ITT:
>feels
happy feels, sad feels, mad feels, unique feels, anything
>tfw you can literally just fall over and die at any moment because of a brain aneurysm
>tfw no female friend
>tfw tiny flaccid dick and living in constant fear of anyone seeing it
>no longer have feels
>just exist
I think I have found the perfect equilibrium
>>27312984
Or you could live and be locked in..
>tfw love to cook and bake but I can't make the really good unhealthy stuff because I live alone and will end up eating it all
especially desserts
I can't just make brownies all day, I'll eat that whole pan
>tfw there is literally nothing when we die
>our brain shuts off and that's the end
>tired of being a broke neet
>get a job
>pay is low, hours are few, but the work is easy
>don't even know what to do with the measly amount of funds that i am earning
>>27313248
I don't give a fuck about that because you cannot exist to perceive the lack of anything, the problem is the process of dying.
>>27312984
>talking to my dad
>it's ok anon, you don't have to move out we get it you're having a tough time with life, besides what would we do without you
>hugs me and tells me he's proud of me no matter what
>tfw a moderate living in San Francisco
I can't talk to people here about anything and when I actually try they remind me that I actually don't want to anyways.
>>27313175
there's ways of making healthy-ish junk food. you can cut out alot of sugar while making it more nutritiou
>>27313385
damn, know that feel. I visited SF a few years ago.
My hometown is super, radically liberal too and I can't stand it. I'm closeted as fuck
>>27312984
just slide man
>find out super cute amazing girl was in love with me years and years ago
>she's now a beautiful woman and I've turned into a hopeless drugged-up trainwreck
guess she dodged the bullet there
>tfw I spend my free time thinking about my oneitis and when I meet her I can't tell her the feels I felt
>turns out my oneitis has feelings for me as well
>but she has a bf that she lives with
>and a baby that he'll only help with if they're together
>and she's basically trapped
so close to making it, yet so far away
>I've always been teased for blushing easly.
>One year of being an isolated NEET made me forget how easly I blush.
>Today on my way to the psychologist i met a person form my old school.
>We had a akward but chill conversation.
>When leaving the elevator I accidently saw my face in the mirror.
>Tomato mode
>Whole face and neck bright red
>I don't want to live when I can't even talk to others without transforming into a tomato
>>27312984
>tfw I will never live long enough to upload a 99.98% accurate backup of my consciousness to a super-computer so i can live and learn forever and only die when i agree to a self destruct code.
>tfw childhood friend/crush moved away during high school but we ended on awkward terms so I didn't get any contact info
>tfw she's a social media phantom and I can find literally no records of her online to contact her
>live at home
>younger brother was friends with this girl, dated her but we broke up
>tfw my ex LITERALLY COMES OVER EVERY DAY to hang out with him
>tfw she just arrived again for the 5th day in a row or something
>don't even want to leave my room because i'm so pissed off and bitter towards her
>but im hungry
>>27313754
they're fucking
kill them
>fall in mutual love with a girl in high school
>she's my kouhai
>we always flirted around, and even the teachers and our friends encouraged us
>her parents like me, too
>was too afraid of ruining her image of me, though, because even though i was good at academics and arts, i was a poorfag who kept people at a distance due to shame
>go to college and ignore her completely, hell-bent on becoming a new person
>become lonely workaholic, not new
>fast-forward to today, eating at a mexican restaurant with my dad
>it's located next to the junior high she went to, which she used to tell me all about
>hear school bells and kids playing soccer
>dad suddenly asks me whatever happened to Laura
>tell him i dont know and go to the bathroom
>eyes are super hard from crying
>and from handling the peppers i was eating
>(that was my excuse to dad, anyway)
robots, i fucked up so hard im so sorry laura, i shouldnt have taken you for granted i deserve all the unhappiness possible for doing that to you
>>27313796
he's the most friendzoned cuck i've ever known. when we were dating he was the third wheel and she would pity-cuddle with him while i was fingering her under the covers, to give you an example.
still wanna kill em though
>tfw avoiding responsibilities so i can win more time that i will spend on shitposting anyways
>tfw can barely control myself and my flow of thoughts
>tfw often oink like a pig while shitposting
>tfw you get drunk/high and start ramming yourself into walls while wailing like an animal or screaming "what a meme, im loving this meme!"
>tfw killed a giant cockroach a year ago and one of it's legs got stuck on the wall near your bed, so you grew emotionally attached to the severed insect leg because its the last thing you see when you cry yourself to sleep and first thing you see when you wake up
>but it fell off a couple of months ago and you're sorta missing it
>tfw no lgf
All unique original feels I am experiencing atm.
Now pls gimme some of dem delicious (You)'s thank you very much.
>>27313852
That's really hot omg can I date you instead
cross posting from the cyborg thread I made
>>>27313807
>high school
>sitting with normalfag "friends" at lunch
>autist sits down in front of me
>stares down at his food, says nothing
>Chad comes to the table
>"hey Autist I was sitting here"
>tell Chad that he can just sit next to me
>"No, I was sitting here"
>Stares at Autist until he gets up
>He leaves and sits alone, staring at his food
>Chad laughs it off
>Force a smile and try to forget about it
>>27313896
Why do I get this literally every single time I talk about stealth fingering her? Also rubbing her thighs to get her horny while the 3 of us watch a movie and making her whisper "please" into my ear.
Would if I could, anonette.
>>27312984
I am angry right now, r9k is shit.
There is not a single fucking thread with the potential to make me feel down.
Everything is prepared, some "nice" thoughts and plenty of time to think about them, but the flame is missing and this frigging annoyes me.
>>27313960
Ugh idk I just like fucked up shit like that and I'm sure a lot of girls do as well... I used to fuck guys in the same beds as my friends and it was so hot having to try and be quiet so that people wouldn't know
>>27314058
christ what a slut
>>27313960
Also why did you guys break up anyway then?
>>27314078
Yea I know I don't care though eat my ass
>>27313960
>things that never happened
>>27314058
roastie slut get off my board
>>27313857
You gave me a good kek brotha, best of luck to you
>>27314159
Get off my board robot scum... Jk :3
>>27314123
>eat my ass
i bet you'd like it you fucking roastie
>>27314089
A couple reasons, on her part cause I was her friend for 2 whole years before actually dating her, so she thought of me as a friend not a boyfriend. On my part because having a third wheel that is with you 24/7 is really straining on a relationship and she couldn't see this. I only got date nights and 1 sleepover alone with her.
Also she is16so decently younger than me, apparently she's uncomfortable that she let me do stuff to her and people change a lot through their teens.
>tfw she's singing a song right now that we used to listen to
It's been 4 months, it still hurts.
>never had sex
>never cuddled with a girl
>never kissed a girl
>never held hands with a girl in a romantic fashion
>never had a girl be interested in me
>I missed the grace period of childhood and adolescence where these things can be overlooked and now I'm an adult and all of these things are basic and expected and I can't do any of them
>enjoy delicious 10 months of NEETdom
>job starts in april
>not even real job, just part time
>got call today
>barely 2 weeks left
I feel like vomiting
>soon to spend half my time surrounded by awful, retirement age, choleric women
>one of them is legit middle-aged schizo with bad hygiene
At least I can kill myself if it gets too bad
>>27314159
>never happened
She was super embarrassed about it. Her face would go beet red and a couple times my brother asked why she was shaking. I'd go back and post pics of my Skype convos with her if I really needed to show proof.
>be me
>in college
>there's an absolute qt in my classes
>pale, freckles, shortish messy brown hair, green eyes, very cute smile
>literally love at first sight
>she's a loner, very reserved
>two weeks ago I see her sitting alone at lunch drawing anime girls
>holy shit she likes anime
>i went and sat with her
>literally the first time I've ever approached a girl in my life
>knees weak, arms are heavy there's spaghetti on his sweater already
>sit there for 5 minutes in silence, screaming "JUST TALK TO HER YOU FUCK, ASK IF SHE LIKES ANIME" at myself in my head
>"d-d-do you like anime?"
>tfw the first thing I ever said to a girl was unironically "do you like anime"
>we end up talking and I become comfortable around her and can jus b myself :)
>it's very easy for me to make her laugh
>I have NEVER felt this way about a person before
>a beautiful introverted girl who actually seems to be at least some what tolerant of my existence, it sounds too good to be true
>because it is, of course the robot can't have anything nice happen to him
>today I found out she's a fucking lesbian
>tfw the fucking love of your life is a lesbian
JUST
Really just kind of want to die desu just my fucking luck
It's even more fucked up because I'm the only friend she has, So I can't just try to forget about her, I have to speak to her. So close, but yet so far away.
Seriously though, if somebody would kill me right now I'd greatly appreciate it
>mfw I'm really close to making a qt my gf
>>27314278
Please do OMG I need that right now thank u so much in advanced
>>27314349
>close friends with a grill
>lonely
Not gonna lie you're in a better position than you realize. If you're comfortable enough, tell her you like her, if not, tell her you're lonely and need a relationship. Her not having friends really sucks but she could potentially help set you up.
>>27314416
???? Did you just chose to not read the part about her being a lesbian? If he tells her he likes her she's just gonna think he's an asshole who doesn't know how to listen, which ironically is how I feel about you right now
>tfw zero self-esteem
>tfw someone compliments me and I assume they're lying
>>27314349
i can't say i know the exact situation, robot, but i do know what it's like to want something, knowing it's futile. maybe you two can share a waifu one day it'll turn out. or maybe that's just vain hope. but still, that initial feeling of falling in love was nice, wasn't it?
>>27314349
oregano commento broteo fomo
>tfw your therapist laughs at you
>have no friends
>sad
>go on internet to forget about sad
>try to make internet friends for years
>fail miserably every time
>tfw no friends anywhere ever
>>27314394
I deleted her from skype, not that it's gonna be a problem, I still have my history.
Looking through all of this is gonna hurt though.
There's probably 100 screenshots worth of this, no joke. And yes it's cringeworthy as fuck, I was a virgin and she was a 16 year old and a virgin, it's not gonna be a normal conversation.
>>27314416
if she's an introverted loner like him, i doubt that'll ever come to fruition
>>27314349
On the one hand, congrats to you both on making a friend you care so much about. On the other, rip in fucking peoperonis fampai
Recently i feel a little bit giddy or happy
its like a warm fuzz inside me
i fucking hate it
>>27313857
turtle pls
>Get a perfect score on an exam, one of the only two in the class
>Feel like I don't deserve it
>Start coming up with reasons you got it like maybe he couldn't read your handwriting and just gave you a 100 without reading your test or maybe you did so bad that he pitied you and gave you the good grade anyway.
>>27312984
Raped as a little boy. Infected me like a zombie bite and I'm now struggling with paedophilic attractions.
>tfw no feel
>empty like my bank account
>tfw slightly shy, quiet and very prone to depression
>not bad looking or fat and no physical problems at all
>literally just lonely
I need a girl in my life. I need somebody to have a close connection with and I will become a completely functional person. If I could meet somebody here, maybe talk with them a few years online before flying to live with them I would be happy. Not anyone though, somebody who I could get along with. Fuck looks, I need a good personality to wife.
>>27312984
>constantly stuck between suicidal thoughts and existential crisis
>>27315505
I'm the guy who was raped as a kid.Want to chat here?
>>27313559
>your_wifes_child.jpg
>>27315546
Sure, why not.
How's life been lately
>>27315598
Pretty shit. I just broke up with my girlfriend of a year and a half because I just couldn't bring myself to have sex with her. She stayed with me for as long as she did because she sympathized with what happened to me, but we just had to break it off. We weren't going to get anywhere.
Now, I've been struggling with self-hatred since I've found myself getting erections when babysitting my little cousin. I just don't know what to do. I can't bring myself to have a normal relationship and I worry I might be a danger to other kids...
>>27315505
this 2bh
>average looks
>several hobbies/interests beyond vidya/internet
>don't like going out, parties, etc.
>good student in a high-paying field
>bright career future
i just want someone to laugh at stupid shit on the internet with
>>27312984
>tfw i will die one day
feels good man
>>27315673
Why couldn't you bring yourself to have sex with her? Did you mean literally infected with an STD or just became a pedo because of it?
Damn though, that rush you feel when you think about doing something sexual that's completely immoral to do. I've been there, senpai
>>27314854
Yea this was hot until you posted this... No offense but this is really middle school >.>
>>27315908
*shrug* at least I got the awkward virgin part over with and if I get another relationship I won't act like that.
>>27313248
Good
I hope this ride has an end, eternal existence sounds like hell, even if you don't remember your past lives I still don't like the concept of always existing.
>>27315845
I have no idea. We'd get into foreplay, I'd be turned on and so would she (yes, I do find women attractive) and then I just wouldn't be able to get it up. I tried Viagra and still nothing! It's like there's something at the back of my mind that makes me associate all sex with the rape.
No, not infected with an STD. Many kids who were raped often find themselves turning into paedos themselves, to their great shame. It spreads like a virus from victim to victim.
It's even worse though than just having an innocuous rape fantasy.. He's a little boy for fuck's sake, you know?
Anyway, what about you? How are you?
>>27315967
Just got a phone call, might be a while. Sorry.
>>27316015
No problem. I've just been doing this in the background of school work.
>>27315967
>>27316015
Nevermind.
Damn, I mean I've struggled with attraction to younger females but never to the point where it interferes with my life. It's a shame.
Got drunk last night, shaved my eyebrows and eyelashes which I regret because they keep poking my eyeball now. It's spring break so no college for 2 weeks (even though I have 2 classes per week, it's something) and I don't really know where to go in life.
>>27313248
ye thinking of what the body goes throw and what ye see while living.
afterlife = dreams/imagination
so if you picture 'hell' or whereever that you will go to after death then ye will go there because that is where ye wanna be. if not, why do we dream?
>tfw nothing matters and free will does not exist
It's the ultimate comfort
>>27316096
It's yet to interfere with my life directly yet, but I'm worried that I don't have the self control I need to be able to be around boys.
Are you a dude? Why would you shave your eyebrow? Just pluck them out with tweezers.
Our Canadian March Break just ended. Now I'm back to my daily grind of school babysit and sleep.
Have you considered taking a break from school and backpacking somewhere? I'm thinking of going through Europe in the Summer.
>>27316222
Well it did interfere with your life. You literally lost a gf because of it, didn't you?
Yeah, I'm a dude, Canadian. I was drunk I'm not really sure why I did, it was a spur of the moment thing.
I would love to go backpacking, it's been my dream for a while now actually. I traveled to China last year and that in itself was life-changing enough.
>>27316283
I guess in that way, yeah. But that was tied to the rape and not my perverted attraction which is also a by-product of it.
When you went to China, did you with others? My aunt wants me to take me 9-year-old cousin with me if I end up going. She thinks it would be fantastic for him (money's not an issue), but I'm not so sure that it's the best of ideas with you-know-what.
>>27316113
dreams are generated by the brain
no brain, no dreams
>>27316355
Yeah, with my ex. She is white, her dad was teaching there and I flew out to visit and stayed with em for 6 months. Was really cool to see another culture like that that's so different from our own. The only downside is that it's a painful memory now since it involves my ex.
If you could keep yourself under control then it would be a great idea. Your cousin would remember that trip for the rest of his life, but remember you'd have to babysit him the whole time and if he were to get hurt or get lost that would all be on you, so be careful.
>tfw you need to write a story about a high school romance but have no idea what to reference since it never happened to you
>tfw this is harder than science fiction
>>27316470
I have a friend from San Fernando, Spain who's house I'd be using as a sort of home base when I go. I guess if I can get him to come along for some of the trip, have somebody else there to make sure I don't do anything, then I'll probably bring my cousin.
I'm not worried about losing him or him getting injured. He's a pretty shy kid who isn't the type to put himself at risk or wander off.
Fuck, and now the rape interferes with my life again. Just thinking of bringing him along, sleeping in a hotel bed together with him, it's giving me an erection...
I don't know if I can trust myself. I just want this shit to go away!
>tfw can't write lyrics that aren't just a single bloodcurdling scream
People say to write how you feel, but I feel so lonely and fucked it's just my instinct, like howling at the moon for losers.
>>27316610
If the urge is that strong, for his sake, it's really best not to.
Dunno how to help with the pedo thing, I really wish I could, but I'm not even sure therapy would be a good idea since they might put you on a watchlist or something.
>>27316733
It's not that strong. I can put my rationality above my lust...I've been doing it for the past year with him.
I've actually been speaking to a psychiatrist about it ever since I was 15 and the memory surfaced, causing deep depression. He knows that I've been struggling with paedophilic thoughts and have been since around that age. He keeps it to himself and sympathizes though. Apparently the paedophilic thoughts latching on to victims is extremely common for boy victims who were raped by men. Around 70%.
>>27313477
i know how you feel. i hate talking to leftists or rightists because they are all so extreme. why cant more people realise both sides have their goods and bads?
>>27313385
>tfw calm and happy after breaking out of a depressed period, like you don't need to kill yourself and can stay alive for simple pleasures.
>tfw yearning and idealization sets you back on the inevitable path of madness and despair
>>27313615
You can get surgery to correct that.
>tfw when you're walking outside and a car slows down and stops behind you
What the fuck, is the driver going to beat me up? Are they an assassin that's going to kill me?
>tfw influenza
>tfw in constant misery
>have left the bed 4 times in 2 days to piss or fetch water
>can't sleep the sickness away because I've been in bed so long that it's uncomfy
Here I am at 1:40, coughing up clots of unidentifiable slime and trying to cope with a headache and fever.
>tfw 26 year old virgin who has never held a girl's hand or kissed a girl even.
I have never felt more concerned with this than now, I don't want to be a wizard.
>>27313848
>Laura
Iktf bro
>tell therapist you have no goals or future plans besides suicide
>he fails to stifle his laughter
I don't understand what was funny about that
>>27318936
Meant to my its own thread
Never fucked up like this before
sry
>>27318936
Are you autistic?! Fucking go for it!
>>27313248
Death is a strange topic for me. I welcome it because my life is a vortex of hell,sadness,and dissapointment but at the same time I fear not existing. Part of me wants to go on and see what the fuck will happen in my eternal absence. This same part wants to see humanity continue aswell, at the end of the day I still wish I never existed
>>27318975
>Are you autistic?
Never been tested for it, but most probably
I would just go for it. But I don't know how
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>>27319073
You said she was slutty? Should have just given her a wink and asked if she wanted to "get a drink" then let it go from there.
>>27319173
A wink would be been awkward af
I guess I could have brought her a drink, but the 'let it go from there,' would just be me standing in silence, and her leaving
>>27313857
you sound like actual fun
no sarcasm, i would love to get drunk or high with you
>people consider you autistic if they know you're a kv
>if all those people ever got to know it I'd be fucked
>can't stop thinking about pretty cashier I saw a few nights back
>feel when about to hit 60 on muh Mage on Nost
>>27314515
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QsVyBHJrNQw
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>>27312984
you dumb fuck
a fatal brain aneurysm would have many signaling symptoms
>tfw you make your gf cry while drunk
>tfw you wake with no memory of it
>tfw she tells you you were laughing at her while she was crying
>tfw you realize you are a bad man
