https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v6rUTlbaSkA

you could try this

Let the youthful soul look back with the question: what have you truly loved up to now, what has elevated your soul, what has mastered it and at the same time delighted it? Place these venerated objects before you in a row, and perhaps they will yield for you, through their nature and their sequence, a law, the fundamental law of your true self. Compare these objects, see how one complements, expands, surpasses, transfigures another, how they form a stepladder upon which you have climbed up to yourself as you are now; for your true nature lies, not hidden deep within you, but immeasurably high above you, or at least above that which you normally take to be yourself.

>>27380308
sink so low for so long that when you finally scrape the bottom, a glass of orange juice will seem like a miracle

>>27380308
Abandon everything, disregard consequences

go to montalk.net and /fringe/ and enjoy either being brainwashed or actually finding genuine knowledge