>tfw alcoholism is spiraling out of control
>tfw addicted to /r9k/
>tfw laugh hysterically and have depressive mood swings
>tfw nostalgia is crippling me
>tfw violent racist violent fantasises are reawakening
>tfw attraction to 13-15 year olds is coming back reeally fucking strongly (unfortunately, FBI no, pls)
Is this the end? Is this what the end feels like?
>>27278973
BONUS QUESTION
Why does ignoring women who are into you feel so fucking good?
>>27279058
Because it does.
>>27278973
all of those things are happening to me too
>>27279058
not that though, fuck off back to facebook chad
>>27279286
I was OP and bonus question actually
I just forgot to include the bonus question in my OP
>>27279349
yeah i understood that
when i just read the first post i could relate so well but then the second post ruined it
>>27279443
Sorry fammo
I'm not Chad, I'm not even a normie, I promise
Weird bitches just like me sometimes for some reason
>>27279477
So you have a social life where you meet all these girls?
And you're considered a full part of your social circle, not just that weird acquaintance?
>>27279602
>all these girls
Kek no
I know one sheltered girl these days who I have a pretty good connection with from the school days
She's cool, but I can't even bring myself to care unfortunately
>>27278973
You're just a robot. A real robot. At least 1/3rd of the posters here are in high school, and are normal, functioning people. Those high schoolers either stay normie and leave this website eventually, or they become like us: weirdos out of touch with anything conventional, stable, and good.
>>27279775
>are in high school, and are normal, functioning people. Those high schoolers either stay normie and leave this website eventually
I'm about to, fuck you fucking weirdos.
>>27279853
OP here
good luck
>>27279897
Thanks man
I tired once before and everything
I mean EVERYTHING went great
...........but then I came back
I'm not making that mistake again
Also deleting my entire 4chan folder for good.
>college drop out
>constantly fantasizing about robbing a pharmacy or a bank
>full NEET of course
>too afraid of hurting my mom to kill myself
>can't afford to be on drugs 24/7, and if I was then my mom would be sad about that too
>do pretty much all kinds of drugs except hallucinogens, but my favorites are opioids, in particular heroin
>also fancy benzodiazepines to a degree, recently went on a bit of a bender with etizolam and flubromazolam
>was taking large quantities of benzo's everyday, among other drugs
>wake up two days ago and just decide I can't go on anymore
>write up a note, grab the last of my drugs, and go to go OD somewhere
>brought a joint to give a hobo who bought me beer a couple times, but couldn't find him
>recently started chainsmoking cigarettes when possible, unfiltered Lucky Strikes because I like the packaging
>the day I was going to kill myself I threw away the last of my weed and wasted $50 on lotto tickets that I tore up and threw away before even fully checking them
>wake up today, try to live a little bit better
>do slightly better
>try to help a lost dog
>it runs away
>accidentally cut someone off in traffic and feel like a dick
>oh well, there goes that day, I can't function anymore
>eat dinner, make my bed, take an enormous amount of doxylamine and melatonin
>get a little bit of sleep, but not much
>wake up around 3, decide to do some shots to try to relax me
>feel slightly better
>half an hour later, lying in bed trying to sleep, start hearing music (actually hearing music, not just imagining a tune, if that makes sense), get lightheaded and fuzzy and my body started violently shaking.
>a female voice kept softly saying "I'm going to die" in a scared tone (I'm male)
>5:40 AM
>Still can't sleep
Time for another cigarette I think.
This is only the beginning
>decided to go out on St paddys
>have anxiety so only way to open up is drink
>always drink too much
>make fun of guy
>out of no where get dragged by neck
>weak sleeper hold, to drunk to do shit also not strongest person
>finaly after they drag me for what felt like 30 seconds get told
>THATS WHAT YOU GET FOR MAKING FUN OF HIS NAME
>laughing but want to cry because i can only rely on drinking in order to feel
>neck still hurts, not sure if seriously injured thinking just bruise
>cant afford DR and if icould be to nervous to go
>wishing i can just not drink
so how to stop drinking so much??
