Hey guys, I'm pretty new to the barkeeping Business, but I'll be your Bartender for the Night.
As always
>order a drink
>talk to me or don't, I'll be there anyways
>share some tunes
First song for the night is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PtDbFPHQI44
pour me some bacardi, I just finished watching the disappearance of haruhi suzumiya and I don't know how I feel
>>27114847
Here you go sir.
I actually wanted to watch this one some time ago, but never found the time
It is very feelsy though, am I right?
Captain Morgan's with coke, thanks. Hoping I might have a chance at a gf, cant be arsed to go into the details but a) worried I'll get Cucked and b) not sure if we even will hook up, best I got was an arm around the torso.
If we're picking music, ready and willing by whitesnake would be good.
I'll have a shot of amaretto. Tonight is a good night... Hopefully I can keep the momentum going
Slide a beer and cranberry juice this way.
vodka and diet coke please. I like the song you've got playing, it matches my feels quite nicely
>>27114896
Captain Coke is on the way, just thi-
Oh, I am terribly sorry about the mess, like I said, I am still new
Here you go sir, don't worry, it's on me
About your girl, is it really a Chance or do you just want it to be chance?
Anyway, channel your inner Chad!
>>27114907
Here you go sir.
Why is that?
>>27114930
The good old B&C, right there buddy
Just some rum. I want to feel drunk quick.
I'm losing it robots. I don't know what to do with myself anymore, I'm just going through the motions. I don't want to finish 6th form and get a shitty stem degree and get shitty wagebux and have no relationships with anyone or passion or drive. I feel so stagnant.
>>27114895
holy crap yes it is. I kind of expected more silliness in the same vein as the show, but it made me tear up. it hurts more if you've got good memories or regrets from high school.
>>27114970
Might not be for everyone, but Daft Punk picks me up, forgot to mention.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NF-kLy44Hls
Keep the rum coming.
I'm finishing up a glass of white wine but I want something strong with vodka. It's been 1 day since my ex texted me and over a week since they initiated texting me themself. Distracting myself by marathoning arrow and ignoring my homework and the fact that I work tomorrow.
>>27114956
I can feel things are slowly falling into place. My place in the universe. I'm on the verge of something big. I can feel it
>>27114956
Somewhere inbetween, we've been out for drinks, he's tried holding my arm when she's scared, told me about times she's tried to hook up with certain guys but didn't manage. Might be hinting she's single.
I dunno, I've been burned before thinking a girl likes me so I don't want to get my hopes up but she has commented on me being pretty masculine with her so I'm apparently doing everything right.
>>27115063
Just go for it. Worst thing that happens is that you go back to being friends. We make the bads outweigh the goods so much sometimes, when usually they mean nothing.
Go out and get her on behalf of everyone too piss-scared to do anything about it, like me.
>>27114949
I'm glad you like it, the feels will be better after this Vodka.
>>27114970
>>27115006
4cl of Rum coming right at you
I'm a stem Student myself, if I'm not part timming here, just hang in there buddy.
>>27114972
I'll definitly give it a try, I just finished Steins;Gate
>>27115018
I'll get you a Martini.
Just don't be a fool and try to drunk-text her.
>>27114797
just a stella on tap
i can't go home because the neighbors will be loudly fucking all night
>>27115101
Can't do it anymore, Bartender
Might just off myself, I still feel like shit even when drinking
I just can't escape the depression, I just keep making a joke of my feelings and laughing about it but I really just want someone to love me.
Here's another. Takes a while to get going but it's comfy
Also, comfy wallpapers please guys
>>27115046
Wow, sounds like you've got more positive energy than all of us together. Try to keep it going.
>>27115063
If she's commenting you just go for it. I once knew a girl who would even wanted to play Minecraft with me (we were 17 at that time) and I didn't get the hints. She let herself bang from another guy shortly after.
>>27115104
Here you go.
Where are you now?
Also there is a new Song playing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gxNW2Ulpwk
>>27115222
Didn't link the song fuck
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Gkhol2Q1og
>>27115222
>>27115269
Since how long do you feel this way?
>>27115318
Since as long as I can remember
Father left us young, I was raped too, my mother was always distant even though she never really hated me, I never got affection as a child and it's creeping up on me now
I just summed it up to, everything happens for a reason and there are some things you can't change. Everything happened to me for a reason, and that means I deserved it. So basically, I deserve to feel bad and have pain. I tried confiding in people but they're all the same, they never really understand and they always hurt me. It's gotten to the point where I purposefully destroy relationships with people so that I can feel bad because that's the only feeling I deserve. I've never really been truly happy, but I just feel like it's been getting worse recently and it's harder to act like things are okay.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmpsBeaVrkE
>>27115430
god that song quality is terrible, don't fail me now music
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhl-Cs1-sG4
>>27115430
Nothing happens for a reason.
What happened to you was horrible, and should happen to no one. But there's no point in making your life worse than it could be.
You should seek professional help though.
>>27115090
Even so, if I fuck up I worry I'll lose a good friend. Plus she's had guy friends try to go out with her before so she might not appreciate me "being like the other guys." Although I guess she was more the initiator here, I don't fuckin know man.
>>27115557
I feel like I deserve it though. I've tried so hard to escape that but I can't change my mindset anymore.
I'm determined that I'm just...not meant to be happy. No matter who I talk to or what I do, I'm actually just meant to stay depressed. So I don't even fight it anymore.
I've considered it but I don't think anything can solve my problems because they're ingrained in me. It's not like I have to come to a realisation of what's wrong, it's the fact that I know what makes me feel wrong and yet I can't change it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a5uQMwRMHcs
>>27114797
Is the old bartender still alive?
can i have the soul of a child
I miss my best friend so much. I'm away for the military and I'm taking it so hard. I love him like a brother. I can't help bit cry and I sent him a stupid "I love you like a brother" type text.
>>27115684
If you were a PC I'd just say "reboot"
Seriously though, you seem really close to reality, so maybe it's just the way it is.
I'll hope that everything will be fine
>>27115724
I'm here for you tonight.
>>27115758
I sincerly hope he doesn't misunderstand it
>>27114797
pour me a vodka man
looks like im back in the dating game.
have some 80s metal btw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pn6S7IJ3i_I
The most alcoholic drink you can make me barkeep.
My childhood dog is being put down tonight, and the worst part is that its impossible for me to be there and see her one last time, but thats life i suppose.
I just rewatched Lawrence of Arabia, what glorious movie
>you will never lead a faithful army to victory
>>27115101
I'm trying to watch steins;gate but okarin is such a dumb faggot that it gets annoying.
>>27115864
Heres your vodka sir.
How did it end, if I may ask?
>>27115866
I'll make you the Barkeepers Special "Gravedigger"
Why does she have to leave us?
>>27115889
You can always join ISIS I guess
>>27115945
Well, it's certainly not everyones taste.
Preface: I'm a retail wagecuck. I work every weekend.
>have to work 1-9pm on floor this evening, as usual
>around 8:30, supervisor wants me to stay until midnight
>apparently the cashier who was supposed to work until midnight haad a breakdown because her dog bit her or something
>I'm the only one they had to stay on cash
>didn't want to work a 11 hour shift, tired of work fucking my schedule around
>as such, said nope
>supervisor called manager who was working today
>she's coming in to help
I feel kinda bad about it, even though I'm not required then stay longer than I'm scheduled. Plus it isn't my fault we have few employees. I'd like a beer please
>>27115994
It seems really good except for the times he just acts too stupid.
I'm actually pretty happy, giddy even. I haven't felt quite this way in a long time, so I have no idea was to drink with it.
Anyway, it's not 'cause of some mind blowing revelation in my life, it's just last week I was contemplation cutting ties with this girl, basically my crush, as I didn't really see our relationship going anywhere. Well, tonight I hit it off, but even after a slow start, I pulled through and really managed to make her smile, laugh, etc. I feel happy for once in myself, it was a weird feeling.
Same thing tomorrow and I'm excited. Refraining from messaging her 'cause I wanna give each other some breathing room to sink in (plus I'm seeing her tomorrow so what's the rush, don't wanna seem hasty), but I've already got some things lined up to say that I know will... interest her.
I'm sure it'll all go tits up soon but I'm chasing it lads and if it fails, when then it fails n' I will be all sad and I'll come crawling back here I guess.
https://youtu.be/IUVmcKcTZ4A
Evening keep, guinness please
1. Feeling like I'm finally breaking out of the cycle of self-improvement -> failing in one area -> back to square 1
2. Going on a date with the first girl I've actually liked in a long time
3. Scared watching so much porn I've fucked up my dick, couldn't get it up during sex. Also, have been failing NoFap for like 3 years
Water. I'm coming to the realization I'm in a relationship with a girl I don't care about anymore. At this point I'm hoping she cheats on me or something so that I can tell myself later I'm not the bad guy.
I'll take a rum and coke, easy on the ice. Life is alright I guess. Working 30+ hours this week though, that's gonna suck.
been thinking about becoming a marine mechanic. love boats and love the water, but dont really know where to start
Pint of Guinness pal, I've got some shit.
Move to the opposite corner of the country with a girl that I fell in love with, and after nine months, shit went south. My alcoholism went from an endearing flaw to an obnoxious burden. My pride went from being a strength to an annoyance. My constant need to fix things went from helping to hindering. And now she's gone. I've got no family, no friends here, and no money to move back. So now here I sit, boozed up and alone with no where to go.
>>27116007
You did nothing wrong desu
And of course, here you go, I got you some bottled Heineken
>>27116018
It get's better after Episode 10
>>27116035
You see this big bottle of 10 year old Bushmills? It's just right for situations like these. Drink a glass of it and your mind and taste buds will be alike.
But what exactly do you mean with "cutting ties"?
>>27116072
Heres your Guiness
Hey, if you've already managed getting her to date you then she is clearly interested
And for the dick thing - if there is really a bond between you, even kissing her will get you rocks hard
>>27116074
Aaaand a glass of evian for you, sir
You should go and speak to her, It's better to make a painful break than draw out the agony.
>>27116135
There is your Drink, don't let it get warm
At least you will enjoy the time at home
>>27116290
Barkeeper here, I'll have to leave for the night. You can stay here, but don't try to steal from the bar, my boss will notice it 100%
And as I am going, one last song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Tr0otuiQuU
Have a good night.
>>27115810
He said he missed me too. It felt really bittersweet. Can I have a few shots of rum barkeep? I want to stay melancholy.
It's called The Frog and Feels
Sorry I can't post in this thread if the names wrong
>>27114797
Tired as fuck after a week of work. Co workers are alright, but i find myself not wanting to talk to anyone most of the time.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0gw2MVJ6Ko
>>27115810
I'm not asking where he is, I'm asking if hes still alive.
>>27116600
This is a different bar, you moron.
Bartender, give me a glass of whiskey right now. I have a headache from rolling my eyes so far into my skull.
>>27114797
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMnF1rq5Xdc
>live in liberal arts college campus in California
>using laptop, girl comes over and looks over my shoulder
>hey anon what are those two PNGs?
>which ones? These tw-
>nigger.png and faggots.png
>sweating_man.tiff
Gimme a Doppelbock beer, bartender, I just dodged a bullet here
Gin n tonic, coldest.
Just generically hating life and myself. Like always. Actually put a shitload of poison in that drink willya?
Sup bartender, gimme a gin & tonic please.
Some girl I matched with on Tinder more than 7 months ago added me on snapchat... We were supposed to go on a date back then and she ditched me. Then, I deleted her number and I didn't hear from her until just recently. Why the fuck would she add me on snapchat. It makes no sense, why would she keep my number after all this time, we're strangers after all. I think she tried to make fun of me but it just didn't work. What should I do? I feel like this is doomed and going nowhere, should I delete her? What do yall think? Should I chat with her, see if there's still a chance? Video related.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfCRGjFalnw
Hey bartender, can you get me umm, what tap beer you have.
Ya know bartender anon, I'm dating a great girl rn. She's the best. The best girl ever. But I still think about the ex from 2 years ago. Mainly just her begging for me and me fucking her but nonetheless I do think of her. I dated her for 9 months more like 8, the last month of our relationship she was talking to new bf (he just dumped her last month(lol)). People said I should creep on her as a joke but I think that's fucked up. Like I waited 2 years for her, while dating my current gf. Idk. I don't want her back, I want to know that she want me back. Btw how do I start a tab here?
Man, I'm in love with my friend but she doesn't want to date me
To make a long story short, this girl used to have a crush on me 2 years back but I didn't catch on. I ended up dating this other girl and she revealed her feelings to me.
After my exgirlfriend and I broke up, this girl and I started to become friends and hook up here and there. A few weeks ago she brought up about trying dating and I told her I was down. Only for her to call it off a few days later. She gave me the classic "You're like a brother to me I can't do this" yet said how she still wanted to hook up with me. I guess she's into incest huh?
It's weird man, because she acts super jealous of other girls I would go on dates with. You know say shit like "Oh wow that girl is ugly" and whatnot.
Last weekend I went out with her and some other friends to a bar. Her friend and I started to hit it off and flirt and she got super jealous over I guess. Like I guess she bitched to her friend to "stop doing that" or something. I don't get it man.
Just a pint of Pabst, please.
I feel like a giant ball of anxiety all the time. I was so clear to me at work today, I was sitting alone waiting to close the store and could not relax no matter how hard I tried. It physically feels like there is something inside me actively working to keep me on edge. I think I might have to go talk to someone now, because this shit has been keeping me from being functional for a while. I can't even walk normally and constantly do stupid and awkward shit in front of my coworkers because just being chill is fucking impossible.
Whoever listened to me vent, thanks. Have any of you ever felt this? Could medication help?
pint of whatever is cheapest.
last pub i went to i had an engaging conversation with a schizophrenic guy, im not sure who was more fucked up, me or him
>tfw it seems like my gf has lost all sexual interest in me (inb4 normie)
>used to fuck almost daily
>now it's twice a month, maybe
>can never make her orgasm anymore
>it makes me too depressed to even want to have sex, it's just the feeling of her not giving a shit that hurts
>reading all the woman-hating shit on here doesn't make it any better, but I have nothing else to do at the moment, not in the mood for productivity
Fuuuuuuuuuuuck someone please kill me
>>27117656
Meditation would help, I think if you give it a serious try
Find the source of your anxieties
My mom died and my dad took it really bad
Now I'm sick and worried I'm gonna die on him too
Screwdriver please
>>27117829
I'll give it an honest go, any resources/guides you happen to know of?
Sorry I'm late gents, I was out hunting Bigfoot. I'll get to your orders right away.
>>27116565
You got it pal. Here's three; the last is on me.
>>27116780
Got some Jack coming right up.
>>27116899
She really well think nothing of it friend; here you go. Hakuna Matata is what we bartenders always say.
>>27116944
On the rocks, my man. Alcohol is a already a poison after all. Wanna talk about it?
>>27117192
You sound like a Sam Adams man. We all want to be loved. Relish in the fact that your current gf loves you. Some are here right now because they can't find one person to love them, not even themselves. You're a lucky man. But maybe you need to be secure in and love yourself before you can be monogamous with your current? I've seen a few things in my years on the job; just my two cents. As for your tab, I just need you to initial a few papers--nah, nevermind. Just a handshake will do.
>>27117077
My instinct tells me that she was bored, or you were her second, third, tenth choice. Be wary. Drink up.
>>27117928
I don't have any
Google is your friend
>>27114797
Yo Bartender.
Give me a double Talisker. No shit in it.
Feelings are weird. I'm broken up over my most recent ex, but I'm doing a weird thing with someone I was seeing long-distance 7 years ago, and it's just... It feels nice. We think the same way, we like the same things, we finish each other's sentences, we're both fucked up but deal with it the same way. Tonight, we told each other we love each other for the first time in probably 5 years.
It's weird, though, because I can go from feeling tenderly about her to seeing some of my ex's stuff lying around and instantly get sad; not because this is some weird rebound thing, or I'm not over my ex, it's just a shame things happened the way they did.
>18 year old senior in high school
>Only have a couple of friends
>Constantly feel like everyone in hallway is looking at me, walk like a spastic retard because of it
>Whenever I laugh/smile I feel like people are examining it, lips quiver and shit because of it
>Never have any emotion to my voice, even when messing around with friends I can never sound like I am happy, angry, or sad, it is all just blank
Is there a name for constantly thinking people in public are watching you other than autism?
>>27117656
>>27117928
Hey friend, check out these pics on my phone. I'll show you a few. Some may be more beneficial than others. Everyone in the bar could benefit from this:
>>27118771
Just some-oregenooooooo-thing to keep in mind...then to be let go.
>>27118812
All kiiiiinds of wisdom here
>>27118852
> tfw not enjoying life
I think this is everything relevant I have. Thought I had more. Maybe some Buddhism stuff now.
>>27118893
The robot is really fucking with me!
>>27118931
Love you anon, EVEN IF IT'S NOT ORIGINAL
>no replies in two days
bartender pls
l just give up
Two fingers of knob creek.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-b82U64HheM&index=3&list=PLddSkUxmPEC9ApkGhgYavpXDNzyq-L2an
>>27118771
Thank you for this, anon. Seriously.
>>27118422
Thank bartender anon. Here's a tip my pepe watch (don't have any cash)
>>27118962
Sorry bud, but I was only available for one shift. Not only that, but I gave the other patron info about meditation. I've got my own life crisis to worry about. I'm waiting on anon to take over my shift. He's late...again.
>>27114797
yo good man im in need of a jack on the rocks if you would be so kind.......
>>27119103
thanks m8 the reply means a lot
>>27114797
Pour me anything.
I just fucked up my life. Tonight, I decided to come out that I supported Trump in this year's election because I got fed up with someone I know sharing a Bernie meme every second of the day.
He basically didn't debate with me, just called me a bigot, racist, fascist etc. I didn't post anything hostile, just citing sources. He knows what company I work for and he's going to call my boss on Monday to tell him I support Trump and I should be fired for it.
I hate how this world is. You go against the norm, your life can literally be ruined, even when you did nothing wrong.
I'm going to end up homeless because of this.
>>27119046
Though we may just be patrons in a bar together, never to meet again, i care about you. We all have issues. After all, that's why we're here drinking on Saturday night. Our problems are what bond us. But no matter what happens, always remember: "My inevitable death and disintegration makes me fucking chill." Love you man.
>>27119176
I think you've got nightmare vision engaged. Why would he try and get you fired for that? Why on earth would he call your boss? That would only make him a bigot as well.
while i sit here listen to me or dont but here is my story. was always a loser no friends no gf no anything just always invisible transparent at best.
then suddenly friends parties gfs sex all the good stuff for about 6 months then as quick as it came the friends slowly left girls went poof and back again at being me invisible and forgotten again.
>>27114797
I'll just have a water, the less alcohol I drink the better off I am.
Was going to go downtown to meet up with an acquaintance from when I traveled. I put on my best shirt, trimmed my beard, and cologned up. But haven't heard a response at all. Oh well, I was hesitant to go out tonight because I was so tired after work. I just wish I hadn't felt better and decided I was going to go out and be social for a change.
At least I look a lot better in my shirt than I did two months ago. Side effect of cutting back on the booze.
>>27119249
I get you man. I've had similar experiences, though it seems to fluctuate day by day, particularly depending on how I feel that day. Having confidence in yourself and not feeling sorry for yourself is always steps 1&2.
>>27119248
He's going to call HR and tell them that I was racist on Facebook.
People don't like it when you challenge their ideas or offer a different viewpoint. If they can't directly hurt you i.e. physically assault you, they will try to hurt you in other ways. Lose your job, blast your name on social media with the potential for you to go viral so you may never get hired again. It's happened to a lot of people.
>>27119299
I have no clue why i was seen for those 6 months maybe i got bit by a radioactive chad but the effects where only temporary haha
>>27119394
>do you have evidence of our employee being racist?
>yeah, he said he supports donald trump!
>yes, and what else?
>uhh...
They're not going to fire you for supporting the current GOP front runner like millions of other Americans, anon.
Op you should get a bouncer.
This is infested with normalfags like usual,
>>27119394
You could therefore make the argument that the, what, 40% of Republicans that support him should all he fired as well. He is a serious contender for the presidency. I must say that when someone says theyou support trump, I automatically judge them (Berniebro here). I think you should be fine. Any $hillary supporter should be firedone because she worked on Barry Goldwaters pres campaign in the 60s for racism. And they're all bigots because she didn't support gay marriage til 2013. See what I'm getting at? You'll be fine.
>>27118479
Social anxiety? We all deal with it. Hence why we are robots. It's very crippling and has had a severe impact on my life tbqhf. Antianxiety drugs, or a big dose of dontgiveafuck can do the trick from what I hear.
>>27118990
Me too friend. But when you give up, you have a chance to start over. Drop everything and go somewhere. Do something you always wanted to do.
>>27119496
We don't discriminate at the bar. Instead of being bitter, we can learn from the normies. And don't forget, they're here for a reason. Their problems can be considered just as stressful as yours. Check your NEET privilege at the door.
>>27119685
I'm not neet.
This has the potential to be a comfy place for feeling with each other, that works a lot better with robot feels instead of just being another normalfag place like literally every other part of the world.
>>27119176
do not worry they cannot fire you for supporting a presidential candidate you should have been the one to report him for using offensive words and for discriminating against your political views.
>>27119197
>"My inevitable death and disintegration makes me fucking chill."
>Love you man
>>27119685
>But when you give up, you have a chance to start over.
No offense, but that's the stupidest thing I've read in a while.
>>27119812
If you're not a neet then you're nothing but a filthy normie. REEEEEEEE
>>27119954
The meaning behind it is worth taking to heart, at least.
>>27119954
How so? I was (and am) suicidal. Instead of ending it, I decided to give up my life to help others. I'm trying to make my way into medical school at the moment.That's much more of a net benefit to society than if I were dead.
If you're giving up, it must be from a life that you loathe. Escape it by going elsewhere in the world, in your life, in your mind.
>>27119918
Here's the corresponding pic BTW.
>>27114797
Hey, barkeep. How are you?
I'm feeling down -- haven't been so depressed since New Years. I'm back in school, trying to finish up my degree and pre-med, but am struggling with organic chemistry. I'm currently getting a C, and that's not good enough, and I don't have the motivation to try harder. I've tried hard, and still did poorly. Of course, I'm still a friendless, loveless, awkward, anxious 21 year old virgin. I tried reaching out to an Indian girl who had been very nice me -- just a super nice person. I've been messaging her on FB, and ran into her at starbucks, and sat with her for over an hour, before walking with her to the subway. Feeling good about my prospects with a girl for the first time forever, I decided to ask her if she was free on Friday. She said that she would be busy writing a paper ... on a Friday. Sensing rejection, I asked for her phone number (we had been communicating through Facebook), and she replied that she doesn't give her phone number away because messaging costs "wayyyyyy" too much. She's a 20 year old college girl, and it seems unlikely to me that she doesn't text. Can't stop imagining her texting Chad as I wallow in self-pity. Just feeling kind of worthless right now. Give your beer with the highest alcohol content, and keep them coming. I've developed quite the tolerance.
Obligatory thread music for all posts
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IMTeeeb-vk
Also I'll order another beer as I just ran out of vodka, a whole bottle at that.
>>27120128
Goddamn this is awesome, what genera does this fall under?
>>27114797
A pint of beer thanks.
Been watching a lot of suicide-by-cop videos on Youtube lately. I think it's how I'm going to take myself out in the next year or two. Maybe when I turn 30 it'll push me over the edge enough to do it. It'll be my final "fuck you" to the normies as I make them kill the monster they've created.
>>27120120
I'm taking Orgo 1 as well. Also pre-med. I'm scared that I won't get into med school. It's all I have to live for. I recommend motivation videos on YouTube. They're very helpful IMO. As for the girl situation: as hard as it may seem, you should drop her. It will hurt, trust me I know. But it's for the best. If she doesn't want to be with you, shrug it off. She's not the one. Oh well, life goes on. I simply admire the fact that you were able to ask her out. In my book, you must have an entire room dedicated to containing your giant balls. Much respect to you.
How do I walk into a packed bar and not feel nervous? I just want to grab a seat and drink but there doesn't seem to be anything open
Life really is a nightmare when you're afraid of everything. I hate that I hate being how I am. I don't want to be like everyone else but by not being like them it makes my paranoia far worse.
Goddamn this autistic sincerity. I don't know how to be anyone except this weird person people think is creepy.
>>27120202
I wish I knew myself, not really my type of music, I just know this bar, like music due to its name.
I'd guess smooth soul/jazz music but as I said not my field of expertise.
>>27120237
Why, friend? Let me hear your story.
>>27119685
>Their problems can be considered just as stressful as yours.
no
and no
>>27120271
Everyone in a bar is a societal reject anyway, so no one will judge. Don't forget that everyone is insecure and people have a million better things to worry about than some guy coming into the bar.
>>27120271
seats open right here next to me sit down here let me get you a drink. you look like you have something on your mind.
>>27120241
Thanks, anon. I've done well in my other pre-med and science classes, so I think I have a decent chance at med school, particularly the one from which my mom graduated. But yeah my personal life is such a mess that the future is the only thing I really have to live for -- and that involves being a physician. I did poorly on my first orgo exam, even though I thought I had done pretty well. I keep thinking that maybe there was a grading error (I answered one of the questions on the back of the page, and maybe the grader didn't notice). But I don't want to get my hopes up. I always do that -- oh maybe that girl is just shy and secretly likes me, when she's busy going out with Chad. About that girl, yeah, I have to move on. I've decided that if we're going to continue to be a part of each other's lives, she needs to make an effort -- I already have. I've been checking Facebook frequently, but no message from her, and I'm tempted to message her, just to have someone to talk to. But then I'll start wanting more again, and she'll remind, in her indirect and dishonest way, that we'll never be more than close acquaintances, not even really friends.
How do you like college? Any girls in your classes that you like? Or just cool guys?
>>27120347
In all honesty, these virtual bars are pretty fantastic if only for training you to break out of your shell. Plus, I'd rather drink with you guys than randoms in my area. At least this feels worth it
>>27120323
You're a bit conceited, aren't you? Your problems are more important than anyone else's, right? Sounds like I already found the root of your issues. Now leave my bar in peace.
>need to pass a urine test
>urine is too diruretic
>last test left
>>27114797
Got any kubler, bartender?
I'm really glad to see the bar open so often. 4 days ago I nearly killed myself - not sure if I'm supposed to say I'm an attempt survivor or what, since all I really did was have a rifle and one round next to me for a few hours while crying and going through $80 worth of nitrous oxide. In watching videos of people talking about overcoming depression they're always talking about how they still feel bad once in a while - what I'm really hung up more than anything and not able to get a straight answer to is whether or not things actually do get better, or if people just keep reassuring themselves that they do until they're 90 and dead.
Additionally, first psychiatric appointment in 10 days. I acknowledge I've got a lot of cluster B traits and am fully expecting an ASPD diagnosis when it comes to personality disorders, if nothing else. Recently read an article about how serial killers tend do things like watch TV with or talk to the bodies because they won't leave them, and while I don't think I could be that far gone for another decade at least I totally understand that. Hardcore abandonment issues. ASPD's another thing that's not supposed to be correctable, and two chronic mental illnesses might be a bit much.
Finally,
>tfw men commit suicide 4 times as often but suicide hotline has 5 times as many female as male "how I overcame depression" stories; feel like if I ever called them to feel less lonely I'd just talk to some dumb Stacey
>>27120342
Is this true? I might try talking to them.
>>27120299
I don't really have a future. I'm the youngest and will never gf, so if I live to old age I'll literally have no close family because all my brothers will have died already, no children of my own, and no wife to take care of me and vice versa. I'm also bad socially so I'll have no friends, and even if I could magically make friends there's a good chance they'd be dead by the time I got to that age anyway.
I'll just end up living on my own for the next 60 years until a heart attack, stroke, or cancer claims me. It'd probably take a few weeks or even months before my body's found. I'll just end up on the news as one of those sad stories where people didn't know their elderly neighbour had been dead for ages.
>>27120417
Drink some water, lay off the booze/coffee/tea/soda, if only for the test
>>27120433
Also, it's difficult to engage people when you're scared of eventually losing them. Being alone feels better than rejection.
>>27120379
Let go of the girl. It's for the best.
I just go to class and go straight home and drink. I am so alone. Yet I made myself this way.
>>27120439
Why don't you think you'll ever have a gf?
>>27120442
Gonna stop drinking water for a full day but fuck I'm scared of dehyrading
My grandpa died tonight.
I should've expected this, hes been slipping away for quite a while now, but this hit me harder than I expected.
I wish I could've been with him when he passed..
>>27120462
Yeah, you might be right. Not sure if I'm entirely ready to accept that though, since it's the one thread that holds me to the normie world.
>>27120439
I completely empathize. I'm sorry.
>>27120490
I'm sorry, anon. I lost mine 11 years ago and he was the only family member I really cared about. Now I've got a kid sister who's pretty cool, but it's still really different not having the grandpa around.
Haven't visited his grave in a bit. Next time I do I'll think of you.
>>27120484
A host of reasons really. e.g.
>a personality that doesn't mesh well with most women
>small dick (probably the largest obstacle)
>unresolvable psychological issues from constant school bullying
>not terrible, but definitely below average looks
I just can't do it, think of it as a disability I guess. I guess I could fake a personality and suppress psychological issues but then I'm living a lie and I'd be miserable all the time.
Kinda drunk, I know this place has some great emotional talk, but sometimes talking too much can make it hurt more
On hopefully a more lighthearted note, what're some great movies you've seen recently?
>>27120545
I think you're deluding yourself, claiming that if you don't play the game, you can't lose. In your view, going 0 for 0 is better than going 1 for 50. Many would disagree. Please reevaluate.
>>27120568
Have you seen Kung Fury? I finally checked it out on Netflix and it was awesome. The new season of House of Cards is pretty swell as well.
>>27120581
It was on my queue for a bit, but I've been too into Mad Men for specific movies
What about it made you enjoy it?
pint of panhead please mate.
i need it.
>>27120594
Kung Fury? It was just a feel good movie about male bravado with an 80s aesthetic. Not much to say other than that, it's kinda short but it's entertaining the whole way through.
>>27120507
Thanks anon, as fucked as it is, this is the only place I can come to find people in similar situations.
>>27120579
It's not that I'm trying to never lose by not playing, it's that whenever I've played I've always lost. So rather than play and always lose, I'll recognise I can't win and opt out. My only chance at winning is constructing a false persona and seeing if that helps, but that would make me incredibly depressed having to live a lie 24/7. It'd be a Pyrrhic victory, and the gf would leave me if I ever accidentally reverted to who I really am.
>>27120670
In my view, you should not give up. Never give up looking for your love. Otherwise you're doomed to a future of further loneliness and depression.
>>27120718
Not him, but speaking from my own experience, when every girl you try for rejects you, it's easier to just stop trying. It hurts less.
leveling my herbalism is so slow AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
>>27120718
I wish I could share your optimism anon, I really do. I honestly don't have any options left, there's no hope. If I were born 100 years ago I might have had a chance, but this brave new world doesn't accept trash like me to have a life with meaningful connections to other human beings.
No one wants me, and no one ever will; the best I can hope for is to be grudgingly settled for. It's just the way it is.
I'll take a glass of shiner bar man.
Call me a normie I guess, but a few days back I hung out with a femanon from my old job. We've both been hurt lately and got to know some pretty personal stuff about each other. We ended up driving to the local lake to watch lightening and ended up making out. Before I dropped her off I told her I'm not ready for any type of relationship and she said that she planned on being single for a while. But that was my first time kissing anyone in literal years. I snapchatted her a little bit but with no response. Afraid I like her, I mean I know I don't but I'm afraid that if I get physically involved with anyone I'll get attached too quickly. Anyways, here's a song I thought about while we drove around. It reminds me of being on papa's farm learning to drive and on the dirt roads
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqowmHgxVJQ
>>27120854
Have you ever sat down and recognized what you needed to improve on about yourself? Have you made any attempts at self-improvement? You can realistically change your "real self" thanks to the wonders of neural plasticity, it just takes work and the desire to get started.
>>27121008
To improve myself I'd need to die and be reincarnated as someone better. Looking at what I said earlier
>a personality that doesn't mesh well with most women
This can be rectified by building a fake persona that's appealing to women. Ultimately I am who I am, and I don't want to live a lie. Maybe I can spend the next 20 years meticulously trying to change myself via neural plasticity to give me maybe a 2% better chance of finding someone who would never have loved me for who I really was.
>small dick (probably the largest obstacle)
Nothing I can do about this.
>unresolvable psychological issues from constant school bullying
Another 10 or 20 years of therapy and tens of thousands of dollars that may or may not work might partially alleviate this. That or I get loaded up on drugs which basically lobotomise me and which I become dependant on.
>not terrible, but definitely below average looks
Little I can do about this, I could get a stylish haircut but there's not much I can do about my shit face and crooked teeth.
Life really is a genetic lottery, and when you lose you lose. Maybe in my case it's not so obvious as someone with a crippling genetic medical condition, but even low-level genetic failure has an undeniable impact all the same.
>>27121118
>a personality that doesn't mesh well with most women
>psychological issues from constant school bullying
Psychological problems, which can be helped by therapy.
>small dick (probably the largest obstacle)
You're hardly the only one.
>not terrible, but definitely below average looks
Then get /fit/. Seriously, a good body trumps a below average face.
I'm not trying to be insensitive to your problems, and maybe you'll never truly overcome your psychological issues, but remember that you are currently living your one chance at existence. Try to improve or make yourself as comfortable as you can, just don't have regrets.
is it ok to drink at 8.44am?
>>27121272
There are no rules to existence, anon. Do what makes you happy.
Wojack, I've fallen in love with a woman.
We met online through a discussion forum, and 100% align in our ideologies, which are very important to us. We can carry very good conversation. She's cute, and she only lives a couple hours from the city I'm in, only due to job situations. We've even met in person with other people we know from our group.
But she's married. However, she desparately wants to have children, and her husband is 100% opposed to ever having kids. It's important enough to her that she has set an ultimatum of him changing his mind by the end of the year, or she told him she's unfortunately starting the divorce process, because this is really important to her. From what I gather, he's not changed his mind over the past 4 months. He also sounds like a douche.
I've known this feel before, wojak. I had a girlfriend once, but we never even had sex, and it ended with her going off the deep end and trying suicide, and just cutting us off.
I know how getting stricken by love feels, and I've got it bad. I can't come out and say it. She's a married woman, and I do my best to try to help her stabilize the marriage and make things work, out of respect for the institution. But I'm in love, senpai. I even almost get jealous when she's interacting with people in our group on facebook and not myself. I'm an alt-righter, and she is too (/pol/ but with more intellect to it), and she's a one in a million catch. I've picked up on quite a few subtle signals she might be interested in me, and she's constantly just out of nowhere defending me from joke negs in our group, etc, but I don't think it'll ever happen. Get me another glass of whiskey.
>>27114797
Jack and Coke please.
I feel so alone. I'm sick and tired and upset.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AmFzVVk6F8Y
>>27121689
Weezer made some good feel songs.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4spkVX8z-vs
>>27121183
I guess you can't understand and that's okay. I know my life and you know yours. I just hope if reincarnations a thing, that I get to come back as something or someone comfy, and not a genetic miscreant scorned by society.
>>27122107
Whatever happens, I hope you find peace someday. Good luck anon.
