How do you go about showing your true personality to people?
I am very polite and kind to others, and I try to be outgoing and cool to the normies but I'm really a manically depressed, self conscious, mentally deranged and disinterested loser with obsessive/autistic tendencies.
No one wants to be around someone like that.
>>27111801
I use it to frighten homeless people who babble at me.
>>27111879
What's your personality like family?
>>27111899
I have no idea, people are just instinctively repulsed or scared of "real me" for no seeming reason.
>>27111926
hm
thats interesting. maybe you have those empty, soulless depression eyes. you can tell a lot about a person from their eyes.
I don't. I've given up. This game simply doesn't want me to play it or rather inherently puts me at a disadvantage.
Therefore, I won't play it.
>raised to repress my emotions at all costs
>learned through experience that the best way to get what you want from people while avoiding conflict is to tell them what they want and behave in a way that never conflicts with their interests
>as a result I am INSANELY inhibited, and cannot relax around anyone, no matter how long we've known each other
>I know who I am and what my real personality is, but it feels impossible to let down my guard long enough to let anyone see it
>at work I get called a robot, people comment on how rigid and polite I am, they ask me all sorts of questions trying to get to know me better and all I can do is give them shallow or evasive answers in reply
this is a special kind of hell
>>27111879
That sounds like a good way to get eventually stabbed.
>>27112470
You are me, anon.
The good part about it is that everyone thinks I'm insanely straight edge even though I do drugs and shit.
>>27112470
Same here. The worst part is people like fake me more than real me.
It's like being an ugly person who's really good at makeup.
Just do what I do and never let your guard down for anybody, never be comfortable at any moment and always walk on eggshells for fear of anyone finding out anything personal about yourself. Live in constant fear and lies like I do.
You'll always be alone and will never form a meaningful relationship with anybody, but it's better than the permanent sting of rejection from someone you care about deeply! I think!
>>27111801
A good friend of mine is exactly like that. He's a pseudo-cyborg, really. Tries to function in society acting as a normie around everyone but me, although lately he's been trying so hard that even with me some of his "normie aspects" manifest themselves.
>>27112747
fake it till you make it huh
>>27112470
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>>27112528
A feeling I know too well.
