When did post-depression start?
When did you become numb?
>>26869682
When I entered university and realised it doesn't get better because more liberal admission standards means normies have taken higher education over.
When I saw others being treated for minor things and I realized I was beyond help and should have died a long time ago.
>>26869728
>this will be a group assignment
i might not finish because of this
>>26869682
Not yet.
Almost 30 and cry like a lil bitch.
However, I sometimes transition directly from crying into laughing when I think how absurd and pathetic my life is.
Looks like I might be headed for psychosis instead of numbness.
When I graduated high school and became a NEET.
Drowning in escapist media all day numbed me out. In high school I had hopes that my eventual graduation would help, but in the end it was just another pit to fall into. I've been a NEET for years now and every day is just a little bitty bit worse than the last.
It isn't going to get any better. Getting the low-level job that I'm qualified for would give me something to do, but not enough money to even rival my neetbux. And working for the Jews sounds like a fate worse than death.
I know I should be moving on in life. I know I should try to make progress towards something. But I just don't care.
Reality hit me, and hit me hard.
>>26869882
Welcome to the manic depressive train.
I don't even want a gf, I just want off this ride.
>>26869682
I took a year out before studying mathematics to read literature 14 hours a day.
It was one of those days when I set up a study out in the freezing garage just to avoid having to see or hear anyone in the house.
Then I realized that all my problems came from being around horrible people. Moreover, I realized I just wanted to be left alone. No gf, no nuffin
The funny thing is, now that my life is just literature and showing up to college, I'm fairly happy.
The truth is brutal at first, but some of us are made for other things than drinking on the weekends and trying to get some whore to take her knickers off
>>26870144
This is true, throwing yourself at the feet of others is always a foolish thing to do. This is why many men are withdrawing now to escapism, one because of unfixable external problems, the other being that relationships are hyped up, a waste of time, and all this existence means nothing. Might as well pursue learning and enjoyment in this moment instead of pursuing a false perception of what a relationship is.
>>26870196
It's an odd thing. It breaks my heart when I see guys like Rodge get so crazy over getting some pussy.
I remember I wasted most of my teenage years texting girls, hanging out with them, etc just to make out. But I was ugly so I never got anything out of it. Except when I got into the emo trend and styled my hair like a faggot. Then I had mad pussy for about a year.
Then I wanted to stop looking like a faggot and every single female slowly stopped showing any enthusiasm until there was none.
That was an eye opener.
>>26870144
>>26870196
>>26870326
Somebody screencap this shit. Perfect response to the "jus b yourself" maymay
>>26869728
This pretty much desuoriginal
>>26870326
Were they scene girls too? It's so weird that women find that attractive. It's like they're not into strong, masculine types anymore.
>>26869682
When you're conflicted between either coinciding with social norms or becoming a nihilistic fuckwad but instead just go along with the ebbs and flows of existence in a Taoist sort of way.
True post-depression is not giving a fuck about giving a fuck about not giving a fuck, if you catch my drift. So in a way it's a stagnant lifestyle and a fine tailored NEET philosophy.
Had a really bad stint of anxiety/depression before I lost my job. Ever since I just feel numb and I don't really care about anything.
>>26870390
Yep, super hot girls that knew acquaintances were sending me nudes all of a sudden and there was this one girl who was texting me about sucking me off until I came blood, she used to write these long text messages detailing what she would do and when I finally met her (first time ever meeting her) she brought weed to get her in the mood. I came like 12 times (I was 15 I think), it was in a field outside a town.
I'm hideous by the way, I had one good year and that was it, I'm 22 now and have not talked to a female outside of necessity.
>>26869682
I've always been like this.
It was pretty confusing for a while, but eventually people starting talking to me about their feelings and I understood the difference between us.
Numb doesn't quite describe it, not really.
It's just so much pain, like walking around with barbed wire coiled around the lungs, lead weights along the bones.
It would be swell if something were to happen to me. Cancer, or a random explosion, or some robbery gone wrong. One of those accidental deaths that always seem to happen to other people.
Although sometimes I do wonder, is it so wrong to be selfish for once, and kill myself?
When my girlfriend broke up with me and started dating a dirty mexican guy (I'm a femanon)
>>26869682
i used to have a good social life and had depression, constantly worrying if things would pop off the deep end.
then they did. all i took was one attention seeking stacy.
things are so much worse that i could have imagined i can't feel anything.
>>26870653
>(i'm a femanon)
please
>>26870682
I like it, it's funnier this way.
"I bad relationship'd that girl straight"
since when did /r9k/ turn into /depression/ ??
literally this board is all depression popsts.
>>26870721
>pepes
>MRA shit
>gamergate
>depression
Oh, don't mind me, I'm just typing random words.
Surely, there's no connection.
>>26870661
Story?
>original familia
Fuck off and seek help faggot.
About 2 years of isolation and introspection. I can now socialise, but only on an ironic level.
>>26870924
Fucking identical to me, somehow I think I've figured out how to "b urself" by being sarcastic about how horrifying life is, having true friends is pure luck decided long ago.
>>26870959
You both sound like idiots or 16 year olds
>>26871075
You're a smug tub of guts, aren't you?
>>26871075
And ironically you've probably never left your house, post-depression unlocks the humor trait.
>>26869682
I've been depressed since birth. I took Prozac for a while but I stopped that because I wanted to go military. The Drugs helped but they numbed me from ever feeling bad. I like myself better without them but they do help. Now I feel either numbness or anger. Every once in a while I will have to spend a day holding back tears, I don't think it'll ever get better because the reason for this is a fucked up balance of chemicals in my head. I just wish I could feel something good for people. I just don't care and spend all day playing video games. I want to go to college but I am too lazy to do the bare minimum for getting into it.
>inb4 underaged b&
I am 18 and a senior in high school. I need a place to vent but therapy has never helped.
>>26870959
I tell people how absolutely terrible everything is too, but only if they specifically ask how I'm feeling.
Everyone thinks it's a joke.
Today, of the bar regulars asked me why I always say that, so I told him. I don't think he believed me.
Heh, will they be all surprised when they find out I killed myself.
>>26871306
I hope I do kill myself and my friends might not like it but I don't want to live pass 30. I can barely take this life enough as it is without medical problems and midlife crises surfacing.
>You will never hang out with Mr. Daggers
Why live?
