch of family members he screwed over while he was drinking. He was scared shitless but I told him to do it anyways, and he did it, the absolute madman!
Long story short it went a lot better than he expected (which I knew would happen) and I was genuinely happy for him, and so happy I was able to encourage him to make that leap.
>>27618986
The last time she spoke to me
>>27619344
chad is banging her head to walls while fucking her right now
>>27619384
She's deadtfw not original enough
>>27618986
>you was genuinely happy
when I wuz rambo n shit
middle school most likely
2nd-3rd grade
>>27618986
Ever since my mother had to put him down. That was almost three years ago. I haven't been able to be that happy since then.
>>27618986
had sex with an attractive roastie last night
>>27619036
Now you know why we hide our power levels.
>>27619063
found the brony
No idea. Probably in 8th grade or so.
>>27618986
August 2003
>>27619058
Same tbqh senpai. And it just keeps getting worse...
>>27619444
There's some dead ghostchad blowing his ectoplasmic load into her mouth right now.
Probably 9 years ago
>>27618986
You would legit protect these people? You think just because they have friends that this makes it something to be envied or acceptable? Power level aside, you think this is anywhere near a real goal as a human being in a modern society? Really? Fucking really?
An honest question. If you honestly believe such things as "like minded" or "at least.." then i feel as though I truly understand how seriously deep the depths of depression and hell can get for some individuals. Please, insult me or enlighten me. Im really interested in your legit thoughts.
>>27620162
hahahahahaha kekkd
>>27620198
i legit havent left the house in 2 years. from my point of view those people are better than me. they have friends (even a girl) they attend a school and theyre overall having fun (also using social media too) i have none of that. just isolated depression self-hatred
I once dreamed I was in bed cuddling a qt. I think at was the only time I ever felt happiness.
>>27619177
>and the anime chick
I lost it.
>>27620265
OP from that post here. Not kidding, you are way better than that anon. Don't ever tell yourself otherwise. Just because another human has friends or a another human has a vagina doesn't mean any of those people are better than you. If you dont want to leave the house, than that's just fine. If you find solace in your own space and such than at least you are not some douche chad or some loser degenerate like the people in OP's post.
I find it funny how you fags make fun of retards even though the retards aren't the friendless loner NEET sitting in front of a computer screen at 1 AM making fun of other people that they don't even know.
>>27620327
sometimes in my dreams im kissing a girl or have a gf. those are the best ones until i wake up and realize
middle school. 2009 was when it all changed
>>27620390
Those dreams are worse than any nightmare.
>>27620412
even in my dream im saying to myself wow anon you finally made it you finally have a gf/had a kiss. its so pathetic i can only tell it as anonymous fuck this shit ;_;
I don't remember
someone hold me
>>27620412
The realization as you open your eyes and realize that that warm fuzzy feeling was nothing more than your imagination and that the girl of your dreams doesnt and will never exist
>>27620424
At least take comfort in that there are others who share our pain
>>27619063
I rather the friendless solitary life I have now than that shit.
>>27620477
ehh maybe if i wasnt morbidly obese. i would kinda like to go grocery shopping or walk outside when everyone is either at work or school but im way too fat and self concious for that shit
Last Friday when I passed the final exam thing by a split cunt hair. I had a complete breakdown during the 7 day writing period and what was supposed to be a 10-15 paper turned out to be 2 pages at best
But my based as fuck teacher defended it on grounds of the other work I've done and she knows that if I am left with a big assignment without anyone to ask for help I am liable to break down
Then I imidiately went out with my two equally socially inept buddies and we got smashed in my basement and ordered cheap food. Then I got food poisoning and vomited the rest of the Weekend away
I am still happy. It feels weird
I have dreams where I'm supper happy to hang out with my friends. Where I bawl because my life sucks. Where I'm super exited for something thats going to happen soon. Where I'm super scared because something extreme happens
Then I wake up and everything is back to "meh"
>>27619177
>and the anime chick
oh god hahahahah
>>27618986
My first time.... (my second was awful)
and when the girl of my dreams liked me. Of course that stopped happening over a year ago...... and now we're just awkward acquaintances. Yeah a girl perfectly my type said I was qt and I blew it due to being sperg.
I don't remember. I feel completely powerless, and miserable. When I walk down the street I feel completely exposed, and I hate and resent everyone around me for it.
>>27618986
been a long fucking time op. its been a long fucking time
well, i think i was happy for a second that one time i hung out a friend's place with a girl who liked me and was tickling her feet.
but really it was probably in 4th grade that i was happy.
Yesterday for about 30 minutes. I thought a girl was asking me out, turns out she was just trying to convert me Christianity. Some times I just want to be an hero.
>>27620494
Then stop being a fat piece of shit. Only you can fix it.
I feel happiness pretty often but it's because I can't be assed to care anymore.
>>27620845
>and was tickling her feet
10-11
turning 22 this month
>>27622161
I saw that thread kek
origi
Yesterday. I drew an animation and I was proud of myself
>>27619063
Better set up a big ass screen with all that projection son.
almost 12 years now
>>27618986
last time I did acid, a couple days ago
>>27619036
>tfw used to be like them before developing self awareness in the last year of highschool
it was also the last time I was genuinely happy
>>27619036
My God, why is it that every first comment/post is always funny as fuck?
>>27618986
Before my job. I always enjoyed studying and was good at it, but working is just depressing as fuck. If I had enough money, I'd just NEET my life away or continue studying subjects I'm interested in.
The last time i was happy was 4 years ago, a had a gf, my own place to live and i was able to hang out with my friends every week.and like a idiot i fucked up everything by leaving my house to live with my (ex) gf.now i'm back with mom and dad, i live far away from what i built, i can only see my friends via skype.
At least i have my job to keep my mind busy.
>>27620198
Shiiit nigga, at this point I would be happy just to be able to get some mcdonalds like dem kids in da OP. I have had depression since at least 6th grade and have found that the little things are what get me by.
Do I want to be like them? Hell nah. But at least they all have each other and they understand each other as outcasts. I have no one.
Before I was 8. The only happy memory I have before the last few years of my life was my friend and I skipping school to hang out in the park down the street from where my family lives. It was sunny and quiet and it's the only memory I have from my earlier life that didn't have something ruin it later. Sometimes I think I might have made that memory up but I've decided it's real enough.
>>27618986
We're hitting autism levels that were previously purely hypothetical. Someone get Hawking on the phone NOW
Today, actually.
>fanfic I'm writing gets 130+ comments
>every commenter/reader talks about how they are crying but masturbating at the same time
It's a good time to be a fujo.
>>27620734
Damn dude, that hit home for me.
>>27623099
Why not just go into academia? One of my professors does nothing but teach a few classes and publishes papers.
Probably over 15 years ago. I don't even remember what happiness feels like. Chronic depression sucks.
Ahh that would be 2007. Everything went downhill in 2006 but my last feeling of happiness was in 2007. Yep, I remember that time well.
>>27623174
>Sometimes I think I might have made that memory up but I've decided it's real enough.
Real enough? No man it doesnt work that way. Its either real or it isnt, theres no inbetween. You dont get to decide if its real. Are you making up memories?
14billion years ago.
Seeing people who are outwardly losers hanging out with friends is such shit. I look normal but fuck if I can ever have any kind of social relationship. I want friends and a girlfriend most of the time but I know they'd probably just end up bothering me more than anything.
Right now, I'm 18 living at home, studying 4 hours a week, working to save money / buy whatever i want. I have a girlfriend and friends who I see most days. I just come on r9k because your pathetic lives are funny
>>27623272
It's a big sign of a happy and secure individual when he feels a need to brag about his mediocrity to anonymous strangers.
>>27623265
You want friends and a gf because thats what youre supposed to do, thats what society expects from you. Not because you actually want it.
Friends and gfs are a waste of time. Why would you waste your time on those people if you dont actually want to? I remember when i had friends and a gf, i would just sit there waiting till im alone again so i can actually do something meaningful. Theyre such a big commitment, you can lose your whole weekend on those people and get nothing out of it, maybe sex. But you can just jerk off for 5 minutes and get the same feeling.
I slowly stopped meeting up with my friends and cut off contact with my gf and life is much better now, i truly enjoy solitude more than anything. All i care about is myself. Its amazing how much free time you have when youre always alone.
Socializing isnt for everyone man, dont do something because society pressures you into doing it. You only got one life, do what YOU want.
>>27623245
Not him but you, I, and everyone else remembers things from many years ago that *may* have happened, not in the sense that they didn't actually happen but that you're not remembering them with accuracy. That is the root of nostalgia, hence time makes fools of us all.
>>27623383
Wrong. I have video evidence of my memories to back it up.
>>27623378
I don't feel any pressure, I like being alone. Doesn't stop me from feeling outnumbered I guess would be the word.
I also had friends and ignored them until they went away, what few opportunities I get to socialise I cut it off as soon as possible. I do all of this automatically, pretty much, then regret it even though I know it's what's best for me.
One day in the summer of 2015 was the best day of my whole life. I had kissed a girl I had been hanging out with the previous night and we went for a hike down by a river. I brought a blanket and we laid down on it. We cuddled and talked for hours, we made out. She was a solid 8/10 and our personalities clicked. I liked her a lot. I thought this was my exit from suicidal depression, from self harm and alcoholism, but it didn't work out (long story). And I I never made her my girlfriend, never lost my virginity, never kissed her again. I've longed to hold a woman in my arms since I was a toddler, I've always fantasized about romance but have never really had it. The simple pleasure of that day has been all I ever wanted in life.
Since then I've taken the 2D pill and got myself a dakimakura.
>>27623272
I remember when I was 18. Shit was cash. I laughed at losers on the internet too.
Enjoy it while it lasts because the good times end soon.
>>27623245
Maybe I am. But it gives me one good thing. It's weak, but accepting a possibly fake memory is nicer than thinking most of my life has just been shitty thing after shitty thing.
>>27623378
While I kinda agree with what your have said, I'm probably on the other side of the street. I was alone (no friends, no GF) long enough to grow sick tired of it.
It was 4 years ago that I started to get real friends.
They are commitment, sometimes a waste of time, but at least they gave me the strength and drive to do something.
Still no GF, but I'm working on that aswell, to the point that I'm chasing after a girl that looks promising enough.
Jerking off once in a while when you can't hold it any longer is good, but I enjoy it less and less.
It's all about balance. It's not easy as it requires discipline.
>>27623494
I had a blowjob from a girl when i was 16 and thats all the sexual experience ive ever had. 22 now and everytime i fap i think about that blowjob. I dont even like the girl but its easier to cum to that memory. Its always a sad cum tho.
>>27618986
>was
Found the nog
Anyway, I'm pretty happy now. I'm at least content.
>>27623589
Hey if socializing energizes you and makes you happy, then by all means go for it. Youre probably an extrovert. I just hate to see introverts desperately trying to do something they dont even want.
November 2008
I asked a girl if she wanted to go out. She said yes. When the day came she canceled. The next time I saw her I tried to talk to her but she straight up ignored my existence.
The summer I turned 16
Got a VW camper van from my grandma
Spent the whole summer along the Mendocino Coast, camping
13 year old cousin came with me
He had long blond hair and blue eyes
I fucked him everyday for almost three months
Best time of my life
2 weeks ago. Bliss for like 5 days. Then she said we can't continue because she needs to be single to get over personal shit. Abusive ex and trust issues. Doesn't want me to fall in love with her when she feels she can't even trust me.
Is there a worse feel than hooking up with someone you can genuinely see something great happening with just to have it crushed a week later?
I have hooked up with a slut from tinder over the weekend but still, I am sitting in her bed thinking of Kristina.
>>27623666
>read this with disgust
>notice it was from Satan
>smile
>>27623195
I could give it a shot, but I'm afraid I'd be too socially retarded for that.
Three years ago.
My only gf
>she told me she loved me every day and every night
>a month later started fucking my best friend behind my back
FUCKING ROASTIES I HAVENT BEEN THE SAME SINCE REEEEEEE
>>27620019
Exactly.
La originalo commetum
>>27619063
>clueless retards are happy
no shit nigger
Before I did acid. I became too self aware to really enjoy much of anything.
Honestly, i don't really even remember. Realized today that i haven't really felt anything for a while. I remember i got mad at things on the internet, but nothing really triggers me anymore. Fapping doesn't feel anything, and i can't get any satisfaction from working out. I actually went to con few weeks ago, there was lot of happy people. I thought that i would blend in with the other nerds, but i just felt out of place. I really don't feel like a human anymore, only something between alive and dead.
>>27622533
what thread? you got a screencap?
Early August 2013. Went out for an afternoon walk with my 8/10 gf, it was a beautiful day and we just walked for a while and then just sat on a bench at a park and hugged and kissed and talked. Kids were playing, people were walking their pets, the weather was perfect, just a perfect day. I remember walking back home and thinking "damn, this is what happiness feels like!". A couple of weeks later she broke up with me.
