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2016-03-18 22:39:15 Post No. 27245959
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2016-03-18 22:39:15
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Hey /r9k/. I don't really know who else I should ask about this. Sorry if this is too long but desu I don't expect many replies anyway. I just need to vent and talk to someone about what I'm experiencing
I love this girl. At least I think I do. I've really never felt this attracted to someone. I know she and I are very similar. We have similar passions, a similar sense of humor, similar tastes, even similar mannerisms--It's like we're made for each other. She's with another man though, and I don't know if I'm the right person for her. Her relationship with this guy is only 2 months old, but it's going very strong. I'm not the strongest or the fittest guy in the world but I'm also not fat or ugly by any means. This guy is better looking than I am, but not by much. The girl is like a 6-7/10 but I love her for her personality, not appearance. Anyway, back to the topic at hand. I have panic disorder and BPD. Sadly this girl knows this. I've been friends with her for a long time so she found out when I was diagnosed. I've only begun to realize I love her recently. Obviously this guy isn't mentally awry and doesn't have the stigmatism of craziness following him everywhere. I feel like a beta, but honestly /b/ I'm not even sure if I really love her. I get so intensely infatuated with her some days and all I do then is talk and talk and talk with her and we have a great time, but on days like today I'm interested in her but I just have nothing to say. I feel almost distracted. I know this is likely a result of my BPD but it really confuses me. Today I just feel like I have no chance at ever being with her because she knows too much about me. And I have nothing to say or do to combat that, i'm just demotivated and at some level, apathetic. Is this normal /r9k/? I've never loved someone before. I'd go into why but I feel like I'm fast approaching the max character count and im on mobile so I can't see it.