Let off those feels and have yourself a drink
In on feels thread
>tfw you want to drink but you cant because you are losing weight
It hurts senpai.
Bartender someone has pissed all over the bathroom floor again!
I have a pretty substantial attraction to a co-worker.
I worked at this place for over a year. I left for a while to go away and when I got back home she had just gotten there and started working a few months prior.
I like her because she seems pretty straight-forward and is really cute. She has a boyfriend who apparently treats her shitty. I always see her looking at me and just generally being around me.
When I left work the other day and went to go get coffee she took her break and followed me it seemed like. She kind of just sat off to the side and talked on her phone occasionally looking at me.
I really like her. I'm way too shy though. My co-worker said she asked a lot of questions about me the other day. I just don't know what to do guys. It sucks because she'll probably lose interest once she finds out I'm awkward.
>>27295660
Gotcha covered familia, some aqua straight from the tap
>>27295680
You can act like a bitch and play the shy card or be a man and tell her how you feel.
If she friendzones you at least you tried right?
>>27295742
Thanks based bartender
>>27295480
Gimme a goldschlager and prune juice.
I been eating fried foods and I need a little plumbing assistance.
>>27295810
guess so. thanks anon. I work with her tomorrow. Guess I'll give it a shot.
why drinking when binge eating is much more fulfilling?
gimme a dub scotch rocks...
been a weird day
>>27295905
Bartender pass me the pretzel bowl, I'm going to lick off the salt.
Frosty cold long island iced tea pls.
Blue feels.
>>27296028
The absolute devilish madman.
I'll have a Guinness on tap.
>>27295480
vodka soda please
i fell in love with a girl who didn't come close as to any other girl in my entire life and she ended up blowing me off on a date and i ended up making fun of her for getting raped after getting wildly vodka and xanax drunk
>>27295871
At least you don't have hemorrhoids so enjoy your doodoo juice,
>>27295905
If you didn't get your dick sucked by a drunk Irish woman in a parking lot you then it's on the house
>>27296033
When a man orders a long island that seems to indicate girl troubles, let me hear that feel
>>27295480
>>27295480
is the frogs and feels open 7 days a week?
im drunk rn desu
>>27295480
I'll have a whiskey on the rocks.
Gotta get the voices out of my head.
Im back at uni after a week-long break. I fucking hate how I will no longer be able to sleep 10+ hours a day, browse and post online and watch anime/movies all day. Really sad. Its starting tomorrow though. I have 2 or 3 hours before I have to go to sleep so I can wake up early enough. Midterms are creeping on me too.
>tfw when having a grammar exam on tuesday and you can't bring yourself to study until tomorrow cause then you are forced to unless you want to fail completely
>tfw when sleeping on a madress for almost two months cause you can't bring yourself to hire a fucking car and buy some fucking furniture to your new apartment
>>27296219
Thanks. Gonna drink that, then take 2 sleeping pills and play chicken in my sleep.
>>27295480
There's a bottle of Monopolowa in that pic, which I FEEL like I wish I could have bought when I saw it earlier today.
I went to a bunch of grocery stores and ate as many samples as I could.
I'm living off a shoestring budget right now, even selling my blood plasma for extra money. I don't feel like I'm mired in poverty, but moving out and being independent for the first time and paying bills, having little income, much less disposable income. I feel like these are the lean college years older folks talk about, except I'm not in college. Here's hoping they don't overstay their welcome...
Also, how do people get wasted at bars? Beers like 3 bucks at the cheapest, upwards of 5 if you want anything other than canned PBR. I pregame real hard but how does anyone afford to drop cash like that like it's nothing?
>>27296219
Meh it's more like I think in losing my sex drive because I can't get into a scene that I'm in. My own grossness kills my own boner.
>>27296318
Also mom's food. I already miss my mom's food. Fuck this disgusting shit they make that tastes like rubber.
Can't drive for shit. Can't get my license. I live too far away from my so called "friends" and my relationship with my folks is too shitty to ask them to drive me to the DMV. I can talk to girls, hell I can even seduce them, but what is that worth if I can't even meet up with one without asking for a ride? My dreams of being a professor are falling apart as my grades go to shit and realize that it will be hard as hell without a car. I am feeling more apathetic and cynical by the day as I begin to embrace the NEET life. I don't want to be a NEET. I don't want to keep living with my parents, but they have fucked me up socially so bad that I just have to deal with it. I did not choose the NEET life, the NEET life choose me.
>>27295480
I am already quite drunk so water would be nice
I don't feel super depressed right now
It's probably because I am drunk and actually socialised today
In my life I had three friendships
I ruined two of them and I feel like I am capable of also ruining the last
I wish my anxiety stopped
It would help me immensely with my depressions
My doctors are giving me all kinds of meds and they aren't stopping it
Last week they started giving me promethazine and it kinda stopped the physical symptoms
My doctor didn't want to give me benzos
She had two patients that got addicted to it and had to endure a very shitty withdrawal
She didn't want to give me beta blockers because I am very thin
I feel like nothing can fix me
>>27296264
off the meds again? iktfqw
>>27296318
i've shitted away 80% of my break playing dragon quest 8, and i have a exam on tuesday, what's your major?
>>27296339
congrats on your new place, are you rooming with someone or is it all yours? did you check craigslist or the salvation army/goodwill for furniture?
>>27296339
Similar feels. Moved out, now have a lot of space and nothing to put in it, just a twin mattress and a small kitchen chair that doesn't belong to me. Checking the craigslist free section obsessively for couches and larger mattresses but I know that I couldn't really get anything on top of my tiny lil car, and if I could, I couldn't take it more than a couple of blocks
Found plenty of food though. Month's supply of Soylent. Free sustenence.
>>27296538
>Can't drive for shit. Can't get my license.
How bad do you have to be? Where I live they literally give out licenses like they are nothing. You just have to demonstrate that you can drive, put your car in reverse and turn.
I have existential angst because there's not enough rum in me nor any in a glass before me.
>>27296575
>i've shitted away 80% of my break
Same, only I left my desktop in my dorm so all I could do was limited to my laptop
> i have a exam on tuesday
I have one this Thursday and then two more on April 5th and 7th
>what's your major?
Oh man, I dont like sharing it because I dont want to be associated that crowd. Ill say its in stem but i really need to consider switching to econ or something.
>>27296679
associated with*
>>27295480
Me and my ex girlfriend who broke up a week ago went out clubbing with a group of friends last night. She ended up getting wasted and making out with some weird guy, to the point people were pointing and laughing at them in disgust. I feel so ashamed and heartbroken, I know she was probably doing it to make me jealous but it was soul crushing, and I can't get the image out of my head.
>>27296731
>not making a clean break
You brought this on yourself
I meant to be more sympathetic, but that got to the point quicker
>>27296582
I honestly cannot fathom driving myself. My folks have made me insecure as fuck especially when it comes to driving that I am scared to even go to the local grocery store.
>>27296219
hehe
trying to quit drinking but then gf gets sick and puky so i can sneak drinks all day.
now i have not quit shit.
gimme another dub scotch
>>27296538
just pay for some lessons if nobody is around to teach you. and don't believe too much in the "she'll fuck me because i can drive" meme, because she will run your tank empty.
living with your parents is like sleeping on a air mattress, it's to get you to a point where you can get better support, but do it too long and you'll mess yourself up in the long run.
>>27296553
alcohol and a backpage quickstop work wonds tbvh. i used to have anxiety really bad a few years ago, but i got tired of breaking down in public crying and expecting someone to give a shit about my problems.
so one day i guess i just woke up and told myself to man up and get my shit together, haven't had a AA since.
>>27295480
"Frogs and Feels" is a really shitty name, especially "frogs". Did we forget that pepe is a reddit meme?
Think of something new
>>27296789
>I am scared to even go to the local grocery store
My aunt is the same. She tried driving once and froze because there was too much going on. I honestly dont know what to tell you. You should obviously try to get over it because its fun once you can move around alone. I understand that fear but at the same time I dont.
>>27296781
I didn't know she was coming out with us until it was too late. I was absolutely fine up until she did that, and its fucked me up completely
Gimme a cheap beer
I can't keep friends. Everyou few months I move to a different friend group because... I don't know why. I don't really get on that well with other guys and I always just develop feelings for girls. They never feel the same way because /sperg/ /manlet/
I can make friends but I never find anyone worth being friends with. All I really want is a girlfriend. I think I'm destined to be alone
>>27296799
>so one day i guess i just woke up and told myself to man up and get my shit together, haven't had a AA since
Most normie thing I heard all day desu senpai
I don't even want a drink OP.
I just don't want any of you to leave yet.
>>27296318
Same, I have a lot of work to do. Need to get my orgo grade. Just a sprite, bartender. I need to stay sober to study, after spending my vacation super comfy and doing no work.
>>27295480
I'll take a green tea OP
That's Jameson whiskey, Peach Schnapps and sprite in a tall glass.
8.5/10 girl rejected me so I hooked up with her 7/10 friend but I don't really like her and she got the feels hard.
Should I end it before I hurt her or just do roll with it.
>>27296818
If you don't like the name, go to some other bar.
My cat ran away this morning and I haven't found him since then. I've been searching all day and it's cold, rainy, and dark out there now. It's going to be a long night.
>>27296872
I'm too socially inept to join friend groups in the first place.
>>27296914
>after spending my vacation super comfy and doing no work
You just dont realize how good it is to be home until you are away.
>>27296902
I'll be here for at least another hour and a half, we can chat.
>>27296855
That sounds like a nightmare situation.
But you're both in pain, it's a difficult situation and one way or another you're both coping. Sounds like she's not taking it well either.
I understand it's fresh and that's a disturbing sight to see, but empathy for where she's at might help you move on more healthily. I don't know. You'll be alright.
>>27296450
embracing your degeneracy is all you can do, i found out today i actually have a thing forfur. my sadpanda favorites are now not only flodded with monster girls but lewd gardevoirs and nidoking rape and horny dogs.
>>27296795
>gf
sir i am going to have to kindly ask you to leave this establishment.
>>27296818
>not wanting to make pepe great again
>>27296880
not even fucking kidding, i had anxiety so bad once i couldn't even go to work because i was afraid of getting on a bus full of people, meds for me didn't do shit but keep me up all night sweating and pissing, so i guess i had to find a stopping point somehow
>>27296902
we are open 24/7 family
I'm scared to go to work. I work at a convinient store/gas station and it's a nightmare. I still struggle using the coffee machine properly when there are alot of people/orders I dont know, my co workers are disgusting normies & I can't quit until atleast July. I wish I never gotten this job, I'm so sad and fraustrated. Oh and in my country, minimum wage is 6$.
I'm in another country. Spoke with the GF on Facetime. She's drunk as fuck with her female friend and around 10 guys. Her female friend just had sex while she was lying on the floor in the same room. This is getting me nervous.
I need a drink but I'm with my family and I'm not even old enough in here in this 3rd world country you call the US.
>>27297018
>not getting your friends to rob the store during your shift. Not splitting the money after.
Come on anon, you're better than this.
>>27297015
>not even fucking kidding, i had anxiety so bad once i couldn't even go to work because i was afraid of getting on a bus full of people
>once
>/once/
wow you are normie as fuck
tfw you have shitty friends who drag you down every day and you're a bitter resentful sour grapes fuckhead but you act like you are calm, collected, and unaffected by being a social outcast
>>27297046
>She's drunk as fuck with her female friend and around 10 guys. Her female friend just had sex while she was lying on the floor in the same room
>>27296849
Honestly at any point I am just ready to just go by myself to the DMV regardless of what happens. My friends won't back me up nor my family. Normally I get shit done myself, but this is one of those things that you (legally) need someone to help you.
Pitch me a lemon scotch and slide the cherries down, barkeep.
How's your night?
>>27297096
Uh. yeah. The guys are gone, but they were there earlier. Just that one guy left I think.
>>27297046
>She's drunk as fuck with her female friend and around 10 guys.
Okay there is some reason to be concerned
>Her female friend just had sex while she was lying on the floor in the same room. This is getting me nervous.
She cheated on you. I guarantee it.No doubt in my mind.
>>27296582
>tfw getting a license is hard in my country and you have to pay over 2k usd to get it
At least we have good public transportation
>>27295480
Hello bartender.
Give me a Coca-Cola. I'm with a huge hangover.
How have you been my friend?
>>27297115
I have some baaad fuckin news for you son.
>>27295480
red wine please
i work in higher ed and next week is our school's spring break. all the students and faculty have the week off and they all wished me a good break last thursday/friday when i saw them last. the students are just being nice...they don't know i'll be in the office doing work the faculty is supposed to be doing. the faculty wishing me a good break, they're just dicks.
i hate my job.
>>27296940
you know how it feels to be hurt
don't hurt this other girl just to make yourself feel better. keep it casual and let her know you don't have feelings but like her as a friend/fwb. just make sure you're clear that you're not looking for a relationship with her. if she decides to end things with you sexually then it's for the best.
>>27297169
You know, most of us who have full time careers don't even get large chunks of time off. When we do, we call it paid leave. Enjoy your wine, you pissy little snot.
>>27297111
>this is one of those things that you (legally) need someone to help you.
I once wanted to go shooting so I went to a nearby shooting range. They wouldnt let me because they have some shitty "no lone gunmen" policy where you need a "shooting buddy" for some reason. I dont even fucking know, I was just like what the fuck and went elsewhere. Needing someone to back you up in this sense is the worst fucking thing in the world for me because I literally have no friends. If I wanted to go see a movie tomorrow, I wouldnt have anyone to go out with. Good thing my driving instructor agreed to back me up for my driving test at least.
>>27297132
>>27297156
I don't think so guys.. but I mean, you can never be sure. Never.
I see all these stories about people recalling childhood memories or mourning the loss of a friend here on 4chan. Well, i myself have never had a friend. Never. I always have been put down and bullied. I guess i can kind of sort of be glad about the fact that i never gave in and always fought back, but it has always been "me against the world".
Im 18 now, and i have never experienced friendship. It hurts man.
https://youtu.be/ecTm6G7AjcM [Embed]
>>27297137
>have to pay over 2k usd to get it
What country is this? That sounds horrible.
>>27296984
Tempted to call her about it to maybe come to a more civil understanding. We never had a proper talk about the break up either it just sort of happened very quickly so maybe talking about it with her will make me feel better.
>>27297250
Oh I'm sure.
>>27297217
i don't get time off. it's a regular job. the faculty enjoy laughing about all the time off they get.
sorry you're so angry though. hope your night gets better...
>>27297114
>>27297148
i got a exam in 24 hours and a class in 7 hours, i just want my 95k salary and pension tbqh.
>>27297169
being a teacher seems to be a pretty easy job though, the pay on the other hand i guess depends on what you teach
>>27297289
Oh. I misunderstood. Well then those pissy faculty bastards can enjoy THEIR wine then. Assholes. Let me get your second round.
>>27296679
You're premed aren't you? I am too and the stigma sucks.
>>27297251
I've had people i've associated with. I've never felt comfortable opening up to people, even family, so i don't think i can say i've ever had a friend. i probably come off as very boring when i'm out and don't really look to entertain people, so i'm not really surprised.
>>27297232
I hear you bro, yet at least me, I'd watch a movie by myself. Never knew they had those rules for gun ranges however.
>>27297319
No im in STEM. Read the last sentence.
>the stigma sucks.
There's a stigma around pre med majors? Im not really aware of that, cna you expound a bit?
Skinny fag here I really want to start working out to help me with self confidence. I'm pretty decent looking certainly not ugly but just super skinny. No motivation to workout though, I just want the confidence to talk to girls and actually experience sex and relationships but always fail due to shyness and betaness
>>27297299
i have who teach k-12 and who adjunct, it's long hours and usually not great pay. they get summers "off" but usually spend it lesson planning and not getting paid for it. i don't envy their time off.
i'm the office manager for a graduate program at a really small niche private college. i know how much our tenured faculty work, and what they get paid. they've definitely got a sweet deal...but i know it's not that way everywhere. mostly i hate it because they're such petty, awful people.
>>27297357
All I can say is working can become the thing that opens those kinds of doors. Not because of looks or whatever but because being outside and biking or going to gyms and events and stuff lets you bump into new people and those people introduce you to new people etc. etc. There is no secret it's just allowing yourself to be bumped into more often.
Get bumped anon.
>>27297347
>I'd watch a movie by myself
I do sometimes too when its a really good movie and I cant wait for someone to put it up for download. I feel like a loser walking out alone and every now and then there is that one old guy who walks out alone too so it makes me feel sad for the rest of the night.
>Never knew they had those rules for gun ranges however.
Yeah, usually its just dont be a dick and stay safe. But needing a fucking shooting buddy? Good thing gun ranges are abundant in my area.
>>27297351
>I'm in STEM
Biology is science. Some say it's not hard science but I don't care. And yeah people think /premed/ fags are always wanting others to fail or they're only in it for the money.
>>27297279
That's probably not a good idea. This is how you go from a difficult thing that you get over in due time, to a horrible scarred lifeless chunk of your life.
The on again off again, tragic codependent roller coaster begins here. Make a clean break. The cleaner this cut, the neater it'll heal.
>>27297357
If you have something stopping you from getting girls it won't go away if you get fit.
Being short has always stopped me getting girls, but guess what I'm still short and it still stops me getting girls.
Will take a scotch on the rocks.
Been trying to move foward with my life through this property. Have put over 70 hours a week into it for the last 8 years managing it. Now I have a chance to buy the property but it will cost about 650k. I don't have that kind of money but I don't want what I have built to go to waste and some other assholes to buy my business and harvest the fruit of my labor.
I have a meeting with a small bank to see if I can work out a loan on Thursday.
Fuck, I wish my mom was still here to just have someone to talk too.
>>27297403
I mean I do have plenty of hobbies and have met people thru them but rarely ever form a true friendship out of it. I was hoping that working out would make me more self confident and social especially around qt females.
I just wanna be comfy :(
>>27297436
Self confidence and fairly shitty social skills are getting in the way for me.
IT'S ALMOST BEEN TWO YEARS
AND I THINK ABOUT HER EVERY FUCKING DAY
KILL ME
I WAS GOING TO MARRY HER
>>27297422
Yeah that sounds like good advice dubsman
>>27297441
Commercial property? Did you own a business or something?
>>27297257
Germany
>The cost of obtaining a licence for driving a car is on average *EURO SIGN* 1,400 (US *DOLLAR SIGN* 1,800 in September 2014) but varies widely according to an individual's skill, city and region.[3]
>>27297527
What the fuck i thought all Germans loved cars, they even have the autobahn.
>>27297487
Then get fit
Self confidence will go through the roof and that will help with social skills. Social skills are 99% confidence anyway.
Just thank whatever scrub God you worship that you aren't short.
>>27297496
Speaking from experience. My first relationship could have been a singular experience that came to a natural end, but she was the only person I could talk to about how I felt about being broken up with, and I thought I'd never touch a girl again if she left. So began two years of nightmare.
Clean break. Accept no substitutes.
>>27297510
Yeah self storage, took over managing it 8 years ago. Owner is selling it because it has started making more and more profit and the facility had been upsated. My lease is up in 8 months and there is no gaurentee the person buying it will renew my leese. They would still have to pay me for my records and such but that might fetch me 30k. So I come up with the money or lose my business don't have family or friends this is all I have.
>>27297488
I feel you mate, didn't even date for that long :(
>>27297586
Id tell you to take out a loan but $650k is a lot of money and not something to be fucked around with.
>>27297586
You can always claim bankruptcy if it's that serious, or workout some kind of PR gofundme
>>27297594
I am losing my fucking mind. I have spent hours trying to stalk her on the internet. She was never stupid, and she probably knew I was crazy enough to do it. We dated for three years... When she dumped me over the phone I started freaking the fuck out and burned every bridge I could.
>>27297566
They do which is why they take it so serious
You even need to go through a first aid course before getting your license
>>27297631
Yep and that's even if I can get a loan. Even so if I do get the loan and make the buy I am basically chained behind that desk until I can find someone I trust to run the place for me.
>>27297691
>You even need to go through a first aid course before getting your license
Holy shit, I didnt realize how easy I had it then. All I had to do for my driving test was:
>show that i know the hand signals
>turn on the car and put it in drive
>drive
>make a turn
>pull over
That was literally it.
Hey boss man, can i get a Captain and coke?
>>27297796
i thought parallel parking and k turns were mandatory for those tests. it was for mine.
Got the dream job I went to law school for. Actually love the job and I can see myself doing this for a long time. Looking for a wife bartender, but I am too awkward to talk to anyone. I get plenty of matches on tinder, eharmony, etc but it's always awkward online. I am great in person, it's just getting to the in person meeting.
Any advice bartender?
>>27297878
>taking driving test
>paralkek park time
>instructor says since he taught me how to do it yesterday, we can skip it
Based.
>>27297878
My instructor had me practice those but the guy who was testing me never actually had me do it.
ill take a rum and coke
i have plenty of opportunities arounds grills barkeep, i just don't know how to flirt at all. fuck being awkward man
also i changed my profile picture, and none of my friends liked it. my ex changed hers and all of my close friends like it. some great friends i have
>>27297922
Reminds me of the part on Mad Men where Don Draper can't get meetings with companies, and he just knows if he could get in a meeting, he could close. Felt the same way myself.
Have you never maneuvered a date out of it though? Try to be upfront, mention that you prefer to get to know someone over coffee or drinks kinda early on, just be open about your intentions. If they're nervous about that, be understanding and help them get to know you a little bit until they're comfortable enough to meet in person.
>>27297488
It's been 15 years here mate. I am married. It never goes away. It never stops sucking.
>Got hired over the phone
>Everybody hated me on day one but couldn't say anything till I left the room and they thought I couldn't hear them
>Started working really hard and skipping breaks to make up for how much they hate me because I need a job to pay the bills and it won't be better anywhere else
>Coworkers started slacking off because they know I'll do all of their jobs and boss is complacent with this
>I've been there 6 years and the only interaction I get is dealing with cashiers when I buy stuff around town and seeing these people who hate my guts
>Learned how to turn my face off and now I can't turn it on so I look tired and pissed off all the time
>Considering homelessness
I'll just say what's on my mind.
My ex, Adam, my first boyfriend.
I was young, stupid, just wanted to know what it was like. He was older, two years to be exact, he was looking for love and I played him like a fiddle. I told him I loved him but I just wanted to be with someone. I was desperate and scummy, and I never got to tell him I'm sorry. He had problems I didn't even try to help him through, depression, alcoholism/mental self destruction, schizophrenia, gender dysphoria, and probably more I didn't even know about.
Just this year I was at a convention with my friends and sister and I was told Adam was there, but I didn't believe it. Then I saw the purple hair. He was looking at me, and turned the other way when I turned to him. I wanted to tell him how sorry i was but he was gone.
It could've worked, but he's gone.
I've been drowning the shame in weed for 4 months.
>>27297922
if you are looking for something serious, i wouldn't use tinder. just go out to bars and chat up some girls.
>>27297868
gonna need to see some ID
>first sex tomorrow
it's finally happening bros
My friends are a bunch of pricks who scheme behind my back and talk shit about me, I don't know why I even hang around them still, I can't believe I trusted them. After all these years they finally show their true-colors. I'm done. Fuck them all.
Wild turkey on the rocks please
I have no self confidence, no social skills, barely a life.. I'm always cold. I Think about ending it almost everyday now. Only thing that stops me is knowing that it would devastate my family... My "friends" are mostly scumbags. Though I make decent grades in college, I'm miserable here. No girl is attracted to me, see the first sentence if you want to know why. Just recently, this one girl told some of my friends that she liked me.... Then around a month later she killed herself.... The thought of this has been fucking with me ever since it happened. I feel like I could have maybe done something... At least spoken to her or something. I've been getting blackout drunk lately to get away from all of it.. Its always cold here and I live alone, which I think worsens my issues. And I have absolutely no one I trust enough to go to....
>>27298221
my first love did something like this to me, got me reminiscing. fuck you forever. no sympathy for people who do this heartless shit to people.
Hey bartender. Are you the same one who was crushing on his mate's girlfriend?
As for me
>dated 4 years
>broke up 1 year ago, mutually
>sometimes keep in touch with ex
>dedicating life to lifting/study/drinking
>text from her at 3 am, 'i miss you a lot. do you miss me sometimes?'
>jokingly reply back with 'not much to miss' and close app
I'm missing her again but I'll be over it by tomorrow. Serve me up something strong.
>>27298254
My whining:
>>27298221
I lost my wallet, I'm carrying cash in my pocket
>>27298281
im happy for you give it to her anon you're not just humping for yourself you are representing robots around the world
Just creeped on my exs instagram and she has one photo up where she looks really pretty. Makes me want to start looking for another gf. *sigh*
>>27298388
she is ugly as hell anon
>>27295480
Hit me with a straight up beer mate.
I've had a rough week of constant panic attacks about my life. I'm worried that I'm irredeemably ugly and have no chance really ending up in a happy relationship.
Now this being said I've decided to lose weight and have committed to it already. Usually I get committed for only a day and lose the energy but this has stayed around for about 4 days now and I'm excited to start lifting and counting calories.
At the end of the day I'm trying to love myself more and do stuff for me, not others. I care too much about what other people think.
I also messaged my ex saying that I did love her and I hate that we broke up. It's been 3 years I don't know why I bothered with it but its the one time I felt loved until she said she didn't love me.
>>27298119
just find a new job you dingus
>>27298221
no girls allowed, it's for robots and feels, not """""fembots"""""" and pity parties.
>>27298281
prepare to be underwhelmed, bust a nut before you start so that you don't cum too quickly
>>27298334
nah
you fucked up
>>27298347
we also take feels
>>27298316
I'm sorry you had to go through that. I was a selfish peice of shit who was lustful and stupid. I never thought of it from his side. I should have done more, it could have been different, and that's just what I deserve. I'll never know how it could have been. I'll never see the side of him that deserves to be seen.
I hope you and Adam are both doing better.
j-just a glass of milk, barkeep...
>>27298388
She's super ugly
please leave normie scum
take your (You)s and your Rees out with you
>>27298416
you really think so? I don't see it.
>>27295480
I didnt vaccinate my dog and he died
I cant forgive myself Im so sorry my dear pupper... i just want to hang myself from a tree branch
>>27298460
How old were you at the time? Do you lie much about stuff now?
>>27298455
I think I'm too JUST to get hired in person and most other places would find a way to get rid of me
>>27298439
don't count calories, because it will just make your panic attacks worse. just aim for 45 minutes of cardio a day and that's all.
if you want to make it fun, get a wii, wii sports (boxing) and some wii boxing gloves
as for your ex, don't drink milk thats past its expiration date, you're only going to make yourself sick in the long run if you know what i mean
>>27298479
i really think so... but im sorry you're feeling lonely anon going on her instagram is prbbly not good just stay away from that for your own good
This past week was actually pretty decent. Light work load, very out of the ordinary.
I have some scotch tonight and have class tomorrow, but fuck it, I havent had any in awhile.
Cheers.
>>27298510
don't let that turn you into a homeless, because i'd rather have a shit job than sleep under a bridge
>>27296339
>tfw when
>that feel when when
be original, ffs.
>>27298524
I've organised with a friend to go to the gym 3 times a week and he knows about all my stuff so I feel really calm around him. I might just try and reduce food that I know is bad for me (already removed soda from my diet). I've already lost about 11 pounds in the first month that I stopped eating as much garbage so I'm hoping by the end of the year I'm much happier with myself.
She's really not that great of a person in general but she was really nice to me during it and I think at some point did care about me. Maybe because I didn't initiate sex properly after 6 months is what made her fall out of love. In the end it doesn't matter too much but I miss the feelings of cuddling and kissing in bed while watching shitty tv shows.
I don't think its worth chasing that until I respect myself and I think this is the way to do it.
>>27298505
He was 17 but very unstable, if you couldn't already tell. It bugs me because he was so passionate about me, bought me shit, took me out to nice places, told me how attractive i was during sex, but I was just in it for the sex, I'm disgusted by how I treated him and I lost all connections to him. The friend I met him through deleted his contact and I lost his, a few years back.
We were stupidly young but I at least want to now he's over it, because he was really sad when he realized I was at fault and decided to drop it.
Holy Hell. I came in here two nights ago as I was tripping on DXM. It was early in the trip, only had taken about 300mg. About an hour later, redosed with another 300mg. Jesus christ, took me to hell and back. 600mg+ prolonged for someone who only weighs 120 lbs puts you into mental hell. Legit thought I died. If any of you ever try dmx , stick to 5mg/kg or less.
>>27298635
I was in a very similar situation at the age of 18 where my gf dropped me 6 months down the track with no real explanation. I can tell you that it really really hurts especially when you are nuts about them and you thought they were as well until they tell you otherwise. It ruined my self esteem for a very long time and I developed a lot of anxiety around how people think of me.
Now all this being said eventually I have gotten to a point where I don't feel as bad and am comfortable with myself. Point being is develop empathy and don't lie. I understand that you obviously regret it but as long as you learned why it was bad that's the important thing.
I'll get roasted to shit but everyone makes mistakes when they are young and most people are selfish cunts when they are in their teens so as long as you've developed don't guilt yourself for life.
>>27295480
for the past few days I've been talking to a chick on OkC. I felt really comfortable with her, never had those moments where I'm in cold sweat thinking of what to say next. Topic of sex came up and we joked about it and I suggested I'll bring some alcohol and she was like "drunk sex is bad, I get lazy" and thinking it was kind of funny I blurted out I was a virgin. We're both 24.
She took it in stride and we talked about how I came to be the failure I am today, and she told me about her past relationships that never worked out and we just talked about whatever. It all seemed like we were having a connection that we've never had before.
Last night she asked if I liked her and I confessed I liked the image of her that I was talking to. Maybe I should have just said "yes" but I played the honesty card that seemed to be traded between us rather easily. She visited my profile and said "I think I like talking to you"
I've been kind of salty since. I didn't join OkC to find internet friends. God knows I already have plenty of those. At the same time I value her virtual company.
But the biggest problem is that I don't know why I like her, honestly. I say I like talking to her but is it because she can handle my ramblings and weird messages? Like 0 women can handle that, but it is the real me. I feel like Jim Carey in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind where he falls in love with every girl who shows any affection to him.
Ultimately I want to hit it off with her, we're both kind of fucked up and I would appreciate having a female friend I'm fully comfortable with.
I want to stop talking and cut off contact but it's so childish.
I guess I'll play it by ear.
>>27298730
That hit hard. Thank you, anon.
>>27298221
Also not fembot but fagbot.
>>27298635
I haven't got any advice for you but here's a song for you to feel to. It's quite close to your situation.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_BQ9m0kOeo
>>27298791
In my opinion you should get to the point with this girl and say that you like her and want to get in a relationship. It;s more painful to dance around stupid bullshit and not knowing than being rejected and being able to get over that person.
Today was my birthday. About half the people that wished me happy birthday last year did it today
I now know my ex bf has moved on and I can't do anything about it. I'm pretty sure he developed feelings for this person while we were in a relationship. I'm mad bc it only ended because of the long distance between us, and he even told me that if this werent the case we'd still be together. I did nothing wrong. I just don't deserve good things to happen. Now he's in school getting plenty ofdickand I'm sitting on tinder talking to guys 80 miles away from me.
I'll take enough 94% alcool to absolve my inner organs, barkeep.
>>27298822
>>27298843
No worries, just keep it real and be open about how you feel with the people you love.
I need to tell Adam I'm sorry
>>27298884
lmao this definitely happens
>>27298851
>>27298897
4chans never made me cry until this thread
>>27298087
>tfw I just broke up with my first ever
I don't want the pain to be here for that long please don't let this happen oh my god
>>27298894
Taking the negative approach to it is never the way to go anon. Of course being broken up with hurts but saying you don't deserve good things to happen to you is an easy way to spiral into depression. If it's only just happened recently my recommendation is to do stuff that keeps you in the moment and focusing on what will and is happening, not what has happened. Mindfulness meditation i s really good for this same thing.
>>27298954
It's best not to. False hope is a cunt of a thing and him getting that may ruin him further, you don't want that further burdening you. You yourself also need to move on and get on with your own life.
>>27299007
It's shit senpai.
>>27298884
Happy Birthday, Anon. May you have many more.
>>27297488
it took me 6 years to get over my first love, and she found a new boyfriend and forgot about me in 2 weeks
>drinking
fucking normies
>>27299031
I just want him to know that I understand how wrong I was, and to know that he's stopped hurting. I feel like a monster playing with his feelings like that.
>>27299069
Telling him won't stop the guilt, I'm telling you. You need to come to terms with the fact that, yes, you made a mistake but you won't do it again. He will deal with it in his own way and will use it as a growing experience more than likely. Probably time to take a deep breath and calm down for a second.
>>27298862
The thing is, she wants to get into a relationship whereas I have a hard time committing. I can't even plan my own life, how do I plan my life that is entwined with someone else? And that's jus tone dimension of the problem. The biggest question is that I feel like she's already decided I'm not dateable and I'm only good for company.
IDK famalam I'm just ranting. If I still talk to her by the end of the week I'll ask her out proper.
>>27298894
isn't it bizarre that we live in an age where distance should no longer matter but the only thing that's different is that distance is just exposed?
It's like before the information age, 80 miles was a gulf that was not well defined. You knew it was far and it made things hard, the chasm is almost fantastical. People stuck in towns. Now you know it's 80 miles, you see that number pop up when you open Tinder, but that's just it - the gulf is still there.
>feel when still thinking about the really cute nice cashier you saw the other night
>>27299120
I'm sorry, I'm just tired and never had the time to think about how wrong I was until recently and its like a splinter got barbed in my skin and not matter how hard I pull it digs in further the other way.
I really should be sleeping but I can't get my fucking mind off of him
>>27298884
shine on you anonymous robot
>>27299188
he broke up with me because he told me he needed someone to physically be there for him and while we can talk over the phone and through skype, it's of course not the same as being with someone in person. If I were in university living in a single room, then hell yeah I'd want to be spooning with someone all the time. I can't blame him.
>drink heavily
>need to be sober tomorow
>drinking tonight
>>27299242
I'm right there with you, brah
What are your hangover cures?
>>27299188
Realistically I think you may regret not finding out what could be and going with the flow as opposed to feeling like you need shit planned out. I'm like you in that everything terrifies me if it's not planned out but what I'm learning is its near impossible to pan for everything if anything at all. The best way to go about it is to keep your head in the current situation and go off what you think is the right judgement, not all the scenarios that will occur from it.
>>27299201
Just do some deep breathing and try to slow yourself down a bit. Shit's gonna hurt but just like anything time can do wonders for your mental health as long as you keep a positive mind set.
>>27299270
Okay, in gonna try and sleep. I'll be back tomorrow. Thank you for the talk, anon. I haven't cried in a while.
>>27295480
>need to hit 33+ pushups in a minute
>could do 23
>gym membership
>protein powder
>triceps and chest exclusively
>fast forward 9 weeks to present day
>can do 25
>only three weeks left to hit goal
>will be discharged on first day for failing to meet required minimum
Goodbye, all.
>>27299327
Good luck and take care.
>>27299262
I drink 4 cups of coffee a day though that doesn't cure my shakes.
>tfw I didn't go for the kiss
>tfw anxiety that I'll never get the chance again
>>27299331
3 weeks is plenty man, do decline/weighed pushups
>>27299362
>tfw 25yo KV
>tfw sat in a class where multiple women claimed that bad kissing is a dealbreaker and kissing cannot be improved upon
>>27299331
What are you trying to get in to?
Vodka water with a lime.
My father's health has gone downhill, and I've started taking over the business.
I'm scared shitless. I'm trying my best with the business, but some of it is so over my head. But most of all, it's knowing that my dad's not going to be around.
>>27299351
Caffeine addiction is a hell of a thing.
I usually have around 4 cups a day as well, but thats without drinking.
The worst thing I get the night after is stomach pains, so I usually eat as much food as my stomach can handle and lots of water. For some reason bananas work really well.
>>27299377
Shit sucks dude, but kissing isn't all that hard, first kisses are the hardest, since every person is different with what they like. It's possible to get better, practice on the back of your hand if anything, somewhat similar feeling. Become free from being a KV
>>27299439
>Become free from being a KV
wew lad if only it were that simple
>>27299377
>>27299439
>tfw first kiss wasn't awkward
>tfw was told i was a really good kisser for the first time.
YeMy dick can't get hard though so fuck me I guess
>>27299411
Man I'd barely eat but bananas sound better than anything.
>>27299411
>tfw have to drink at least 3 large
energy drinks a day to prevent caffeine withdrawals
I hope my heart fails someday soon
>>27299462
I know anon, there are videos out there as well though so just get comfortable with your hand and just go for it dude, if anything get buzzed beforehand
Oh and make sure your breath isn't gross.
>>27299373
I'm a fucking turbonoob at muscle training. Should I go for max number every time, or in sets? Considering my non-gains up to this point it's not looking possible.
>>27299395
Officer training.
>>27299547
Oh. I'm actually not too worried about the kissing. It's more the "permanently alone and no way out of this" bit.
>>27299563
http://hundredpushups.com
Mostly sets once or twice a day at least, cycling between 'intensity' 'rest' 'volume' days where intensity is you go balls out and push yourself until your arms are dead, rest is light/recovery day, volume is doing a lot of them with breaks. Or you can follow the site I linked.
>>27299270
>keep your head in the current situation and go off what you think is the right judgement
I'll try my best. Thanks anon.
Just a water please,
Feeling pretty down the last few days, my anxiety is so bad i can't even play a damn game of street fighter without shaking.
>>27299547
>I hope my heart fails someday soon
Don't say that anon
>>27299591
What makes you think yourr permanently alone?
Do you find yourself unattractive?
>>27299636
Anything in particular causing it or is it GAD related?
>>27299666
As I said, I only have average looks. This marks me as objectively unattractive to females, and unfortunately, I am straight.
>>27299684
>average
>unattractive
>>27299670
Just GAD i think, i get it playing anything online and if i know i'll have to talk to somebody outside.
>>27299695
Yes, Anonymous. How behind are you?
>>27299684
>average looks
>implying that means ugly
Anon please
>>27299684
You can't buy into r9k memes my friend. Most of the shit spouted on here is far from the actual truth. Attractiveness comes from a lot more than looks and, in most cases, isn't generally taken too much into account unless they are actually shallow.
Heya Barkeep.
A-are you the usual usual Barkeep (the one with Huntington's) O-or has he finally closed his eyes?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_P4saspw8pw
As far as things go for me though, things are okay I guess. Gonna start working soon, can't really complain about anything at this given moment.For once, I can get up with a smile.
>>27299704
>okcupid stats
Gee a site where each worthless obese woman has literally 1000 desperate males chasing them, clearly reflects reality.
>>27299698
I'm in the same situation bud. The anxiety comes first then latches onto shit. Have you tried maybe getting more sleep or doing stuff to unwind that isn't online games?
>>27299706
Didn't realize even basic simple feels threads have been taken over by normalfags now. Reckon I should have lurked beforehand.
>>27299710
>r9k memes
Been on the board fairly often for seven years, newfriend. My beliefs are backed by a combination of empirical studies and anecdotal evidence.
Polite sage for responding to it all.
>>27299728
It's pretty shitty huh. I'd love to get more sleep but well it's 5 am and i'm still sitting here. Eh i dunno man it just feels like it's impossible to escape from this shit. Thanks for listening though.
>>27295480
Give me a 100ml of vodka, mang.
I was set to see a girl today. Yesterday I asked her on facebook if we're still set but I didn't get a response at all. She didn't even see it. I guess that's it for me...
I'm tired of this mini meme that females can be forever alone. Someone here posted a subleddit the other day for "forever alone" women, and it's just a hugbox for typical cunts with long laundry lists for potential BFs and whining that they can't find guys who meet their lists. And worse, straight up lying and saying it's easier for men because women have to have makeup while men can just make lots of money to get women. YOU FUCKING CUNTS MAKEUP IS CHEAP, YOU CAN LIE ABOUT HOW YOUR FACE LOOKS BY SMEARING POWDERS AND CREAMS ON YOUR FACE. WE CAN'T. BEING WEALTHY IS SIGNIFICANTLY HARDER THAN PUTTING FUCKING MAKEUP ON YOUR FACE. WE DONT EVEN HAVE THE LUXURY OF LYING ABOUT OUR LOOKS LIKE YOU DO.
females cannot be FA. crying about being in between BFs or that you can't find chad isn't being FA. having the option of getting sex easily isn't being FA.
Stopping in to say these threads are some of my favorite on the site (although I have been noticing an influx of normalfags recently).
It makes the long nights easier, drink to your heart's content fellow robots.
http://youtu.be/_twArsZnZvs
>>27296318
>sleep 10+
TFW some people only need 4 hours of sleep
TFW genetics aren't fair
>>27299800
Screw her anon, social media is toxic to any male-female relationship in the making and should be avoided at any and all costs. Keep it IRL and best of luck to you.
>>27299851
How do I even keep it IRL? I literally use Facebook only for the messenger. Fucking cunt made me wait long and even though she's been online at least a few times since the message she hasn't bothered to read it.
First time posting in a long while, stopped really coming here about a year ago when I had a nervous breakdown that really fucked me over and continues to do so.
Through it though I lost all sense of shame and picked up self confidence, got a bf, broke up, got a gf (both the first real relationships i've been in) sort of happy now about some things
I feel like I actually have a sense of worth, that i'm actually attractive, that someone actually cares. It all seemed so out of reach and it still feels surreal..
Still have awful anxiety that controls my thoughts more than is healthy, still have paranoia and cynicism towards the people i care about because of my issues but I think it can only get better and I am.
Hard to feel hopeful and content though so i'm trying to just focus on the now, enjoying the moment instead of wishing for some bullshit ideal that will only sink me.
Perfection isn't a place but a glimpse at hardwork's face
and so I know its not instant. What you want won't fix what you think it will.
It will just leave you unsatisfied and frustrated until you pick up a new fixall goal that you invest everything into without ever really confronting the underlying issues.
everything that i need to be happy i have with me right now in this moment so why waste my time thinking of far off solutions to these issues?
If it's going to be fine let it, if not well you're fucked anyway so might as well ride it out and enjoy it.
>>27295480
Both my brother and sister, respectively four and two years younger are in a relationship. My heart feels so big, it's about to burst through my chest. I just want someone to love, and someone to romantically love me. Already stone cold drunk, so Ill have a club soda with lime.
>>27299862
I think you already know why she hasn't messaged you, she doesn't care, if she cared she would be at least a little bit proactive in terms of wanting to see you. It's a hard pill to swallow but these bitches are dumb and lazy, almost incapable of rejecting someone forthrightly or being direct in the communication period. Tell her to take a selfie then kill herself.
>>27299825
Women and men can both be forever alone. Most robots could date/get with some 400lb obese chick if they wanted. That's what you are to most women, the equivalent of a 400lb woman. It's like saying 'hey how can anyone say they're hungry when i saw this rotting apple on the ground?'
Shouldn't because of training but what the hell. Give me an Anime Freak, please.
Another OKCupid date cancelled last minute, probably the sixth one. This one said she was sick. Perhaps she actually is, or perhaps she just wants me to fuck off.
Can't say I'm surprised but it's still disappointing because she messaged first, we it off quickly, I felt a genuine conversation flow, and had already planned the evening.
Saved money, checked out cool places to take her, shaved, used fancy skincare products, got my hair perfectly, wore my good lotion and clothes, and shined my shoes.
Also watched Inarritu's "Amores Perros" ("Love's a Bitch" in the Queen's English) and the amusement calmed the anger. It's like the mexican Pulp Fiction.
Can't figure out what's wrong with me, barkeep. Thanks to anyone who's reading.
Can i get a glass of Glenmorangie 10 year old
So a girl i had a thing for that kept asking me to do stuff with her basically told me to fuck off I have no idea why she inserted herself into my life then just left.
>ex we won't talk to me anymore
>had date last week with qt who is super chill but she is moving 12 hours away for med school next month
>last decent girl in my life said she couldn't go to dinner with me because she has a bf
>regressed to talking too crazy chick who rejected me just so I can have female conversation
Where are all the good single women? Does this chick even have a bf?
JDIMSA
>>27300192
>attractive
>mentally stable
>single
pick 2 brah
>>27299966
The worst part is that she actually did appear interested. We've met once before, and spent some good 4 hours talking in a pub so you'd think she'd enjoyed our meetup at least a bit. And even later she was eager to meet me. When we discussed something she said something like "aw damn anon it's a pretty complex thing, but I'll explain it to you in person when we meet again".
And then she does shit like this.Aw fuck it I guess I'll just try messaging her just one more time.
>>27300192
Try finding a new social group anon and don't give up, try doing things to stand out in a positive way. Take a break stop searching for a woman and enjoy life for a bit.
>>27300258
Don't contact her you really have two options stop talking to her or just be honest and tell her it upsets you that she acts as if your friends but ignores you. Otherwise you will slowly hate her for treating you like shit.
>>27300341
I just really wanted to see her, man. She's got this adorable cute smile I wanted to see irl again.
For fuck's sake I was looking forward to it. Why does nothing ever work out for me?
I'm trying to break away from my abusive dad who I'm positive has narcissistic personality disorder but him and my mom have got a grip on me financially and socially. My S/O who is pretty much my only real life friend and who has been very supportive of me doesn't know if they can go on for much longer because they can't stand to see me not stand up for myself and hurt. I'm afraid of standing up to my dad because of the issues it will cause not only in my immediate family but my extended family as well. I've only ever been pushed down the path that they want me to and the slightest protest is met with violence.
I don't even know where I should start when it comes to what I should do. Saying "fuck off" isn't that simple, especially with manipulative narcissists who can appear charismatic and likable to strangers.
>>27300383
Maybe this is life working out for you a smile can be full of lies anon. Find a girl that cares for you or be honest not blunt but honest with this one, it's easier if you stop talking to her but that's up to you.
>ex misses my birthday
>she says she tried to come but didn't make it
>I tell her whatever because I haven't seen her since November
>she says she feels like she isn't important to me anymore
>tell her she is but she never wants to hang out
>she apologized and said she was pushing people away because she was hurt
>the next week ask to hang out
>she says yes but blows me off again
Fuuuuuuck this shit
>>27300435
I don't know, anon. I tried so many times I honestly lost hope of ever finding a girl who'll actually genuinely care for me in an active way.
I'll try messaging her just one more time and then I'll at least know where I'm standing. If we don't meet today or tomorrow then I'm fucking done with her.
>>27300388
My family is similar my and all i can tell you is to distance yourself, if your s/o is the only one there for you then they are your family. You don't get to pick your parents but if you cut the ties they your parents lose their power over you. If you can just distance yourself from them and leave. if they attack you call the police you can fight back without coming to blows just get yourself free anon.
>>27300473
Be gentle don't be desperate, and if you find the right social circles and work hard enough you can find someone.
Thanks for drinking with me anons and thanks to the bartender serving us you are going to make it just don't give up.
>>27300506
Thanks for the support, anon. It just seems so complicated to me -- I technically do have a lot of qualities, experiences and skills but I've rarely done anything for myself because they've always been molding me into the person they wanted to be but couldn't. I don't know what I would do about getting a job (I do freelance writing because it interferes with schooling the least) and paying for uni in the long run.
What have you done with your family?
Just gimme the usual. Leave me a bottle of bottom shelf shit with or without a glass. Im in love with a boy (no homo). Hes my best friend, he knows too. I know he doesnt swing that way but i still feel feelings for him.
>>27300741
My father was commited when i was young he use to beat the hell out of me, my mother is verbally abusive and tired to manipulate me constantly. My mother has a lot of charisma and tried to craft me into a chad but thats just not how i am. I left for university I still see them sometimes but I won't go back I moved away from them and burnt a lot of bridges. To be honest i am happy with my life everything i have is mine and i earned it. Try to stand on your own feet it's hard at first but it feels good in the end just remember the victor isn't victorious if the vanquished does not consider himself so. You can make it there is always a way tell your s/o you love them.
Hell, i've had half a bottle of scotch by this point. I cant barely type anymore and i Know I should be asleep by now. but I know I keep getting worse and drinking more. I dont want this, robots, I want to be abe to stop, but drinking is so much better. What do i do?
>>27300957
That sounds incredibly rough, I'm really glad you were able to to break out of their clutches. I guess I'll have to start using what little free time I have left to build myself up. Thank you for the advice.
