Fantasize about killing myself almost every day. I think how funny it would be if I jumped in front of a truck when I'm walking down the street.

I'll never actually do it I am too pussy, but I guess it helps for me to somewhat visualize it

>>27364489
I used to do that about killing everyone, but I've lost the motivation to even think that anymore.

I play video games and drown myself in liquor and smoke alot of weed.
I work out as well. At the end of the day Im not that guy that goes to the gym because "my mind just clears bro" its just a habit. I still hate myself and my life. I wake up every morning wishing I didn't. I don't have any friends, my mom wants me to move out, don't have alot of money and wageslave 2 jobs.
Been like this for awhile and Im driving myself insane. Literally I don't talk to anyone because my jobs are more asocial and by myself.

>>27364451
As Louis C. K. said you'll spend most of existence dead, so even though anhedonia is a part of daily life everyday has the potential for something new. Those things may be interesting, and that's enough.

WTF!!! IS A SEXY NIGGA CAT

>>27364451
kind of relate, I'm just studying because I don't want to starve to death and my parents won't support me forever. I just wanna go to work and then come back to my house to play vidya every time I can. Fuck life I only enjoy playing videogames all day

Welcome to humanity nigger. Its meaningless boredom with specks of intense emotion.