>have to pretend I am being held by a loving mother to fall asleep
>each night it becomes harder and harder to imagine
>each night my bed becomes emptier
>each night I am less loved
>>26898617
Sprites make for such a great aesthetic. Wouldn't you agree?
>>26898617
And then the only thing that takes the pain away is heroin. It's a dark, dark hole into which you descend.
>>26898667
I do, when done right. For a while they have been over done in video games. I love hi fidelity sprite-art like in that picture, though.
>>26898698
I have no access to heroin, but I am genetically predisposed to addiction. If I did it one or two times, I'd be hooked, and it would destroy me. I can never even try heroin. I know it would ruin my life.
>>26898698
Heroin is just fucking great, isn't it? I really need more. At least I'll be getting a couple roxies, some meth, and hopefully some benzo's soon.
I don't suppose anyone here has ever robbed a pharmacy before?
>>26898698
Does heroin fill the hole of
>tfw no mom
?
>>26898617
you are definitely not the only one who feels this anon
>>26898773
Heroin is the cure for existence.
>>26898781
It's too bad other people know this pain as well, but it is nice there are others who I can have some solidarity with.
>>26898801
I'm tempted to order some of the deep web some day. That way I wouldn't allow myself to keep ordering it, because of the risk involved, but I could at least it experience it a few times.
I know it would ruin me if I did it more than a few times.
>>26898617
I hate my mother. I just imagine an imaginary loving gf instead.
>>26898804
believe it or not, there are women who will indulge their boyfriend/husband's desire for motherly love. they're hard to find but they exist.
>>26898822
You're an idiot. You will keep ordering it. You won't just do it a few times. That's not how it works.
>>26898721
I'm a drunk and I've done heroin a few times with no issue, you're a fag and your shit's all retarded
>>26898830
I'm sorry to hear that anon, I hope that works for you though.
>>26898844
I know, and it's very rare. Even if I found that, I wouldn't want it. Romantic relationships don't seem right to me. Too much give and take, based on attraction, it's just not pure. It's not pure in the same way a mother should love her child. It's not unconditional. If I can't fool myself when I'm alone, I couldn't fool myself with someone else there trying to keep up the charade too.
>>26898853
You're probably right. I doubt I'll ever do it. It would fuck me up, I know it would.
>>26898883
I don't know man. My dad has a history of drug abuse, and he's never been an addict. On the otherside though, my mom who I grew up without is a near-lifelong alcoholic. Either way, it's not worth the risk. I am afraid to drink even.
>>26898922
You are such a pussy, no wonder you're here
>>26898922
If you know it would fuck you up, you're right. It's a self fulfilling prophecy. Only do it if you're ready for everything it entails.
>>26898946
I'm not a pussy, faggot, I'm just indecisive about whether or not I would ever do heroin. No wonder you're here with such an abrasive personality.
>>26898949
That's a good point. Thank you for your advice friend.
>>26898885
I feel you anon, but I can tell you that it's much easier to fake it when you're in the arms of a real woman than when you're by yourself. true, there is no such thing as pure unconditional love outside of the love parents feel for their offspring, but it's a hell of a lot easier to imagine with a woman who actually does love you on some level than by yourself or with a cuddler prostitute.
How would you know what that feels like
>>26899011
;)
oraginal
>>26899001
It just wouldn't work for me anon. I can't. At least when I'm by myself, I can talk to myself and pretend I have that pure love. If there's a woman there I would just know she's trying to deceive me/convince me it's real, but it's not. I appreciate the input, but it isn't for me.
>>26899011
I don't, that's why I imagine familia.
grow up nerd
>>26899061
Kek, made me laugh anon. I'm fine in every other aspect, just have this stupid desire.
>>26899059
maybe try to slowly morph your desire for pure motherly love into a desire for a more nuanced, more mature romantic love. If your brain got to the point where it developed this desire, you fan get it to the point where the desire evolves. See a therapist or something to make that work. because at this point, you're setting yourself up for a life of misery.
think about this: would your imaginary mother want you to always be miserable?
>tfw on the verge of being unable to jerk off anymore because of loneliness
>>26899158
I see a therapist already, but I don't think she really knows about this.
I wouldn't call it a life of misery, a life of solitude maybe, but not misery. I am happy to be alone really, sparing at night when I head to bed and can't sleep. I am not completely turned off of romantic relationships- if I ever find a pretty pure love, a wonderful woman, I would be interested in dating her, but really only because I would like kids some day. I don't know. I've got bit of an issue there I suppose, I want kids but not really a gf.
>>26899239
ask your therapist if she does cbt. this is some "re-train your brain" type stuff (stuff that is totally relatable, btw).
>>26899310
We are already working on anxiety with CBT, I suppose I could bring up my mother and my issues with romantic relationships. Have a session tomorrow, I will make sure to mention it. Thank you kind anon.
>>26899177
iktf
>tfw amateur porn is less relatable than studio produced anal bdsm
>>26899339
np bro, hope you find happiness and contentment in lyfe
You're a good guy OP. Wish I knew how to help. If nothing else, maybe we can have nice dreams. Dreams where we feel loved. Sweet dreams OP.
>>26899496
Thanks friendo
>>26900167
I was just checking this thread before I go to bed, and I saw your post. Thank you very much anon. I am touched honestly, I really do appreciate that kindness.
Sweet dreams to you too friend. In them, things can be alright.
>>26900250
Goodnight anon. I wish you had someone to hug there with you too.
