>tfw you will never be a girl
>tfw you will never transform into a little girl with twintails
>You will never be a normie who is socially smart with high self esteem
>tfw you will never have friends because you're mentally ill
>You will never have any real friends
Who needs them anyway, r-right?
>you will never be Chad
original
>tfw only have MDD and SAD yet I am still lumped in with you schizos and trans-freaks
I never asked for this.
>>27039644
>trans-freaks
so mean desu senpai
we never asked for this either
>>27039594
>Chad will never date you rather than just pump and dump you
>>27039673
The only treatment for Transexuality is euthanasia.
I-I'm sorry you had to find out this way...
>>27039673
be my gf desu fampai
>>27039701
nah there's estrogen desu
It works quite well
>>27039719
k
Tfw you have to go through another day and the meds still arent working
>>27039306
Iktf.
>tfw will never be a loving housewife to a caring husband who fucks me silly whenever he gets home
>>27039306
you are not mentally ill you are just a retarded shitheat.
>>27039760
post ur skype qt :^)
>>27039795
we /wardh071/ now
pls add me am ronery
>>27039830
>UK
>French moonrunes
>>27039881
Is lyrics
pls no bully
>>27039760
im sorry but it doesn't :(
you always be a trans freak ;_;
>>27039897
Can I bully you?
>>27039897
Alright
>UK
>>27039306
>you will never be a little loli vampire with superhuman strength
>>27039913
n-no you
>>27039916
maybe
>>27039937
I'm the nicest bully around.
>>27039955
nice dubsdubsc-can you bully me too?
>tfw desperately want to Misaki a qt mentally ill boy but too much of a psycho bitch to be anything but a destructive force in anyone's life
>Tfw you never know if you what you are thinking is being subconsiously picked up from those around you
>Tfw you must keep secrects becuase you will die a looser if you don't
>Tfw you dont know if what you were thinking you just said out loud and you only believe you were thinking it, and thats why they all give you funny looks.
>tfw you actually start to get yfw and yfw is tfw i completwly understand the void between you and me
>>27039988
Even nicer dubsdubs nerd. Why do you want to be bullied?
>>27040003
But femanon
That sounds fun
>tfw no cute trap steam bf
>>27040003
>tfw gf is basically like this and breakup is inevitable
>>27040018
>tfw you actually start to get yfw and yfw is tfw i completwly understand the void between you and me
iktf
>>27040023cause it's hotand I'm fucking ill
>>27039830
I'd add you, but you're too far away
>>27040003
>>27039788
You people understand me so well. This is exactly what I want.
I would be such a loving, loyal wife/gf to a depressed boy. These fucking roasties don't deserve vaginas. I would be much more responsible with it.
>>27039830
>dumb sissy faggots are also newfags
wow
Who could have guessed?
>>27040058
>These fucking roasties don't deserve vaginas. I would be much more responsible with it.
but anon
I'd rather frot your baby trap dick and cover it in my lew cum then fuck your tight boypuss
>>27040058
>I would be such a loving, loyal wife/gf to a depressed boy
What's stopping you?
>>27040162
*Iewd cum
>>27040162
thanks cutie
I'll never get my cute little dick snipped then :)
>>27040058
Can you imagine serving your mentally ill qt's favourite meal in bed because he hasn't had the motivation to get up? I imagine scenarios like these with theschizoI'm in love with every day.
>>27040037I would probably enjoy emotionally wrecking and bullying a mentally ill guy until he's completely dependent on me because I'm a bad person
>>27039306
>Know a tranny friend that got a loving boyfriend and they're cute as fuck together
>Will never be in her shoes or even pass if I tried
>tfw trap, soon to get hormones
>tfw having major depression and social anxiety
>tfw cant make friends or relationships
>tfw neet
why do i have to be such a complete failure
>>27040299i want to make someone happy
>>27040277
yess that's literally my dream
>tfw no lazy antisocial robot bf
I would even be the normie and work to support him. I'll take care of him every day and be like his mommy.
>>27040275
Good!
It'd be so fun to make moan while you leak lewd pre-cum and beg for my cock :3
>>27040290
>>27040299
>>27040321
>tfw will never have a trap gf
>>27040337
>tfw people like this will never save you
>>27040337
>no lazy antisocial robot
I'm not that great
Trust me
>>27040290
why do you post your degenerate shit on r9k?
>>27039306
Is it healthy for normal people to sometimes think about what it would like to a girl?
>>27040321
what are you saying anon?
>>27040362
>tfw it takes me months to get comfortable around new faces
anyone who could be interested in me would have given lost interest by then..
>>27040401
There's nothing too weird about that
>>27039487
this so fucking much,
> tfw your'll never be able to hold your own breats and dress in cute clothes
>>27040321
This is an original comment
Welcome to the world
>>27039306
>try to record a video of myself talking over a video game
>realize that I'm incapable of putting together meaningful words
someone please kill me
>>27040362
>>27040375
you guys make my maternal instincts tingle.. I want to take care of a depressed neet boy. well too bad I'm not a real girl
>>27040418
breasts*
christ i'm being sloopy
>>27040463
Have you tried just recording the game and not talking over it?
>>27040468
>I want to take care of a depressed neet boy
no you don't anonalso i posted this >>27040162
so don't worry about being a tranny
>>27040409
>tfw no one will ever be comfortable around me and develop an interest in me
>>27040468
>>27040468
>I want to take care of a depressed neet boy
I don't know why you'd want to, but that would be amazing.
>tfw schizophrenic boy that hears voices all the time
;w; it really sucks
>>27040480
Well what I was recording wasa proposal vid for an SGDQ submission
so I stopped trying because I decided that if I can't talk with nobody around, I definitely can't do it in front of a live audience.
>>27040299
shoudn't r9k have a steam group or something? Would be great is everyone spent a little time with somebody else.
>>27040535
no need to be mean.. if he had longer hair I'd believe he has a woman
>>27040003
are you yandere?
>>27040501
at least you dont get the awful feeling of knowing youll fuck every chance you get up, i think i did it again just the other day. so much for having a stable period in my depression..
>>27040546
idk, id be afraid to make a fool of myself there too though
>>27039306
> tfw you have broad shoulders
> you will never make good trap material
>>27039487
>>27040418
It hurts so much. I've had a few dreams where I was a cute girl and it felt so good, but dreams only last a few moments and the memory fades very quickly
>>27040534
>tfw started to have visual hallucinations, which also give me a feedback when I touch them
I feel like I'm actually going completely crazy.
>tfw had steam bf for 2 months
>we were both happy and talked everyday all the time
>discovered that he was cucking me with another steam bf
>tfw almost no steam friends and i was the only person that i used to talk with
>>27040634
what kind of hallucinations?
>>27040606
there will be surgery that can fix us degenerates in the future..
save up money.
>>27040634
I've started seeing things out of the corner of my eyes too. I'm afraid for my future, I don't want to be like one of those crazy motherfuckers who makes outsider art music or the TempleOS guy
![dXkW5Ce[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/69hm4xp.jpg "dXkW5Ce[1].jpg")
>>27040564
You're a faggot then.
Even with camera angles and lighting and editing hiding the jaw - The nose knows
>>27040605
>at least you dont get the awful feeling of knowing youll fuck every chance you get up
But I do have that feeling
>>27040634
lets be schizo together
>>27040672
there is no need to put someone down :)
he just wants to be a girl
let's all try to be nice.
![[DeadFish] Ore, Twintails ni Narimasu. - 11 [720p][AAC].mp4_snapshot_17.53_[2015.01.19_03.46.57].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/xlFVEkq.jpg "[DeadFish] Ore, Twintails ni Narimasu. - 11 [720p][AAC].mp4_snapshot_17.53_[2015.01.19_03.46.57].jpg")
>>27039487
That fucking anime gave me feels more than any other, especially when he couldn't turn back and had to learn how to brush his hair and wear cute clothes.
>>27040687
sorry to hear, nothing like thinking you found the light at the end of the tunnel just to end up worse than before
Anyone else wake up in the middle of the night and seen things moving around the room, spiders running across the walls, etc? One night I saw a hole in the wall and was convinced that it lead next door and the neighbors were using it to spy on me.
>>27040672
he dosen't look that old, should probably ramp up those estrogen pills.
>>27040697
BULLYING IS MY LIFE DONT TAKE THIS AWAY FROM ME I IDENTIFY AS A BULLYOSEXUAL
>>27040652
It were just normal objects at first, but now I started to see animals which aren't there, I can touch them and actually feel the fur etc. I wouldn't have realized it if strangers wouldn't have spoken to me about my weird behaviour. I'm not really sure what is real anymore, maybe I actually pretend that there are people. I never took drugs or anything, so I don't know how I developed such symtomps.
And I can relate to your steam problem, I only talk with one person and he deleted me two times already. We are just friends, atleast I see him as a friend, but I'm not sure if he sees me as the same.
>>27040691
I don't think I'm a schizo, sorry anon.
>>27040321
i need to stop hoping for someone on the internet to save me. getting my hopes up just ends up hurting
>>27040691
I'll be schizo with you.
>>27040833
Go see a doctor NOW. It could be anything, even a tumor that could be easily removed. Go fucking now you idiot.
>>27040833
You should develop the hallucinations into a tulpa
http://www.tulpa.info/
>>27039306
>tfw you will never be a guy
Feels bad
>tfw youll never go on a violent rampage
>>27040634
Oh shit niggger I've been there
>tfw used to pace back and forth for hours listening to the same song on repeat in a dark room and hallucinate about anime girls coming to life
>tfw went a week with the same dream every night about murdering someone and raping their corpse
>>27040866
really , you will?
what do your voices say
>>27040886
be my ftm bf now
>>27040672
He looks pretty good in feb 2016 desu
I'd fuck
>>27040916
Mostly echoes. Things people said constantly lingering. please send help
>>27040720
maybe in the next life brother
>>27040992
i already heard this twice before going to sleep
go to a doctor its awful i couldn't sleep because of it
>>27040992
me too, my voices can read my thoughts..
then they say what i said in my head after i think it
my voices are always around people
whenever im in a group of people they get worse
want a hug?
>>27040652
I'm sorry, I kind of got cucked too by a steam boy but we weren't in a relationship.
>>27040867
I don't go to doctors, I have developed something like a phobia I think. We have healthcare in my country, but still, I didn't even went to one when I started to cough up blood for a period of time. I don't really want to bother them and there are patients who aren't as useless as me, so they should get their treatment instead of me. If I die because of some illness or go crazy, then it is my problem, it doesn't even sound that bad at all.
>>27040884
Thanks anon, I always thought about developing a tulpa, because having another person who is willingly sounds pretty great, even if it is just in my mind. I check the site out.
>>27041021
Physical interaction scares me. So I guess an e-hug will work.
>>27040856
>i need to stop hoping for someone on the internet to save me. getting my hopes up just ends up hurting
Iktf. It only gets harder each new time.
>>27041072
*hugs*
are you in usa anon
>>27041097
Yes, I am from freedom land. What about you?
>>27041078
tell me about it. last time i got cucked for 8 months even met up with her only to find out she was sleeping with one of my oldest friends. almost 2 years later it still haunts me.
it makes me really want to completely isolate myself from the rest of the world.
tfw ill never be able to have a functional life
>>27041117
Arizona in burgerland
are you an otaku
>>27041062
>going insane
>dont want to go to doctor
>>27041135
Are you Otacon? I've always liked Arizona. You should let me visit you.
>>27040776
> used to watch a lot of conspiracy theory documentries
> began to get paranoid that i'd get abducted by aliens. For some reason i thought if i locked all the doors, windows and kept everything closed they woudn't get me
> Went to sleep in the fetal position under the covers every night
Thank god i don't do that anymore.
>>27041168
Snake?
Visit me pls, I have a wii.
>>27040886
But you are a guy anon
>>27041210
Liquid?
We can play Mario Kart together if I visit you. I'm terrible at it. We should be steam friendos.
Mental illness is a meme. Stop feeling sorry for yourselves. You're not ill, you're just a pathetic faggot.
>>27039830
Hi hannah hope you're doing well
Being a girl is the worst possible thing.
> Periods
> Submissive little bitches
> Laughably unimportant
> Not nearly as athletic or determined as men
Yet another thread that proves that weebs are fucking idiots.
>>27041243
Huey did nothing wrong.
I have mario kart.
okay.
My gaming PC is broken righht now though.
steamcommunity.com/id/cutekawaiifuntime
is my ID
>>27041271
what's she likei considered adding
>>27041288
>Huey did nothing wrong.
Top scum.
>>27041288
So do you still get on Steam even though it is broken? You seem like you might be a friend collector. It scares me.
>>27041291
she's pretty nice we've not talked too much though, I think I bore her : (
>>27041288
>77 friends
Fuck off normie
Since I got muted, I'm guessing you post often
>>27039306
>tfw you will never get married to a man who loves you
>tfw he will never lovingly pet you
>tfw he will never introduce you to his parents
>tfw you will never be able to have his children
>>27041396
Why not?
You could adopt :3
>>27041396
That last one hurts more than anything else
I don't understand why I'm alone, /r9k/, I'm friendly around normies; trade inane pleasantries, and listen to their problems, but none of them ever want to be around me even a little.
I'm not a sperg, as per my therapist, and I love nothing more than being around people.
What am I doing wrong?
free bf for qt transgrill
reply with contact
>you will never be neurotypical
>you will never know what it feels like to not want to die every day
>you will never go to sleep without curling up under the covers and crying
>you will never be able to function without six different psych meds every day
>you will never stop experiencing hallucinations in the middle of the night
>you will never be saved by a qt misaki gf
>you will never be able to go out in public and interact with people without risking a panic attack
>you will never be able to take your dream vacation to Japan because of fear of people and flying
>you will never be able to go outside without experiencing severe anxiety
Just kill me senapi, put me out of my misery.
>>27041405
Just wish I could genetically have a child with mine and his dna
I do wanna adopt tho at some point or maybe get a surogate mother so at least bf's genetic line continues
>>27041283
> Submissive little bitches
> Laughably unimportant
> Not nearly as athletic or determined as (other) men
This is basically most robots, and nobody wants to be around us in any way, especially sexually.
Robots are basically just women without the societal value.
>>27041418
maybe too much?
it can be kinda creepy if you are too friendly, ie. i had some guy tell me he would be very upset and sad if i an heroed and that he really liked me, all in the same day he contacted me
>>27041476
And you thinking being a girl will change your life for the better in ANY way?
>>27041474
At least you can be a nice mommy to a qt disadvantaged babby and show the orphan the love his biological parents didn't :3
>>27041484
I don't generally contact people first or pry, and I don't bring up things which aren't conversationally appropriate like sex or love or depression.
Nobody wants to initiate conversations with me. I think they can see through my guise somehow.
>>27041495
no but being yourself helps tremendously desu
>>27041513
i can be you're friend on steam
>>27039306
>depressions and social anxiety
>every time I form a relationship I get too scared and stop talking to anyone
>psychiatrist gave up on me in therapy
>meds aren't working
>failing university
>docs want to send me to a mental hospital
Just kill me
>>27041345
no. i dont even talk to any of my friends on steam, im probably going to delete about all of them.
i need real friends
>>27041356
im not a normie. i reall dont have any friendss
>>27041549I don't play video gamesdesu
>>27041513
sucks man, i generally dont contact people first either, im afraid even if its someone ive known for years.
i think you sound like a nice person fwiw
>>27041564
I can be your real friend. Well not real real but real enough.
>>27039306
>tfw you're fucking crazy
>>27041595
what kind of crazy are you?
>>27041629
That depends on who you ask. Any family members of mine would say I'm a developing schizophrenic, which is likely the most accurate assumption. The doctors I've had have all been shitty and said things like bipolar and such. If you asked me? I'm fucking peachy and everyone else is insane.
>>27041589
okay. are you the schizo? feel free to add me
Comics> Manga
>tfw youll never have a cutie bf to cuddle and care for
why live
>>27040672
oh look it's me
hello me
how are you?
I'm ok how are you?
Sad because /r9k/ is bullying meeeeeeee
desu I wish I wasn't an fag
>>27040535
that was a while ago to be fair. Like, a year ago. Estrogen has changed a lot since then
>>27041762
Silver Age > Golden Age
>>27041793
Your January profile picture was way cuter, you should of kept it
>>27041704
I am the Schizo. My name on Steam is Meow.
>>27041793
when did you get on E?
>>27041844
well I'm self-medicating, so I've been on it since like Jan 2014 - I ran out like twice though because poor student
>>27041821
it's not as good a likeness as the new one though honestly
>>27041879
I guess that's fair your hair is really nice though, I wish mine was like that, but you should probably try to get it trimmed into more of a style (and so should I)
Mental illness isn't real.
It's all in your head.
Your chemical imbalance doesn't actually exist.
SSRIs are sugar pills.
God you folks are so pathetic.
Can't believe you fell for such a shit meme like psychology.
>>27041823
add me pls
ill accept the invite once i get my computer fixed. im not able to access it now
>>27041879
really? it looks like it didnt really start kicking in before sometime in the first half of last year
>>27041932
When will your computer be fixed? Will you even remember me when it gets fixed?
>>27041938
wait I fucked up
it's jan 2015 when I started
>>27041953
wow we really did start at the exact same time
>>27041953
thank god, i was afraid for a moment that id need to go that long with no results
>>27039487
Never considered myself mentally ill like this, but it still kind of hurts
>>27041999
it's pretty fast. Just make sure your parents don't force you to get your hair cut. That *really* delays passing for a while
>>27041988
nice
>>27041950
Yes I will. Uh hopefully this week, i called the guy thats supposed to do it and left a message.. i may have to buy new parts, i have no idea what happend to it
>>27042040
>tfw cut my hair a few months ago when it was down to the the just above the mid of my back in an episode of denial
regretting it so much... fuck denial
i still dont think my parent fully understand what it all means in the long terms, just "you can get it treated with hormones"
>>27042040
by the way did you ever end up going to that support group?
>>27042115
w-which support group?
>>27042091
So what happened exactly? Just it doesn't boot? If I lived near you I could help but I don't live in Nevada anymore so no road trip to Arizona to help a random anon with his computer woes.
>>27042124
the one you got a flyer for? in the post
>>27042124
oh btw, what is "pretty fast"?
>>27042201
I got ze bewbz within weeks to months
>>27042149
My computer light works, it turns on, but the screen doesnt work... it was having trouble with screen freezing and the ethernet stopped working. now it wont even boot
>>27042223
i like the prospect of that, any special meds or just the regular E + spiro/cypro?
>>27042265
Just E+spiro
Pic related
>>27042287
dont tell me you are in programming as well?
also thigh highs > knee socks
>>27042241
Well rip computer. Not much I can do to help. Let's hope the repairs aren't too expensive. So when were you diagnosed with schizophrenia?
>>27042241
reseat ram and graphics card, clean entire pc then try boot
>tfw love isn't for someone like you
>>27042318
we /compsci/ student :^)
>>27041926
G-GOY W-WHAT ARE ON ABOUT
>>27042322
3 years ago at 17
>>27042341
hmm might try
>>27042347
damn, how come there are so many of us in this field?
/softwareengineer/ student here
>>27042397
because autism implies likely compsci
also autism implies (more) likely trans
>>27042423
isn't that only in ftms
>>27042440
I don't know, I haven't done the research to argue the point, but I think I remember reading somewhere that trans people had a higher rate of autism in general
>>27042423
>tfw got a likely diagnosis of Asperger at like 11yo
idk what to believe anymore, im still calls bs on that diagnosis as it was right in the middle of a traumatic childhood
>>27042468
I dunno who cares really? I think it's just because a lot of trans people spend too much time on computers
>you will never be the Misaki for a robot Satou bf
>>27042521
I'm a satou, do you want to be my misaki?
>>27042521
p-please be my misaki?
I started recording and collecting sound clips to simulate there being voices in my head.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KYHVbLLO2bU&t=127
I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I've been wanting to kill myself every single day for the past two months.
>>27042540
>>27042554
I can only Misaki one boy
Which one of you is more depressed?
And you don't mind if I have a feminine penis do you?
>>27042656
tranny dick
>>27042656
>Which one of you is more depressed?
I'll be killing myself in ~5 months if nothing gets better.
>And you don't mind if I have a feminine penis do you?
Nope.
>>27042656
No because I have one too, and it makes me pretty depressed
>>27042656
who am i kidding, ill never have a misaki, im doomed to rot on girl pills until i off myself
>tfw your mood wont stop changig
>tfw you wont stop being a paranoid mess and ruin relationships because of that
>tfw you will never stop thinking that someone is fucking with you and lies to your face
>tfw you will never stop clinging onto one person who then disappoints you and shatters your life
>tfw you will never just feel normal
>>27042799
you literally had three people tell you they could be your Misaki
>>27043009
but anon, im afraid
>>27039306
Just transition if youre having these feels. They don't go away, trust me
>>27043142
Transitioning when you have no chance of passing isn't a good idea.
>>27043212
Guess I'll ask that famous question.. How bad can it be? Post pics
>>27043212
Transitioning always helps, also who knows hrt is literal magic
>>27043233
this makes me afraid to begin on pills, even though my friends tell me ill end up cute, i cant help but be afraid they are just being nice
http://imgur.com/a/0VDGq
>>27043233
>How bad can it be
Really bad. I'm too old now anyways.
>>27043269
It doesn't always help. In my case it would make me look like even more of an abomination.
>>27043300
There's a trip over on /lgbt/ who started at 30 after leaving the military and is stunning. Yes, the odds go down the older you are, but you'd be surprised
>>27043280
Nice bon selection, but I can't tell you if you'd be cute without an actual pic
Equipping random trip for reasons
>>27043280
All those people look like they started after 30 and their makeup/clothes are horrible, I really don't understand hons but they must have much worse mental health then us
>>27043300
Never know unless you try, could always take the pills and do it in your spare time then if you pass go full time, also after 18 age doesn't really matter until you're past 30, genetics are much more important
>>27040003
Please be my misaki
I need anyone I can get at this point
>>27043379
>>27043384
I almost think it's bad for you to encourage people to do it. It makes me want to try it, but deep in my heart I know it would turn out awful and prompt my suicide.
>>27039306
>decide that it's better to be straight
>now a pale male with bitch lips and thick fatty legs
>also you're a tripfag
mass extinction event when
>>27043440
Why do you think itd end that way? Also it's better to try than to try to repress it away, I figured I had a 50/50 shot at best at passing and I was passing close to 100% at 6 months in andro mode, you'd be shocked how well hormones work
>>27043379
got it off mtfg some time ago
also if you wanna give me your opinion, this is me a few days ago
http://imgur.com/4jC9AEP
>>27043384
idk some maybe, others maybe not
>>27043540
Your face is a touch long but I could see you passing
>tfw you just want to be a woman for halo effect
>tfw people see the worst in guys just for being different
>>27043539
It's nice that it worked out for you, but I'm already a definitively ugly male. I have too many flaws that would never let me pass.
>too tall, broad shoulders, fucked up face with blemishes, big nose and forehead and starting to bald
I would be an abomination.
>>27043591
yea i know, ive been looking at options to make the mid and lower face a bit shorter, it seems like a form of orthognathic jaw surgery is just the thing i need. now its just a matter of getting the money for it and waiting for the hormones to do their thing.
also as long as you arent honboxing me i really appreciate it
>>27043679
I'm always honest about stuff, nothing's gained by hugboxing
>>27043652
Pics or gtfo
>>27043440
you never know anon, ultimately if you have gender dysphoria I don't think you have much of a choice, better to do it early and have the best chance at life
>>27043540
Hi Lynn I hope you're doing ok \(^_^)/ also you're not really that old
>>27043539
I'm super happy for you, I hope I can make it one day but even if I do I'll probably be too insecure to know it
>>27042599
I watch movies, listen to music and game podcasts, to ease my loneliness.
Life is brutal sempai. Our minds drive us crazy. Hope you feel better.
>>27043539
p-pics?
>>27043772
heyo friend who i cant guess
>>27043772
Don't worry, I'm still insecure as fuck some days, just comes with the territory, it slowly gets better though
>>27043770
>Pics or gtfo
I'm not going to post pics and be humiliated so I'll get out.
>>27043772
The choice is to either be the gender I'm uncomfortable with or become a monster. Neither are good. I'll probably kill myself within the next year or so anyways.
>>27039306
what the fuck is this? tumblr? get the fuck out degenerates
>>27043838
Promised myself to never post pics on 4chan out of fear of ending up on a fap roulette (mainly on this board)
>>27043871
Fine, just don't beat yourself up so much, hormones can work some serious magic
>>27043838
it's Lexie I feel like a stalker with two of my friends coincidentally posting in the thread :p
>>27043871
I really hope you find your way anon, acceptance is usually the hardest part but things do get better, also you're not going to be humiliated on an anonymous image board
>>27043909
I keep going back and forth on whether I'm happy about being left out of that thing but some of the trips got a lot of harassment from that : (
ok here I go:
>have power issues: manipulate everyone to revolve around you and run errands for you
>have respect, a forced but steady one
>have multiple friends that you have attained through high-end social engineering and they have no idea
>set up arguments to simply watch the world burn, and nobody knows
>take control of everything, master of puppets
>go home
>browse all sorts of /d/eviant stuff that you have been an expert on for over 10 years
>tg/trap/fdom(and countless others) are your things
>you learned how to satisfy yourself from almost any kind of /d/ stuff (besides farting duh)
>have no gf, girls push you off because they are stupid and useless
>have no bf because it's gay and that's inconsistent with your social engineering thus far
>you actually wanted to be useless & submissive to fulfil your sexual desires
>do drugs, medicine and therapy the same moment
>fuck the medicine it doesn't work(3 pills)
>don't show up next meeting, stick to drugs
>fall into pieces, dream of suicide for years
>shatter your personality into multiple pieces that you call modules
>become "omnisexual", I can go with anything like pans do + most of /d/ fantasies
>watch anime with male leading character: you want to be him and fuck a girl or boy, you want to be him and get fucked by a girl or boy/trap, you want to be a girl or boy and get fucked by him, you want to be his bf and fuck and get fucked, you want to have a relationship revolving around both romance and sexual domination
>it isn't a double life anymore, something like unlimited console instances open
>keep track of what you have been doing on all instances, and terminate those which don't satisfy or keep you interested anymore by breaking any contact with all involved people
>idk anymore wtf is happening
generally be a winner and looser the same time ask me anything I guess?
>>27043909
thanks for being honest, and i understand if you pass as well as you claim, i can only hope to get to that level
>>27043953
i had a feeling it was you ^^
>>27043890
>4chan
>not full of degenerates
>>27043953
Trust me, it's a good thing. Also you probably just got left out because whoever made it didn't notice your or something, Kayla was on it so yeah... Not like it's just for the more attractive ones (probably the bitchiest thing I say all day)
>>27040018
Hey you. I understand this but noone gets it the few times ive tried to explain. I dont normally speak what Im thinking most times but I'm terrified of it.
>>27044035
That's true I'm pretty forgettable anyway which is probably the only reason I care
>>27044035
did you have a hon-off on mtfg again?
that place scares me a bit, it seems like high school all over and the new kids need to figure out which group that will accept them, also tfw so much in-talk id feel like that odd one invited to a party just because
>>27044292I
I doubt you're forgettable :c
>>27044323
I don't really even go to mtfg anymore. A few if the not crazy ones (well, minus the required crazy to be trans) made a Skype group so I haven't been go the thread in ages
>>27044390
ah thats p nifty, i dont assume you are open to new kids? i can only imagine its a nicer place than mtfg
>>27044456
I doubt I can really post anything on this thread without it coming back to me. Just go to mtfg and talk with some of the nicer trips, chances are good they're in the group, they can get you in
>>27044491
hm, i see, well i have only been lurking there a few times, but ill look around
>>27041125
incoming story about how autistic I was/am, I've gotten better with mandatory therapy but I just can't socialize properly
Actually this hurts too bad, just thinking about the fact I'll never have her in my life and how she'll never open up to me anymore.
fuck.
>>27042656
New to the thread.
I'm depressed to the point I tried to kill myself and was going through with it but someone white knighted and called the cops after finding me passed out with an exit bag set up in my car. I was lucky to have survived apparently, they had to rapidly oxygenate my brain.
Trying to be a temporary wage slave, going back to Uni but not sure what I'll study, learning music theory on the side to be a Cellist.
>>27044491
You don't happen to know Jenna or Erin do you? I know they left a while back when a lot of people did I just wonder if they're doing ok
>>27044594
>tfw we are forever broken
>>27044710
I don't know them personally, but they could be in the group under a different name, so that may be why
>>27043784
>Life is brutal sempai. Our minds drive us crazy. Hope you feel better.
y-you too
but I actually want to be dead. It's just the process of dying that has me worried.
And what comes next? It could be a worse experience than the one I'm having here for all I know. Maybe we're not prepared for it yet, but I want to be dead.
My life is so boring that I'm seriously wondering what I'd do if something normally mundane happened.
Like if I was driving and a cop decided to pull me over. I could just keep going like he's not there, pretend like it's a movie. I'd go to prison for it, but it would be fun while it lasted.
Probably a good thing I can't drive then.
I just can't think of anything that will stop the boredom aside from doing weird shit like that.
>>27044785
take acid and watch trippy shit on youtube, idk
>tfw narcissism
>tfw superiority complex
>tfw paranoid schizophrenia
>tfw depression
Life is suffering.
Recently got a job though, starting tomorrow.
I have a theory of social interaction fluency as a spectrum between total inward focus (autism) and overly outward focus (schizophrenia).
I used to be ego-driven and self absorbed, awkward socially to the point where people asked me if i had assbergers. But nowadays, since I became "schizophrenic" I am capable of empathy towards everyone but I still lack the social skills and have trouble speaking and understanding sometimes.
Do any of you schizos smoke weed and it makes you feel enlightened and like you are more vivid ?
>tfw your waifu will never be real
>>27044857
I'm schizo. But weed only makes the paranoia worse. Now i'm using morphine when i'm bored or lonely.
>>27044889
Don't do this to me anon. Don't.
>>27044889
i think you got the wrong pic there friend, its okay though ill fix it for you
>>27044889
>>27044920
The waifu age will come. It is well within the infinite multiplicities. Try not to lose hope.
Just become a trap and whore yourself to cover the cost of the needed treatment/surgery.
>>27044906
Yeah me too, same, opis bring me happieness but i used to be on the H train to nowhere.
Weed makes me feel like all the "words under words" are true, and a vital part of interaction. Saying you're schizo is cowardice. Psychosis is where you can't mentally deal with the world as your brain interprets it so you develop really strange coping mechanisms (i stopped talking). Schizophrenia outside of psychosis is a myth where you are too guilty to function, and your bad attitude pisses people off (also we live in a world of seeming cruelty and disingenuous liers).
Telepathy is totally a real phenomena I deal with is all the time. We wuz shamans n shiet
>>27044990
>SWAT teams consist of men
0/10 very factually inaccurate story, in reality women would be chained up and used as incubators.
>>27045068
robo-SWAT, clearly.
>>27044990
>the look on her face in the bottom picture
fuck you
>>27039306
I wake up multiple times at night in pain and nausea. Then I sit in stomach pain all day. Its starting to make me lose my mind. I cry a lot. I wish it would stop. I wish my family loved me enough so I could be myself. But they don't. I'm trying to get disability. I realized the other day I've been waiting seven years to get better so I can go back to work and it still hasn't happened. So I'm giving up. I don't have insurance because I'm an American. So I can't get any help. Hopefully they approveme and I can see a doctor at least. I'm just praying its not my organs failing from hrt. I guess if im dying I at least I got to be a little pretty before I died. I don't think Ill tell my parents even if I am dying. I don't want them to think they failed me even if they did. I don't want anyone else to suffer.
>You will never be a cute twink
>You will eventually grow old without ever being the little spoon
>You will never be a time traveling wizard
A thing mental patients all have in common is too little love :(
>all these gays and MTFs wanting codependent relationships with mentally ill guys
Shut up. My personality is bad and if I don't try to change I probably won't be loved by anyone other than my mom.
