How do you keep yourself from an hero? I mean, what activities do you participate in do keep yourself somewhat positive? I don't really like anything that requires skill or too much time to get good at.
But media usually bores me and I already take all kinds of chems. I can't imagine continuing my life like this. Working, waiting for the next day and drinking myself to sleep on the weekends.
>>27504967
I feel like I have to get validation through music or art
but also generally I know I hate pain and the thought of me freaking out as a I try to kill myself/swallow pills is too immense
I would prefer to just enjoy sleeping
but having a job also makes me feel useful
>>27504975
I want to art and music too, but the beginning phase where everything you do sucks majorly is too depressing. I started drawing a few times but can't force myself to do it longer than a week or so.
video games take up most of my time.
They're really excellent forms of escapism. I can lose entire days to them.
I take 5htp to keep from killing myself. But I think I might eventually develop a tolerance to that and fuck only knows where that leaves me when that happens.
I play vidya but I'm at the end of my rope. I have nothing to work for, no dreams, no wants.
Eventually I'll get back to writing. I hope the world may slightly benefit from what I put out there. If not, it'll at least be more exposed to fantasy fiction fueled by autism.
Mostly I shitpost on /r9k/ and eat a little too much.
Well, masturbation obviously
