>be 14 6 years ago
>Have bad gas
>Feels like my guts got put through a meat grinder
>Release it in class
>Silent but deadly
>Stacy catches on
>"who farted"
>Chad says "It's anon"
>PANIC
>Sperg out
>Pssh ahahaha its good ahahahha
>mfw I realized what I just said
>Smell is really getting to me
>AHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAA
>Try to laugh it off
>Start coughing during the laugh
>Just doing this mix of coughing and laughing while everyone stares at me
>Eventually teach saves me by silencing everyone
Every time I remember this memory I recoil in horror.
>>27568214
>caring what people think of what you do
>>27568249
I just wanted to be invisible, not a fucking laughingstock
>>27568214
Classic Ruby Novak.
>>27568281
then don't be a smelly retard, retard.
>6 years ago
yeah right ;)
>12 year old me hits puberty early
>transform into big hairy manbaby
>stacy declares that someone smells
>girls all decide that it's got to be me
>as a group they begin to insult
>can't handle all this anger i have
>hulk out and throw my desk
>start punching random people
>throwing / shoving desks all over
>everyone screaming and running out
>trash the room and stomp home
>mfw 1 week suspension cause of cunt stacy
she learned to shut her fucking mouth after that one
The bullying that resulted from it made me drop out of highschool and become a NEET.
I can't believe that I was so retarded god damn.
my life got pretty fucked when i was in 8th grade and i got super emo about it because i was young and stupid, but i felt like i did a good job of keeping it a secret. one day at school my mom went through my room because she was paranoid about me doing drugs or something and she found my stash of razors and fucking poetry/journals i had. i wrote about stuff like homosexual feelings and hearing voices (i was diagnosed as schizophrenic a couple of months after i left for college) and other stuff that made me hate myself. so that was fucked of her already, rummaging through all my personal shit, but when she picked my neighbour and i up from school, she fucking yelled at me in the car the whole way home in front of my neighbour. he knew everything - cutting, gay, etc, but he never told anyone, which is the thing i am most thankful for in life. but this whole deal pretty much ruined any sense of trust in my life, and i havent told a person in real life anything personal at all since then, which is why it took me so long to get diagnosed.
fuck
>high school, senior year
>first period, sitting alone, basically falling asleep
>girl who is an acquaintance sits down next to me
>sleepily look over
>she smiles and says "How are you doing, anon?"
>no girl has ever initiated a conversation with me
>in my half-asleep state I think she's interrogating me
>start to panic and say "WHY, WHAT DO YOU MEAN, DOES SOMETHING LOOK WRONG?!"
>she stares at me and says "...no, I was just asking how you're doing"
>"o-oh"
>she gets up and leaves
>we don't talk again
>>27568375
lel, I was in a new school beginning my junior year,h ad no friends, was behind cause it was fucking hardocre college prep, etc. I whined so much my mom let me quit and take online courses, and then I just sat at home and played vidya/wanked all day. I was a real fucking idiot
>>27568626
When everything is terrible and you don't have any reason to think it will ever get better giving up is the only thing that makes sense.
>Be 13
>Friend comes to my house for a visit
>Say whats up
>His little brother walks in
>I forget what happens
>Get his brother to say "I'm a little whore and I like to get laid"
>We both laugh about it
>Look back on it
>Cringe like crazy
>He probably remembers it every now and then
>second year in college
>taking a stats class
>some pretty girl that is in my class and I have afew mutual friends
>Its an 8Am an I always go get food from the dining hall first
>its always empty except for her and her friends, me, and afew other people
>She invites me to sit with her because i have a shyness that is criminally vulgar and would not want to impose or force my presence on them as I feel I always bring down the mood
>always sit with her and her friends and quietly eat my breakfast
>she always makes an effort to talk to me(i think either out of pity or out of sadism to watch me squirm )
>she always has on what appeared to me to be the most fake smile and the most nefarious giggle when we conversed(I suspected she was attempting to subtly mock me)
>end of semester finals time rolls around
>Im autistic and good at math so she tells me we should study together
>I try to avoid it so I dont seem desperate
>she insists takes my number and invites me, I am sure to seem reluctant so I do not seem desperate
>show up at her room at the agreed upon time
>she is wearing really short tight booty short/pajama things
>she starts cuddling up next to me >mfw
>eventually she is sitting in my lap wiggling around I can literally feel the heat from of her banana hole
>im in a full blown panic at this point
>she says something about me being comfy and does a 100% evil and knowing laugh, and puts on some fake smile, that triggers my insincere senses
>something is wrong here but I cant put my finger on it
>realize that she must have friends hiding in her closet that want me to make a move so they jump can laugh at me and she would say something like "haha did you really think you could hook up with me wierdo get the fuck out!" and then beat me up and dump milk on me or something
>tell her I gotta run to the bathroom
>run, literally ran, back to my dorm chainsmoke a half pack and go to bed
>her friend tells me later that she cried after this
>drop out soon after
>>27568744
Nice repost of a repost faggot.
>>27568524
I feel you.
>junior high
>best friend and I have falling out over something stupid
>no longer sitting together on the bus
>crush also takes the bus
>most beautiful girl in the entire school, objectively
>has 15+ Chads blatantly persuing her
>crush of 6 years walks up to me out of nowhere and says
>"where's that other kid you usually sit with? Aren't you two like best friends?"
>I'm in a bad mood and don't think before saying back
>"that's none of your concern"
>I guess I thought it was cool (as one does when they're that age)
>we never spoke or even came into contact with one another ever again
>mfw I realized she had like me for as long as i liked her some time later
>mfw her asking me what was up meant she often looked at me on the bus
>mfw I'm still not over her after not seeing her since grade 10
>mfw she's getting pounded by chad
>mfw no face
this is the biggest regret of my life.. which is probably unhealthy. I will never be over her. To this day I have never seen anybody as beautiful as her. She was something special, not just perfection, but unique perfection. fuck.
>>27568744
It seemed fake because she was trying to flirt. Like "smile a lot and laugh at his jokes so he knows you're interested."
Completely understandable that you'd think otherwise though women are fuckin evil most of the time. They only put on the nice face when they want something.
>>27568358
Damn, surprised you got off with just a suspension and not something worse. You must be lucky, Camille.
>>27568938
also:
>same girl
>a bit earlier, maybe grade 7
>she starts a conversation with me
>I say we should play runescape together (why, God, WHY would you create a being that would say such a thing)
>"umm... n-no, i'm good, haha"
>she leaves
>later her friend sees me and says
>"RUNESCAPE!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! OH MY GOD!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!"
>word spreads among crush's friends
>get this 'point and laugh at the village idiot' mockery for the rest of the week
>life over
