why are you sad tonight robots?
>>26638609
Because every night is exactly the same
>>26638609
i went to the asian super market and bought $30 worth of candy and weeb snacks to send to a 15 year old girls so that she can be happy.
but then i just realized she's going to eat it all without even thinking of me and then shitting it all out.
why do i even try.
I nuked my only real interpersonal relationship in a probably irreparable fashion. Nothing is enjoyable, I'm tired all the time, sobriety is torturous, and I'm just generally sick of being alive.
I realize that there is nobody I can be friends with.
But I'm not sad. I'm happy
>>26638934
greentext?
originale commentete
>>26638609
Because I woke up this morning.
And probably it will be the same tomorrow.
I don't end myself because I am a coward too.
>>26638934
i feel this. hope you find something that makes u happy
>>26638609
No matter how hard I try I can't find meaning in anything.
I wish my ex would text me so much
i can smell her perfume on my clothes
>I want to play Majikoi
>it's so fun and has is filled with lovable characters
>friends and experiences I never got to have
>get thrown back to reality as soon as I stop playing
>it's just a game
>>26638993
things will get better, soon youll enjoy waking up
It's been 4 months and I haven't stopped loving her.
All this time I thought I'd feel better if I had an actual reason to be sad, so I'd have something to get over and maybe just maybe I'd be able to move on with my life
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The Tao that can be told is not the eternal Tao.
The name that can be named is not the eternal name.
The nameless is the beginning of heaven and earth.
The named is the mother of ten thousand things.
Ever desireless, one can see the mystery.
Ever desiring, one can see the manifestations.
These two spring from the same source but differ in name; this appears as darkness.
Darkness within darkness.
The gate to all mystery
>>26638609
Pedophiles exist
>>26639001
I already did. I think. But now I've chased her away.
>>26638990
I'm not going to greentext it in detail, but to put it briefly
>in some kind of online relationship
>things grow increasingly strained and distant
>drug use intensifies over time, falling in love with heroin
>decide to try to break up with the girl so that I can destroy myself in peace
>goes a lot worse than I expect it too, she takes it really fucking hard
>end up trying to salvage it
>too little too late
>admit drug use
>this pisses her off even more
>say I'm going to try not to do drugs and that I won't go off the deep end just because our relationship is effectively over
>going off the deep end because our relationship is effectively over
Debating suicide in a more pressingly serious way than I have in a very long time. I just want to go to sleep.
>>26639015
how do you spend your time?
>>26639085
I know that feel anon.
It's been 6 years and I haven't stopped loving her
>>26639077
I want you to know that it is been like this since 15 years ago.
I am now 30.
I went with psychiatrists, psychologists nothing works.
I am just hopeless as one can be.
>>26639107
Working, studying moonrunes, and vidjya
>>26639046
It's torture
I feel lonely as fuck, usually doesn't bother me but it does catch up to me in increments of a couple days till it passes
No friends, gf or close relationship with siblings/family, I can function fine socially, my social anxiety is just so bad I can't make any friends, and I can't be made a friend by someone else
I'm not sad. I can't feel anything at all!
I just want to feign happiness and joy somehow, but it's very very hard.
Dindus were making a ruckus at 7/11 so I couldn't get my snack on.
My back hurts a lot.
I'm a little stressed I think.
My father died recently while I was alone with him, and I checked his vital signs. Just can't stop seeing his dead face when I close my eyes. It was a whole year of seeing him suffer and then collapse. I had an accident too in that period, damaged some hand nerves. All while I was studying to something equivalent to a bar exam (I passed 3 days before my father died)
And the day of the funeral, someone broke into my house and stole a PC, and my father's cellphone.
Also I ran out of weed.
I won't rest though. I need to keep moving forward.
pretty much this.
I'm not sad just suicidal. There's a difference.
>>26638862
the feel is too real
ORIGINAL COMMENTARINO MI AMIGO
I'm slowly starting to lose interest in everything. I play vidyas just to pass the time rather than for entertainment, same thing with listening to music only I enjoy it slightly more. I picked a shitty college degree that I can't just change because I'm too far in.
I'll probably live a very lonely life because the girls I do rarely attract eventually figure out how boring I am and slowly stop talking to me and that fucks me up mentally. And I bawled my fucking eyes out for a good 5 minutes last night because I realized that I'll probably be alone for the rest of my life.
I'm not mad or anything, just kinda disappointed that I'll be missing out one of the most important aspects of life (to me at least).
You know what
Fuck it.
I am gonna go blow myself with my stationary gas tank right now.
Goodbye robots.
Finishing up after 5 years of university with 2 degrees, and no job in sight
There's a qt3.14, but she doesn't work until Wednesday so I can't go see her again.
My parents tell me that I will be successful, but it's so hard.
The world is beautiful, and I can see so little of it.
Have a nice night, robots. I love you all; you've been here for me since 2008.
Fuck, time goes fast.
>>26639366
don't do that please. just know that someone out there knows and hopes to see you post in this thread next morning
Because I'm a useless self destructive lazy coward and that's what I'll always be
i'm getting worse and when i get worse, i have violent urges... i don't want to go to prison.
>>26641645
Go punch trees or something.
You don't have to punch people.
I have to walk to work tomorrow hungover which is an hour walk, some girl at work took a secret selfie of me, I'm broke as shit and have no car or college at 23, even 16yo have a car and I don't, the most fun person at my job is leaving, I'm a beaner
Shoot my fucking face
Because I'm 28, have had literally 1 real job that lasted a year, have spent most of the last 10 years in school, or unemployed, and I still have no idea what I'm doing with my life.
I've literally thought about where i am, where i see myself in 5-10years. It's always the same, just working my life away. Continuing to stress and freak myself out over my gf cheating.
It's horrible eating away at me every single day, every single time i have time to myself. I know she wouldn't do it, but i still can't help but be paranoid.
because my puppy chewed up my detachable headset microphone which was enough to reduce me into a meltdown of screaming. I hit him and showed it to him but soon after I just started crying. I abused my only friend. Im sorry
Because no matter how hard I try, I can't love anyone anymore. I just can't.
It's not that I don't want to, it's just I've literally lost the ability to love anyone at this point.
>>26638609
Because Hayley Williams is married to a guy LITERALLY NAMED CHAD
Im gonna listen to all i wanted and lift and cry
I got hassled by a normie at the liquor store.
Drinking, drinking to forget. Its already 8am *sigh*
Do you robots believe in something? like love, hope, religion, that it's gonna get better or something? what keeps you guys up? or down?
>>26642133
No.
I've just learned to never get my hopes up.
Everything was looking up for me. I had everything I wanted and needed.
Now I'm left alone with regret and a sadness that can't be forgotten with drugs.
All I can do now is pick up what little pieces I had of a good life and try to start a new one. Learn from my mistakes and improve.
Time heals all wounds, doesn't it?
>>26642133
I don't kill myself because of religion.
I am miserable because the whole world is shit, and although I have it good, millions of others suffer everyday and every second, so I can have privileges.
>>26642147
exactly, if you never get your hopes up. You're never let down
>I only have enough money to pay my bills this month.
>I'm 19 years old and wageslaving away.
>My mom lost her job recently.
>The house is running out of food fast.
>Finding out how to make cheap recipes from rice, beans, etc...
>Smoked weed multiple times in the past couple of days to cope.
>Want to go to a temp agency but afraid of popping positive on a drug test.
>Anxiously pace and stay up till 3 am because I have no idea if I will be able to cook a meal next week.
>FUCKING DONE.
i miss my best friend
i sperged on her 3 years ago when she got a bf
I just found out I wasn't my gfs first. She lied to my face and said her ex convinced her to chill in her bedroom and tried to get in her pants.She just told me today that they ended up doing it,although she refused after 30 seconds.
I'm lost anons,I really like this girl,but I feel really betrayed,
>>26642181
stop doing drugs you degenerate
>>26642180
PreciseIy
Ate too much, threw up, flushed untouched food down the toilet so I didn't have the option of continuing to eat.
tfw male and eating disorder after losing more then half your body mass.
I'm alone
I'll always be alone.
I'm worthless.
>>26642467
Growing up is going to be hard for you.
>>26638609
I am alone. If by choice, I could easily get normie friends but they will only use me for what they want.
The other reason I'm upset is all the fucking normies on /r9k/ now. I cant tell if the robots are the hostile ones who keep trying to start shit with me every time I post or enraged normies who cant form a counterargument. There is no refuge.
>>26643768
>The other reason I'm upset is all the fucking normies on /r9k/ now. I cant tell if the robots are the hostile ones who keep trying to start shit with me every time I post or enraged normies who cant form a counterargument. There is no refuge.
IKTF
At least know that there are still true robots around, hiding in the shadows.
>only friends somewhat of the outsiders that stuck together
>years
>have made no new friends
>now on the outside of them too
>gf, also one of said outsiders, is moving in a month
>doesnt matter anymore, things were ruined hours ago
full aloneness launch initiating
>>26642467
Shitty that she felt she had to lie, but seriously don't look too much into it. It'll drive you up the wall and you might say or do something you will come to regret if you do love her.
>Wake up this morning and look at my hair.
>Had enough of looking at my shitty hairline.
>Shave it off and fuck it, run a razor over it to go Lex Luthor bald
>go to the grocery store tonight
>minding my own business, looking at produce.
>Little girl stands next to me, smiles at me, I smile back
>"Are you sick?"
>Before I can answer, her mother grabs her and immediately apologizes for her prying, her grandpa (the mother's dad, from what I gather) has been going through chemo
>Says "I hope you keep fighting."
> Whatthefuck.gif
>Go home, unload my groceries and stand in front of a mirror.
>5'11, 135 pounds
I do look like I'm on fucking chemo.
