I'm pretty fucked up you guys. I don't know what's wrong with me.
>Be me, 21 virgin
>Using the whisper app on my phone
>A girl wants a hook up near by.
>things work out and I'm nervous
>Go over to her place which is a 45 minute walk
>get there and it's awkward right from the start
>she is easy 250 pounds but fuck it, wanna lose it
>no idea how to start, she just leads after half an hour of just sitting by each other not talking and watching tv
>go to the bedroom, lights off
>I can hear her breathing cause how tired she is moving around
>panties and bra off
>wants me to go down on her
The stench I can only describe as 3 month old tuna, Thank Christ the lights are off so I had no idea what I was looking at
>she squirts and soaks my face
"tee hee, you're good"
>I'm dying to leave
>she tries to give me a bj and I can't get it up thank the lord
>she forces me to put on a condom anyway
>doesn't work out
>we just "cuddle" for what seems like hours and all I can hear is her heavy breathing and smell 3 month old tuna
>finally decide to put clothes on
>put jeans on and we try to find the condom I put on
>take a step on her bed and my pants rip from my buckle to my knee
after that I just said we should do it again, then left and never spoke about it again. I'm still gagging from the experience. If I had any doubt I was gay it has all but been washed away. MFW after the whole experience.
Gay sex best sex
>>27347624
could be worse desu you manage it well
You're going to love sucking your first clean delicious dick. It's infinitely better in every way to a vagina. Even the cleanest vagina smells and tastes like disgusting rotting fish. Boypussy is also delicious and way more hygienic
>>27347868
OP here, this one time when I was young and just discovered porn with my friends we all masturbated together. That's about as gay as I've gotten.
>>27347624
>>take a step on her bed and my pants rip from my buckle to my knee
I don't get this
>>27347944
Basically, we put our clothes on and were looking for the condom. Turns out the house I was in, she was baby sitting so it was some other peoples bed. We had to find the condom I had on cause she'd get in trouble.
So I went to step on the bed to get into the corner to look under pillows and my pants split.
>>27347624
>females can get lonely the said
>>27347984
>she was baby sitting
>not searching for the kid to redeem yourself
You are a faggot
op, I had a similar experience losing my virginity recently
It was vile. I feel physically ill thinking about it. And the worst part, I will never be able to take it back. It was meant for someone special. Instead it was wasted and I'm too repulsed to think about trying it again. I wish I waited to find someone real. Now I'm just disgusted with life and any prospects of future romance.
>>27347624
> force myself to hit on girl so i can get laid
> anxious as fuck
> cant get it up
> spaghetti and shame
> remember experience for weeks/months/years
> anxiety compounds
> worry builds for the next girl
iv more or less given up now
OP you cant enjoy sex unless you're relaxed, that might be the problem. that said, you've got more experience now so just chalk it up to a bad date and be proud you've taken action
>>27347984
>my pants split
wtf does this mean though that's what I don't get
you stretched your pants during a sudden movement and tore them open?
if so why does the story end with this random information so abruptly
wtf
>>27348162
HOLY FUCK!
Because THATS THE END!
My pants ripped open and I used it as an excuse to leave.
Would you like me to tell you about how I walked home was my balls in the wind?
>>27348193
wow no need to get so aggressive pal I was just asking for a clarification
>>27348235
sorry, I didn't mean to upset you. we cool right
>>27348250
yea, you can suck my dick
