Who else /tryingtoimprovethemselves/?
>been going to the gym
>trying to apply for a job
>volunteering
Why not start now? You only get one life.
I'm trying to get a job again. That's about it right now. It's a start.
because i've already given up
>>26599080
Working out is pointless.
Jobs make me sad.
Volunteering costs money.
>>26599080
I'm doing all the others, but..
>volunteering
Why volunteering? That's just useless and a waste of time.
I've given up on how my coworkers perceive me, its only the ride never ends here while I drunk send this message and I have to work in 4 hours with my Austrian vodka
I've given up on how people perceive me I only have one person that cares about me
For that same reason. Why should I waste my only life "improving myself" when there's enough weed and anime for a lifetime?
life is meaningless
why to torture yourself
>>26599131
you're helping others who are often less well off than you. doing that is certainly not a waste of time.
>been doing bodyweight exercises and cardio to go full twunk mode
>looked in the mirror, 6 pack definition is finally beginning to come out solidly
>little excess fat
>getting really high grades
otherwise
>joined some societies
>made 0 friends
>stopped going to society meetings
>probably never going to have a social life because i just cant make friends for some reason
>>26599080
>be huge fucking loser
>volunteer to help others out
sort your life out first mate
>>26599080
Guess it all depends on outlook
>>26599131
so you can put it on your resume and mention it when people ask, "what have you been doing with your time?" doesn't matter if it's one day a week, people usually don't ask. that's the kind of thing that sets you apart.
>>26599080
>70lb bicep curl
>can't get 120lb bar over my chest to save my life
i suck ass.
i read a lot of books, philosophy, liberal, post-marxist, buddhists, the bible and its interpretations, all kinds of right wing shit, read up on the news and economics and biology. i'm hunting for memes, i tell myself.
i feel less lonely when i try to live up to someone's standards, even if its people who are long-dead. but this isn't self-improvement. it's a fucking total waste of time and energy. there's a specialist in each of those fields who will wreck my shit. i should be working on making more money so i can take care of my family.
i have the potential to be a much better person and it's all going down the fucking toilet. i grew up thinking i was the protagonist of my story, now what am i? a lost child, pudgy in the wrong places, emaciated in others, absolutely zero backbone. i'm literally every bad stereotype about brainwashed, chronic masturbating nu-males. but i haven't given up yet. everybody breaks eventually, but this is nothing.
>>26599253
yes, before someone else gets to you
>>26599080
>Who else /tryingtoimprovethemselves/?
I'm actually /tryingtolivethelifethatwillmakemethehappiest/
I decided it's not important to work on certain things if they won't "truly" make me happy for the next 20 years or feel like a waste of time.
