>>27385205
That kid's skull is fucked

I am too dependent on my mother and my love for her is also slipping away too

I cried when I thought about her dying today, though. So it's still there, it's just buried underneath bullshit, judgment (like I have the right to judge anyone) and anger.

>>27385559
hahahaaha im not crazy man, I just cant remember or I don't know if what you call love I call like friendship or something

>>27385596
When I image my mother dying though I think about hearing it one day, like on a phone call, and laughing and smiling, but I don't think I would feel that way. I think I wouldn't feel loss to her, but rather I'd worry about the rest of my family and how they would function without her

>>27385670
I think this way too. Like being set free or something. I think that's mostly bullshit, though, and it'd make me realize how fucked up my empty thought processes really are.

In practice I think I'd get all broken up about it, but not for very long. I also think the idea of just how alone I -really- am would settle in at that point and it would be very jarring.

After that, I would probably collect my thoughts and kill myself as planned. I would most likely be a lot more afraid of dying, but I guess that's just another test.

>>27385802
yeah ill admit, death does scare me, I might say I want to die, but I doubt I'll ever go through with it, I'm probobly too much of a pussy to ever do it, and I think being conscious is better than not existing