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2016-03-20 17:32:42 Post No. 27285552
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2016-03-20 17:32:42
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Incoming blogpost. I never make these, and was hoping someone here has been in a similar situation as me. Maybe I could get some advice.
I've been homeschooled since I was 11. Even now, I take online classes for college.
I've lived a reclusive life for about 8 years. It hasn't been uncommon for me to stay home for months at a time. I never saw much of a problem with doing so. I figured that I only exist now to get through school so that I may eventually get a good job and live on my own. These were just filler days until then, until a "better" situation and life came along. I've been living solely for the future, somehow forgetting that I've been living the real thing all these years. I've not a whole lot to show for it, however. I can't differentiate most days, not even my birthdays. I did nothing memorable on those days. I stayed home, and probably got drunk.
Once that ideal future I envision comes along, I'll surely look back at these years and think to myself "what a waste, if only I had chosen a different way to live those prime years". But it makes me wonder, what could I possibly do to live more vividly? I can't go out places, doing things with friends because my only friend who has been like a brother since I was too young to speak coherently has gone off for uni.
Is there really a way for me to "live"? I simply exist through these jaded, recurring days, and I can't help but wonder how they would have been now, had I done something differently a few years back. What kind of life could I be living? Probably something more worthwhile. This one in particular must be my observation post for the potential realities I could've led.
That in mind, it's why I want to change the way I live now. I'm just not entirely sure how. I'm willing to break out of my comfort zone to try.
