Made this on /b/ but not enough bumps there to keep the thread going for more than a few replies
>be me 14
>family moves into homeless shelter
>know that people would never stop fucking with me if they found out
>keep it secret
>make shit up and dodge whenever people ask questions with revelatory answers
>"don't you shower anon?" "Why do you wear the same jacket every day?" "Why don't you just buy some more lunch if you're hungry?"
>by the end of the school year (we moved into the shelter around february) I start to get apathetic and unattached
>not in an edgy faggot type way, just generally bummed out
>not necessarily from lying to people or because of the situation I'm in, I just think my outlook changed a lot during that time
>some time after, a girl moves into the shelter
>actual 10/10
>you know, in 14 yo terms
she looks even better these days as a side note
>she gets along with all the other teens in the shelter
>she flirts with me a lot
> I am still depressed/bummed/whatever at this point and just ignore it
>notice I'm the only guy she flirts with
>we enter a pattern
>she says hi, I just nod back
>she wants a hug, I say no
>she's persistent tho
>realize I'm being a dick after a while
>shape up my attitude a bit
>we become friends without me noticing
>she wants to be together
>altho shes cute and only has me on her mind, I still reject her
>I blame the depression in hindsight
>she doesn't care at all
>she still likes me a lot
>during the summer the shelter organizes a field trip to Busch Gardens, an amusement park/zoo in my city (strongly recommend heading there if you have the chance)
>on the trip things between me and her heat up
Cont?
Should I keep going? In the /b/ thread this is about as far as I got, somebody wanted me to keep going but the thread 404d before I could submit the follow up
>>27114304
You caught my attention with busch gardens.... Hoping you are a florida fag and not virginia.
>>27114575
I'd kill myself if it was Virginia senpai
Go on OP, bumping for interest
>>27114304
omg my dad used to take me and my brothers to busch gardens when we were kids =). hope youre doing better now, op.pls cont
>>27114304
Alright here goes
>fuck around on the ride with some other friends from the shelter
>shes talking in a group of girls
>we keep catching each others eyes on the way
>ride ends and we meet up after a couple minutes
>"why didn't you sit with me anon?"
>she's trying to sound annoyed but she knows I know shes just happy talking to me
>we spend pretty much the whole day at the park together
>roller coaster partners, split food between us, cut convos with others short so we can keep talking to each other
>I notice things about her
>her hair has a bounce to it
>she has a a very nice singing voice
>she smiles at me when I'm not looking
>she grabs my wrist to pull me places but ends up shifting to holding my hand
>start to realize I'm slowly looking at this girl in a much fonder light
>catching feelings as my generation would say (I'm only 18 desu)
>even tho I see this coming and have no problems with it anymore I still kinda have a negative tint to my thoughts
>so I never end up telling her how I feel that day
>or any day after that
>end up leaving the shelter and camping out in my old apartment slightly illegally, we hadn't technically been kicked out and our stuff was still there and the landlady never did anything with it
>rest of my senpai stays in shelter
>I'm alone in an apartment at 14 for the sole reason that if I had stayed in the shelter I would've had to go to some shit highschool in that area of town
>the one by the apartment has an IB program (basically a step above honors classes for those not in the know)
>I get accepted to IB freshman year
>now that I can live an almost normal life again (still poor as hell but whatever, I have a home again) I turn back into my old self
>remember the joy of having friends and being positive towards life
>think about the girl back in the shelter the whole time tho
>wish I had told her how I felt
>make plans to see her again
Cont?
I'm still here OP, go on
>>27114885
more pls
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>>27114885
>head out on the city bus
>hit the freeway and start practicing how I'm gonna tell her
>I was far from beta and wasn't going to let myself fall behind with this girl anymore
Looking back, she really waited a while for me to come to my senses, especially for a 14 yo girl
>get to the shelter
>roll past the front desk
>"oh hey anon, been a while huh?"
>I wave and move on smiling
>Desk lady gives me a bright one back, probably cuz I didn't smile much in my time here
>realize things really have changed
>I see her dad and say hi
>he was always a cool dude who seemed to like me
>but this time he gets super excited like I came back from the dead
>"anon! Where you been? My girl's been missing you!"
Side note: he said this in Spanish, he's puerto Rican
>I start to talk but he asks me to follow him to his room
>he asks me to wait
>comes back out with girl
>she starts making girly squeal noises and runs to hug me
>first time I ever let her hug me
>feels like a huge weight just left my being
>not my shoulders or my mind or anything like that
>its like a ball and chain that I had made excuses for and pretended didn't exist finally was able to see it wasn't wanted and left
>really long hug btw
>her dad just smiles to himself and heads inside
>"anon, why didn't you tell me you were gonna leave?"
> I explain some stuff to her and think about confessing my feelings
>Looking in her eyes I can tell it would make her happy
>don't know what happened
>I just didn't do it
>we just kept talking and talking until late and then I left
>why couldn't I just say it? It's not like she was gonna reject me
I still don't know to this day
>visit the place weekly after that
Cont?
>>27115310
Keep going faggot
ravioli originoli mr bot
>>27115310
faggot if it's on the cards, fucking go for her
Do it on behalf of everyone that doesn't have the chance to, be happy man
escape the cycle thatkeeps the rest of us depressed
>>27114304
>pouring milk in before the cereal
Enjoy having a thin layer of cereal. Why not just have a bowl of milk at that point?
>get there one day and girl is crying
>her dad got mad at some lady
>lady was know for being a trifling bitch but everybody took her side anyway
>dad gets baker acted (the baker act means that if someone is mentally unstable the state can legally institutionalize them whenever they feel)
>her dad gets sent out to a hospital downtown even though he literally didn't do shit
>girl all alone and needs to move all the way across town to live with other family
>last time I see her in person
>find her on Facebook some months later
>message her and find out she is doing fine with her aunt
>happy for her
>she makes a little jab at me
>something about my hair being lame or whatever
>sarcastically reply with "wow, love you too"
>she asks if I mean it
>realize I still haven't told her how I feel
>realize she still feels the same
>fuck around and switch the subject
Really hate myself for not just doing it these days but whatever
>go to her time line and find out she wrote a Facebook post about me after she left the shelter
>long one with a lot of mentions of love and a "never forget you"
>no names mentioned but I know it's me from some specifics she gave
>no way to describe that feeling when I read that
>best I can do is a mix of regret, sadness, and hope
After that we constantly lost contact and regained it. A week of constant texting followed by 6 months of silence type stuff
Got ahold of her instagram just a couple weeks back, and she seems the same except she appears to be a lesbian now. That's not gonna fly with me, I've got to have some type of chance.
So i hit her up few days back to remind her I exist, and she still talks to me that same way, all lovey dovey and asking how I feel about her
I still haven't done it but I think about it alot.
You guys ever had the love of your life within reach?
>>27115893
>You guys ever had the love of your life within reach?
Are you really asking this on /r9k/?
But anyway, it's a bigger regret not to have tried than to have tried and failed. Go for it anon.
>>27115893
Fucking go for it, man. Succeed where we can't.
>>27115893
I'm not chad so no. do whatever you want.
A short story about a man too dumb to say I like you to a girl. Truly epic op truly hella fuckin epic
>>27116313
Not that I can't or wont but that when I am about to something tells me to wait
I was trying to focus more on how I developed than the girl anyway, this was more for self reflection than anything
Also don't get sarcastic with me "cumfaggot"
>>27116500
All right firstly you little shit if you wanted le "self reflection time" than just write a diary fag and secondly my alias can be whatever I want it to be and you have no right to make fun of it.
>>27116553
>just write a diary fag
Your name is cumfaggot sir
>>27116614
>Your name is cumfaggot sir
Thats irelevant
>still hasn't told the girl of his dreams that he loves her
WHY
>>27115893
If this is true. You have the most self destructive mindset I've ever seen. There's no downsides to this. Just fucking tell her before its too late. Like jesus christ what a mistake. This is something some only dream of. I can't believe you. Just do it. You truly blow my mind. You do this to yourself the claim you had love at arms reach. You are pushing her away you fuck. Fucking do it go for it jesus christ if you don't you will regret it until the day you die please god tell her how you feel please.
you fucking make me rage op, I would kill to have a pretty girl into me and you act like a fucking faggot? go for her
>OP practices writing a scenario for his harem visual novel romance game
You're a sick person OP
>>27116994
Don't see where the harem comes in
But no this is 100% real.
It might be a little dramatized but that's really just to get my point across.
It's just like >>27116879 said, I have self destructive tendencies, maybe an inferiority complex. It tends to affect the way I tell stories
>>27117099
>still here
>posting on /r9k/
go tell that fucking girl how you feel you fucking idiot. how fucking dumb are you Jesus Christ. it's literally typing out words on your phone holy shit
>>27114304
>>27114885
>>27115310
>>27115893
Men are fucking retarded.
>>27114304
Go for it Op ffs
Im so fucking done with this why even asking it's fucking obivious
I swear if you fuck this up you will be more pathetic than me
>>27117585
I'm assuming you're not a man
Shed some light will you?
>>27117843
I mean, doesn't it depend on how pathetic you are?
