>haven't done school work for over a week
>probably won't even finish my term paper
>people tell me to go on, but I see no point
>don't even know what I want to major in
>life has no direction
>spend my time shitposting, reading, writing, and going for walks
All I desire is to be comfy, I wouldn't mind working to achieve the means to be comfy, but work I'm qualified for makes pennies.
>>26681042
You're like 18, right? You sound like an 18 year old.
>>26681095
nope, 21.
get at me
>>26681042
life is literally a competition for social status, so you can command more resources and get more pussy. everything is designed around this. i tried to tell people in a thread a minute ago, but they got mad. getting a degree? social status. getting money? social status. the thing to realize is there are other ways to obtain this, which aren't as shit. drug dealers know this, hence why they just sell drugs, roll with their clique and get pussy (and go to jail)
not doing work for a week isn't shit either. iv dropped out of life (the status game) for the last few years, looking for something more, or what its all about. this is the conclusion i have come to.
>quit playing guitar and piano a long ass time ago
>quit every extracurricular activity
>dropped out of high school
>quit my job
>quit eating
>stop talking to my friends, vice versa
>dropped out of community cowwege
>all i do is drink wine and listen to david tibet and douggie P sing about how shit everything is every waking minute of my redundant life
>can actually feel myself becoming more schizophrenic by the day
>>26681042
>Missed an exam due to anxiety, could possibly get a re-sit but I'm not sure I should even bother
>probably going to dropout of uni
ive lost my will to do everything. all i do is stare at my screen and continuously refresh the catalog. i'm so behind on school work. so much of it is due in this week if i don't do something i will fail. i've stopped going to classes and i don't leave my room for days at a time. ive been eating nothing but peanut butter with a spoon because that's all i have in my room and i feel like some grotesque being in front of others, but i've been going 24 hours at a time without eating. i'm losing weight. the isolation is getting to me i feel like i'm starting to lose my head. i just want to die
>>26683134
This happened to me last week, I just said fuck it and didn't bother to get a retake.
>>26682349
Have you found anything else?
>NEET for 3 years after getting a tech degree (I find it boring)
>always finding new shit I might want to learn only to get demotivated after one hour and fuck it
>friends get good jobs and families so avoid them
>just posting and playing some vidya all day
>wondering why I dont just kill myself all the time
I see most people in this thread seem to have the same problem of loosing interest and doing nothing with their life, is there a confirmed solution to this? I mean sure you could get a job and become a wagecuck but the don't seem to be doing any better.
>>26684449
>is there a confirmed solution to this
Outside world war 3 or some other massive cause or disaster, not really.
>I mean sure you could get a job and become a wagecuck but the don't seem to be doing any better.
I want to do this, but even if I wagecucked I'd still be living at my parents house, a minimum wage cuck job doesn't pay enough for me to live an enjoyable existence.
>>26684449
>is there a confirmed solution to this?
just find your passion anon
>>26682349
>life is literally a competition for social status, so you can command more resources and get more pussy. everything is designed around this. i tried to tell people in a thread a minute ago, but they got mad. getting a degree? social status. getting money? social status.
I used to think this but when you get older and start working full-time for a couple years you discover the truth (which isn't really any more comforting.)
The truth is life is fucking hard, and the vast, vast majority of people aren't competing for status, they're merely trying to get by.
People get degrees so they can have marginally more comfortable jobs, so they don't destroy their bodies doing physical labor, or go insane from doing the most mind-numbing, menial work, for pay that doesn't provide for anything.
The truth is that affording what we consider the "bare essentials" in America is fucking difficult, and that's why we have huge swaths of the population on welfare of some form. Even a small house is very expensive. Renting an apartment is expensive. Healthcare is expensive. Maintaining and insuring an automobile (that you need to get to work) is expensive. These aren't luxury goods, they are what you need to stay alive and maintain any sort of comfort.
And I'll say this to the people still in school. Stop fucking around. I'm not going to say your life is easy right now, but I pretty much guarantee it will be more difficult after graduation, and even more so if you do not graduate at all. I'm not telling you fluffy bullshit like "follow your dreams," I'm telling you that if you don't make a plan, and execute the plan, life will kick you in your ass, hard. Even in wealthy first world countries, there are guys out there laying cement at 5 AM in freezing cold weather for shit pay.
Itll get better i was the same stopped school and now i work forty a week im suicidal
>>26682875
Exactly me, talking to myself has become normal
>>26684934
Poverty does not exist in the West unless you try to consistently make shitty decisions. America is basically founded on coddling the weak and liberal and pussy as fuck. I hate it but what can I do? They steal my money by force and even torture me if I don't subsidize the lives of the worthless and subhuman.
>>26684934
This scares the shit out of me. But I know I'm not going to change. My family is wealthy and I've been spoiled my entire life. Never learned how to work hard because I never had to. Now I'm in college and I'm a fucking English major, which everyone knows is for lazy fucks who don't want to apply themselves. I'm probably going to live with my parents for the rest of my life. Never going to get a good job. Never going to get married. Will probably die by suicide.
>>26684133
Do you regret it?, anon?
>>26685671
Not really, which is more concerning. I have just begun to feel nothing about my studies. I have no direction so they feel pointless.
>>26685726
Feels the same with me and it feels like if I get it extended I'll just fail anyway
>>26685869
Precisely. Meanwhile my parents keep telling me "just keep working, you're almost through!".
Then what? It's not like if I get this worthless associates I'll be any better off to go to university than I am now. If anything I should just be wagecucking to aquire some sort of financial backing.
>>26681042
>stop hobbies
>sleep more
>lose all friends
>drop out of uni
>get diagnosed with disorder
>go to work counting down until I get to go home
>just play video games, shitpost, and sleep
>instead of feeling depressed just don't feel anything at all
>>26681042
I started being like that around 14-16.
Almost 10 years later and i'm still the same, but i haven't found anything more to life.
Depressed as fuck.
>>26685974
What disorder anon?
Originality just in case
>>26686123
Aspergers syndrome.
orignalpostyouknow
>>26685927
What are you studying?
>halfway through a bachelors in accounting
>considering switching to IT / CS, learning a trade or dropping out
>been trying to find a job as well but 50 applications submitted and only one call back
Know the feel OP, I am dyslectic, school dident give a shit and had to bruteforce my way through with bad grades inorder not to retake the class again just so I wont have to feel the pain allover again
>>26686488
something laughably useless, that's all I'll say because I'm honestly ashamed to tell people, even on a Sumerian card stacking forum.
>>26686249
I suspect I'm a light sperg, not sure though.
>>26686716
>I suspect I'm a light sperg, not sure though.
The doctor told me my behaviors and symptoms such as:
Not displaying emotion, lack of sympathy and empathy
Extreme Apathy for things outside my interests
Learning problems
Inability to read the emotions and social ques of others
Inability to connect with other people
And some other weird shit. If you can look at someone and can't tell whether they're serious or not you probably have Aspergers or Autism. It had led to my social anxiety, I stare right at people and I won't know what's going on.
They said my life won't change, but the problem with not knowing that you've been a legitimate sperg all this time, just makes you think about what if you got some counseling and were more aware of your actions instead of doing cringeworthy shit not giving a fuck and destroying your social life.
>>26685372
I won't argue that 3rd-world level poverty doesn't exist in America, but I'm not going to pretend everyone living here is having a great, or even a "good," life. As far as choices, some people fuck up once in a while, some people fuck up good and hard.
The point of my post wasn't to get into some kind of debate about the merits of capitalism and socialism, partially because the implementation of either system is entirely beyond our control as mere individuals.
>>26685560
>This scares the shit out of me. But I know I'm not going to change. My family is wealthy and I've been spoiled my entire life. Never learned how to work hard because I never had to.
I don't mean to scare the shit out of anyone, but I'm trying to put (much needed) sense in their heads.
When you slack now, you're setting yourself up for a world of hurt later. I'm not telling anyone they need to focus now so they can have some kind of great life on the immediate horizon. I'm telling you that adult life is fucking hard, even the "bare necessities" are fucking expensive, and if you don't prepare, you will wind up in a world of pain.
If you don't believe me, make a budget. Don't assume the best scenario, assume the likely scenario. Look at the median. The largest employers are Walmart, Yum! (KFC/Taco Bell/Pizza Hut), and McDonald's, in that order. Most Americans (almost two thirds) have no savings for an emergency. They are one disaster from being homeless. Forget retirement or savings.
You really need to work hard now to avoid the nightmare scenario later. And even when you work hard and play your cards right, you will probably have a difficult life, far more difficult than whatever you are experiencing in school now.
I'm a software developer, which is perhaps the field to be in right now, yet it's not at all atypical for people in my field to send out hundreds of resumes before being hired. The workday is grueling compared to academia. I'm telling you this to save you pain later.
>>26687124
You make me want to kill myself. Why can't I be just normal?
>>26687124
Seconding everything this anon is saying. I've been out of college a few years. I'm doing fine now as far as economic security but getting here was rough. Took me forever to find a career-oriented job and in the meantime I had to work long shifts in a warehouse to get by. Had to bike to work every day because I couldn't afford to buy a car. Ramen and veggie diet for years. Less than $400 in my account at any given time. And I wasn't living outside of my means either, all the shit you need to just scrape by is expensive and unless you can get a high pay rate you will struggle to afford it. Set yourself up for a better life while you're still in school because it doesn't get any easier and you might not have a safety net to fall into.
>>26686716
C'mon tell us, don't leave us hanging
