Good evening lads, the Tavern is opened once again.
As always, order a drink and the keeper will lend you an ear or two
First song on the Jukebox: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O4-6Y_91v5I
/uni/ is killing me
just fuck my shit up
Beer and cranberry, another day I wasted of life.
nice song, are you the OG barkeeper? Why are you dying again?
>>27136857
What are you studying?
>>27136866
Here you go sir, Heineken and Cranberry Juice.
Do you live the /neet/ lifestyle?
>>27136909
Thanks, but I don't know about any OG barkeeper sadly.
>>27136932
Allright i have a beer to drown my unrequited love feels
>>27137014
Heres your Heineken.
And as a person who has been in this situation before, let you be telled it's better to let her go
>>27136932
Yes, but my NEET train is stopping short.
I'm prepping a drifter life, building a bugout pack and reading hobo manuals.
Made a thread earlier, but... I'm trying to become a mangaka, but I hate drawing. Just shoot me in the right temple and burn my body.
>>27136857
What year, what subject?
>>27137162
Did you really think this through? Sounds like quite a big decision
>>27137208
Then why do you even try?
>>27137307
I try because I care about this story more than I hate drawing. It's made me bipolar, Tbh.
2 more weeks and a nice break from uni before finals, I want that fucking break
>>27137307
Yep. I need to experience life. Autism, normies and an abusive family took my childhood away so it's about time I did something for myself.
>>27137339
Maybe you should try writing then.
>>27137410
3 more weeks of break for me :^)
>>27137457
then maybe this blog will be interesting for you ... this guy lived in his van for 3 years http://www.kenilgunas.com/p/vandwelling.html
One Stella please
>8:45pm sunday night in biggest city in the south/ southeast
>just walked back from the grocery store b/c have diahrea and used all of tp
>during walk to and from store see around a dozen couples, all my age
>walked close to some on the sidewalk and listened to them talk
>the guys sound such like guys and the girls such like girls
>dont understand why theyre talking about the things theyre talking about
>think ive got it right and theyre just vapid
>come home and look up trap porn for the 8th time today
>cant masturbate b/c ive averaged masturbating almost two times a day for the past year and a half
>realize it me whos bitter and sick
>realize theyre not vapid, thats just how people talk
>not even ugly
>cant decide if bad personality, or healthy body/sick mind
>>27136857
iktf man
Last semester though but the only person that managed to install some sort of motivation in me is gone.
Who else /vodka/ here
>>27136776
Hello barkeep, just give me anything, I can't ask because I don't know the name of most drinks, and I'll probably say something wrong and you will think im a retard. Anyway, I just greentext some stuff, hope you read
>uni is killing me, cant keep up with the rest of the class because Im stupid as fuck
>the teachers need to stop the class to explain things to me
>joined a chat group that some virgins know from steam, turns out only me and one guy were virgens, the other 5 were not
>everytime I say something the conversation suddently stops
>the girl I used to have oneitis last year now takes the bus with her bf, who is skelly white tall guy, while I am fat, shitskin and a manlet
>Im a egocentric piece of shit who only think about himself
>contemplate suicide everyday since when i was 14
sorry for the poorly writen blog post, just give me a gun
A pint of strongbow please.
How's everyone day be? I literally just got friendzoned by a girl I could've probably been with but I fucked it up by getting drunk too much.
>>27137410
I can't wait for some rest.
>go on kikebook
>First thing on my homepage is-
>"She" is in a relationship with "him"
Fuck. At least I have lifting fuel now.
>>27137507
Definitely, thanks tender <3
I'll leave you a good tip.
>>27137586
>Why do you keep asking me to hang if I keep saying no?
Is she saying she was deliberately making up excuses not to hang with me?
'Cause that'd sting.
>>27137507
Yeah, that's my problem. I've always been a writer, but this specific story can't be told well in a light novel form. It needs to be done visually. I wish I could get someone to draw for me, but the reality is, that would never work. It's a miserable life, knowing that one project could take 10 years just to get started.
>>27137611
I don't know how long you have been lifting, but if you aren't big yet you should just drop social media entirely, get shredded, and re-emerge as a better version of yourself.
>>27137564
what year what subject what school?
>>27137664
About 6 months, feel a lot better already. But it still hurts.
>>27137665
That's probably the worst thing about this, Im on IT school, computer networking to be exact (yes this is a subject for studying in brazil)
Im that retard
>>27137685
Stretching, sleep and nutrition will take care of the pain in the muscles.
Reading, meditation, and trying new things will take care of the pain inside.
>>27137737
id say 90% of people with college degrees are just as retarded as you if not more.
Im studying mathematics/ actuarial science and let me tell you theyre some retards in there who barely scrap by just because of the leniency of the professor.
Computer networking is valuable, and anything IT related is valuable
>>27137514
Here's your stella sir
You sound a bit like rodger eliott desu
What is your occupation right now?
>>27137564
I made you a Mai Thai, I hope you're not a lightweight
You're better of if you try to forget about her desu. And for the rest, the only non-meme advice I can give to you is to drown your problems in Martinis.
Just don't forget that you're not alone.
>>27137586
There you go sir.
I'm sorry, but have you been here yesterday? There was a guy talking about finally dating a girl today.
But anyway, what happened?
>>27137654
You're welcome sir.
>>27137663
Well, if it's a good story there will be someone to draw for you 100%.
All you need is time ... or a lot of money.
Do you vwrite professionally?
Out of all those millions of sperms, you were the one that made it through.
And for what?
Nothing.
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>>27137868
I don't know why, but I had to think about this
>>27137861
I don't write professionally, but I've done a buttload of fanfiction. Looking to make the transition, but I'm tired of the novel style of writing. I want to focus on plots and dialogues without having to sound hoity toity with all the in between stuff. I'd much rather SHOW the reader than try to eloquently describe things to the reader.
>good things are starting to happen to me
>might get a decent job
>might transfer to a better uni
>have never been more upset
>was happier when whatever happened to me next was automatically going to be shit because at least I expected it
>don't know what to expect now
I'll take another screwdriver
>>27137861
>>27137514
Full time student, almost full time wage slave. Unlike Elliot I dont expect anything of people and I know that I will be generally relationshipless. Both platonic and romantic wise.
Also Im not rich
>>27136776
Did the bartender with the fucked up hands die? it's been a while
Also, barkeep, let me get a whiskey on the rocks. I'm deep in my feels at the moment.
Got drunk and had the police called on me because I apparently vomited in someones yard and threw a beer bottle at their house.
I ended up not answering the door
>>27137934
I know that feeling sempai. The visual aspect is not my strong suit. Describing things is something I'm, on my best days, adequate at. I envy writers that are capable in all areas.
Sup, man. Got any orange juice? I'll have that with two shots of vodka.
I'm suicidal for the 1st time in 5 years. Last time I was directionless and jobless and its the same again. I'm starting wonder if studying/having a job just made me numb to the feelings I'm having now because I wasn't happy when I was working, I just busy. I don't know. Anyway, probably going to get up tomorrow, watch tv, shitpost on /asp/ and download Fourze.
>I've only liked 4 girls in my entire life
>the last one that made me feel things had a long time relationship so I couldn't do shit
>cut contact with her because I couldn't take it anymore and thought it was the healthiest thing to do
>I don't have a phone and my mom told me just now that she asked if she could come over tomorrow all of a sudden after all these months
What the fuck does she want
I'm scared senpais.
>>27138043
shiposting > suicide
I'll take a pint of Bushmills fella
>>27137934
Then your only choice is to find someone to paint for you I guess ... although personally, I like written things more than shown
>>27137951
There is still hope, even for robots like us. If you study some non-memetic subject you will literally drown in money after uni
>>27137971
I don't know about someone like that, but maybe that's why they hired me ...
Anyways, heres your Whiskey mate, and feel free to share your feels!
>>27138010
thats ... kind of funny desu
How did they find out it was you?
>>27138043
OJ-Vodka is on the way!
Maybe you should see a therapist? You seem kind of depressed, and let me tell you, depression is a bitch.
>>27138070
Calm down, have a drink and enjoy it. She thought about you, even after YOU cut contact with her. You must mean something to her
>tfw pedo
Y'all niggas don't know pain. Give me a shot of chocolate milk.
I'll take a cuba libre, and some time to share my isane feel once more: Still madly in love with Bioshock's Elizabeth. This feel transcends "waifuism". What I feel for her is carnal, incandescent, sanguine love. It is intense enough to drown out all love I feel for real women in my life. Every girl I've dated in the last few years I've felt nothing for - so I drop them; not caring about what they may or may not feel towards me. I keep telling myself that maybe "they're just not my type", or that we're just "not compatible". However, the truth is that I cannot, and will not love them because of one unavoidable fact: They are not Elizabeth. I'm not looking for advice on how to overcome this - I don't want to. I enjoy loving her. That being said, I'm aware that this 'relationship' is having negative effects on my social life. If anything, I am looking for some advice, empathy, anything that alleviates some of this loneliness I feel - loneliness from not having anyone to share this feel with. Regardless, a cuba libre will be enough to soothe my woes for now.
I don't really drink a lot, someone recommend me something that's not busch light. That's all my brother drinks, and the only time I drink is with him
>>27138175
>feel free to share your feels
Standard r9k feels. Oneitis posted a picture, and I creepshotted it and now I just sit here staring at it.
Of course, I browse r9k, so she'll never want me, but damn it'd be nice. Shes fucking stunning.
I'm 26 now.
Part of me thinks I'll wake up and be 20 again.
I've just started to think about my goals in life and come up empty. I could drop everything in my life so far and don't think it would be bother me at all.
Anyone at this point? I escaped NEETdom, have money, my own place and have a long relationship but I just feel the same.
>>27138175
The problem with finding someone to do the illustrations is that they're mad expensive. We're talking about someone who's been doing this for years. I'd be lucky to get one who'd be willing to take $20,000 per volume.
>>27138090
Great taste anon! There you are.
>>27138176
Sorry, we don't serve chocolate milk.
>>27138195
Here's your Cuba
mate, no one here would be against waifuism, but I suggest you to uninstall bioshock, or else you'll get lost in a dream world.
There is a reason why you should cut all contacts to your oneitis, and it applies here aswell.
>>27138231
my oneitis rarely/never posts stuff on facebook/instagram etc., thats part of the reason why I got over her
You should try to let her go.
>>27138175
>You must mean something to her
The last thing she said to me was that I was a bad friend for not hanging with her and her friends that often when I had just gotten my first job and was completely overwhelmed by it.
It pisses me off when people don't understand the true concept of friendship. I've experienced it first hand and I know what true friendship is. I'm pretty sure at any given moment she'll say "you're so mean for not staying in touch with me!" tomorrow
>>27138175
>depression is a bitch
I saw one. Bitch was a fucking quack. I don't think its depression or it doesn't feel like it. I was depressed before and I'm not hurting like was I then. More like, "you don't want anything from life so why stick around?". The only reason why I haven't done it is because of my dad. He got a kidney transplant last year and has just finally gotten things on track. Even with the transplant he'll likely die in 8-10 years. I don't know if I can stick around for that long.
>>27138314
>you should try to let her go
I want to but, fuck man, girls don't like me. I've never had any romantic interest shown to me, and so now all a girl has to do is be nice to me, and I'll fall head over heels for her. That's how desperate I am. Even if I just get over her, there will be a new oneitis the next day.
>>27136776
I'll have some of your strongest sake. I'm almost done writing a literature paper that I've been procrastinating for almost a week and it's due tomorrow but for some reason I just don't want to finish it. Fuck writing, it's so pointless when I have nothing else in life.
>>27138314
You're right anon. For now though, i need my oneitis to get me through Uni. Thanks anyway - it is nice to know someone out there cares enough to give advice to anonymous people online.
ANOTHER FUCKING WASTED WEEKEND
>>27138422
>now all a girl has to do is be nice to me, and I'll fall head over heels for her
Yeah, that's a rough spot, anon. I know too well how you're feeling. If it's any help, I've had a oneitis for several years now but I have no chance and I've accepted that I'll just feel empty for the rest of my life. Stay strong, anon.
>>27138463
As a writer, I agree. It's pointless for schools to require it.
>>27138612
I love writing creatively, but when it comes to argumentative essays I'm just lost. I just want to relax and read some good literature, I don't want to write opinions about it. I hate school.
>>27138647
What's the subject on?
>>27138356
She could just write a Text for that, though
I think she wants more from you ... or at least I hope it for you
>>27138377
There is always something to stick around for. Maybe get a dog to get that feeling of unconditional love every day
>>27138422
I think you need to have close contact to a women for some time ... it's incredible how much your self confidence and self esteem if you can talk to a women your age on a daily basis
>>27138463
Here's your sake.
And for your writing, someone will eventually like what you write. If you're talented, just keep going!
>>27138466
You're welcome.
Oneitism is a Problem that 90% of /r9k/ has to face everyday, were not alone.
>>27138505
Not trying to be memetic, but if you enjoyed wasting it it is not wasted
>>27138690
>And for your writing, someone will eventually like what you write. If you're talented, just keep going!
I don't care whether it's good, I just don't want to do it. Essays are the most horrible type of writing there is. They're so rigid and restrictive.
I'm a fan of IPAs and stouts, what do you recommend?
>blows load
>closes 27 tabs
water please pham, I'm parched after that
>>27138852
my record is 36 tabs, in the service of 70 minutes of tug. My old self died that day
>>27138752
Just do it
... or don't, I'm not your mother
But writing on 4chan instead of your paper will bring you nowhere
>>27138809
I'd recommend some "Porter", we just got it from our order yesterday
>>27138852
Heres your big glass of water. Well done anon.
> Be me 24. 6th year senior in college
>deal with chronic depression from time to time
>the symptoms crept up on me and I didn't understand it for a while
>seriously contemplated suicide for several months
>figured out how to deal with it. I like accomplishing things. That gives me the most satisfaction in life.
>I have to force myself to take responsibility and have a lot of confidence.
>Exausting as fuck going against your nature sometimes.
>Scored a very very good internship. $17 per hour with free housing
> I feel myself slipping into a hole every now and again and it hurts quite a bit really. It impacts my life significantly
>>27136776
wodka bitte
Swim, run, lift, train, life is how its been. Im apathetic and dont care about much these days. Just molding myself into a better human, one day at a time.
If everything goes right, I will have a better life than 99.99999% of people on earth.
If it goes wrong, ill be dead by 30 but the years leading up to it will be pretty adventurous.
Either way, im optimistic about the future, but the present sucks and I hate it.
I spend my days training, watching films, shooting, browsing here, meditating, and jerking off. Ive taken to drinking a bit too. Might as well, theres nothing else to do around here.
So yeah. Vodka. Leave the bottle.
I'll respond to some people. I like these threads because theres a bartender, instead of a bunch of people posting music/ personality charts and getting 0 replies. Thats depressing as hell. Ill help him tend bar a bit I guess.
Ill dump art and military footage and pics with replies.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XhZ7KlxaZ9Q&index=9
For the juke.
Have a nice day, all of you. God bless.
>>27139217
Thanks anon! How is your life btw? What are you up to?
>>27139462
Do you enjoy what it is that you do?
If not, what do you enjoy?
If so, what aspect of your life is dragging you down in particular? What is missing?
>>27139462
>continuing:
>the worst part is I'm my own freaking enemy
>I could've accomplished so fucking much in college
>I was going into my senior year in engineering at a great school
>I know without a doubt I could have gone to grad school
>Wish I could go back in time 6 years and tell past me "This is how you deal with yourself"
>well anyways now I'm picking up the pieces and will settle with a decent degree in Sustainable Biomaterials with Residential Structures, minor in green engineering.
>grad school maybe possible but unlikely.
I'll take a coors light. Might as well start drinking before the new week...
>>27139591
Wage slave feels?
I would ask you the same questions as I did >>27139462 right here >>27139565
>>27139565
basically not having enough confidence to throw myself out there and go do things. Not doing assignments led to me not understanding what was going on in class the next day. That turned into a viscous cycle that dragged me down. Basically I had zero confidence in anything I did. Every casual run so to speak turned into climbing everest when it didn't need to be. I just needed self insight so I could understand why I thought the way I did.
>>27139658
Is it that assignments are a chore and you dislike the subject?
Or is it something you enjoy that you just find yourself at a loss doing?
Most of all:
Do you enjoy your major?
Do you enjoy school?
Will you enjoy working in that field?
Straight vodka please.
I went on a second date with a qt japanese exchange student at my former uni. She told me she played basketball back in Japan so I bought her one as a gift and she loved it. I can't tell if she's into me or being nice, as I don't find myself very attractive (I'm not a virgin doe).
>>27139789
reeee, get out, etc
Why are you here if you're a normie? What do you have to gain?
>>27139695
I enjoy my current major, wood science and buildings, a lot more. It doesn't have the prestige my last one did (engineering) which I enjoyed but maybe a little less. Most of it was internal dealing with me. I would intitiate my real life problems which would comeback and smack me down. Then it starts all over again. I've since learned that I can expect these downs from time to time. I just have to keep my head above water and I can typically turn it around.
>>27139815
That feeling is pretty common in the first world, its a feeling I want to escape.
What is the quality of your life?
If you had a million dollars, what would you do with your life?
What do you want out of life?
>>27137659
Yes, but stop being a pussy, when you ask a girl you have two choices:
Ask once, she refuses, she doesnt want you and you shouldnt ask again.
Or you could ask a billion times and through confidence act like you dont give a shit about getting rejected. That way at least you can play the confident full Chad wannabe.
>you will never have kids
>you are the end of your family line
>you will never accomplish anything
>you will never even find a partner
>your dad keeps trying to push you to date, but he doesn't know
>he doesn't u sweat and that you do try, but that no one wants to date YOU
>ha talks about your future and you're future kids as if you have either
>he has hopes for you
>he gave life to you so you could go and live a better life than him
>but you can't do anything
>you'll just be a disappointment in the end
>he'll be lying there on his death bed and you'll have nothing to show for it
>>27139918
Do you want kids?
Do you want a wife?
If so, I could help you
My mom died
Don't know what to do or how to feel
Can't drink because she was an alcoholic and I promised myself never a drop
>tfw this becomes a decision you're genuinely pondering
I must break this addiction.
>>27139945
I'm sorry for your loss.
There is a time to be born and a time to die.
We all must return to the earth at some point.
What awaits us afterwards is unknown, the only certainty is that you will one day join her.
Dont be sad. Its the only guarantee made to a person in life, and death has cashed in upon that guarantee. One day you will die too. Pay no mind to it. What matters is what you do in your life.
Not a drop, friend.
>>27139851
I've asked my friends what they would do with a billion dollars. Most can come up with something, but I basically draw a blank. I guess I would start with trying to tackle some of the world's basic problems. I know a lot about sustainability with a lot of other technical knowledge as well so I'd probably start a charity of sorts. honestly what Akon has been doing is pretty impressive and worthy of a Nobel Prize. I'd like to do something like that.
Basically we all have responsibilities and I neglected mine until they became serious problems or failures. Academically speaking. I live a very comfortable life compared to most. Went to private middle and high school. Parents paying for college ect.
I understand what you're saying. What do you want to do with your life is important. Not what job do you want, but what will be the purpose of your life. It was a problem that I would draw a blank if given a billion dollars. You ask a kid what they want to do with life and their answer has nothing to do with money or prestige. It's just what they want to contribute to the world. I'm still figuring out happiness I guess.
>>27140007
Amen
She was 55 stroke and off life support in 3 days
Made me rethink my whole life tbqhwu
>>27139945
That sucks man. I can understand how a massive portion of your life just got ripped away. You'll have to take it a day at a time to rebuild yourself.
I think becoming a man she would be proud of is the best way you can honor her. You were the apple of her life and she'd hate to see you get beat down too hard over this. I know you're at an all time low but you can prevail and be better than you were yesterday.
>>27140053
godspeed. Most people look at employment as a means of making money. Its not that. Not even close. Employment is your contribution to society, and your primary entertainment in life. Most people go into a field they are indifferent about and get a job thinking they can make more money and spend it on afternoons and weekends. They end up in a job they hate, and they are too burned out to spend the money they make on things they enjoy, so they buy stupid things. If they get enough money, a used up woman will approach and start spending their money for them, but the man will always be unhappy.
And a guy who makes $2 per day fishing for clams on a SE asian beach, hanging out with his family, enjoying nature, and occasionally getting drunk and feasting is happy as hell.
>>27140181
it's the truth. You have to dig deep deep down and figure out what makes you happy. Then take the hard steps to become that person.
>>27139945
That's awesome that you're vowing to not even consume one drop of alcohol. It takes a lot of strength and courage to do that. You'll get through this, I promise.
Also, don't feel like you have to feel or act a certain way after someone passes. It's normal to think about really bizarre scenarios and to feel like you're suspended in midair. Just let yourself embrace the grief.
>>27139614
I am a wageslave. Job isn't that bad tho. Only go into office twice a week, work from home most days. Comfy salary and do work I enjoy, own a house.
Everything just seems so deadend. Every day is the same and all that. I'll take another beer.
>>27140278
continuing:
I find uplifting adventure anime/video games give me a little shock of life to get back into it.
I'd recommend this short series. Kid lands on planet and has to reevaluate who he is and establish his new purpose in life.
Someone went through my car last night, I left my doors unlocked because my car is parked super close to the front door of my house and I wasn't thinking. They took nothing because nothing of value is in my cars, but they still messed shit up.
And now I'm paranoid with my gun on my desk wondering if they'll break in through my bedroom window, the only window on the front of my home.
What the fuck should I do, if these faggots only come at the middle of night I'll never catch them.
I just need a hug and for someone to tell me things will be okay, even though I know they won't.
>>27140337
well start looking for another job. The description you gave is a very common reason for leaving a company. When your progress towards life goals whatever they may be stagnates, then you go way way down hill.
>>27140167
>>27140300
>>27140007
Thanks anons
These threads are the best thing I've seen on r9k in awhile
Hey barkeep.
I used to idolize girls. I thought, as a child, that they were angelic. They were kind, intelligent and beautiful.They would work so hard, but guys would take advantage of them. But having fallen for and been rejected by numerous girls over the years, seeing their faults in their process, the illusion has faded. I find them to be catty, superficial, selfish -- and few of them are attractive. I'm becoming resigned to a single life and misogyny, but part of me still wants love and intimacy. One scotch neat please.
>>27136776
Give me a big glass of vodka bartender feeling like shit
>>27140422
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yu7n0XzqtfA
it'll be ok, man. <3
>>27140488
Categorizing a whole gender as x or y thing, good or bad, is usually not a good idea.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5r9dfZlrcdU& Putting this little number in the jukebox. I'm feeling saucy tonight.tfw my teacher crush is balding like a motherfucker, like "TYCHO WHY ARE YOU SO BALLLDDD" tier"tfw would ram like a freighter into a brick wall anyway because that personality is top
>>27139945
My mom died too anon
she was a drug addict
I fight every day to not use drugs
its an abstract feel having a dead mother. On the one hand she was a bitch, on the other hand I loved her and she was the only mother I got
Its tough man, I feel for you
>>27141671
Iktfb
My mom would always get drunk and scream at me
After she passed though i realized it was because she always wanted the best for me
It's been two months since I've been here.
TL;DR gf broke up with me, sad.png, couldn't get over her
I am extremely proud to say that I've moved on, and I have a new girlfriend now.
Only problem is that she can't text very much, which sucks since we only see each other a few times a day for a short period of time. It's cool though, she's a great girl and I'm lucky to have her.
No drinks tonight. Just came to talk with a few old friends of mine.
