Where did it all go wrong for you? Why are you such a mess?
I just couldn't make friends and college and lost all my friends from high school. I'm anxious and all alone.
>>27337373
Birth. I have a fucked up skeletal system. I'm a man with the hips of a woman. I can't dress like a regular human male. I only recently realized. Planning on killing myself once I work up the courage or my life becomes sufficiently miserable. Who wants proof?
>>27337387
Me.
Originalo family.
>>27337373
When I was born to two dysfunctional shitskin underachieving parents with all kinds of genetically inferior traits and beta/stupid lifestyles
Someday I'll kill my father
>>27337383
literally this
I was by no means a social butterfly in high school, but I had a group of friends that I was comfortable with. Then I went off to college and couldn't make friends to save my life
I want change but feel powerless to act. years of neetdom didn't help either.
I was raised by the internet. I was destined to be a fuck up.
>>27337373
There was that con the same day as my 18th birthday... I wanted to go then I realised I had no friends, from there I began to feel super bad whenever I'd remember I was going to be 18 and had no friends...
It may sound stupid, but that was the trigger... After that, clinical depression etc...
>Where did it all go wrong for you?
The beginning of middle school. I am unable to socialize or make friends like normal people. I have one friend from grade school. No one wants to be my friend and I'm not really interested in having friends. I literally only find two subjects interesting and no one cares to hear me go on about them. So I remain alone and always will.
>>27337373
I was introverted kid in kindergarden. Never made any friends therefore i have no social skills needed now.
>>27337373
Finished high school, thought I'd take a year off or two to just play vidya, sleep, etc, have fun basically. Never got back on the school grind and its six years later now, dun 4got muh math and all dat shiet, so dont know what to do. No motivation to go back still. Oh yeah, started drinking when I turned 21 because I could buy my own alcohol, that didn't help, don't drink anymore but still a useless son of the bitch.
I got really into the internet at age 9-10. Each new school year I was paler and more autist but it wasn't too noticeable because we were 10 year olds and nobody gave a shit. When it was time for middle school I had to go to the opposite one as all my friends and I became a complete sperg, to the point where I'm pretty sure some people thought I was autistic. Around that time I discovered 4chan and things have been bad since
I am literally just lazy. I had all the tools to make a great life.
A Hell you can leave is the worst.
>>27337462
holy fuck almost word for word me
>>27337387
> I'm a man with the hips of a woman
I hate having a feminine figure. Plus mens shirts don't look good on me, its like they don't fit well. On the other hand I look great in female attire
>>27337450
that's called autism
originalio
>>27337450
>I literally only find two subjects interesting
What are they?
>>27337517
I don't think I'm actually autistic because I'm decent socially i.e. self aware. I can't maintain a conversation, but I never say anything cringeworthy and I can answer questions without sperging out.
>>27337523
I really likeSilent HillandTom Waits.
>>27337373
>Where did it all go wrong for you? Why are you such a mess?
I got redpilled too early in my life.
>>27337466
>tfw not ugly, stupid, or particularly inept socially
>parents willing to house me and pay for school
>instead decide its too much work and leech for as long as possible, will probably either become homeless or get a shitty job I hate and kill myself
Not even depressed. I just hate working. If I am not doing something I enjoy I am miserable and all I can think of is leaving.
>tfw literally no excuse
>>27337373
From birth. Having physical and mental impairments mean I've always been trying to climb the hill towards normal.
These days I'm wise enough to know I'll never reach the summit.
>>27337582>tom waits
hell yeah mah nigga
>>27337590
translation: he caught the mgtow autism at birth
Ever since my aunt died. She had been fighting cancer for several years, and my young self was convinced she'd make it. Obviously, she didn't, and I never visited her as much as I should have.The last time I saw her conscious, she was in a motorized wheelchair and couldn't move at all. She cried when I said goodbye. Within a week, she slipped into a coma, and a few days after that, passed away.
The voices started after the funeral. They were with me for about 3 years, before I sought help through the usual means of being found on my college quad with my wrists slit open.
Jeb is a mess
But seriously OP, some people are born a mess, others are made a mess, and some have messiness bestowed upon them.
There is no one moment, it's literally all of them.
Every choice I've ever made has been a mistake, and there's no way to stop.
>>27337777
sagacious quads
>>27337777
Jeb is a mistake.
>>27337831
Nice diction
