> tfw pushing all my friends away
I knew it couldn't last.
>tfw successfully pushed all my friends away years ago
>pushed family other than my parents away
>now going periods of months without speaking to anyone other than cashiers
I don't really feel anything
Probably your fault
Either they weren't really your friends anyway and were normies or more likely you weren't ever a deserving friend to them and they dumped your dumb dick ass
Why are you trying to push your friends away, anon?
>>27149041
You're a straight up wanker mate
>>27149019
Change aint gunna happen itself XD
>>27149019
Same man. Feels pretty bad
>>27149041
That actually sounds nice
>join a DnD group
>after a few 6 hour sessions can't bring myself to go anymore
I don't know what it is. I thought I was having fun but going and doing anything comes with anxiety and feeling generally uncomfortable and worried.And now my partner is gonna be stuck going still with 5 dudes and I'm gonna feel weird because she's going by herself and she's gonna feel weird going by herself but I'm I don't wanna drag her down with me.
Maybe being slightly miserable is my natural state of being.
>Invited for a coffee by a dude I went to highschool with 4 years after highschool
>Feel like I'm being fooled or pranked
>Still go
>I walk in and he says "Guys, you remember anon, right?"
>There is a lot of people that used to hangout together but never with me
>Girl from our class says "Sure we do"
>Tries to hug me
>Instant reflex of pushing her away like she was a muggler or a thief
>Look at everyone
>They're all confused
>The guys that invited me apologizes to everyone and says "I knew it was a mistake"
They don't know what it's like to be alone for your whole life.
>>27149019
This is the life we were meant for.
>tfw decade's long struggle with depression has left me emotionally burnt-out and apathetic to everything
>tfw completely passive towards my friends, rarely ever respond to their texts or calls, or if I do, it's several days later and usually very short
>tfw the few times I've hung out with friends, I ended up going into autopilot mode and simply stared into space or only responded when people spoke to me first
>tfw have rejected a couple girls' advances, including one who had offered to smoke me out on several occasions, due to apathy
>tfw I don't even have the energy to care
