>At some party
>I don't really know anyone that well and just end up sat on this couch in the middle of the apartment
>I just sit there drinking while managing the occasional small talk with people who sit down on the couch
>All the people socialising and here I am sat alone on some shitty couch trying to build up the courage to talk to people
>Alcohol just has a depressing effect on me
>I feel like I'm going to scream so I head home
>Walking home I stop and sit on a bench, I stay there for a few hours just looking at the stars
Why was I given this existence? I can't function in society, all I do is go to classes, study, be awkward at social events and then shitpost on a Japanese frog posting website.
All I really want from life is to find someone who is like me. Someone who will have my back and really understand my mindset towards a lot of things. I don't really think a woman like that will ever pass into my life, it kind of feels like I have no one in this life
>>27391652
Either you were born like that, so you kill urself.
Either people made you like that during your childhood. Then you hunt and kill these people.
Go to work you stupid worthless unifag
fuck you, I wont do what you tell meme
>>27391652
>Someone who will have my back and really understand my mindset towards a lot of things
I found someone like that. I was kinda like you, I had friends, I got invited to parties and shit but always felt like I was stuck on the outside looking in. If there was every someone they forgot to invite or whatever, it'd always be me. Through highschool, through uni, always. And conversations ... fuck conversations, I can get through any interview and make perfect small talk but god anything more than tat feels awkward as fuck.
Then one day I met this girl. She wasn't 9/10 but she was cute enough. Complete nerd. Super friendly and super always so happy. She was wonderful. Literally the only person I've been able to talk to comfortably. Thank god II had an unlimited phone plan because we'd call each other for hours every day. I can't explain how nice it was to finally have someone with whom conversation didn't feel like dragging myself over broken glass.
We shared enough interests to always have something to do together with enough differences to show each other something new. She was cute, funny (mostly unintentionally), talented af, kind, ambitious, devoted, adorable and head-over-heels in love with me, oh and she was just the right amount of socially awkward. Naturally we were each others firsts for pretty much everything. We had 7 years like some kind of picture-perfect saccharine fairytale.
Now she's probably fucking some random douchebag.
I've hooked up since then. Hell, just last week I bagged two girls in one night but god I miss that companionship.
>>27392346
She sounds like a normie and so do you.
>>27391652
I empathize, OP.
I don't have the answers though. You can take all kinds of theories and perspectives to the situation but in the end all people like us can do is persevere and hope for gradual self-improvement.
If the Great Will has loneliness in store for you then bear it as best you can.
Norms please go to work and wagecuck or something
We robots can't even get invited to parties even if we ask.
