>your current age
>the age you first got depression
>19
>13
For years and years I thought wanting to kill yourself was a totally normal thing that everyone experienced.
I'm only just just now starting to realize that maybe I should get some help...
>24
>13
Lost all my friends and confidence at that age. Really messed with my head and lead to bad habits that I'm feeling the effects of even today.
>24
>13
It never got any better, dad.
>>27520994
>21
>12
I feel you on this except for the help bit. I have absolutely given up hope, but you should definitely seek it out before it's too late.
>>27520956
>19
>diagnosed at 12
life was tolerable for a while i guess
>>27520956
>35
>tfw it's been as long as I can remember
>>27521019
>tfw too anxiety-ridden to set up an appointment to get anti-anxiety meds
I'm probably doomed too man
>>27520956
18
7
parents divorced, i gained 20 pounds.
got better around 12-13
13
first kiss dies of cancer and i'm prescribed adderall for being "scatter brained" in class
got better around 16 when i quit attending highschool because it was full of mexishits, faggots, and normies.
After losing every single friend i have, shrugging off all responsibility of my family, and writing my own book, I've never been happier. I'm currently in the process of expanding the family business, once that's done i'll train an employee and do it again like my father is teaching me.
>24
>14
I have diagnosed type 2 bipolar disorder.
29
8
Please seek help. Try drugs As a last resort.
Its too late for me. Ive been on 4chan since 07.
Leave now while you still can.
Leave.
Just leave.
Edit your host file and redirect 4chan to 127.0.0.0
Get ip range banned for life
Just do anything you have To
23
11
Depression comes and goes. It's alot easier to manage when you're not a child.
>22
>15
Was diagnosed, prescribed pills and I didn't take them. I feel like my life could have been completely different had I been taking them since then, I have started taking them, probably about a year ago and my whole life has changed, my memory and learning has gotten better, my attitude has improved, I'm going back to school, whole life is turning around.
>still have bad days and want to slit my wrists and an hero
>>27521076
>29
>too late
My psychologist didn't start university until he was 36, he didn't get married until he was 44. He's in his mid 50s and loving life now. It's only too late if you're on your death bed.
>>27521057
Damnit I think you're me from the past anon.
>>27520994
I dare you. It's a lot harder to accept help then to wallow in misery. It's worth the effort.
>>27521064
The heaviest feels are those we must carry together.
>>27521055
Try spending time in nature and meditating. Google bignoknow depression
>21
>14
I don't curse myself or my life. It is what it is. I don't see why so many people here are still so hung up on "missing out" on normalfag nonsense. If I could stay alone and cry for the rest of my life, that would be fine.
>>27520956
>playing the "i got depression earlier than u" game
you people make me sick.
>>27521183
Wouldn't it be better if you stayed alone and took care of an animal or built computers instead of cry?
>>27520956
> 18
> 11
I was bullied heavily at the end of elementary school and it did not get better from there.
>>27521114
That actually have me hope robot.
Enjoy this QT i saved last night
>>27521266
*gave
>>27520956
Is this the same guy? Where can I find more of this artiste's work?
>20
>11
Once middle school started everything went downhill.
>>27521313
@ ur moms house
>>27521338
Noice
+1
>>27520956
>current 19
>15
Moving in with a abusive asshole and his shithead kids cause my moms a gold digging whore. Became a hardcore alcoholic at 15, just now been sober for 2 weeks at age 19.
>29
>14ish
has never gone away, most likely never will. it's a bit more manageable now because i've been just completely numb for about 5 years at this point.
i'm not interested in taking those meme happy pills.
>21
>15
Once I realized most of my schoolwork would just end in a pointless 9-5 office job I would hate, I started evaluating and hating myself.
>>27521378
i enjoy shitposting
>26
>16
ten years. ten years wasted. imagine what i could have done in those years. i could have a degree, a job. maybe i could have gotten with that girl i liked
but instead im sitting alone at 4 am listening to weezer
>>27520956
>31
>17
I grew out of it, thank God
>>27521205
i agree with this
"BUT MUH DEPRESSION"
>18
> around the age of 10
Probably younger desu. Crying yourself to sleep is fun
I should have listened before, but now I'll listen to you old wise ones, cya losers
>>27520956
Current age 26
First depressed 12
Got over it for like five years but now ive been depressed for another three. Might just be who i am desu senpai
>>27520956
>28
>15
Up until a few months ago I wanted to kill myself almost every weekend. Now I've developed some severe anxiety and crippling panic attacks. I'm still in denial though and getting tested for every disease known to man. Suddenly I fear death and am convinced that I'm going to die any day now. I think it's getting bad...
>>27520956
oh no depressed since 3 pls help
>>27520956
>19
>Literally as long as I can remember well, probably since I was 9 or 10.
I went psychotic last year due to it. I'm on antidepressants so I think (hope) it's getting better.
>>27521595
Don't be scared anon
>>27521601
Ha ha :^(
>started at 11
>diagnosed at 14
>24 now
i don't understand it
>>27520956
>25
>around 12-13
>12
>19
When i was 16 it stopped from a thing like 3 months.
Now I can feel the void, it's not that bad you can rexist.
>>27520956
you have to be 18 to post here anon
>18
>14
Shit just got worse and worse, and teenage hormones did NOT help.
It was more paranoia, anxiety and borderline psychosis (felt as if the environment was always staring at me, heard voices in my head, fought urges to do shit like spit and scream at people's faces who I had no problem with).
Luckily, it all turned out for the better.
Found out I have aspergers though.
>>27520956
>19
>???
Probably around 14
>18
>9, when i told my mom i wanted to kill myself
its been nothing but downhill from there
depression is just a meme, man up retards
-> 48
-> 1981
my first hard times were 11 I think... but I got into church. church was good for me because it gave my autism something to cling to. also the people were pretty nice.
i'm 25 now. no church, no friends, just my family and my autism left.
>>27522037
>18
>7
I know what that's like, anon. I've lived most of my life not knowing why I was so out of it, but when I found out, I found some relief...
Although I have no real official docs, I've managed to control myself and join the greatest men and women on planet Earth.
Still on my way to being a wizard though.
>21 today!!
>probably about 13/14
>19
>9
my dad has always been abusive which caused me depression at a young age and now that i'm older i've just stayed depressed. fuck man i just can't even remember a time when i was truly happy
>19
>12
Parents divorced, gained a fuckton of weight
Had a BMI of basically 40 at 15
Became a Disrespectful asshole to the only people that loved me
Stole from my broke Dad
Disrespected the fuck out of my mom and Stepdad, (who is actually a good guy)
Get my assbeat by stepdad
Ended up losing a fair bit of because depression got so bad it kinda full circled and I was only eating like 500 calories a day
Find love
Rejected
Used to have family to help me through it.
Now I'm all alone in California , with my Family in South Carolina because college.
It hasn't gotten any better
I just kinda go to class, study, Fap, play vidya and cry myself to sleep every night.
Can't even convince myself that there's one reason out there to live anymore
>>27520956
27
10-14?
original comment desu
>>27521434
my shit was posted all over your mom last night
>>27521205
I AM MORE OF A ROBOT THAN YOU!!!!
>21 years old
>10 years old
>>27521540
>>27521205
>>27522674
normalfags thinking people who are depressed think this is a contest.
You deserve to die in school shootings desu
>20
>11 or 12
I used to think everyone was depressed and I was too weak to deal with it. I don't think I remember a time I was ever truly happy or content.
>Tfw it's getting worse and will an hero soon
>24
>12
I am reaching the point in life where i will have been depressed and miserable for more years than i have been happy, i can now objectively say that my life is bad compared to others around me.
>21
>13I was watching a music video and thought, "That dude looks pretty handsome. Wait fuck does that make me gay?" Then my brain spiraled down into fear and self-hatred that were only curbed by anti-depressants and an OCD diagnosis. Eventually I realized acknowledging attractive males isn't gay, wanting to fuck and wanting to be fucked by them does. Now I just hate myself for ruining my relationship and losing the light in my life.
>>27522693
>20
>10
You and I are close.
>>27522789
I can only hope, can I.
>>27520956
>20
>15. Got really bad at 16.
>>27520956
>19
>13
I just want to point out the fact that a majority of the people here seem to have gotten it between ages 11-15. Just thought that was really sad.
>>27523040
>15
>19 now happy as ever since i got a gf
>>27523092
the first time i truly wanted to kill myself is when i was 12. It's pretty fucked up a 12 year old should not be thinking this
>>27523154
I know. I wish we could all get rid of this pain.
>>27520956
>18
>11
First time was fucking the worst. I was literally crying for a whole month.
>>27520956
>29
>8
I am the depression master. I actually don't feel anything anymore.
>21
>10
Grandfather died and he was my only male role model growing up. After his death the apartment where I grew up was burned down from a drunk man trying to use the stove. He put an empty pan or skillet and left it, that's all I was told about it but I wasn't able to save even a quarter of my possessions. And my last blood related grandfather died after that. This was in the span of three months and at the time I didn't know how to really feel, one grandmother had helped me address some serious anger issues when I was younger and after that I would analyse my emotions and shut them out as best I could as a kid. The death and loss of my home was overwhelming and I just shut down. Didn't really talk to anyone as I normally did (happy and upbeat) and since then I've been a bit cryptic and strange. Now most of the time I just keep my thoughts to myself. I don't talk about how I feel with anyone as well. I don't like feeling, cause then I feel like like shit.
>30
>30
The doom is real
>>27520956
kill yourself you fucking meme whorechild.
>hey guise i have depression xddx
>wow cool me too xoxo xd
>>27520956
>33
>16
There's still ups and downs
>23
>9
>tfw I really only have 6-ish not miserable years that I can remember
>>27523040
Are you me?originaliafamilia
>>27524063
I'm 33 and was first diagnosed at 16.
Spending over half your life with this is such shit.
>>27520956
21
13
Can't wait for that gram of heroin and etizolam to come in the mail so I can finally fucking kill myself
>>27520956
>19
>12 or 13, can't remember
the doctor said I had depression but I have no idea if he actually diagnosed me
Every ~6 months I switch from depressed to normal to depressed and so forth
I'm 20.
Had depression for as long as I can remember.
If things don't work out with this girl I'm thinking of ending it all. This pain is too much.
>>27522789
Don't blame them too much. They were always taught to compete. And them being normies, they never second guessed their combative nature.
>>27524045
I'ts ok. we know you are sad to
>>27520956
>18
>7
Divorce is a bitch. Now I'm pretty fucked up but I don't want to see a therapist yet. Mostly because I don't want a time to find out.
>19
>long as i can remember
life is an endless fog, robots. cant remember the last time i felt happy about something that i didn't feel immense guilt for later. i've pretty much given up
Should i even go to a psychiatrist?
>>27520956
>22
>5
I don't remember being depressed at that age at all, but my mom insists it happened. The first depression I remember was at 17
>20
>12
W-Will it ever go away? IS THIS WHO I AM?
>19
>9
I explicitely remember wanting to kill myself even when I was a 9 year old kid. I had it all planned out too and it would have worked, my plan was to down the whole bottle of my mother's prescription Ambien and let it kill me.
>>27525201
maybe it wont go away fully, but it is possible
>the age you first got "depression"
Well fuck you OP, I ain't got an unique snowflake syndrome.
>>27525229
how does a 9 year old even think like this? what led you to wanting to do it?
>24
>13 or 14
It started in middle school and slowly got worse. Despite getting good grades I just started caring less and less. Eventually my complete apathy led me to sleeping in all of my classes from start to finish. My grades tanked to the bottom and I failed 11th grade after already passing the graduation test and getting the highest score on the science portion. I dropped out after that and have been a complete loser since. Neet with not even a full combined year of work experience. The meme pills didn't help at all, prozac just made my short temper even worse to where I would spontaneously be enraged for no reason.
>>27525247
>generic name for condition
>unique snowflake syndrome
>>27520956
>18
>12
I'm hoping I can get to thirty without hanging myself, but that's gonna take a lot of chemical distraction.
>18
>late elementary, don't remember which grade exactly
>fail classes due to disinterest, laziness, irresponsibility
>dropped from gifted program, placed in standard classes
>lose friendship with former peers
>don't identify with new ones
>never tried in school again
>begin talking about suicide for attention, still ashamed
>at some point my father became estranged
>miserable ever since and it was mostly my fault
I could only have ruined my teenaged years more thoroughly by illegal means.
>19
>11
The only reason I'm not killing myself is because my family would make fun of me once I was dead
Pic related: me trying to find reasons to live
>>27520956
>21
>18
At 19 i thought id be fine since i just got out of a mental health treatment center mom and dad sent me to to be a fixed normie. I thought things would be fine. I was wrong.
>>27520956
>20
>15
My best friend started dating my crush
>dropped out of HS in my sophmore year due to a mental breakdown
>was 17 then
>excommunicate everyone and be a hermit for the next 4 years and talk to no one
>diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder
>recovering and "waking up"
>think of suicide every day because the best years of my life have come and gone and my life is over
just fuck my shit up senpai
23
probably eight or something idk
>13
>21
I've never been to therapy or been on antidepressants for those 8 years, however I recently found out my school offers free therapy so I'm trying that out on 4/28
>23
>I'm not sure
Most of my depression heavily relies on regrets and failure.
>>27520956
>22
>6 (diagnosed)
16 fucking years. I've had enough of this shit.
>18
>5
this is original bakeidkksksbncskksjd
>23
>12
I don't fucking know. I started to become depressed in middle school but then again who the fuck didn't.
I find myself faking my emotions a lot lately. Shit really sucks, especially when I'm thinking to myself "oh shit, act like you care" when I'm listening to people. Idk I'm just retarded.
>>27520994
Same :( i just assumed i was a stupid teenager
>>27520956
>22
>11
First time I asked my dad about the meaninglessness of my existence. Only recently did I figure out that this conversation actually caused my father to have his own existential crisis. Though I feel bad about it, I can't help but find it kind of funny.
>30
>22
I had recently broken up with my girlfriend who was a former ex who I was cheating on with another ex (I'm not a chad I swear). I was going to community again and I fucking hated it. All I wanted to do was keep lifting and become more vein. I went to a couple of parties and realized people and especially women, were just giving me attention for my body, but I knew I was more attractive than most of them, so that pissed me off a lot. On top of that at a party, this literal scum bucket of a woman dismissed me for this really crazy idiot, he basically swooped her up away from me. From then on I knew looks don't even fucking matter. From there, I went into the gym one day while plateauing on my lifts for days, slammed an energy drink, got under the squat bar, and failed at a lift I shouldn't be failing at. I got in my car and started having severe thoughts of just turning the wheel into oncoming traffic, and from there it's been downhill ever since. I now have multiple disorders and developed severe anxiety issues from the first nervous breakdown I had.
>>27527112
and yes I used vein wrong, supposed to be vain. I fucking suck. I went to school and was going to major in English. Haha!
>>27520956
>19
>15
I'm really shy but built up enough confidence to ask a girl out but she rejected me and "friendzoned" me. That's where it started, later I failed all my math classes and dropped out near the end of high school. From there on my life has been shit.
>>27520956
>21
>12
i got better, but i fear regression
>21
>15
brought on by bullying, having few good friends at the time, my dad yelling (no hitting just yelling at me till i broke down) at me for every little mistake or him just being in a bad mood, and the first attempts by my parents to take control of my life and steer me twards what they thought i should be
>25
>19
I got deported and lost several years of my life
Current age: 23
Age where I got depression: 12
It came on when i dated a girl who suffered from depression, it dragged me down and then she killed herself after guilt tripping me into making me feel like I'm the reason she suffers and I said the wrong thing.
After that I've been in a permanent depression trying to find love that will work and not be a huge fucking clusterfuck. Oh well, maybe one day, I'll keep clawing desperately trying to get out of this hole while my mental instability gets worse and I trap some woman into loving me forever and forcing her to be with me because she will be the only thing keeping me from killing myself and convince her she will need me as much as I need her and we will only need each other and no one else.
Kind of ironic I became the same person who fucked me up.
26 now. 27 soon.
I first noticed it a few months after I turned 13.
>tfw been depressed longer than not
>>27520956
>19
>9
I hated myself for being a fat fuck that lacks all social grace. Now I hate myself because I am unkind to myself, thus I am unkind to the world and the serpent consumes its tail.
>>27521082
>Depression comes and goes. It's alot easier to manage when you're not a child.
When you have depression starting at that age, are you ever really a child, Anon? I ask myself that question every day.
19
11 is the first age I noticed a large distance between myself and others and it was the first time I thought about death as an escape
>18
>I was 8 when I first had suicidal thoughts
>>27520956
Has any other Anon had this happen? All though HS I was a miserable motherfucker, but this one random day my senior year, I woke up and actually felt joy. It was so random and unexpected, it was actually confusing at first. Light seemed warmer. I felt like I was at peace with myself and the world. The idea of killing myself was the last thing on my mind.
Then, just as quickly as it came, it was gone. I woke up the next day feeling tired and devoid of feeling. I had something similar happen when I smoked weed at a friends birthday party a few years ago but not since.
I have horrible anxiety riddled dreams every night and listen to the most miserably depressing music imaginable just to feel emotionally moved. It's awful.
I've been off meds for a year now because things got a bit better. Scared to try SSRIs. They fucked my shit up last time I tried them. Made me feel like my head was in a fishbowl and nearly made me crash a car.
>18
>6
I was crying to my parents about death constantly and then I faced a bunch of different issues that ruined my life and still face more today
>>27520956
>19
>13
i was so fat, i hated being fat, id grab my fat and scream and cry at it, i did loose weight and get really skinny and life got million times better, im fat again and have been since last year but ive lost about 3st and still working on it
>>27528995
you need more magnesium in your diet dude. really. look it up, beans are the best way i know of to get magnesium. but consuming sugar requires more magnesium so there is a balance. lower sugar intake (including simple carbs i.e. white bread rank shit) and raise magnesium intake. eat less meat and more vegetables. start augmenting your diet and you will get there.
btw, all of these neurochemicals are in your brain. with some good diet and a little focus you can will them to be the way you want, to feel the way you want. use your imagination for your own benifit.
>>27520956
>20
>6
>Tfw got molested by an older boy and girl when i was 5 (wasnt the worst part)
>tfw family destroyed because it was moms friends who dad didnt like
>tfw lived in womans shelter for a while
>tfw no dad or older brothers anymore because they left
>19
>Diagnosed at 11
Thinking about generally happy years of my life
>1st-3rd grade
>Second half of 7th grade
>9th grade
>Second half of 12th grade
>Freshman year, second time in college
Every other time I constantly wanted to die
>>27525056
Just get a script and then walk out. Only thing they're good for
>>27525056
no, go to a therapist and tell them right of the bat that you dont believe in taking psychotropics and you want help and information to help otherwise. if they keep offering drugs get a new therapist.
mainly a therapist is just there to hear you, they dont offer much otherwise but you never know.
>>27520956
>19
>11
First suicidal thoughts in 1st year of middle school.
I had been having problems with stress since I was 8 though.
It hasn't been a constant thing, but it got worse around my 18th birthday.
>all these self diagnosed shitlords itt
just because youre sad that stacy doesnt suck your dick doesnt mean your depressed, fucking retards. you dont know shit about fucking depression
>>27529293
omg what a little cunt you are, depression is not some special disability you have.
Its simply when people crumble under the stress of restrained emotions to the point that they stop feeling them normally.
It can happen to anyone, especially in this day and age when we're all being bombarded with toxic shit, chemically, and spiritually.
>>27529293
Even if you get diagnosed late, you can still more or less pinpoint the period when it began.
>>27520956
>25
Not exactly sure on my starting age. Maybe around 7 or 8 I was noted on having "confidence issues", and had to go to unhelpful child therapy sessions.
I was different to the other kids from an early age. A bit of a loner. Still am.
I used to just read books and strived to be better than my older brother when I was like 5 or 6 years old.
I think I got excluded once from a teddy bear picnic because the woman there didn't like me. She kept just telling my mum "he should be at school. All he wants to do is learn, not play", and I was about 4 years old.
I got bullied a lot. I'm just a target for people to want to threaten. (Stick up for myself now though)
I have good days and bad. Stress normally triggers an emotional outburst. I have the odd breakdown now and then. Got into major trouble at work for having one after sticking up for myself after a manager tried to coerce me to quit/threatened to fire me over just asking a boss what the deal was with sending me out, under equipped into a storm to deal with overflowing trollies, with absolutely no-one to help.
Undermine the customer my ass. If i dont tell them straight they just fob you off and im tired of it. I was helping them avoid a fucking lawsuit with all the trollies flying around and blocking the roads and I get a disciplinary for having the balls to ask them a direct question to an urgent matter.
I just couldn't help it. I burst into tears, and pretty much let them know I'm struggling to cope. The constant feeling of being a failure, a loser, a physically disgusting selfish neurotic pile of crap.
I couldn't stop it once it came out. They are all avoiding me at the moment. Probably think I'm crazy.
All I want is some fucking progress anons. An escape from the groundhog day cycle of bullshit.
But being aware of how shit you are hurts and de-energises you.
One day I do tons of stuff, others I do nothing and lament over it.
Therapy won't help, meds will fuck me up in other ways. Even CBT won't
>>27529293
Hello re-ddit! :3
>>27529133
Maybe, dude. I take a multi and exercise 4x a week, though. I'm just glad I don't have bipolar given that three of my cousins on my dads side have it. That doesn't even take into account that my Gran on my mom's side is borderline with psychotic tendencies.
I was never meant to be a very functional person by design. By all accounts, my mom and dad shouldn't have even been in a position to bump uglies and shit me out into the world. They did anyways.
At this point, I'm just trying to make the best of things. It's better than trying to scrub at a stain hoping that, with enough effort, there's perfection waiting to be revealed underneath if you work hard enough. Eventually, you just realize you're the stain and that no amount of scraping away at yourself will make you clean or whole.
>sometime in childhood
I was always getting in trouble, and at one point I was that kid who screamed to his mother "I wish I was never born." She sat me down and talked about how much that hurt, but I don't think I cared at all.
I was always telling my family I didn't want to do things because it hurt. Find out only recently my father had a degenerate spine condition and my mother got arthritis early. These days both siblings have spinal problems.
I've told my mother I should've been medicated early, and she is like "well you were good with animals idk"
>>27529372
You should get together a five-year plan that gets you out of direct customer service/boots-on-the-ground roles, m8. That is practically torture for people like us. Because you are miserable, you get exhausted. Because you're exhausted, you make paux pas that make you ripe for criticism, making you more miserable. Rinse, repeat.
Gotta break the cycle. If you are even somewhat technically or mathematically inclined, get into IT or database systems management or something. Do anything that gets you off the floor and into a room by yourself. Shit, even a night shift security gig might be preferable.
>>27529637
>She sat me down and talked about how much that hurt
It hurt because you were right and she knew it. It's the most fucked up people who go on and on about the power of choice and their ability to be different than how they know they would otherwise end up if they just stopped "trying".
Some sadistic fucks even go as far as to have children to convince themselves that they are capable of not making the same mistakes as their parents. Unfortunately, kids are the only mistake you can make that have the potential to judge you even when you are unwilling or unable to judge yourself.
31, 15, never has been as bad as that age was. I got tougher and more used to disappointment.
>>27520956
>24
>8
>No one wanted to be my friend
>First two grills I felt feels for rejected me
>A group of my peers would always insult me, throw rocks and trash at me, and get me into trouble - and because they outnumbered me, it was easy for them to always say I was the troublemaker even though I wasn't, and so they always walked free while I had to get punished despite being the victim
>Subjected to mandatory anger management courses and In School Suspension where I would be isolated in a hallway at all hours in school every day, and I'd have to serve after school detention, picking up trash laying around the school
>Would get harassed and beat up by a few teenagers in my neighborhood every time they saw me, so I stopped leaving the house except for school
>Third grade counselor strangled me and threatened to kill me because I didn't want to talk to him anymore because he never did anything to help - all I could think about was how much I wanted to kill everyone around me and/or just cease to exist, and how it was such bullshit that I was the one being punished every time while all of my peers who kept starting shit with me were playing together and free
And it got worse when I was 11 and started getting into a shit load of fights in the 7th grade, that I never started, and my dad cheated on my mom and I spent the following eight years listening to them yelling and breaking shit every day, and my mom crying every night as I try to sleep. Nearly dropped out of school because I couldn't focus anymore, stopped working and skipped school at least once a week.
Just joined this thread
>19
>Was suicidal at 12
Am no longer depressed though. It can get better, just gotta work at it, life doesn't have to keep you oppressed. You can work against it.
>>27520956
27.
Pretty young actually, maybe 9 or so due to family problems and me being fucked up in the head.
>>27520956
>19
>16
wake me up inside brothers
>35
>12
Reality of growing up ugly and poor hit me. Still ugly and poor.
>>27520956
>18
>6
toooooo loooooow iiiiiiin coooooontent
>>27520956
>18
>11
>dad lost job
>parents stuck in horrible marriage
>arguments everyday
23
16
Started about when I quit playing band, playing wow and fapping more.
>18
>17
only got the "don't even feel like getting out of bed anymore" depression last year
>>27520956
>16
>8
dont really remember being depressed, but I was diagnosed with severe depression, so I probably was
>>27532476
>16
get outta here aughts babby
>>27532476
gtfo kiddo
oregano
>>27520956
>28
>19 (could've been earlier, but it's hard to discern between that and teenager bullshit, at that age)
Hit rock bottom at 24. Started to rebound out of it. Sort of fine now but I was down for so long that I've absorbed cynicism, pessimism and low-energy into my core.
>>27520956
>27
>15
It got better then I got hit by a bigger wave when I was 18/19, then better again and a another (lesser) wave when I was around 23/24, and just pulling myself out of a recent setback. Hit my worst at 18/19 and I'm glad I managed to get away from that because that was unbearable.
>21
>20
Im a latebloomer
22
13
>>27521057
Same. But I dont even have health insurrance, cause I get to nervous call and try to set it up
>19
>13
Fuck puberty and fuck me.
>>27520956
>24
>7No puns intended
>20
>15 (can't remember exactly)
>>27520956
I don't post normally, but this is something thats being weighing on my mind for half of my life. I have no idea how old you have to be to suffer from Depression. I'm sure plenty people think that you have to be a teenager, or an adult. All I know was that I was at my most miserable, inconsolable and morose when I was 8 years old.
What were you doing when you were 8? Where you playing pokemon? Hey, maybe you were punching a girl to show her you liked her. When I was 8, I was staring at my ceiling till three o'clock every morning, tears running down my face, wondering if I would ever be happy again.
A lot of you have reasons. You were bullied and that. Not me. I had a nice family, good friends, and I was smart. So how could I tell someone, how the fuck could I ask for help when all I could think at night was "What right do you have to be depressed?" The guilt was as strong as anything else. Whatever I was feeling was my own stupid fault.
It faded a while later, and I was happy. I still get sad, and lonely, and dead from time to time. I haven't cried since I was 8. 10 years ago.
I have never told anyone this.
