How many of you other people out there were abused (beaten or raped) as a child? Do you think that's what made you so cynical? Do you think physical punishment on children is ever justified?
I myself was raped so I can't speak to the beating part of the question. The rape really fucked me up. I've been struggling and seeing a psychiatrist about paedophilic attractions that I've started to have towards boys around the age at which I was raped. This shit infects you like a zombie bite.
>>27315060
There is no ignorance, there is knowledge.
A child should not be punished for not understanding a code of conduct until they reach a reasonable age. Sexual contact without consent between any two people is unforgivable on the part of the aggressor party.
Science has demonstrated that physically abusing your children does not benefit them in any way. In all actuality, it's counterproductive.
>>27315159
Agreed, anon. Children shouldn't be punished for simply being unaware of what is proper conduct. Obviously, rape isn't ever justified or forgiveable. Neither is "consensual" sex with a minor even if you manipulate them into agreeing to it.
>>27315060
Don't have my own story but BUMP
>>27315159
Peace is a lie there is only passion.
>>27315438
I'm not sure what that's even supposed to mean...
Did anything happen to you as a child?
>>27315481
Through passion I gain stregnth!
>>27315746
"Through passion I gain strength". What are you talking about, anon?
Tell us about the rape
>>27316399
Here's a greentext. It's separated when it gets detailed and gross if you want to stop there:
>Grew up in a small town
>My parents were familiar with most staff at my school
>One night we had a science fair and both my parents had to work
>My parents arranged that my teacher would bring me home, they knew him and went to school together as kids
>He is in charge of cleaning the gym after it's over
>He has me help him before he brings me home
>We finish and are in the storage room
>He asks me straight up if I touch myself
>Says he'll do it
>I say no but he ignores me
>He locks the storage room with us both inside
>It just gets dark and disgusting from here on in
>He pulled up a stack of gym mats and laid them out
>Grabbed me around the waist and forcefully kissed me
>Pulled my pants down and fondled me while kissing
>Put his fingers in my behind
>Took his own pants off then laid on the mat with me on top
>Kissed me for what felt like an eternity
>Flipped me over then stuck it in doggy position
>The rape lasted around 20 minutes but felt like forever
>It gave me a boner and made me cum for the first time in my life, shamefully
>>27316457
Bretty hot. Gotta make it more interesting tho, this is a very classic rape story.
>>27316491
I'm not going to make shit up or be overly detailed just to entertain you.
Did anything happen to you?
well i was abused. most of my childhood friends were abused too. the thing is, it really wasnt considered abuse back in the 80's when i grew up. i remember getting whipped with the belt like 30 times till my ass bled, locked in closets, locked in car trunks, beaten in the grocery store, and it was just considered normal back then. id see it happening to other kids too who misbehaved. its like families in my neighborhood would hang out with other families, and the grown ups would drink and play cards together, while the kids all played together. thats what we did every weekend. and if one of the kids got out of line, the parent would beat them in front of everyone. it was humiliating and embarassing. thats just how things worked. and everyone was ok with it.
>>27316524
Are you a minority from a minority neighbourhood?
That type of physical punishment (to the point of bleeding) wasn't common back then for us.
>>27315060
only self-rape
I always wanted some hot adult woman to rape me but I guess I was too disgusting even back then
>>27316514
Lol no, I was the giver if you know what I'm talking about ;)
>>27316713
What, you jacked it or did you anal yourself? What the Hell do you mean by self rape?
>>27316743
So you're a boy-loving paedo? Were you abused as a child or did your perversion come out of nowhere?
My dad would get drunk every so often, pull out his belt and beat the shit out of me. Funny how it stopped when I was around 12-13 when I was at the age when I'd start fighting back. Kinda made me snap anytime I saw someone picking on someone smaller than them because it reminded me of my childhood and people with power complexes.
I guess as a "lasting effect" you could say I got into a ton of fights with guys in high school because it would piss me off to no end to see them picking on people.
>>27315060
I was molested by a cousin when I was 5. It didn't adversely affect me. It's just kind of weird and funny to think about.
>>27316845
Not boys. Come on we're not fags here. I just like the size difference and the forbidden fruit aspect of it. Guess I slid down the slippery slope of porn.
my dad would smack me around and then tell me that he loved me and that the way he punished me was how he showed that he loved his children. It kinda fucked me up I guess, it makes me really angry when people say they love me and I'm not too big on affection in general because it always had such a backwards meaning to me.
>>27316884
same here anon. it weirds me out to think about but I wouldn't call myself traumatized
>>27316903
You were the one calling my story hot when it was about a man raping a boy...
>>27316884
I guess that molestation won't traumatize somebody as much as full on rape does.
>>27315060
Most American men were strapped to a table after birth while someone cut half the skin off their penises. If you don't call that abuse, you're insane.
>>27316847
It's nice to hear that you stood up for yourself and stood up for others, anon.
>>27316932
That was a joke, of course we're fags
>>27316917
That's some twisted shit. How can a parent ever abuse their children? Why would you not love them and want the best for them, I just don't get it?
>>27316969
Quit being so dramatic about circumcision. It's the norm here in Canada, too.
>>27316980
Test:
Does this give you an erection?
>>27315060
>How many of you other people out there were abused (beaten or raped) as a child?
Both of my parents beat the shit out of me. I grew up in a fundamentalist Christian household. Everything was "ungodly." Couldn't have certain friends, couldn't listen to certain music, etc. Basically, I wasn't allowed to be a kid.
My father was a chronic alcoholic. Used to wake me and my brother up in the middle of the night and beat us for no reason other than "we needed it."
>Do you think that's what made you so cynical?
Maybe. But I wasn't all that cynical growing up. Just withdrawn. I believed (and still believe) that a lot of households were very similar to mine, at least as far as the corporal abuse is concerned. That lead me to a more cynical outlook.
Children don't really stand a chance in this world. Their parents are setting them up for failure by mistreating them, then they grow up and repeat the cycle with their own children because that's all they know. What's the purpose of this so-called civilized / "traditional" lifestyle that we're so desperate to preserve? We may as well drop the bombs and put everyone out of their collective misery.
>Do you think physical punishment on children is ever justified?
This shouldn't be open for debate. I think I would kill or severely maim any adult I witnessed hitting a child.
>>27316954
well there were unsuccessful attempts at anal, but it involved alot of peepee sucking on my part
>>27317104
Hypocrite "Christians" who tarnish the name of my religion are some of the worst people out there. They preach the word of God than abuse others.
Talking about repeating the cycle, I can understand it. Abuse as a child (physical/sexual) I think will make something snap in a lot of people's minds. Just like man-boy paedophilia turns into a horrible cycle of victim to abuser.
I agree. Nothing can be accomplished by physical punishment that can't just be accomplished by explaining what the child did wrong.
>>27315438
Lol you goddamn siths are everywhere
>>27317112
Fuck, that just pulled something out of the back of my mind that I wish I never remembered.
The teacher who raped me had been making me suck him off after school for most of the school year before the rape...
He'd say I had detention, close the blinds and kiss me and molest me. My mind would just shut off.
>>27315060
my mom had a boyfriend who lived with us. he used to beat me and my brother up sometimes. He molested my brother a lot as well. I only got molested once but the memory is very faint.
Thankfully he left when I was 13 (2006) and he never came back.
>>27316524
Sounds like how niggers act. Nobody I grew up with in the 80's was ever touched by their parents.
We were white people.
>>27317262
How would he molest you two? Could you report it now without the statute of limitations or lack of evidence screwing your case? Punish the fucker.
>>27317260
>>27317260
siths arent child molesters, we only fight and kill jedi's
>>27316457
>It gave me a boner
WTF? Anon, are you gay? That sounds weird in a rape situation.
>>27315159
>>27315438
>>27315746
I literally just exited Kotor less than five minutes ago. Spooky.
>>27317398
Not just a boner. It was also my first orgasm.
He was relatively small for a man so it wasn't painful, just unwelcome and stimulating.
No, I'm not gay. I don't find men attractive in the slightest.
It is weird for a rape. I think it was only able to make me cum because I just shut off my mind and thought of other things. The feeling and a blank mind made it possible.
>>27317398
what is forced orgasm? you twat
>>27315159
>Science has demonstrated that physically abusing your children does not benefit them in any way. In all actuality, it's counterproductive.
TAKE THE PAIN AND KILL EVERYONE WITH IT
>>27317261
>My mind would just shut off.
well besides how bad i thought it tasted, i just thought about how long it was going to be until i got to play vidya again
>>27317037
Yeah, and Canada is gay as fuck. Your point?
>>27317458
It's not such a big deal. I don't blame him for being surprised that it could do that to me.
Are you so offended because it happened to you, too?
i got molested and raped too, why does it seem like a common thing to me?
>>27315060
i was molested once. i don't think it fucked me that hard because i just got lick and over my face that's it. i still feel disgusted by it.
>>27317338
honestly I left it in my brothers hands, He'd molest my brother at night after we went to bed. we slept in different rooms.
But I haven't had anything to do with him (my brother) for years, he left home in 2009 and I haven't seen him since.
One thing I don't know is whether my mom was aware of it or not. She has claimed that he's dead a few times over the years, but how she would know that I have no idea.
my brother also despises my mom and I think all that is why. but he never told me why.
>>27317493
Not even. My mind would just go blank, like it was preconditioning itself for repressing what was about to happen.
Honestly it was the least worst thing he had me do. I always had an oral fixation. I always need to chew something.
>>27315792
He's being a huge retard right now
>>27317494
We're alright, but Troodoo is a cuck.
Trump, 2016.
>>27317536
It's because it's all too common, buddy. Has it made you struggle with paedophilia?
>>27317578
Referencing something, I assume.
>>27316847
a perfect pic for you anon
>>27316847
It made you a hero anon and real human bean
>>27317550
Don't just let it go. If you and your brother report it to police and give his name, then they should be able to find him so long as your memories are clear enough to be sufficient evidence.
>>27317001
>That's some twisted shit. How can a parent ever abuse their children? Why would you not love them and want the best for them, I just don't get it?
Over stressed or just cruel people
>>27317705
It's so important that people learn healthy ways to cope with their stress during their development. If you don't it leads to shit like abusive relationships.
>>27317620
no, but it made me feel like i want to be used and mistreated the older i got and now i am pretty sure ill never have any kind of healthy relationship with anyone ever again.
shits fucked up
>>27317643
That's where this meme comes from.
>>27317643
no, not this time.
>>27317797
I guess it fucks victims up in different ways...
I think the paedophilia is some sort of jealousy and regression at the back of my mind. Like I want to take power from another child and be them. Like I want their innocence, to take it from them...
That shit's fucked up, too.
>>27317679
my own memory isn't clear. It'd be down to my brother to get anything done, I did speak to him a few months ago (never saw him in person). I will mention it to him when I can.
>>27317846
Carl the Cuck and his bro, Aids Skrillex, are beautiful summarizing memes of the typical Sanders supporter.
>>27317872
You two aren't close?
Well, when you see him next you should sit him down and discuss it. The prick deserves punishment. Don't let him get away with it.
>>27317104
>We may as well drop the bombs and put everyone out of their collective misery.
Agree
>>27317200
>Hypocrite "Christians" who tarnish the name of my religion are some of the worst people out there
religious people are the biggest hypocrites ever
I was never raped or beaten. I was spanked until I was like 10 or something. I'm not a huge fan of spanking, also I don't believe it makes kids turn into great adults. I'm not saying it should be illegal
>>27317951
oh no, not at all. from late 2009-late 2015 we never spoke even once, online or offline. he contacted me out of the blue back in september, but it was brief and we haven't spoke much since then. we didn't get on much as kids either, he bullied me quite a bit.
But I will say something to him when I can.
>>27318046
Ones that tout traditional values and make a big deal about their religion and then go around breaking all of their peaceful tenets... they're the worst.
>>27318057
Spanking is not such big a deal so long as the parents didn't attempt to seriously hurt their child and only used it as a last result. I don't think it's necessary, though.
>>27317642
http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/Code_of_the_Sith
>>27318066
Don't hold his bullying of you against him, anon. Think of where the anger must have come from.
You two should try to get together and forgive your issues.
>>27318170
The new movie was such a disappointment. It was entirely a rehash of the original.
>>27315060
Bumping this thread because I want to see other stories.
>>27315060
People treat children worse than dogs. It's ridiculous what some people consider "necessary" for a good upbringing. Old people always throw cheap shots like "we need to bring back ass whoopings and this generation will get back in line" but the problems in our current society can't be fixed by simple beatings. It's much more complex...why a lot of us are fucked up nowadays.
>>27318571
A person who's willing to rape a boy, knowing full well that the total control it takes and mental damage that it does to them (so many become struggling paedos themselves) deserve the death penalty. I'm right there with you when you say that old people try to justify physical abuse, but the people who are proud to be paedos and act on it are even worse.
>>27318179
oh, don't worry. I don't. But I'm not sure we'll ever be close. I have 2 other siblings (both are much older) who I have nothing to do with as well. I just don't come from a close family.
>>27318696
Well, all I can say is that it couldn't hurt to try to establish a relationship with him. Good luck prosecuting that fucker, anon.
>>27317642
>he doesn't know star wars
pleb
>>27318818
I do know Star Wars, just never thought it was all that special and never watched anything other than the movies.
>>27318663
I was thinking more along the lines of corporal punishment rather than rape. Everyone thinks rape is wrong at any age, but somehow it's acceptable to hit humans under 18. It's also funny parents will try to redefine the word "hit" so that it doesn't include the physical punishment they are inflicting (eg., "it's spanking not hitting). And apparently if you're not a parent you're not allowed to have an opinion on the mistreatment of children by their parents because "when you have kids you'll understand." I've been raised without being hit and I'm sure if I was hit I would have turned out much worse at the very least.
>>27318876
My parents never laid a finger on me in a harmful way, although I never really did anything to get myself in trouble. The parents who think that they own their children and that they shouldn't have to justify how they treat their children to others annoy me to no end. They're your offspring, not your pets.
>>27315060
Bumping for another time.
I was beaten often as a child, and my stepdad molested me.
I constantly feel like a dirty worthless whore even though I'm a virgin if you ignore my stepdad. I fuck up dates with girls and boys because I freeze whenever someone wants to kiss me.
I don't think I'm ugly, people say I'm very cute (tiny asian girl benefits) and I'm going to college for a STEM major but... I just can't date people. My abuse fucked me up.
I know I'm doing fairly okay in life and could get a boyfriend or a girlfriend if I tried, but I just can't do it. I cry at so many things I'm a mess.I read fucked up mindbreak rape lolicon manga and imagine I'm the little girl again. I don't even have high standards for a boyfriend, I just want a guy that would rape me and beat me ip everyday. I miss the pain. None of my friends would ever let that happen though.
>>27319475
I feel for you. It must have sucked living with the person who abused you.
I know how hard it is to be intimate with others. After a year-and-a-half I had to break up with my GF because I just couldn't bring myself to have sex with her.
I have the same problem with having a sick perversion and attachment to my abuse, although it's the other why around. The man forced an orgasm from me, but I didn't enjoy it. I struggle with an attraction to boys as young as I was when I was raped. I'd never harm another kid, though. I won't let this sick gay paedo cycle continue with me.
>>27319475
>tiny asian girl
>I read fucked up mindbreak rape lolicon manga and imagine I'm the little girl again.
>I just want a guy that would rape me and beat me ip everyday.
pls be in london
>>27315060
>How many of you other people out there were abused (beaten or raped) as a child?
I guess I was kind of beaten/molested bymy older sister, which is probably why I can't stand being around women. Honestly, just being near women makes me feel kind of sick at times, and it's fucked up my relationship potential, but at this point I don't even care, in fact I'd argue that not dealing with women is saving me a lot of trouble.
>Do you think that's what made you so cynical?
Probably, I don't trust most women, but I don't have that much of an issue with guys.
>Do you think physical punishment on children is ever justified?
Anything beyond spanking is never justified.
>>27315060
I wasn't raped but I was molested and beat by my older brother rather frequently. For what ever reason he was sent to live with our uncle when he was 12 I can only think he was molested too which is why he was doing it at such a young age still doesn't damper my hatred for him or the male gender. The only good thing to come from it is once lesbians hear my story I guess they consider me one of the girls because it usually leads to me dating them even though my original intent was to just be there friend
>>27319973
>>27319986
Interesting that you too have hatreds for the opposite gender for nearly the exact same reason. It should teach you something about how unfair your hatred is. There are horrible people with penises and horrible people with vaginas.
>>27320060
Ehh, I don't hate women, I just don't trust them.
My sickness doesn't come from hatred, I don't think, I think it has more to do with anxiety than anything else.
But, I just save a lot of headache not dealing with women anyways, especially considering how bitchy so many of them are.
>>27320238
Women are certainly a headache. They can't ever just be straightforward.
>>27318744
thanks, and thanks for responding. and sorry for the late reply. was playing wow.
I was beaten a lot as a kid and used a stress relief. Mother tried to kill me a few times.
I remember other kids asking me if I'm getting beaten at home and making a remark that's why I'm quiet and silent all the time.
I don't know if that's the reason of all of my problems. I try to push forward to live a normal life, but it's painful.
I don't trust anyone and I'm afraid they'd beat me if I contradict them.
>>27317455
I'm sorry anon, if it really did happen, but you oughta know better than to post that here.
>>27315060
t. someone never bitten by a zombie
I didn't want to post about this but i got molested, it happened over the course of about 3 years when I was 11 to 13. He also abused me and my family in other ways, and hes still around just in jail at the moment. I'm not attracted to kids although I wish i were one, I kind of missed out on parts of my childhood where I should have just been a normal kid. Also it limited my contact with the opposite sex because he said if I ever talked to a boy he'd kill him. I believed him. I used to cut myself and I am addicted to drugs but according to everyone its my fault I don't have a job and don't go to school.
Honestly, most of the problems in this generation are caused by not being beaten enough
>>27320444
I'm explaining it so that others who may have had the same thing happen to them and are reading this know not to be ashamed.
You can't control how your body reacts.
>getting spanked as kid
>think I'll laugh and show how tough I am
>dad smacks me so hard I literally can't sit
>>27320484
t. someone who experienced much worse.
I rather be dead and have a walking corpse then be a paedo.
I got beaten a lot and sometimes badly i have been homeless twice after my father who used to beat me ran off.
When i was younger my mothers boyfriend tried touching my brother i pulled a knife on him and came close to gutting him after that my mom cleaned up her act.
Life's been going well for me now i have friends and my own home with a decent income so it worked out in the end. My brother has never had to know how much I protected him
>>27320567
Aw shit, did that too.
>getting beaten/threatened
>laugh
>now if someone threatens me I laugh and laugh
>>27320560
No its just i wouldn't post about something so personal and you know, sensitive. You're going to get bullied by people here. I guess it is brave of you though, because you don't care
>>27320530
I don't know much of your personal situation, and I'm sure you know this logically, but I feel it may help you just to hear it from somebody.
It's not your fault.
>>27320606
>start laughing
>'oh you think it's funny'
>>27320619
I honestly don't care. This is an anonymous forum. If people make fun, it's rather inconsequential.
>>27320619
Posting anonymously is a great relief imo.
>>27320648
For me it had different effect.
>start laughing
>parent calls me crazy
>>27320326
Yea, though I oddly relate more with kids, which I guess isn't that surprising.
>>27320601
You sound like a great older sibling. Good to hear that everything turned out better in the end.
>>27320683
Oh damn, I relate more to kids too. I wasn't molested, just beaten.
>>27320676
It is a nice relief. Especially here where I can explain how it perverted me without being judged.
>>27320619
Dude, no one gets bullied here for being molested.
At worst you'll have some anons that fap to it, which isn't that bad, shit, I still occasionally fap to some of the memories.
>>27320683
Well, kids are straightforward and innocent.
As they say, much wisdom often comes out of the mouths of children.
>>27320697
I have problems relating to my friends since i now live in a fairly well off area and they don't know what its like. Otherwise it could be worse and i know those who had worse done to them.
>>27320755
I have, too. Sometimes I picture myself back at the school with the teacher kissing me and me straddling him being raped. I fap then bawl like a baby...
>>27316457
i remember you from like a month or two ago
you got mad because someone asked you to tell the story
>>27320834
Most likely because it wasn't out of curiosity and sympathy, but rather sick perversion and want of fap material.
Now I just don't care.
>>27315060
Me and my sister got molested and abused by our babysitter's son when we were younger but it hasn't really affected us, except that we're really close.
>>27320795
Yea, I can at least take solace in the fact that I was diddled by a girl.
Granted, I'm still pretty fucked up, and definitely have some pedo tendencies, but I dunno, it seems like getting raped by a guy would be much worse.
>>27321154
I don't know if it's much worse. I think it would be if you weren't the type to accept that your body's reaction and your want aren't one-in-the-same.
>>27321232
Well, I mean I think it'd be more painful, especially if you're really young.
Here's the story
>Hanging out with older male cousin one night playing vidya
>2 am rolls around, he gets mad about stupid shit, have to turn off console because he's being a dumbass
>No more vidya
>7 year old me tried to fall asleep
>He kept fucking whispering to me
>Said he needed to show me something in the bathroom
>Stupidly I follow him, he pulls down my pants and blows me
>7 year old me doesn't get it and leaves
>Cousin decided to turn this molestation into a rape
>Tried to buttfuck me, was unsuccessful, then used my butthole as a finger warmer
>When he got frustrated, he gave up and told me to go to bed angrily
>All of this came flooding back eight years later on a trip to school
>Personality practically changed overnight
>Puberty became one massive guilt trip followed by reluctance and acceptance
>Was legitimately afraid of sex and intimacy at one point in my life
>Confronted him years later only for him to stammer like a faggot and try to take me to court for blackmail
Go figure.
But something weird is that whenever I have ANY sort of sexual encounter, even something as tame as a handjob, it's like I unwillingly space out and have those bullshit out of body experiences.
>>27316457
Im sorry this happened to you anon :( honestly wish there was something I could do. I know I have no idea who you are but I mean that.
>>27321329
He was kinda small, like 4 inches. I'm not sure if it's better that way though because my body liked it because it wasn't too big... leading to all these perversions. I think I would have preferred it just hurt.
>>27321358
Thanks buddy. The sentiment is enough.
>>27321348
I can't even have sex all these years later...
Be glad you could get over the discomfort, if only a littler.
>>27321453
I had to start with sex toys and work my way up.
I only very recently managed to get a handjob without freaking the fuck out and bolting.
Don't think I'll ever be able to get over the out of body shit. Or the irrational fear of hurting someone while simultaneously wanting to fuck them until they bleed.
Baby steps, mang.
>>27321410
>I think I would have preferred it just hurt.
Yea, now that I think about it that probably would have been better.
At least then you wouldn't relate it to good sexual feelings and have guilty faps.
I kind of wish I'd just gotten the beatings instead of the passive-aggressive back-and-forth love-hate bullshit that just leaves you confused, angry, and scared.
>>27320625
Thank you. I was just thinking about it and i remembered one incident where he saw me in public talking to a boy and he yelled and swore and threatened to beat up this boy, just for talking to me. This 13 year old boy. Yeah. I was thinking and blaminv myself for having a shitty brother who always ruined my relationships, but its not a reflection of who i am and if won't affect me in the future i hope. It already affects me in that i am kind of scared of intimate relationships and friendships but I am at least doing a bit better. Talking on here helps a bit, I have noticed. Just talking about it in general. Not really a lot of people know.
>>27319475
holy shit i think i kissed you once
you ever date a tall blonde guy?
>>27321514
I've used everything, and still I can't loosen up with a girl.
I don't know if I ever will.
>>27321528
Exactly. On one hand, I'm not gay and my dick would never get hard for a man. On another, what he did to me felt good and was my very first orgasm ever.
It would have been so much better if he didn't have the dick of a 13 year old.
>>27321554
Just venting helps. Especially here where I'm comfortable explaining the embarrassing side of it since it's anonymous
>>27321348
the unwillingly spacing out and the out of body experiences is depersonalization, its a common coping mechanism for abuse victims, look it up and you can learn how to ground yourself. when I find myself disassociating I usually try and look at colors and name them in my head and try to focus on touching and feeling things, that's usually for my derealization, so I'm not positive if it would help ground someone experiencing depersonalization.
>>27321676
Yea.
And honestly, I kind of wish I'd been molested by a man.
At least then you can really feel anger and hatred and never second-guess your feelings. Shit, even now I've only ever told one person, and that was a "friend" back in high school who proceeded to spread the rumor that I was a faggot. It's even worse considering my sister's behavior was a direct result of her being raped.
Maybe I'm just rambling, not sure if this makes much sense.
>>27321820
I'm not sure I can say it would have been better or worse.
Anyway, I'm about to go to bed. Have a good night anon.
>>27321896
Night anon, it's been nice venting for a bit.
>>27321738
Fuck.
I'll see what I can do.
>>27321959
good luck anon, I hope you can learn ways to help ground yourself and stop disassociating/zoning out
>>27319624
He's gone now, but no one believed me. Lost a couple best friends due to it sadly :/ and I agree, I have no attraction to kids thankfully and I don't want to be like him ever. I'm pretty sure he had a racial fetish too.
>>27319872
Nope, seattle. Sorry.
>>27321599
No, I don't think so. Unless you're a dirty blonde and thought I was a lesbian, that's the closest I've ever been with a blonde guy.
>>27316847
anon, I am proud
My mom's dad was in the army and she moved a lot and had a lot of siblings and they were always low on money.
He parents didn't care about her or her brothers and sisters.
They were all abused.
When my mom had me, she was 16.
Her parents hadn't known she was pregnant, and they kicked us both out immediately.
My mom started hooking for money, and wound up on drugs.
Her life got shittier and so did her brain.
The first time I remember getting raped, I was five.
She had started selling me for money too.
At night sometimes she would hold me and cry and tell me she was so sorry.
Sometimes she would beat the shit out of me.
Mom was a real mixed bag.
I remember life being a haze of color and pain and noise.
I'm fairly certain I was drugged at times.
I remember out one point my mom had saved a thousand dollars in a jar that used to have a candle in it, and she held me by my face with both her hands and she said, "This is your money baby, you earned it, and someday you're gonna go to college with this and get out of here."
There was brown snot crusted under her nose and she was very high.
The money was stolen a few weeks later.
The day she found the jar empty, a man was watching, and he told us she would just have to pimp me out harder to make up for it.
She held me in the floor and screamed.
I was raped a lot in the following two days.
Then she took me to the police, and I haven't seen her since.
I was adopted quickly.
The rest of my life had mostly been quiet.
I think abuse makes people cynical because it teaches you that humans don't have limits.
When you always know that there is /something/ that could push anyone to do anything, I think you can't put on the blinders that normal people can.
I think most normal people can tell themselves, "It'll be okay," and they believe it.
If you know it won't be okay, you become cynical.
Tranny child abuse for you cretins to fap over
>Dad was a prick my entire life
>Constantly screaming at me since I was really young
>Terrified of him always
>Slammed me up against walls and yelled at me with his nasty alcohol breath
>Slammed me onto the ground and choked me when I disobeyed him
>Used me as free slave labor for his farming business; absolutely brutal working conditions
>Screamed at me for being weak
>Screamed at me for being feminine
>Said I was worthless
>One day he really lost his shit when I wouldn't give him my cell phone (my only connection outside of the utter hell I lived in, as we had no internet)
>Choked me and threw me around the room
>I just went limp pretty much and let him slam me into the floor
>Picked me up and literally threw me outside into the snow
>Told me not to come back
>Started to walk to a friends place, barefoot
>Mom picked me up a mile down the road
>The next summer he kicked me out again
>Slept in my friends garage and cried at night
>Never talked to him again
>>27319475
I knew a girl like you who was like 13 but in high school when I was a senior and she was an absolute pervert.
I wondered if she was abused or it was an edgy act but it was rather disturbing
>>27317679
Statute of limitations for rape can up to a stupendously ridiculous thirty years. Six to twelve is most common.
If you didn't kill yourself for thirty fucking years then you're over it. It's an attention stunt at that point.
>>27322614
Fuck. Boy or girl? Are you black or white or asian?
It helps me immerse myself so I can jack off
>>27323509
White girl
Have fun champ
>>27323522
State and was it herion or meth?
>>27323543
Kentucky and meth
>>27323587
Wait did you just say 5?
>>27323626
if you mean
>The first time I remember getting raped, I was five.
then yes
>>27323649
Jesus...
How old are you and did you go to college like she wanted you to?
[Spoiler]Sister is 5, I wish no one went through that[spoiler/]
My sister (2yo) and I (6yo) got molested by my 14yo uncle. He wasn't rough or sadistic or anything, and at the time it didn't feel like anything special. I can't say I was traumatized, but then again, I am a robot and a pedophile now. My sister is a perfectly normal Stacey, and she has never brought it up, so I don't want to stick my dick in this hornet's nest unless she does, since I'm not particularly iinterested in doing so. My uncle is now a successful businessman with a wife and four kids, but it was probably a teenage thing for him anyway.
>>27323736
20
I dropped out of high school, got my GED, then dropped out of college.
Being surrounded by people is a challenge for me.
So is anxiety, depression, paranoia, and concentration.
All those sort of things you need to get anywhere in life.
Watch your sister.
Pay attention to her life.
Talk to her.
If something happens to her, and she doesn't believe in anyone, she won't tell anyone.
>>27321738
>tfw """therapist""" says depersonalization is a good thing
>>27322614
that was hard to read
my chest hurts
I'm so sorry anon
i fucking hate people
>>27322614
I don't think I will ever be able to enjoy a loli hentai doujin about prostitution again.
>>27323818
>Implying she'll get sold for herion
I don't think anyone here in Dubai even uses that stuff.
I have vague memories that I try not to think about of being pinned down in the changing rooms when I was like 11 or 12 and raped by this kid who was much bigger than me. He choked and fingered me in the hallway one time.
Not a pedo but I ended up being a tranny robot.
>>27323848
>>27323883
It's all over with now.
>>27323886
Do you believe that children are only abused for drug money?
Dr. Phil airs in Dubai, you ought to give it a watch.
>>27323883
>loli hentai doujin about prostitution
Link
my mother was a sadist pic related she broke several of these on my ass, she would buy them in sets. she would wait at least 5 seconds before the next smack to make sure the pain sets in fully and it can't go by faster. i havent spoken to her in years but the beatings have given me a pain tolerance and masochistic tendencies
>>27322811
He was trying to make a man out of you. He failed.
>>27315231
17 year olds are considered minor and sexual behavior is not unknown to them, they're at the highest of sexual impulses in fact.
>>27323940
She goes to a all girl school.
Her tutor and maids are women
She always has an escort when she goes outside.
>Dr. Phil airs in Dubai, you ought to give it a watch.
It's like you assume everyone is molested.
Americans are just sick
My stepdad called me his "little prince" and raped me from when I was 5 to when I was about 14
Nothing shocks me in life
He forced me to do stuff that would probably sicken gay pornstars
My gf got psychologically tortured by her mom, she's terrified of the dark and has agoraphobia now
>>27323999
Is it bad to care about children?
I know it isn't pleasant to think about, but you have to think about the unpleasant to protect children because they can't do anything to stop it.
I've been in support groups for people who have been abused, sexually or physically, and let me assure you, it can happen no matter how many precautions you take or how safe you think your child is.
Sick bastards are everywhere, and they look for every opportunity.
Excuse me for worrying for children since I know from experience, you should.
>>27324037
Like what kind of shit?
Greentext?
>>27323940
No! I don't want to think about the dark side of my sexuality!
>>27323942
Well, for starters, Encode by Maka Fushigi, where a girl pimps herself to buy a cell phone buther first client turns out to be her father.It's rather cute and has no dark shit. Also a lot of Rustle's stuff.
>>27324043
Ever gonna have kids?
>>27324110
Considering my crippling social anxiety and residual distrust of men, most likely no.
I feel like I want to have kids, but I know that I don't have the mental or emotional capacity to properly take care of anyone.
>>27323976
Obviously. He failed because it's impossible.. I never wanted to be masculine. Beating me only fucked me up worse and made me resent him. To this day I have nightmares about it.
