What was the first time you remember wanting to die?
>Doesnt need to be greentext
I must have been around 10
Actually it was before that, I was about 6
I was bullied so much for being a genetic failure, my chad dad and stacy mum managed to create a monster.
I remember one day when I was about 6 and was in preparation for surgery so that people could bare looking at my face.
I was beaten up really bad on the play ground, blood, bruised bones, the lot. When I got up I chased one of the smaller bullies down and threw my bag at him, he fell over and I choked him out for about 40 seconds whilst everyone watched and a teacher finally pulled me off them, but they never helped me heh
any way I remember sitting in the medical room wanting to get my cuts and grazes plastered and the nurse told me to go away
I then went to the library to hide from everyone and the Liberian told me she didnt like me sitting in there every break and lunch
I banged my head against the wall repeatedly untill I couldnt think straight, she was yelling at me
I remember thinking when I laid on the floor and refused to move that I wish I was just dead.
I must have been about 7. I remember walking down the street and thinking that it'd be great to not exist anymore.
I was a really sad kid desu.
I was seven.
it was at recess, a bunch of classes were playing together because it was a field day or something.
I tried to join in every activity that was going on, and every group told me to fuck off.
I finally gave u and sat in the grass by myself.
I remember thinking, "If no one let's me play with them even on field day, then no one is ever going to like me."
And I was right.
>>27397636
this makes me sad
I always tried to be involved
I wasnt even fucking bad at the things we were doing
I was decent at sports but I was told to fuck off and I was basically forced into doing nothing physical and becoming fat and a recluse .
I always wondered why, now I know its simply because I was ugly
fuck me dude I will kill myself within the week
First year of high school, when everything started going downhill. Depression meds have fucked up my memory, so I can't remember exact details
>>27397327
>>27397636
Learn to greentext you newfag scum.
about 4 or 5, looking at my window thinking about jumping
i came to the conclusion that i was too young and i could miss something good
i was wrong
>>27397835
I greentexted in the fucking original post
this is somber not a fuckiing meme you dip >>>>.
>>27397873
Doesn't make you any less cancerous you fucking Redditard.
4
but as always im a suicide procrastinater
>>27397893
>haha meme.
le calling people reddit on a image board about Taiwanese sowing
>>27397553
I used to fantasize when I was a little kid about how much easier life would be without me, no one would miss me because I never existed.
Then for a while i fantasized "wouldn't it be great if I just died or someone replaced me somehow?"
I really don't understand how someone can sit back and look at life, and say that it's really worth it.
>>27397967
I get this one
Remember all those tv shows like the simpsons or random other kids shows with episodes about a person not being born and it being worse or empty.
I thought about how it I would make it better in everyway, life is empty with me and it wouldnt suffer without.
I wish I had died in place of tyrone my friend, loads of people went to his funeral
I doubt 20 would have gone to mine
>>27397835
>tfw you realize you've been conditioned to only read greentext
>>27397327
I tried to choke myself when I was about 8, didn't work and I just escaped through vidya from there on.
>>27397327
I was 11 and I was afraid of going to school, because the minichad ALWAYS bullied me, and I was a pussy and never fight back.
>>27398107
tfw to depressed to even load vidya and if I do I turn it off whilst its loading
>>27398051
I just think, is there something wrong with us? how can people be so careless and hollow and just keep on going, yet they are all so thin-skinned and emotional? It makes no sense to me.
>>27398166
yeah iktf. I'd like to say that I grew out like a cool guy but in reality it's because I get to caught up in image boards or it's because most games are complete shit.
I've got PC parts that have been sat on my wardrobe for 3 years now but since all I do is browse imageboards, what's the point?
Probably eleven. A lot of people called me gay because of my autistic, faggoty behavior so I began to think that maybe it was true and after a while realized that I wasn't straight. Realizing that I wouldn't be accepted and I was universally reviled made me want to do it, as well as generally being a worthless person good at nothing with no redeeming qualities whatsoever. I got as far as thinking about jumping headfirst from the second story of the house.
Now I have no angst over not being straight anymore whatsoever, but I want to die for being so worthless and pathetic still.
>>27397701
>I got fat because they didn't let me be active
i mean jesus this is r9k but what a blaming little shit you are
I tried to jump out of a window when I was 5. Just curious about what it would be like to die. My mom grabbed me though.
>>27397327
i don't remember that part from the show. was there an ova or smthing?
>>27398378
Nah he's right. Your current physical state up until you are ~30 is the fault of your parents.
I was 4 and sat at the kitchen table and thought I wanted to kill myself. I remember feeling sad and worthless even a year or two before that, though.
>>27398378
I mean what was the point of doing exercise if I was laughed at for it
sure now I could try but I dont really know how to, my bones are weak, my fat is heavy. It would take 10x more effort for me to do starjumps than a normal person and its because I got pushed away and became unfit
>>27398500
I think it's from the PS2 game, actually.
I can't even remember properly. Must have been somewhere between me beeing 9-11. I've been bullied all my life for being different than other kids.
I was always way smarter and way ahead of myself. And you know how cruel kids are. So my first thoughts of suicide must have been between years 9-11.
When I was 5, my Christmas list only had "I wish I never existed", inspired by a Fairly Oddparents episode. I used to get beaten up by my brother pretty often and I had just found out that the financial burden of my existence is what drove my parents to divorce.
>>27399127
I am glad you added more info but why did you DELET, your last comment was fine if you werent sure
>>27399148
I didn't specify the list was for Christmas, and I thought anons would wonder why I just had a paper saying I wanted to die lying around.
>>27397327
>Be 8
>Have had chronic migraine since birth
>This day was worse than usual
>Threw up several times and had a hard time to breathe because of the pain
>Sat in the shower huddled to a ball
>Prayed to God or who ever was up there to end my sufferings one way or another
