anyone feel like your depression is actually your enlightenment or something?
not wanting anything = loss of ego
seeing through delusion
less fear of death
..etc
no I just feel like shit and have no ambition.
I can't put into words how I feel
>>26669741
> no ambition
what if your old desires were based around the self, then you realized you/your life isn't shit, so now u gotta adapt instead of looking back to where you can't get back to
>>26669732
When I am the most depressed I am definitely the most creatively productive.
I write music and it seems cliche but when I'm in the dull, emotionless type of depression is when I start to thrive.
It comes to me so much easier. I cycle in and out of it every couple of months.
>>26669788
> When I am the most depressed I am definitely the most creatively productive
iktfb
there is that old meme that when you're sad you understand the lyrics
>>26669741
aptly put
keks had
original
>>26669788
You don't sound depressed at all. You're probably some edgy teenager.
>>26669868
I woke up at 2pm today and didn't get out of bed until 5pm. I'm on 3 different types of meds to keep me balanced. I'm just a boring fuck that can write some songs sometimes.
>>26669732
letting go of attachments
>cut myself off from family, 'friends', and society
my depression is there to call me a faggot for not figuring out how to break my attachment to myself
>>26669788
I enjoy your work, pal
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd9OhYroLN0
>>26670182
that was brutal
>>26669775
I'd rather happily live a lie happily than be constantly miserable by knowing how I truly am.
>>26670231
2bad the world and your mind dont give a fuck what youd "rather" do. these lame ass posts about "hurr id rather do x" are gay as fuck, you don't have a choice faggot, else why are you on r9k?
>>26670182
>mfw i actually listened to the lyrics for the first time
>mfw they actually sum up my struggles with self harm and depression pretty well
I dont that i have a depression which can only be corrected with meds. My depression is mix between unhapiness, nihilism and realism. It's something like - in the end nothing matters, nothing will matter after death.
>>26669732
NO GOY IF YOU CANNOT FIND HAPPINESS IN A MEANINGLESS MATEREALISTIC WORLD THAT HATES YOU BASED ON YOUR GENDER AND SKIN COLOR IT MEANS YOU ARE UNBALANCED
TAKE THESE PILLS
>tfw NEET but bored with anime and vidya
help request #2
>>26670524
drugs + walking in naturefashion
>>26669732
yes In a way I feel enlightened. Ever since my depression started I've been working on getting better. I have finally found the power.
The power to change
I AM GRAND WIZARD
Depression just robs us of all joy and wonder, which is what we all truly crave. The longing for death which depression brings on is really nothing but the side effect of the absence of all things good. None of us truly want to die, we just want life to be great, and the reason why we keep on going no matter how shit life might seem, is simply because we deep down feel it might just get better in time.
Death is weird. When we are happy we dread it, and when we are sad we welcome it with open arms.
Enlightenment is for people willing to dedicate the time they have to not only letting go, but accepting everything as is. Fuck that. Just be a nihilist who does his job. Survive. Detatch. And let your zombie self do everything it needs. Being a huge puss about everythung wont help. Nothing will.
>>26669732
I would not be the man I am today if I didn't spend a few years brutally depressed. Enlightened might not be the correct term, but if you ever overcome those demons, you really do have the world at your fingertips. Life is just your perception of reality, nothing more.
>>26671841
> if you overcome those demons, you have the world at your fingertips
> posting on r9k
Well yeah, studies show that depressed people have a more realistic view of the world.
Happiness is like some sort of normie filter
