>no gf for years
>finally have sex and it isn't anything special
>realize that I didn't even want sex, I was just giving in to peer pressure
Feels strangely liberating, yet also scary. I'm comfortable with the fact that I don't want a family, marriage, a relationship, etc. I honesty don't even have a desire for friendship, (I've had good friends in the past, and it was nice, but I don't go insane without friends, and have actually drifted away from friends lately)
Anyone in a similar boat? Fellow, schizoids, turbo-autists, and philosopher-kings, how do you deal? It's nice to have freedom from society's norms, but how do you stay grounded and keep from veering off to the point where people avoid you because they think you're a nut?
I mean, I just want to make nice money so I can have nice things and live the comfy life, but the good career paths require you to at least pretend to be a normie a little.
Maybe you're just with a girl that you don't really like. Does the idea of finding a girl who's just like you sound more appealing?
>>27426576
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>>27426610
>Does the idea of finding a girl who's just like you sound more appealing?
Not really. I mean, I have and have had friends who are girls who I liked, but I never wanted to have sex with them and always liked them platonically. Every time I've gotten into bed with a girl I didn't even like it and it felt forced. I think I'm just one of those lunatics who isn't wired to like sex.
>>27426576
Fuck OP, I'm actually in a very similar situation.
Was the sex from a LTR or just a hookup?
>>27426576
>realize that I didn't even want sex, I was just giving in to peer pressure
You were raped anon.
>>27426576
im high as shit but no this isnt any of that
its your biological response from not mating for years and finally doing it
think of a masturbation refractory period, just much much longer over the span of days,weeks(months?)
>>27426576
> how do you stay grounded and keep from veering off to the point where people avoid you because they think you're a nut?
4chan. if you go turbo autist mode people usually call you out on it
regarding your sex experience iv found almost everything in life to be like that.. its underwhelming and not worth the effort unless you're a braindead normie who just does "whats normal" without really evaluating
