just kidding, im actually a male
i hate myself
i dont have any friends
somebody kill me please
Hey dude its ok. It gets better. What's got you down this evening? Where you from?
>>27450437
hey anon things aren't so bad man
if you want a friend im always here for you
>>27450480
just kidding again, this was me samefagging i dont want to be friends with myself
>>27450468
nothing in particular got me down im just wallowing like the sad shit i am
humans are purpose driven, i have no purpose, therefore i am a sadcunt
>>27450437
Yo anon, I'll be your friend even though we'll probably never talk or see eachother or anything, I'm your friend. So whenever you're on here pretend i'm on here too.
>>27450560
i appreciate the sentiment, but thats the equivalent of telling a homeless person "hey ill give you 1 billion dollars all you have to do is pretend that i have the money"
>>27450516
How old are you? I feel the same way towards life as you; i have never had a job and have no money and no friends, I dropped out, and clearly there are reasons for those things and I am just too autistic to force myself to take the next step and stop being a lazy bitch and start integrating myself as a true adult into society. I mean 19 is still young and its ok that I don't know what I want to be, but truth is I just don't talk to people about anxiety and depression. I feel is getting maybe a bit pathetic but then again I am ok with myself, I don't measure mine or anyone else's worth by such shallow things. Most days I just tune everyone out and spend time alone and do my own thing. As far as people are concerned I just kinda disappeared. What would you do if you were me, am i just supposed to go and have a job and start pretending to be a normie or something? Like the fuck? Shits scary
>>27450642
Than you don't seem to understand the value of having someone even recognize you exist.
>>27450437
Here's a song for you anon, one that i'm listening to atm:
https://youtu.be/tejkhFyjoGE
>>27450740
op here
it is scary, i cant think of myself in a formal work environment, it just seems so fake
honestly, I feel as if people like us missed out on key developmental milestones as a child required to emerge as a "productive" member of society
the internet only exacerbates this by giving us an easy way out, a place to hide from real responsibilities
then again i have no idea what im talking about, im pretty stupid
>>27450831
listening right now
pretty good
>>27450772
speaking for myself here, but i dont think its good for me to care for the validation of others
i have zero self-esteem and caring about such things would make me addicted to it
i guess this thread is dead now
>>27450437
does anyone have more of her?
gjgjgjg
can i be your friend ohpee
>>27451191
its the only picture i have of her
sorry
>>27451209
you don't want to be my friend
Feel the same OP
Fuck me in the bum and do it again lmao how should I kms fammmmm
>>27450516
>friend requesting self
Top kek
>>27451025
>it is scary, i cant think of myself in a formal work environment, it just seems so fake
Honestly, that's how it felt to me too. I was 20 when I got my first 'real' job. I didn't think that would ever happen or that it'd ever last.
The thing I learned real quickly is that my coworkers made life so much more enjoyable. I was still at work, but I was among my new friends. I've since left that job, and gone onto others, but I still retain my friends at the jobs I hop to. When you end up spending 8 hours of your day with someone, you get attached and end up sharing something in common.
I'm still friends with a few people I haven't worked with in years, but they're coming to visit me soon so I can show them around my new place.
It might seem overwhelming, but you take it one step at a time. First you get a job, then you make friends in your miserable experience - in order to make things better.
>>27451280
pic related
oh, regional comet
>>27451356
fuck me and cuck me i forgot the image
>>27451343
i just feel like theres something fundamentally wrong with me
if the real problem is when im home alone by myself, then what does that say about me?
i wont use this as an excuse to stagnate my life, but suicide just seems like an inevitability for me, whether it be a week from now or 10 years its gonna happen
>>27451489
I suppose only you can tell how bad it really is. But keep in mind that I'm 27 and still hanging in there. I feel excluded by friends at times, and certainly feel abandoned by my family.
All I can say is that when you're on your own you can appreciate the little things that used to be a part of everyday life:
Chips in the pantry
Soda in the fridge
Mom greeting you when she comes home from work
Other stupid shit that shouldn't have mattered
When you're on your own, you get a feel for how things truly were. I realized I didn't have it so bad once I moved out. I'm able to look back at that and remember that someone cared.
Maybe you just need to venture out on your own for a bit, anon. Do it while you're young. I'm too old to move back home, otherwise it'd be pathetic. I'm at the point where I have to make it or suck it up.
>>27451633
Sorry, delved a bit too deep into my own feels there for a moment.
What I mean is, do it while you're young and you can still move back in if you fail. Our generation has been coddled so much that we're afraid to even try things.
>>27451633
>>27451690
im in my last year of high school so moving out isn't really an option for me right now
i understand what you mean though, what im doing right now is clearly not working so maybe a push out of the nest would be nice for me
>>27451380
Wanna do number 1 together
>>27451769
not right now man
not right now
>>27451751
The most important thing is how you feel about things. Just know that there's no stigma for staying at home for a a year or so if you need to get your bearings.
Economically, it's been a terrible time to get out of highschool/college. Don't let this be your excuse, and certainly don't let this discourage you. You have resources at your disposal that others wished were even possible.
>>27451025
Yep I know what you mean bruh. In my case, things just kept happening to me that gave me permanent depression and mild ptsd for a lot of years of my life. Plus, my parents weren't great and they fought a lot even in front of us, they did not give any fucks. Eventually they broke up because my dad was an alcoholic and he has anger issues and I guess he cheated on my mom. I kind of miss him because when he was sober he was really smart and deep and he is a musical genius. I don't miss his abuse though, if only he never was like that. He is bipolar though, and first started drinking when he was 5 years old. His uncles gave him a beer and thought it was hilarious. Both of my parents were raised around that sort of stuff, and both definitely had a worse upbringing than I did though, I didn't ever really get hit a lot by my parents they mostly took it out on each other but still. It was a cycle, now my brothers are gangster abusive drunk drug addict assholes who I don't talk to because they're abusive and manipulative. Pretty much my life is shit and things happened beyond my control that scarred me and made me not trust people. Hell, who knows if I still would have had autism if I was normal. I had less interest in socialising from a really young age so maybe I was just destined to be a freak show. I sort of blame my parents for both being very introverted and pretty nerdy, combined it is no wonder I am how i am. I am the only autist or of my siblings though. They're all kind of normie apart from being kind of tough around the edges. I feel like I have such a low self esteem that as soon as i try to get a job or go back to school or put myself out there it terrifies me. Its just something you gotta do but I am not looking forward to it. Why can't I just die already? Oh yeah because i am god's cruel experiment where he just wants to challenge me and piss me off some more. The shit never ends.
>>27450437
She is perfect ;_; why is life suffering
>>27450437
A driving point for me is making my mom proud. I could care less about the rat race but I want my family to enjoys the spoils of my labor cause they were poor growing up
>>27451932
Same desu
Mass /r9k/ suicide when family
