Who here /losingit/?
>pouring bowl of cereal home alone
>start laughing really, really loudly
>builds into huge, throaty peels of movie villain cackling
>run up and down the stairs laughing like this
>start screaming at the top of my voice until neighbours bang on the wall
what were you thinking of?
>>27083003
>reading a story about this guy who fucked a 13 year old, and three years later she had an abortion and kill herself
>I just start smirking and try to hold in laughter
who /edgy/ here?
>Laid in bed for the past week
>Eaten one bowl of pasta
>Not gone to any uni classes
jdimsa
>>27083183
nytimes.com/2008/04/19/theater/19peac.html?_r=1
>>27083183
>three years later, she had an abortion
I thought pregnancy only lasts like 9 months
>>27083273
no he started fucking her when she was 13, but she got pregnant later
>>27083273
He is definitely losing it
>tfw you start laughing randomly
>tfw you start walking up and down randomly
>tfw you things really easily
Somebody explain this shit to me.
>tfw punching myself in the face repeatedly and cutting
>tfw my mind is being turned into mush by the alcohol
>tfw trying to find an easy way to an hero
>>27083343
*forget things
>>27083378
Lol was that intentional?
>>27083114
>what were you thinking of?
I honestly don't even know, anon. Probably how cold my feet were (we have a hardwood kitchen)
>>27083003
When I was most depressed as a kid I used to laugh hysterically at normal things like lego bricks. Sometimes I randomly ran through the house and threw myself against furniture for entertainment.
>>27083372
>tfw my mind is being turned into mush by the alcohol
Iktf. A constant dull pain and dull anxiety. I forget words all the time. I kind of wish I could stop but I would never be abke to and I don't really see the point
>water valve bursts at work and come home early
>strange grunting and crying sounds coming from upstairs
>little sister getting fucking railed by her boyfriend
>sitting in room trying to tone it out
>finally they stop
>hear a different guys voice
>she starts getting fucked hard again
>whyboner.png
>rub one out while listening
>nut all over wall
>feel guilty af and turn off lights while staying completely still so sister won't realize i came home
>half an hour later 4 sets of footsteps going down the stairs
>look out window and see sister leaving with three of her "guy friends"
>she's only 14 ffs
>jack off again and then cry self to sleep in shame
Reminds me of that guy laughing like the joker video. You know what i mean
>>27085901
jesus christ you shouldve took pictures, disowned and blackmailed her. If not just stand in the windows waving at her and the boys as they leave
>>27083343
early dementia
>get onset symptoms of mania
>skip around my bedroom laughing and flapping my hands in the air
>start singing shitty post grunge songs and banging drum beats on the walls
>parents tell me to be quiet
>I get extremely depressed
>lay down in bed and cry for hours
>get another burst of energy
>start rocking back and forth laughing at nothing
I don't think human beings were meant to live as I live.
>mother used to shame me for watching porn etc.
>she was also really snuggly and needy
>basically treated me like the man in the house (in front of my father)
>I developed an oedipus complex (thought about her boobs once and panicked)
>confused, told dad about it
>"Son, it doesn't matter what you think, only your actions matter"
>what he meant by this is it doesn't matter what a pervert you are as long as you can hide it.
>he's a teacher
>he secretly watches schoolgirl fetish porn
>later teases me and mom watching TV
>calls us "lovebirds"
The horror... The horror...
>>27086332
kek, how to create a serial killer 101
>Haven't eaten in 3 days
>poorfag
>offer to house sit for my mom
>eat all of her food till I puke
>then order pizza with a 20 I found in drawer
The joys of being 21 living on your own
>>27086332
I'm so sorry anon. Get out of there before you need years of therapy to undo it.
>>27083003
autism is a hell of a disorder, isn't it?
>>27086332
I know some of those feels anon
>mother used to shame me for watching porn or even talking about anything involving romance, sex, relationships, etc.
>father was extremely distant and absolutely forbade discussing anything like that either
>treated me like I was an adult at all times, gave me a lot of responsibility and robbed me of my childhood
>never had sexual feelings towards my parents, or anyone else for that matter
>until I saw a dead body for the first time
>hid my attraction from everyone, terrified to even think about it around them
>already obsessed with violent thoughts towards my parents, they slowly become more geared towards other people and take on a sexual tone
>extremely confused, associate pain and violence and death with sexuality yet fantasize about killing my parents daily without any sexual overtones
>move away from home, my memory of them becomes distorted and faint
>in my 20's start to develop disgusting sexual urges towards them in addition to the violent thoughts
>have avoided being in the same state as them for 7 years out of fear of acting on these urges
horrors doesn't even begin to describe it
>>27086403
I used to wet my bed too.
>brother once told me I seem like I'd grow up into a serial killer
>his girlfriend laughed agreeingly
>"H-ha, yeah I know rright"
>>27086661
Already have, thankfully
>>27086332 (cont)
>one weekend dad's away on a boat trip
>meeting old guy friends
>mom wants me to sleep next to her, like old times
>"I-I'm a big boy... b-but okay"
>can't let her know what's up, she'll have a fucking breakdown
>quivering next to her
>what if I'll start fucking her in my sleep
>"Hey Anon, why are you turning away? Come over and embrace me!"
>"S-sure..."
>try to conceal my semi boner
>not sure if I succeeded, I think I blacked out or something
I never slept in my parents' bed since that weekend.
>>27086332
literally doomed from the start by robot genes and robotic behavior osmosis from your father
>my sister told me that our father touched her as a child
>makes sense, she hates him I never knew why
>I always thought she was prettier than me
Am I a disgusting artistic freak for being slightly jealous... I'm not attracted to my father at all. Just the fact that he would touch her and not me! Messed up right?
>tfw my roommate describes me as being "like a robot"
>want to REEEE in his face so bad
>retain my composure and ask what he means by that
>he says that I haven't shown any emotions ever
>tfw the persona that I've created for myself isn't hiding what I truly am
>>27083003
>go to take shower
>take off shirt
>look in mirror
>start thinking to myself
>space out
>eventually realize that im leaning into a mirror naked talking to myself in a whispering tone with the shower still going in the background
>>27085757
I used to be top in my class. Now I'm struggling to solve basic word problems. I literally cannot comprehend what people are saying unless it's written down.
>>27086807
Bring it back anon your autism is showing
>talk to myself in a whisper like i'm talking to someone else
>make up scenarios in my head where i am being asked questions and i answer them out loud to myself
>think or say something funny and laugh out loud to myself, even if others are around
>feel hyper suddenly
>feel depressed suddenly
>feel as though this world is a prison that i cannot escape and that i am all alone in a world i dont belong in
>cry as i stare out the window
I'm think I'm losing it...
>fucking hate liberals with every fiber of my being
>start thinking about bernie sanders or SJWs or BLM protestors
>if alone, start screeching and making monkey noises and jumping up and down on my bed
>literal chimpout
>this happens whenever I think of something that makes me mad
I'm white.
>>27083003
>live alone
>walk around on tiptoes like General Grievous from Star Wars
>bathrobe acts as a cape
>as I walk into the kitchen in the morning I say 'whaaat's tha situation captain?' like him as I open cupboards and make breakfast
>play out entire scenes occasionally
>scream like a goat at the top of my lungs
>whenever shit goes wrong or something falls over I literally shout 'WEW LAD!'
>have a collection of cardboard tubes that I use to project my screams and shouts throughout my place
>like to have a door open just wide enough to stick a tube through
>laugh hysterically at my screams because it sounds like someone else
>constantly have a drill charged and ready to be used at any moment
>act like Arnie in Terminator and time the drill noises to my movements as I walk around
I lost it a long time ago.
>>27087007
>make up imaginary scenarios where I'm asked a question and answer if
Fuck, anon I do the exact same thing all the time, to the point where is my main way of thinking through stuff. I think the worst part is a long time ago I used to be pretty normie until it all fell apart, and so I have plenty of imaginary shit to draw from
>>27086090
>>27083343
sounds like this anon
I'm a cyborg now, but I used to be a robot. When I was, I'd randomly start laughing at jokes I heard a million times before, or old memories (because nothing new happened in my life). I'd forget things all the time and sleep through my day. Being inside fucks your brain up.
>>27083003
>get so anxious when talking to someone on the phone that I can't chain two sentences together sometimes
>made a habit of writing a branch diagram of the hypothetical dialogue with their questions and my possible answers
>>27087621
I can only imagine what your neighbors think of you
Stay peachy brother
>>27087441
>hating liberals.
Nothing of any issue here,just a logical person.
>be me
>go to bathroom, notice my reflection in the mirror
>without thinking my face turns into grotesque expression
>start throwing insults at the reflection, reflection starts to fight back
>scream at the mirror, throw insults and laugh histerically
>reflection doesn't give up
>eventulally run away crying, extremely depressed, cry in bed for hours
>wake up next day, mirror is ok again
I don't even know what should I think about this, it certainly is werid, but it doesn't really ruin my life, alhough I'm paranoid to the point of triple checking all locks in my house when I'm inside.
I had a similar thing this morning op
>be pouring milk onto my cheerios
>looking at all those cheery little faces
>start thinking about how uncheery i am
>even fucking cereal is cheery you freak
>just fucking be happy right thats what people do just be happy
>why cant you just do that anon, why cant you, you fucking waste of human life
>you should just fucking kill yourself
>throw my bowl at the wall, milk and those fucking cheery fucks everywhere
>neighbors bang on the wall
>all of this because of fucking cereal, you goddamn faggot
>break down in my kitchen, the cereal is still threre
>>27087882
Hello schizophrenia my old friend
Get that shit checked out asap
>finish a show I've been watching for a long time
>start crying
>it's not even particularly sad
>can't stop
>start all-out bawling
>cry for like 10 minutes
>go to sleep crying
>it's only 2:00pm
>tfw get stuck thinking about life 30minutes+ every time before I go to bed
>the other night
>start thinking about my age
>how little I've accomplished in my life
>where my life is going forward
>suddenly turn to laughter as if it's all a joke
>quickly shifts to outright anger and rage
>ball my fists up and start beating the shit out of my bed
>finally, falls off into a wave of tears before passing out
I haven't cried in years, and most of the time I'm completely apathetic. I don't even know what to make of it.
>>27086686
God damn that's fucked up. I feel for you too man. Go to ACA meetings and read up on CPTSD, it's helped me.
>>27086831
>>27086834
kek
>>27086919
I think 4chan might be doing this to me.
>>27086332
>>27086707
cont. Here's an anecdote about dad's boat trip.
>when dad returned from vacation his voice had changed
>what the actual fuck
>it was deeper and more masculine
>who's he trying to fool?
>everyone keeps quiet about it, for fear he might throw a fit
>eventually he stops doing it
>k
And another story
>summertime
>all picking berries in the woods
>huge haul
>mom and I spend next day preparing them for jams, storage etc. while dad's working around the house
>messy, time consuming, but having a good time
>he sits down at kitchen table
>sees that we're enjoying ourselves
>starts tantruming literally like a child about not getting his lunch
>I throw it right back at him, shouting fest commences
Now I suspect he was actually jealous of me and her. Are only my parents this creepy?
Guess I'm veering off topic. /losingit/
>once dreamt that I was a girl getting nailed by my dad and enjoying it
>thankfully woke up drenched in sweat, instead of cum
>>27087621
cont
>when I see my face in the mirror or when I see some weird-looking person walking by from my 3rd floor window I shout 'JUST, JUST FUCK MY SHIT UP FAMALAMSALAMBAMDAMFAM'
>other day a dude wearing a literal fedora walks past with his dog
>start shouting 'I tip my fedora to you, sir!' in a thick African accent like that guy Tyrone in those vids he does (my windows are closed so I doubt they hear any of this shit, but given that I can hear a normal conversation from my neighbors through the walls I know they can)
>college girl walks by one morning and notices me standing in the window with my tea admiring the view
>grin without opening my mouth so it looks really weird and move my head round like an owl but end up breaking my composure and laughing like a retard all the while she's just staring
>mimic Wikkus from District 9 and play out scenes from the movie whilst using a South African accent
>bounce around on my sofa and shout fucked up threats whenever I die in a video game
>wear a USCM SULACO cap when I play games or watch the Alien movies because I feel it heightens the experience
>shout 'Allahu ackbar!' sometimes because I think it sounds funny if you do it right
>>27087770
Cheers, mane.
>>27083003
>>27083343
>>27086136
>>27086613
>>27086834
>>27087007
>>27087933
>>27088059
>>27088068
Holy shit I thought I was the only who did this.
I guess I really am home.
>>27087621
>walk around on tiptoes like General Grievous from Star Wars
>as I walk into the kitchen in the morning I say 'whaaat's tha situation captain?
fucking hell, I have never laughed so hard
thanks anon
>>27088145
>ACA meetings
Funny enough, I went to them as a teenager. Couldn't handle the religious overtones though, wasn't very helpful.
>CPTSD
My last therapist gave me this book to read up on it, I dropped it like a useless faggot after reading the first couple of chapters. Was too hard to deal with my feels. If I'm ever feeling well enough to go at it again I might give it a shot. Really glad to hear that educating yourself has helped you, though.
>can no longer control talking to myself out loud
>have outbursts in public
>usually something like "fuck my liifee aaahhhh"
>other times just casual conversation with myself, mouthing or mumbling words
>sometimes panic and have to say repeatedly "chill the fuck out dude, chill the fuck out"
>think about suicide constantly, killing people, replaying rekt thread webms in my mind
>when people talk to me I reply inside my head in the most fucked up ways possible, calling them names, swearing
>break personal belongings and laugh while I do it, no remorse
What does this mean?
I'll contribute
>fall asleep on bus all the time now and get random boners and don't hide them
>mumble obscene shit in my sleep
>say meme phrases all the time
>refer to things as "oh yeah like that meme"
>>27086707
>cuddling with your mom
>somehow wrong
I hate society.
>>27088440
Holy mother of christ anon, you're fucking hilarious
I do that sometimes. I convulse and make retard sounds rapidly and get extreme bursts of directionless energy
>>27088806
>think about suicide constantly, killing people, replaying rekt thread webms in my mind
>when people talk to me I reply inside my head in the most fucked up ways possible, calling them names, swearing
I get this, too, also sexual stuff that's extremely fucked up. I finally got the courage to talk to a psychologist about it and was almost immediately diagnosed with OCD. Getting treatment for it now. There's hope, my friend.
>break personal belongings and laugh while I do it, no remorse
This on the other hand is just being an edgy cunt. Don't break your shit unless you're wealthy and wasteful enough to be able to replace it.
>>27088440
>>college girl walks by one morning and notices me standing in the window with my tea admiring the view
>>grin without opening my mouth so it looks really weird and move my head round like an owl but end up breaking my composure and laughing like a retard all the while she's just staring
been /losingit/ for a while
>once ate a week-old doughnut out of the garbage
>randomly overwhelmed by intense suicidal thoughts, react with abrupt physical movements (usually holding my hand to my head like a gun or burying my face in my hands)
>go through periods of unbearable emotional numbness, resort to outlandish methods of self-harm in order to feel anything
>compulsively broke dishes on purpose as a child
i could probably think of more
>>27088864
Thanks anon. I've been to a psychologist before. He literally just said "to look all around you, the world is full of life". I laughed so hard I cried and walked out the door. Maybe I should try another.
>driving car
>going 15 over the speed limit
>somebody behind me tailgating aggressively, getting close and then backing off again and again
>goes to pass me in no passing zone
>step on the gas so as not to let him
>speeding neck and neck on the road, him on the wrong side
>lots of blind corners, figure if I can keep him there I can force him into a head-on with another car
>he tries to ram into my side
>I slam the brakes
>he gets in front of me
>he accelerates
>I accelerate too, trying to ram him
>he's marginally faster and willing to take more risk on the corners, so he stays just ahead of me
>chase him like this for about 10 minutes, laughing at the top of my lungs
>hope he can see me laughing in the mirror
>keep a hammer next to my seat in case of road rage, imagine beating him to death with it after he crashes
>realize I could crash too and then he'd kill me instead
>break off the chase and go home
probably the stupidest thing I've ever done desu
>tfw I walked into a small take-put pizza place earlier having ordered previously
>only one chair with a guy sitting there
>standing next to me is a cute girl on her phone
>as soon as I enter the guy gets up and stands with his back to me facing the girl
>barely any room to stand as there is so his back is pressing against me
>tfw he starts tickling her and she laughs and says "stop ahaha!"
>tfw stand there pretending it isn't happening
Fucking faggot. Why the fuck do people do this?
>>27088951
>walked out the door
As you should. Fucking quacks. Most psychologists are complete shit. It took me 7 years of searching and literally dozens of shrinks to find one that not only made the correct diagnosis but was able to treat me for it as well. As discouraging as that sounds, I have to say that it is absolutely worth the effort to find a shrink that can help you. That is, if your thoughts distress you anywhere near as much as mine distress me.
>>27089047
My thoughts do scare me sometimes. I wake up everyday wondering if this is when I'll finally spiral into my nihilistic suicide or if I'll do some fucked up shit.
>Yell "hahahaha, you fucking faggot!" while laughing whenever home by myself
>celebrate getting dubs or trips
>greentext IRL
>unironically believed in meme magic for a while
>think a number (117) is stalking me
>make smug pepe faces now by instinct
>called MtF trannie friend a trap
>looking for old military uniform reproductions to wear
>practice walking like I am leading a military parade in said uniforms
>>27089116
I'm no doctor so I have no idea what's best for you, but in my case we're trying exposure therapy since I've been resistant to damn near everything else. So long as you reassure your psychologist that you do not intend to act on the thoughts that you have, they will listen to even the most fucked up shit you can think of and help you get through it.
I was able to openly discuss my issues with going to shooting ranges and using kitchen knives or box cutters in public with my psychologist on our first couple of sessions. We're working up to the more fucked up shit, and his intention is for me to eventually be able to think about it without any fear of acting on it whatsoever. The idea that that's even possible is inspiring enough for me to endure the treatment. You could get help, too, man. No one should have to wake up every morning wondering if they're going to stab themselves or someone else that day.
>>27089214
>think a number (117) is stalking me
elaborate?
>>27089214
You are just "quirky xD" and spend too much time on 4chan.
>>27087621
>>walk around on tiptoes like General Grievous from Star Wars
>>bathrobe acts as a cape
you made my day anon. you have my thanks
I know things are tough you guys but we aren't alone. We have eachother. If I could give you a hug and tell you that I love you I would. I know everyday is a struggle and you want to kill yourself but I hope you can someday find peace in your souls one day.
Sincerely, insane fembot.
>>27089258
I am a big Romaboo and played Halo as a child, and the number is a major thing in both, so I think that has something to do with it. I see it way too often to think it is a coincidence, and it freaks me out, to the point that I have drawn the conclusion that the number has some hidden significance to me, which has evolved into the possibility that it may be trying to kill me.
>mfw it is also the exact halfway point in the Book of Psalms
>>27089319
Fuck off you dumb bitch, I don't want your fat rolls coinciding with my own
>>27089351
ever thought that the significance might be a good omen?
>>27089025
I dont get you roadrage fags, like what is the fuckin end game with throwin fits on the road,
Do you not understand what a pathetic slave to your impules you are to let some retarded dumb fag on the road get you so upset?
They`re a literal nobody dumb faggot, theres no way it can be personal, who cares if someones driving like an asshat let em around you and let them be a huge fag somewhere else
I dress up in trunks and boots and do wrestling moves on a punch bag in my back garden. I live with my mother.
>>27089389
I used to think so, but it brings me feelings of dread now.
>>27083224
iktfb
orginalrobloxoxxo
ive been drinking or overdosing psych meds alone in my room in my parents house for 3 years now. I'm almost at my limit I can't take this for much longer. This is insane
>>27085901
>she's only 14 ffs
You have a right and responsibility to step in and shame her as a whore.
>>27088059
I did this yesterday with the office are you me
>>27089319
We're all insane here. I fap to incest porn almost every night. It makes me feel comforted in a world where I don't belong. /r9k/ helps too. Glad to be able to talk to you all senpai.
>>27084233
that only raises more questions
>>27083003
>thinking about buying an anime t-shirt
>laugh a little to myself thinking that'd be autistic as fuck
>realize I'm really sweaty
I know this thread is a joke but I am having an actual nervous breakdown at the moment. I have lost control of my body and my mind.
In the last week I have wet myself on 8 different occasions. I am having constant headaches. I think the pain of my failure is finally killing me. I filled out a job application yesterday to KFC in which I simply sent them pictures of Zinger burgers surrounded by the words 'I PEE PEE' over and over. Pretty sure I have had a stroke as well but I'm not sure. I need help.
>love being home alone
>think to myself I can be myself now
>talk myself through every single move I do
>shout "fucking nigger" or "niggerfaggot" very loudly
>make stupid songs with random curse words
>grab my dick and balls and just stare at myself in the mirror
>say random memes that come to my head constantly
>"I shiggy diggy you fucking niggers don't do this fampai"
>have to repress all of these things daily until I have alone time
why
>>27086065
>taking pictures of a 14 year old having sex
Great plan there champ
>>27089387
I'm not fat but you can cuddle me with yours and cry on my shoulder.
>>27089743
:3 I hit myself and yell out randomly/talk to myself and have paranoid of people coming to get me at night. Also your typical social anxiety etc
>>27090046
I also get disoriented around people and everything gets fuzzy and reality becomes unreal. Why must we suffer..
>>27088440
Cont, last one
>listen to metal, shit like Dark Tranquility (great band)
>pick up my guitar and walk around with an exaggerated, ballet dancer/goose-stepping walk whilst holding my guitar in retarded positions whilst headbanging
>this is my way of ridiculing all those stupid hardcorefags that decided to add 'core' to everything and turned moshing into just throwing punches
>my most recent creation was where you hold your arms above your head and have the guitar under your chin and play like the dude from Dragonforce while swaying from side to side, I call it Mantiscore
>do really inappropriate dances to metal because I think it's funny,think shit like that interpretive dance kid with the squinty eyes on YouTube (happy 4th of julyyyy!)
>say shit like >implying and greentext IRL like this anon>>27089214 (btw I use 117 in my usernames all the time 2spoop)
>had custom posters of comfy guy created and have them on my bedroom walls
>whenever I make a meal and put a movie on I sit down and say out loud 'nigger you just went full cozy!' like in the maymay pic
>sometimes drop food when I'm dishing it out and shout stuff like 'you dirty kike faggot' at it
>when I get out the shower I do this thing called 'the body pop' where you arch your shoulders back and push your chest out while grunting
>as I do this I shout 'can ya body pop? can ya body pop, huh?'
My reasoning for all this stuff is that I wish to maximize my use of my free will and sometimes I feel like I'm fighting fate by doing something completely unexpected.
>>27089297
>>27088897
>>27088846
Lel, thanks guys.
>hate being around people
>whenever I go out,which I hate doing,I glare at everyone.
>if they make comments about me,I mumble "ree,you fucking normie."
>if they keep talking,mumble louder till everyone hears it.
>sometimes when I walk by a mosque and I see Muslims there I yell out "Go fuck a goat,all you Mohammeds,Achmeds."
>keep cussing out the 'slimes,saying "ALOHA SNACKBAR." as they get annoyed,then I speed off laughing like a maniac.
>when I do this,they usually throw Qurans at me.
>I call all food "tendies"
>>27083003
I started moving and humming like david bowie in the clip for blackstar when leaving for work and now my neighbors are afraid of me, not sure if that counts.
>hear voices and other sounds
>sometimes i see things too (eyes, purple electricity i can't really explain it, etc.)
>I've been losing my grip on conversation, i eventually start using odd phrases that wouldn't make sense, and generally use word soup on a daily basis
>for example, a person said bye to me and i replied "i hope you have a safe!" We weren't even talking about anything relating to that
I think I might be a schizophrenic, but a voice tells me I'm normal, so I comply
psychiatrists want to hurt me anyways, eh
>>27090117
>117
Meme magic is real, my friends.
Also, forgot (you)>>27088587
>>27090117
>he thinks he has free will
>>27090117
>117 in usernames
>117 in post number
Gonna be honest, kind of freaking out as I post this. Looking around for golf club to protect self if need be.
>will randomly scream gibberish and burst into of fits of laughter when I'm alone
>Run up the stairs on all four limbs and whip my head back and forth and scream like an animal while doing so
>Stare at myself in the mirror and imagine myself blowing my brains out with a shotgun, and I smile
>I actually played Russian Roulette the other day, I'm thinking of making a habit out of it.
>the other day I stared at myself in the mirror for so long I couldn't even recognize myself and I started laughing uncontrollably and then I broke down and started crying
I'm too far gone lads
I just usually ram myself into walls while wailing like a wounded animal or alternating between laughter, rage and yelling "OH WHAT A MEME IM LOVING THIS MEME" out loud.
I refuse to believe a lot of the posts in this thread but they still made me crack the fuck up
Hang in there anons. I'm /losingit/ too
>>27090389
Sounds like fun to be honest
>>27090292
>>the other day I stared at myself in the mirror for so long I couldn't even recognize myself and I started laughing uncontrollably and then I broke down and started crying
I've done this until my own eye contact became intimidating.
>>27090389
LMAO family
>be listening to a power metal song
>start crying (literally) because the song is so beautiful
>actual tears streaming down, have to pause the song
J-just me who did this? Note, i -never- cry otherwise.
>>27090068
d p d r family, I'm in the same boat as you
>>27090596
I do this with movies and shit that shouldn't make people cry like something that is expected to happen, happening
>>27090117
You're an inspiration
>>27090596
Happens to me2 sometimes. Like I'm a 25yo virgin NEET in my parents house. But apparently I'm the same species as some homo sapiens who create such beautiful sounds.
It makes me wonder why I'm so fucking useless. The genetic lottery truly is amazing.
>go downstairs one morning before I leave to go pick up the cat from the vet
>hear my dad talking to me, asking me if I'm almost ready and if I want anything for breakfast
>have normal small talk with him, then go upstairs to grab my wallet
>see that my dad is still sleeping
I must have been way too tired that morning, but things like this have happened multiple times so I don't know if it's from lack of sleep or me losing it
>make that 'okay' hand signal like that normie smiley emoji unironically
Put a bullet through my brain
>>27090117
You mean Herman Li
When I'm driving to work I usually scream at the top of my lungs until I'm breathing hard and just don't have any left in me. It keeps me level.
>have conversations with people I haven't seen in years
>pretend have arguments with people online
>pretend that I have a stretch sword (magical sword that grows and shrinks at will) and swing it around
>have shadow fights in my living room
>sing "I had sex with X women... And it was not consensual" whenever I have intrusive thoughts
>can only fall asleep if I fantasize about snuggling with pic related
Also,
>two weeks ago
>watching Scream Queens
>all of a sudden I'm on my balcony on the other side of the railing
>whispering: "if you jump, you'll fly, you'll see"
>only one storey up anyway
>go back inside
Pretty sure I'm going to kill myself soon.
>be walking back to my car at night
>about 20 feet away I look up
>see some guy sitting in my car
>freak out and start yelling at him to get out of my car
>charge my car and start beating on the windows
>finally blink and he disappears
>thefuck.jpeg
>go home, keep seeing the same guy out the corner of my eyes
>see shadows dance across my walls when there shouldn't be any shadows
>don't know what to do
>the fuck is happening to me
>see passages from books I've read appear on my blank computer monitor
>and my tinnitus is getting worse
> chainsmoking
> look at my reflection and its a dead stare
> start sighing and groaning under my breath
> groan for a straight minute solid, like a creaking door
> groan the words "kill... me... kill..me"
> flip out in anger at slightest thing
> only thing i do is browse r9k for hours
> i hate it but i cant think of anything id rather do
>>27091051
You've been watching to much Yu Yu Hakusho
>talk to myself
>laugh at my own jokes
>interview myself
>talk in different voices and tones to myself
>completely silent infront of someone
I used to have friends in highschool, havent had any contact with friends in over a year. Ive been belligerent in my room rotting away, Mentally and physically.
>Sitting in my car in between classes
>Listening to the radio
>Johnny Cash's cover of Hurt comes on
>Start tearing up
>I feel it
>Full on crying while people walk by
>>27086332
Dude... jesus christ wtf
>>27091069
might be developing schizophrenia m8
go see a doctor
>>27091069
That's real fuckin creepo
>eyeball dosing raw benzodiazepines
>abusing OTC medication
>started smoking cigarettes again
>overindulging in shitty food
>waiting on hard drugs and needles
>seriously considering suicide
>tranquilized 24/7 and most of the time people can't even tell
I think there's some kind of reckoning coming. I'm trying to decide if I want to live into the summer.
>>27083183
Look up Elin Krantz
>lose at video game
>punch self in face and start spitting randomly around my room
>keep playing, feeling nothing but anger
>just start spitting everywhere every five seconds
>room covered in spit
>>27083003
>driving down the road one day
>realize haven't used my voice in a while
>start humming, singing, practicing saying things
>feel the urge
>start yelling at the top of my lungs
>yelling as fucking loud as I can the biggest blood curdling scream of my life
>this goes on for 10 mins
Is screaming healthy, idk?
>>27083003
>tfw always pissed off/stressed, unstable mindset
no i'm not mental, how could i be? heh heh...
>tfw forget easily
>tfw can't use my brain properly, feels like mush/too much effort to think
picture a limp arm trying to raise up
>tfw excessive swearing in my mind
>tfw random laughter remembering meme
>tfw constant periods amping/ pep talking myself up
it's just a rough period right now. I'm not insane, i'm noooooot (not insane)
>>27088843
did you read his previous post? he said he had developed an oedipus complex.
>>27090146
>started moving and humming like david bowie in the clip for blackstar
Same lol.
That video is a fucking curse.
>>27091229
That gif made my dick hard. Fucking hell I need to get out more
>>27087007
Holy shit. I do this a lot also, except it's with scenarios I expect to find myself in.
>Home alone watching tv
>suddenly start thinking about what i'd say in an argument with my mom
>imagine it escalates to the point where they disown me
>Get pissed and yell at the cat
It happens a lot less then it used to though
>>27083003
fate will become soom
>>27083003
>be anon
>pour a bowl of cereal home alone
>daydream about future shitposting
>intense need to feel special hits
>force out a breathless chuckle
>run back to shitposting station
>just like le movie villain
I am losing it from my isolation too.
Going to get visited by some people from a nearby church tonight, I honestly cant handle this shit anymore. Hopefully the Mormon church can help me
>think of something embarrassing that happened years ago
>imagine stabbing myself in the neck with the closest thing to me when I done the thing
>have to go through the motion of it all too
>say something embarrassing to someone I know online
>throw myself out of my computer chair and flail my limbs around
>imagine killing myself a hundred different ways
>throw myself onto my bed and roll around while thinking about how I should kill myself
>eventually sort of calm back down until I sit down at my computer and read what I wrote again
>have to resist the urge to repeat it all even though it feels like my body is tingling all over and I NEED to move
>see that the person responded positively to it
>all urges disappear
>no control over emotions anymore
>if something more than average in any direction I just break down and start crying
>occasionally just sit there poking my tongue out over and over again and flopping my head side to side
>watch an anime/show
>like one of the characters
>pretty much absorb their personality
>internal voice becomes theirs, sounds and speaks identically
>my opinions changed slightly depending on what the character likes
>if they're a happy character my mood will improve a lot, if they're a sad one I get a lot worse
I want to kill myself
>>27091358
>oedipus complex
an invention of society.
if mothers and sons who were close, and wanted to be with each other, could have an intimate relationship then the son would learn how to please a women and grow more confident. instead we shame the young men, because that's really going to benefit them.
>>27091710
i do the first and last things too. also, sounds like you might have bpd
>>27085901
anon, I too know this feel, I wish I didn't and wish you didn't either, let's feel together because you're not alone
>>27089214
>117
I thought I was the only one.
Also, apparently the above post alone wasn't original. Spooped
>spent the whole summer (southern emisphere) smoking paraguayan pressed weed (which, unlike real weed, is toxic disgusting and kills braincells)
>smoking real weed too tho, even though I'm not supposed to because of some minor psychotic problems
>and smoking cocaine base paste a few times
>and binge drinking mixed with other people's prescription drugs that I didn't even know what they're for. intentionally blacking out almost every time
>and sniffing glue or cleaning products every once in a while
>and a few times, intentionally going off my antipsychotics for a week or so so then when I took bad quality LSD (probably not even lsd) that I think is mixed with adderall or some shit I would go on a bigger weirder and more fucked up trip. which obviously is bad for my mind
so, basically, i spent the summer kicking my brain and pissing on it repeatedly
>back to school last week, final year
>I'm a fucking zombie now
>I forget everything
>I have zero energy
>I move slowly and akwardly
>I drop everything I grab, I have trouble holding things correctly now
>I can't think properly and I literally feel a cloud in my head
>I have problems understanding what people say. sometimes it even sounds like they're speaking another language
>I'm slow as fuck understanding jokes
>I don't understand anything the teachers teach in class.
>I used to be kind of good at understanding algebra, chemistry and physics but now it's all alien hieroglyphics, even though until this wednesday they weren't even teaching new subjects.
>now when I smoke weed (real weed, no more pressed bullshit) I literally feel like I'm in a dream for the rest of the day. like reality doesn't feel real.
I already had to repeat one year, I should have already fucking graduated, but I'm still here and I'm scared I'll fail this year too or atleast seriously fuck up my GPA (it's not called GPA in my country but whatevs) if I don't go back to normal within the next couple of months.
>>27090117
you are my inspiration
>>27090292
with a six shot revolver the probability of not killing yourself after four 'rounds' (i.e., making a habit of it) is less than half
>>27092549
>implying I give a fuck if I live or die at this point
>>27092361
>paraguayan pressed weed
Are you an Argie?
>>27087621
the happiest man on /r9k/
>haven't actually hung out with anyone since new year, I've only been meeting my friends when I want to buy drugs from them
>live alone
>every day I start walking around the house imagining conversations
>I actually make the facial expressions and physical gestures like the conversation is actually happening
>it's usually conversations where I'm being funny or charismatic and people like me but sometimes they're different
>laugh out loud when something in that imaginary conversation is funny
>get angry when I don't agree with something someone says
>a few times I literally have started crying because something happened in that conversation made me sad
>all of this is done while walking around the house back and forth, I usually only stop walking when I have to laugh too hard.
>sometimes these imaginary conversations are so nice they literally brighten my day up and make it a good happyy day. sometimes they're so stressing or sad that they ruin my day and make me depressed.
>I do this for literally several hours every day.
why
>>27092723
chilean
>>27087621wewladbloxblox bloxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
>>27083003
been getting cringe flashbacks for over a year now, used to just throw the nearest object near me as hard as i could or pull my hair out but now i'm doing those things on top of screaming as loud as i can
its also happening more frequently, used to happen every few days a year ago but now it happens basically anytime i don't have something distracting me and even then the disctractions dont always work
>>27090117
>I feel like I'm fighting fate by doing something completely unexpected.
Kek
>>27083343
ya about a week ago i was feeling delirious as fuck from staying up for too long and was seeing shadows move in the corners of my eyes and shit and i would be thinking shit in my head and couldn't make any sense of it and would be thinking something is both wrong and correct at the same time
>try to summon a demon with a friend
>week later wake up with slashes over my back
>imnotcrazy.jpg
>get dizzy whenever i think about the demon's sigil
>everynow and then get tickled and touched on the back that i am very aware of
>seperate consciousness trying to speak to me
>reguarly have manic episodes but only when im alone
>friend told me that I did the scratches on my back in a amnesia dissociation experience and don't remember linked with multi personality disorder, I know it's basically a meme disorder
>mfw i don't know what to believe
>>27092361
>do a shit ton of drugs
>expects to do well at uni
just end yourself already my friend, save yourself from being a failure
I spent the last six months becoming more degenerate and degenerate, and I love it and hate it at the same time.
I also got slightly better at certain things, but I can't really improve myself because I have no discipline.
>>27093393
Post a picture of the sigil pls.
>>27090117
I also have a number that shows up fucking everywhere, 27.
>117
>1+17
>27
Whenever I sing along to sad songs, especially songs about loneliness or mental instability, I start yelling and putting a lot of throat into my words before it gets to be incoherent babbling and unstable laughter and tears.
I also find myself forgetting things really easily, especially if I had just learned it. It's like when you walk through a door snd forget what you're doing except there's no door.
I say memes aloud to myself, usually it's just who /x/ here where x is whatever just happened (ex who /drive/ here when I'm driving) and I start laughing as if I'm engaging in banter with some friends at the bar.this is normal, right?
>>27093515
1+17=18, not 27 moron
>>27093503
>tfw it snowed recently
>tfw i go out at 5 am, and write the demons name about 20 times in the snow on a public path so everyone saw in the morning
i felt compelled to do this
>>27086807
I've been there. For the longest time I wanted to be molested
>>27093503
I hand drew it myself
>>27093549
>117
>1 + 1 = 2
>27
Are you literally retarded senpai
>>27085901
Call the cops on whoever is statutory raping her you cuck faggot
>every time i go to the bathroom
>stare at my reflection
>barely recognize the male in the mirror as myself anymore
>talk literal gibberish with my two remaining psychotic friends
>wake up at 11AM
>immediately begin drinking
>lose my keys and walk around the house several times before finding them every time i need to leave the house
>"forget" to eat for days at a time
>bullimia
>>27091710
>>internal voice becomes theirs, sounds and speaks identically
I do this. Usually against my will, too.
>>27093545
>I say memes aloud to myself, usually it's just who /x/ here where x is whatever just happened (ex who /drive/ here when I'm driving)
This stuff makes me feel better cuz now I know I'm not the only one. I'm a very newfag but I already know I'm in this shit for life and not in a meme way. In a literal way. For me the most common meme I say outloud is >implying when I see some stupid lying bullshit on tv or a stupid post on normiebook. I'm half tempted to reply with that on normiebook and just cash in the last shreds of normalcy I have, but I don't have the balls. I'm a faggot
>>27089847
Have you talked to anyone about it? R9k is nice but maybe a professional diagnosis. Also for the possible stroke.
>>27089877
We are near the same, friendpai.
>>27090117
>'Nigger you just went full cozy!'
Keks for days.
>>27093826
I say >implying sometimes too. When I get really frustrated I say official list of things that are dumb/stupid/shouldn't be here etc and then say 1. x and x is the thing that's pissing me off (ex I stub my toe on the table, official list of things that shouldn't be in my way when I'm walking: 1. the table)
>watch serial experiments lain fours years ago
>still quote, "Doushite Rain?" in an annoying voice every single day when I wake up
>have the same breakfast of apple + coffee for over 8 years now every single day without fail
>once marathoned 16 films in a row without sleeping/only getting up to piss or get more coffee
>stared aimlessly wandering around town at midnight, look incredibly suspicious while doing so
>convince myself my friends hate me and are actively plotting against me whenever they don't reply to my messages
>have infected blisters on my heels, pick at them constantly and only make them worse
>have to heat water up until it's basically boiling before washing my hands
>wash my hands up to 12 times a day (not including after using the bathroom) yet I don't shower regularly
>>27093687
>told my friend i love him
>send him a bunch of text messages everyday and he just gives me one word replies or outright ignores me
>i don't think it's because he hates me or anything haha he's probably just zoning out to some grindy ass video game
>WHY DOESN'T HE LOVE ME PLEASERESPONDPLEASERESPOND
>what if he killed himself?
>OH MY GOD HE DID HE'S BEEN TALKING ABOUT IT
>pleasereply please reply pls pls pls
>I WISH I COULD HAVE HAD THE COURAGE TO HUG YOU WHEN YOUR WERE STILL ALIVE
>WHY DIDN'T YOU LOVE ME? YOU'D RATHER DIE THAN SPEND TIME WITH ME?
>WHAT DID I DO WRONG? WBAT CAN I DO TO MAKE HIM LOVE ME?
>haha remember when he wanted us to show eachother our dicks in first grade?
>THAT MEANS HE LOVED YOU
>WHY DOESN'T HE TOUCH ME? WHY DOES NOBODY TOUCH ME I DON'T FEEL REAL, WHAT IF I'M NOT REAL?
wheres that fucking guy who screams to himself
>lets get REAAAAAAAAL BEEFY
>>27089847
>I filled out a job application yesterday to KFC in which I simply sent them pictures of Zinger burgers surrounded by the words 'I PEE PEE' over and over.
>ever since i saw some random video on milliondollar extreme's channel of nick and sam impersonating black people whenever i'm alone i sing to myself
>i drink de blood of de white man
>make my children drink de blood of de whiteman so they can grow to be strong whitey killa
>>27094030
Lol wtf reading that just made me laugh so hard it hurt my chest
Reading this thread is just making me /losingit/ more
>>27087621
Holy shit i thought I was the only one who did this.
>walk around on tiptoes like General Grievous from Star Wars
>bathrobe acts as a cape
>as I walk into the kitchen in the morning I say 'whaaat's tha situation captain?' like him as I open cupboards and make breakfast
>play out entire scenes occasionally
>scream like a goat at the top of my lungs
>whenever shit goes wrong or something falls over I literally shout 'WEW LAD!'
Except when i knock something over i shout THAT'S FUCKIN GREAT MATE in an Australian accent
>>27094166
i know friendpai, it's funny but I can also relate to them.
dont remember all of it because i really lost it but here's how three weeks ago went
>heat the equivalent of half a sandwich a day
>during commute either cry or stare blankly at emptiness
>lie in bed as soon as i get home
>either begin laughing or smiling like a crazy or screaming silently
have veins poping out from the side of my temples since then and lost all my friends, i dont even know what i did but i suppose i must have acted weirdly
i havent flushed my toilet in 4 days and i cant flush it now cause i know itd get clogged
i dont know why
i keep the bathroom door closed all the time now and i hold my nose when i go in there because of the smell
I talk to myself almost constantly, it's on the level where I have a hard time not doing it in public. I can't even fucking think straight unless I'm talking to myself. I'm horrified of making noise though, having other people hear me, so it's real silent and I always try to be as quiet as possible in absolutely everything I do. But the talking is there, it's always there.
I also forget things constantly, even while doing them.
>>27094228
Me too. That's why this shit is so funny to me. We're brothers in arms against the menace of insanity, and if I'm going down I'm going down laughing like a madman
>only interaction I get is with imaginary friends
>pretend art mannequin on bookshelf is favorite anime character giving me guidance
>argue in a different voice with myself for hours
>start cackling randomly during the day until it turns to crying
>whistle back at the birds outside pretending it's a message from an agent I have to decode
>check under furniture, in closets, in corners of ceilings for cameras just in case it's like the Truman show
>spend most of the time lost in a fantasy world living out the lives of random people
>randomly blurt shit out to any government agents that may be listening
>feel like a robot or alien most of the time and have to find some way to return to my home planet
I can't wait until commercial spaceflight is put in effect, I was never meant to be here desu
>obsessively compile every aspect of my life into some sort of data
>have hordes of charts, spreadsheets, and lists that contain completely useless information
>tfw if I don't keep track of it, did it even really happen?
>wicked generalized anxiety
>only thing that wards it off is the mundane hand-to-mouth motion, like when you're absentmindedly eating chips
>start snacking constantly
>start throwing up so I can eat moreand so I don't become obese desu
>ff 3 years later
>couldn't hold down food if I wanted to, always irritable and lethargic from hunger
>avoid people like the plague
>being in the same room as someone makes me want to scream and rip my hair out
>I have one friend that I can be around without wanting to commit murder/suicide
>he has a lot of other friends and is almost always busy
im /losingit/ alright
>>27090117
>nigger you just went full cozy!'
Fucking Kek
Also creepy check'd
>>27086332
life is hell for you
move out asap
>>27089214
There are 117 reasons why all your problems are your own fault, anon
>>27087007
>talk to myself in a whisper like i'm talking to someone else
>make up scenarios in my head where i am being asked questions and i answer them out loud to myself
Shit, I do this exact same thing while pacing around my basement.
>>27091710
holy shit, someone i can vaguely relate to in this thread, i didn't expect that
so many times even in public i get so infuriated at my own incompetence that i start shaking in rage and occasionally have to hold myself back (hold one hand, using the other) from grabbing the nearest suitable object and ramming it into my wrists until i bleed
have also done the thing where i throw myself out of chairs and into lying-down positions flailing, except I don't have a bed so I just bash my head and arms against the floor
>tfw you start crying randomly
>have to constantly avoid workmates, customers, family members
>make weird noises, hum odd random tunes to myself
please tell me I'm not the only one
>>27091710
you should be happy and cherish what you have.
i used to be like that, can relate to everything you said.
then i just became a robot.
it was nicer before trust me
>>27094320
>randomly blurt shit out to any government agents that may be listening
Holy shit dude, me too. I get pretty feisty with them too lol
>>27094823
>write scripts that send encrypted emails of gibberish to random people at government addresses from burner accuonts
Have fun decrypting that shit spooks, I gonna waste all your time
Suck my dick reality, I'm gonna smoke more weed and fuck taking my meds and fuck my meds and fuck the pill bottle
>Injured dick and brain around the same time
>Brain won't heal before dick does
It's been a week and a half and feels like my dick just won't finish up healing. I'm starting to lose it.
>>27094320
>>27094823
I do the same, but to random people that may be hiding in my house
>>27094018
you may have OCD
>take a massive shit
>it gets stuck on the side of the bowl
>I stare at it
>FUCK ITS NOT WET ITS GOING TO DRY THERE
>Stare at it and get closer
>my head is literally right against the toilet so I can look at all the cracks and details in this shit
>consider picking it up and putting it in the water
>decide not to
>get toilet paper in my hand
>push it slowly into the water
>smears shit all over the side of the toilet the entire way down
>>27094964
>FUCK ITS NOT WET ITS GOING TO DRY THERE
how deep is your potty?
>>27094483
>diagnosed neurological disorder
>it's your own fault!
Man, kill yourself.
>>27089847
You might have a neurological disorder. Albeit that the fact you wrote a KFC application with the words "I PEE PEE" is fucking hilarious, go get actual medical help instead of posting to this fucking hell hole.
>>27087621
>>27088440
most of these are surefire signs of aspergers
>>27089214
>>greentext IRL
how
>>27096759
Make a horizontal peace sign with your hand.
>try to add to laptop's RAM
>turns out it only has one slot
>end up unscrewing the case to find other slot
>disconnect trackpad and mouse ribbons
>can't get case to reconnect properly
>2 of the screws won't even come out
I'm pissed but I don't mind since I have another laptop that's falling apart from years ago that I could use as back-up. My new one still works fine, even a little better for no reason but I'm especially pissed that me looking for something meant destroying it.
>>27094895
>Suck my dick reality
you're my hero.
>>27083003
I've been sitting at my computer twitching for like 10 hours. It's 5:30 AM now, I sat down at around 6PM
>becoming increasingly paranoid at work
>Behaviour at work becoming so erratic boss pulls me in and asks if im ok
>Try to rein in obvious signs of madness (talking to myself, twitching, staring at my knife)
>it makes me feel more unhinged
>paranoia increases, assume co-workers are out to get me.
>violent and suicidal intrusive thoughts
>Stop eating at work, reduce dietary intake by more than half
>Angry at small things due to not eating at work
>swallow all this stuff so i can be better behaved at home/with friends at weekly /tg/ activities
>spend nights deathly afraid im going to snap
i'm gonna make it, right bros?
>plane i'm on banks really hard to one side on take off
>imagine it falling out of the sky, as well as the looks on the peoples faces around me as it happens
>cover my mouth immediately due to the oncoming outburst of keks at what i had imagined
then my right eye felt like i had been stabbed in it for about 2 minutes.
>>27095865
What's the situation captain obvious
I am so happy with my little thread.
damn... we're all fucking losing it.
>>27096759
I'll speak in he way greentexts are done, like
">implying..."
">he believes ..."
">thinking..."
Maybe not as fucked as some of you but
> Start getting panic attacks when outside
> reality feels weird as fuck
> fucking INSANE dreams
> years go by and still dealing with the same bullshit i dealt with when younger
> can barely recognize the person ive become in the mirror
WTF is happening to me? This shit is really scary
>>27090596
This happens to me too family, although in my case it started after I took acid and saw the God of Music. Can't believe there's someone else out there that cries listening to power metal. Manowar is my favorite.
>>27085901
Tell your parents what the fuck
>>27087621
I've been having a really shitty week and when I read your post I started laughing, thank you anon I really needed that
>>27097817
the song Noldor by blind guardian makes me cry lmao fuck
>>27087441
average conservative
>surrounded by garbage
>constantly smoking weed or cigarettes
>don't bathe for weeks, haven't brushed my teeth in like a month
>constantly sanitizing, washing, and rubbing antibacterial wipes all over my arms, face, and torso at home and now lately at work too
>can only think about the always sunny ep where frank covers his naked body in hand sanitizer
>I JUST WANT TO BE PUUUUUURE
>get banned from all boards for posting in those stupid "a deal's a deal" threads on /v/
>spend the next day shitposting as hard as I possibly can while pretending I'm not banned
>imagine angry replies
>wheeze laughter
I make bets with myself to see if something will happen.
>if this happens then she likes me!
I do it so much to the point where I will just start betting on moving my feet, but there were no terms to the bet. Ive been doing this since 3rd grade.
>>27098261
What do you use as a reward system? I feel like this could potentially be a good motivational tool
>>27098378
You know I've never thought of it like that anon, I think I can start using my autism for good
>>27090117
Don't worry, 343 is killing Halo as fast as they can. You'll never see Spartan 117 again.
>>27087621
prime stuff anon
thanks 4 the laughs
Whenever I'm alone, I just talk to myself about random crap, make shitty puns and stupid jokes on purpose, and then make weird giggling noises in response to my own bad jokes. The kind of giggling you'd expect from a pedo clown, honestly. I don't know what this means, but I know I'd try to snap my neck if someone heard or saw me doing this.
>>27087621
comedy gold right here
Do normies have full blown conversations talking to their mind and discussing what's happening and it sometimes tells you what to do or bullies you?
>>27087750
How'd you get out?
I know I'm slowly going insane but I don't know how to reintegrate into society.
>>27088440
Are you Sam Hyde
>>27083003
>Have named my fish, talk to them and have a fear of Jeremy
>Have installed curtains all around my bed to hide myself
>Talk to myself and narrate my actions, "Anon has started dish 1 of 10, then begin heating the water."
>Whenever I'm in public I listen to music and go through multiply stories that I created and live out in my head.
>Have plans to dig a cave and build a concrete underground shelter in my dad's property.
>Have a constant fear that everyone despises me only leave my apartment at night.
>Haven't had a friend in years only talk to my family ever now and then so Im retarded as fuck when it come to talking in real life.
Want to hunt down the homeless that live near me, cant stand their constant pleading and want to beat them to death
>>27087621
>whaaat's tha situation captain?
>>27087007
>>27087634
>>27094492
>make up scenarios in my head where i am being asked questions and i answer them out loud to myself
Solidarity brobots, it's starting to become pretty excessive on my end too.
>>27094020
You might have saved him if you were a girl you fucking queer.
>>27087621
>>whenever shit goes wrong or something falls over I literally shout 'WEW LAD!'
>have a collection of cardboard tubes that I use to project my screams and shouts throughout my place
>like to have a door open just wide enough to stick a tube through
Sounds like me when no one's around. Not planned or anything. Shit just comes out spontaneously.
>>27098799
I've done this ever since I was 16, and its gotten much worse. But I do love the random giggles, its always cheerful than the crying and full on spastic screaming
I spend hours watching people in their homes on open webcams
Have deduced their location
And found out their names
Facebooks, everything,
Never contacted but I know everything about their life and can literally watch them do something then post about it on fagbook
Help
>>27099781
MODS
(this is very oriental)
>>27088068
>ball my fists up and start beating the shit out of my bed
tfw
>get angry at myself
>punch myself in the face while calling myself a stupid little shit
how far gone am i
>>27089214
>think a number is stalking me
Holy shit literally me, 56 has been with me my entire life now
>>27091220
Topkek wtf mang?
>>27096759
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTN6gL21F60
Most people here probably won't even understand.
>>27098261
I do this. Random ass shit like on the number of steps up the stairs or if I can stab a good particle with a certain fork prong in one try or if I can I time the microwave correctly do the mug handle is towards the opening or if I can catch a door before it closes.
>>27083003
>start randomly pacing
>when I am by myself, I begin talking to myself
>I even have messages to myself on normiebook
>>27087621
>>whenever shit goes wrong or something falls over I literally shout 'WEW LAD!'
I say WEW LAD whenever something un-surprising happens
Sometimes I like to scream as hard as I can, as quietly as I can. I don't know why.
>>27099574
I KNOW
FUCKING KILLSELF
>randomly spout random shit when alone
>strings of "hue"s, dubstep beats, Uncharted 3 Drake choking death sounds, repeatedly reenact the dubs scene from American Psycho while smirking hard and laughing in between sessions
>imagine long dialogues based on past experiences and/or future and expected projections of people in my head for double digit minutes then realize I'm alone in the living room
>quickly repeat under my breath the name of a girl I used to like intensely 6 years ago but now feel little for
>before I sleep, while I'm trying to sleep or about to sleep, when I wake up, when I'm doing nothing or in between low activity tasks like walking on the bus or using my keys to open the door, will repeat get name like that
>called mother of a kid I know to apologize because I ignored her and the guilt was consuming me for two months
>after the phone call felt like my mind was ripping in half and still can't discern the exact reason since this was the path to fix things
>constantly asking myself what and who am I, pacing back and forth everywhere to grab things to swing and punch things and pretend I have a sword fighting with it, stopping when I get a painful headache
>girl probably didn't even care what I did and everything is in my mind and I can't discern reality anymore and am overly dramatic about nothing
>want to never go outside since my thoughts are overly dramatic but my words are little so I'm just a burden on everyone I know
>have no one to talk to about all my shit but an autistic frog board on a website founded upon Korean flash point animations
>genuinely happy with big smiles when I saw people in class today
>go back home to usual 10-words-a-day shut-in self
>repeat Dizzy's Soul&Salvation album five times while getting no work done
>>27099574
I...
I need to transition
then he'll notice me
>>27087441
Heh, nothing personnel, Donnie boy.
Have fun going down in the history books as the national laughingstock.
>>27093549
kek
common core in action
>start re-enacting movie scenes in lounge
>parents walk in and catch me doing a WW11 re-enactment
>"I'M HIT SIR"
>*slo-mo falls to ground and pretends to die*
>parents laugh
>die internally
>>27090888
That's some spooky shit anon
"originaru commento desu"
>>27089351
It's your lucky number
>>27090948
good shit famicon
OODLES
AND
KABOODLES
OF NOODLES
