>I wet the bed until late middle school
>sometimes I randomly get scared and hide under my covers
>I walk around in circles whenever I'm alone in an elevator
>I pace around my apartment muttering to myself a lot
>I can't make eye contact with most people
>I'm horrible at pretty much everything but I'm pretty good at like one or two things
>whenever I shiver from the cold my whole body does this like spasm thing and it probably looks silly
>I bang my head against my pillow every night
>I imitate movie characters I see for the rest of the day
>sometimes my friends order food for me at restaurants if I get too nervous
>I obsess over one thing at a time and learn everything about it
I've never been diagnosed but I honestly wouldn't be too surprised, I'd like to think I'm at least high functioning but I honestly don't know
>>26546477
after greeting someone in public i whisper ''fuck you fuck you fuck you'' under my breath for a minute or so to ease the embarrassment of social interaction
I'm so bad at making conservation that sometimes I'll mention how someone did something to break the silence or whatever but then I realize it comes across as criticism/complaining. I hate me, I'm better off just not speaking.
>>26546477
You might have schizophrenia
>don't know how to move my arms when i walk due to barely going outside
>wear a hoodie everywhere I go so I dont have to
>>26546592
r....really?please be joking
>>26546606
I used to have this for a while. Dont worry anon it gets better. Try wearing a backpack and focus on only skinging one arm.
I masturbated in the middle school bathroom
Every day.
>>26546623
Look up the symptoms
>>26546477
I do everything on this list save the elevator thing and pillow thing, but to even greater degrees. I wet the bed until I was 19. My dad/brother/college acquaintance always order food for me at restaurant.
>>26546654
i've seen them before but I thought they're about like hearing voices in your head and stuff like that. I've heard stuff before but it doesn't happen that frequently, the only "hallucination" i ever experience is sometimes, for like 3 seconds, everything will sound like its in slow motion. Whether it's music, people talking, etc. it all just slows down a lot for a couple seconds then speeds back up to normal. It hasn't happened lately but it used to happen a lot
>>26546681
omg thats crazy im really sorry, how did you eventually stop? do you still have to wear pull ups/diapers? I used to have to take these pills whenever i'd have sleepovers at friends houses. a couple times I wet their beds too it was so humiliating
>sometimes have long pseudointellectual internal monologues about killing myself
>avoid eye contact with most people
>never know what to say
>hate loud noises with a burning passion
>spasm thing that op does, makes people think I have Parkinson's
>repeat variations of "just fuck my shit up" in my head whenever I feel bad, which is most of the time
>>26546623
not him but no, no you don't.
>order tickets online so I can sit in the top center seat
>go to the movies
>Theaters pretty fill
>Only two seats open are the ones to both my sides
>A couple walks in and asks if I can move
>I say no
>They keep asking
>Eventually I throw a punch at the guy
>Hit the chick instead
>get escorted out
So that was my weekend.
>>26546653
I did this about every other day.
>>26546477
Sounds like you have might have schizophrenia. How old are you? It normally doesn't fully develop until your mid twenties
>>26546910
That was pretty hilarious
>>26547183
im 20. the other guy that said that never answered my questions >>26546770 so could you?original comment
>>26547227
your welcome ;_;
>when in public, i will hide in the bathroom stalls as much as possible
>avoid eye contact
>have a high tendency to lose my spaghetti
>fret and cringe and be hurt for a few months after losing spaghetti
>cling to the people i like a lot
>sometimes i act mean cause i don't know how to act otherwise
>overthink things
>but still pretty dense
>talk to myself
>starting to accept 2d and 2.5(idols who i will never be in the presence of)loves only
>after going outside, i refuse to go out for a month or two
y-yeah this is the life for me..
Whenever I buy figures and anime merchandise online I have to ask my mum to use her credit card since I don't have a bank account.
I am 19.
>>26547254
I can't give you a professorial diagnosis anon I'm sorry but from the things you're saying something is definitely wrong go to a doctor and check if anyone in your family has ever had it. Also wetting the bed at a late age is a sign of molestation you know.
>>26547359
oh jeez, ok i'll talk to my doctor. I wouldn't know about my family history with it though, I was adopted at 2 and don't know who my birthparents are. Also i've heard that before, idk if that happened to me though, i dont think it did but who knows what happened to me during those first 2 years in the orphanage
>>26546910
Jesus Christ you're and asshole and retarded
>>26546653
Hi Kurosawa
>>26546477at least you have a friend fucking normie
>>26546477
>have descriptions of which clothes go with which glued inside my closet
>eat my food from dry to soggy. I hate sauce
> don't make eye contact
> go insane if the label tag from my clothes rests against my skin
>>26546910
You at least got to take her anvil right?
sometimes i just make random noises and screeches. I dont know why its just fun
>wake up everyday feeling empty and bored
>got a shit ton of school work on my plate
>just sit home and escape into my heavily modded skyrim
>or rank up in cs:go
>haven't had a meaningfull relationship with a woman in like 4 years
>have days where I feel like shit and days when I feel like a king
>slowly realizing my erratic moods cause my friends and family to get estranged
>attractive and intelligent but my mind is just a mess
>i just want to die
>>26546477
>I walk around in circles whenever I'm alone
>I pace around muttering to myself a lot
>I imitate [insert fictional entertainment medium] I see for the rest of the day
Same here
>I obsess over one thing at a time and learn everything about it
This; once I "finish" either a show or game or whatever I stay engrossed in it for quite a while afterwards.
I look up all the extra info I can online, save all the pictures I see, read other people's opinions on certain aspects, listen to the music exclusively, rethink the events that transpired in my head.
It can get pretty embarrassing when you know so much more about something that afriendintroduced you to as one of their most liked things.
>>26549891
>This; once I "finish" either a show or game or whatever I stay engrossed in it for quite a while afterwards.
I look up all the extra info I can online, save all the pictures I see, read other people's opinions on certain aspects, listen to the music exclusively, rethink the events that transpired in my head.
Wait this isn't normal? I do this literally with anything I like. Even the smallest bit of information posted online will probably have been seen by me.
>>26547350
that's bad, I had a debit card at 12
>>26549918
Not everyone likes to autism about in every single facet of their hobbies.
It might be common to do so around here, but I find it's not a common practice with normalfags, not even the "weird"-normalfags.
I live with two other people who regularly visit the chan, the weeby vidya type, and they don't get nearly as autistic as I do with this kind of stuff.
>>26549861
>wake up everyday feeling empty and bored
>haven't had a meaningful relationship with a woman in like 4 years
>slowly realizing my erratic moods cause my friends and family to get estranged
>attractive and intelligent but my mind is just a mess
same desu senpai
>spend time on tinder swiping left just to fuck with normie self esteem, never swiped right and don't intend to
>>26550182
Tinder doesn't specifically show who rejected you. Unless you really stood out to somebody they won't even notice when you aren't in their pool of matches.
Even when it's hot as fuck I sleep under my blanket. I always have to be under them.
>>26550265
Yeah, at the very least my legs have to be covered.
>>26546477
A typical amurican
>>26550235
fuck my life dude, i want to die
>>26547304
Don't worry about it, your the only person who remembers you losing your spaghetti so just don't worry about it as much. Everybody is autistic at times. The less you think about it the better your confidence and the less it will happen. And when it does happen from time to time laugh at it and move on. :) love yourself and your flaws
>Do the weird hand movements whenever I feel any sort of good emotion.
>Make minimal eye contact with people unless I want to show friendship/affection or not look weak in front of someone in a confrontation.
>Obsessions
>Have intense tantrums where I hit my head with either my hand or the wall and scream.
>Neurotically obsessed with fairness, logical and consistent consequence of reward/punishments for actions.
>Had trouble making friends as a kid.
>Reject most people that try to be friends as an adult.
>Think I am better than almost everyone
>Good with numbers
>Bad with changes in routine.
Despite this I can hold down a job and have a steady significant other and even 6 friends! And my family hasn't disowned me yet either.
>>26546592
I actually have schizophrenia
>>26550342
Someone had to break the bad news to you. :(
>>26550409
What's your life like?
>>26546477
>never drink, smoke or do any drugs
>can't sleep if not hugging myself
>afraid of people I didn't met for a few months
>if a cashier starting to recognize me, I never go back to that shop again
>>26546477
>I sigh loudly in public because it's the only way I can stop pretending to be happy for a second and not have it get picked up on
>When noone's listening I mutter shit like "you're such a fucking autist, anon" and "christ you're such a failure, you should just kill yourself"
>always flirt and make inappropriate jokes despite being a completely undesirable fuckwit
>>26550514
If you have nothing to live for drugs are actually pretty good.
>>26547304
I didn't need that.
I didn't need that at all.
>when I'm home alone I talk to myself as if I'm a politician being interviewed on tv and I give detailed and in depth responses, my main fantasie is being a new governor elected into office and being well known
>tfw I will never achieve this
>finish a game/show/film etc
>fantasise about being in that setting
>eventually know so much and remember it all and begin to create your own fantasy settings
>tfw analysing them and realise they are all relate to me not being content with parts of my life
>>26550560
But they are against the rules. Not to mention I think I'm terrified of losing control.
>Flap my hands without noticing, especially when i'm happy about something, whenever someone spots me doing this, I pretend i'm having wrist pain.
>Wandering in my appartment
>Oftenly getting up from my chair and going to the kitchen, barely noticing what i'm doing, without any reason
>Avoid eye contact, teachers even thought I didn't care about what they were saying because I wouldn't stare at their eyes
>Sometimes having stupid obsessions over which i'm scared for months and even years
>Haven't talking to anyone beside my family for 5 years, only going out every 6 months or so, when i'm forced to do so.
>Sometimes crying over no reason, especially if too much people are around talking (At family gathering, for exemple) even though I don't feel sad. I feel like i'm about to cry whenever someone is around me.
>I'm always afraid to say what I truly think
>>26550514
>never drink, smoke or do any drugs
Same, never interested me.
It's bad for my health,
it's bad for my bank account
so I never bothered and sticked to escapism hobbies.
>>26550477
Used to be horrible but I live it normally now and no one can even tell anymore.
However if I'm having a bad day and my schizophrenia starts acting up I breakdown and start screaming at the lights being turned on when in reality they're really off. I usually only hear voices at night and Mr. Spook hasn't been around in a while thankfully
>>26550525
>I sigh loudly in public because it's the only way I can stop pretending to be happy for a second and not have it get picked up on
I did this too when i was depressed in high school and my teacher pointed it out.
>>26550589
I love giving in depth responses to questions that nobody asked me. Used to give a lot of unsolicited advice to acquaintances in middle/highschool too. Now I journal it and tell people what they want to hear. They love me and I get to feel superior for knowing the real answer to every problem in the world. Autists and normies can coexist sometimes.
I could be greeted by you one time and if I had interest in you at all you're all I think about constantly. I'll start envisioning dates, our future, how would you deal with this and that, anything possible even though I only knew you for maybe 5 seconds. Sometimes these thoughts go on for months due to me never forgetting your face.
>>26547254
You're not a schizo and you haven't been molested. You're most likely high functioning or maybe even mid functioning. No good psych would give you a diagnosis of schizophrenia based on those symptoms. They would most likely get you tested for the 'tism and put you in a social group. But do get help bro.
buncha losers in here.
>>26550514
>never drink, smoke or do any drugs
I have no friend so why the fuck would I drink.
>>26546477
>get scared
>autism
I'm no autist expert but I'm pretty sure one of the symptoms of autsim isnot having fear
I'm genuinely autistic, well, Aspergers. Possibly have clinical anxiety.
> End up talking about myself all the time in conversations, don't realise it
> End up talking to myself a lot
> Limited sense of empathy
> Overly sensitive
> No real will power
> Bitter, spiteful. Remember pointless and upsetting shit for years
> Try to spite people only to fail and realise how pathetic it is
> Constant sense of total dread just sitting there in the background
Dismissive comments from people I consider myself friends with are the worst. A lot of them struggle to realise I can't understand 'wind ups', and I don't always recognise when something is a joke, specifically in online chats and shit. I need facial expression or vocal tone.
I almost compulsively sing the songs that are on my mind in a severely exaggerated fashion, loud as fuck. For the past hour I've been repeating the opening line to Break On Through.
In my defense though, my dad does simile retarded things. Must be an ENTP thing I guess t-bh.
>>26550645
That's so cute, please come visit me anon
>>26546811
>repeat variations of "just fuck my shit up" in my head whenever I feel bad, which is most of the time
I know this is an incredibly common one but
>imply
in real life
When I'm on public transport I imagine I'm with my favorite Disney Princesses, they are my friends and we are talking and having fun.
First I check the place around me then carefully imagine how would they stand or sit besides me. Then I make up dialogs and talk with them in my head.
>overthink what people think about me
>paranoid about feasible situations
>lie an awful lot
>>26550674
You really don't want that. I'm pretty sure I have stalkerish tendencies because if there was an app I have you added on, the moment you talk to someone else and it's visible I will know.
Doesn't help that I analyze the things you say you do like a detective would and your sleep schedule so after two weeks, I'll catch you in whatever lie you throw at me. So if you're texting that you're going to bed, you better actually be going to bed.
>>26550711
My favorite autistic behavior on this thread. One summer I spent months on end inside pretending I was a Pokemon trainer. I had an Espeon and a Dragonite and the Dragonite could talk and he would fly me to places it was awesome.
>>26550744
Oh anon I'm okay with that shit, we can play video games together all day
>>26550744
Not the same anon but that's kinda hot
>>26550744
See we both think it's okay
>>26550799
>>26550804
>>26549753
Are you my roommate?
If I don't say a few selection of set phrases I feel like I have to cry
>stare people in the eyes till they look away
>talk to myself about women while pacing in my apartment
>explain most everything in detail to not look like an asshole
>flirt with women and lead them on
>find information about my co-workers through Google and masturbate to the good ones
>go to tv for baneposting
>>26550667
Damn, I probably have that too.
>>26549861
>>26550182
>Failed normies ITT
>>26546530
i do this too
When I'm cumming to African and Latin women porn I whisper to myself go back to Africa nigger or you stupid fucking spic
>have conversations with myself in my head
>> *says something pseudointelectual*
>> "haha, you know you're an idiot, right?"
>> "wowee, how'd you know?!"
>move my fingers in a snapping motion without actually snapping
>flap my right hand around
>pretend i'm an anime girl and skip around and have cute thoughts and sometimes squeal and make other cute noises
>stroke my cuddle pillow when i go night night
>use a night light
>frantically look around stating
>OUR TRUE ENEMY
*pause*
>HAS YET
*pause*
>TO REVEAL HIMSELF
another one;
> "just when i thought i was out...
*5 minutes later*
> ...they pull me back in!!!!!!"
*laugh maniacally* *slap slap*
and I just have autistic fantasies in general
>>26549753
me too!
pic is me btw
>Refer to myself as "Tk" for some reason
>When I remember awkward moments I always say "kill yourself, Tk" under my breath
>Always pretend to have hand to hand/sword fights in my living room
>Always blush when people try to have serious conversations with me
>Have pretend arguments with people
>Only shower/brush my teeth when I start to smell or when my teeth feel dirty
> If I don't talk for long periods of time I "pull faces" which makes being a public situations very awkward
>Stop talking to certain people altogether if they rub me the wrong way
>As in: "Hi, anon!" "..." "What's wrong, anon?" "[Walk away]"
>Imagine having conversations with people I haven't seen 7 years (high school)
>Currently have this fantasy where I can astro-project and fly
>mfw I almost jumped off the balcony because I thought jumping off would trigger my ability to fly
>>26546477
I feel jealous of the mentally ill because at least they have an excuse for being fucked up.
I know normalfags aren't as tolerant as they pretend when it comes to that shit, but the illusion that I'd be treated better if I was bona-fide crazy instead of just a cunt won't go away.
>>26546477
>have so much anxiety about trying new things i've been eating at the same restaurants, playing the same games, and going on the same websites for years
>>26551085
What games? We play together?
>>26551106
i play a lot of ps2 games and pokemon basically
ssb sometimes
>>26551134
Emerald is best, you agree?
>>26551146
for standard games ya
colosseum is my personal favorite but it's more of a spin off
>>26550592
Write. Just write books.
>when I'm alone I quietly talk to myself and have imaginary conversations
>when at work, I don't know the proper way to make eye contact when passing coworkers in the hallway and I fuck it up every time.
>give short answers and ask no questions when talking to people so they'll leave me alone
>use too much eye contact when talking to someone one on one, but not enough in any other situation
>when my lips get dry I try to bite the dead skin off, which looks stupid and gross
>have a hard time feeling empathy for other people, even family members.
>intentionally look pissed off all the time so people will leave me be
The weird part is that I used to be okay at socializing. Not really sure why it seems foreign to me now.
>>26546477
>nobody home
>pretend to be a SWAT officer, grab a wooden stick and use it as a gun
>move tactically around the house, clearing rooms etc.
>make up elaborate stories to give it context
I-It's fun.
>>26551229
You just described my life. My social life all started to go downhill after 7th grade
>>26550601
>>Sometimes crying over no reason, especially if too much people are around talking (At family gathering, for exemple) even though I don't feel sad. I feel like i'm about to cry whenever someone is around me.
I get this
>>26551282
Hahaha that's beautiful
>Think of jokes to tell my friends/older brother
>Remember I don't have any friend and I don't talk to my older brother
>Get horny
>Major jap fever
>Can't fap to jap because I feel like I'm tainting it
>I've fapped to it before though
>Eat anything small enough out of a mug (cereal, grapes, chips, etc.)
>Plan stand-up comedy routines in bed while trying to fall asleep
>Forget them completely when I wake up in the morning
>Watch a lot of anime
>Get cold
>Mutter "samui" under my breath
>Shame permeates my entire being
>Imagine self-inserting in literally any piece of fiction
>Spend an hour pacing around my house trying to balance my self-insert or imaging character interactions
>Dad sees me pacing with my hands behind my back, looking like I'm thinking hard
>Assumes I'm thinking about something important or intelligent
>21 next month
>Still want play shitty Naruto games on byond
Mild autism, comparatively.
>constantly flexing / cracking my hands /fingers to the point where i can do it almost instantaneously
>will do this especially when stressed for hours at a time until my hands are sore and shaking with pain
>have worn away half the enamel of my teeth from grinding it according to the dentist
>have imaginary sword duels in my house or in my room if i have a piece of wood/a pole
>have dreams of being an anime character
>suck air through my teeth, hard, when nervous
>can't look people in the eyes to save my life
>afraid of the ocean, horses, other people, positive interactions, negative interactions, outside, staying like this the rest of my life
>>26550744
Tbh I wish I had someone like that as a friendpost steam
>>26551282
Gonna try this when I get home today
>>26546910
At least research ticket buying methods for movies before making a shitpost. You can't buy a specific seat in a theater dumbass. It's first come first server.
>>26551634
It actually isn't at larger cinemas, you can ask for a preferred seat if it's free
>>26550594
Anon.. You never had control.
>>26550711
I like to imagine myself with muh waifu Elsa
>>26546477
I think it's pretty mild, but
>can't make eye contact with anyone other than my parents and closest friends
>after any social interaction, I evaluate the situation in my head kind of whispering it out
>get sweaty near anyone somewhat attractive and end up staring away from them
>when 1 on 1 with a friend I can't make conversation for shit and it gets silent
>Hand flapping in private
>Nail biting
>Letting minor social sights bother me for days
>General inability to navigate group interactions
>Persistent sense that ever the else is out there having an awesome time without me. Probably a holdover from years of extreme social isolation during middle school and high school when this was literally true. I'm almost 30.
>>26546477
>When i listen to music, sometimes i turn the lights off to make sure its pitch black. and i sit on my floor and i shake my head back and forth autisticly to the beat because it tickles my stomach.
>when alone i often narate and talk to myself or just commentary on fucking everything
>I am addicted to chronically strangling myself when alone about every 30 seconds. and ive doing it since i was 11. and i cant stop. i used to do it because it gave me a head rush. but now its just a severe fucking psycological addiction. it doesnt do anything for me anymore and sometimes it gets so bad i lose motor function or i just feel all derp and stare at nothing. i do it a lot when im sad. and i hate myself ill go in the bathroom somewhere and choke myself. sometimes it will burst capilaries in my eyes and my eyes will look bloodshot.
>when i was 8 or 9 years old i had this weird ritual that every time a frosted flakes commercial came on, id punch myself in the nuts.
E N D M Y L I F E
>>26546636
I replied a bit late but does anyone have any more tips for this
Really I've tried walking normally for years but can't unless my arms are crossed or in my pockets
>think about life a lot, yet never arrive at any meaningful/useful conclusion
>imagine myself in different, equally autistic forms, either created by me completely, or as me from some game I played
>imagine becoming that form in this world, and then what would I do with this kind of power (for example if I can magic)
>usually just think how I'd enter some important situation, like a president talking and force my way through to the microphone to announce that I want to gather the greatest philosophers, economists and politicians of all countries and with their help design a perfect world
>sometimes instead imagine how I'm going back in time or into some fantastical setting in one of these forms
>imagine entire conversations with many different people I know
I-I'm sure some of you do this too.
>>26552557
>>when i was 8 or 9 years old i had this weird ritual that every time a frosted flakes commercial came on, id punch myself in the nuts.
fucking hell dude, you made my night
>>26550954
Underage b& detected
You disgust me.
>>26550382
Literally me, except no weird hand movements, tantrums or rejections of people.
I do forget people's names and tend to walk around my place for no particular reason though.
>>26552557
Top kek, this is some high level stuff.
>>when I was 8 or 9 I had this weird ritual that when a Frosted Flakes commercial comes on I'd punch myself in the nuts
>>26551625
thanks for reading, anon
most of the time i just feel alone
>>26550604
drugs ARE an escapism hobby
>>26552599
This is, actually, pretty fucking fun. Enjoying your imagination never hurts anything.
>>26546477
> when I'm alone in public bathrooms I either make a retarded face or some sort of noise. It's comforting somehow.
> only use a little spoon if I have to use a spoon
> do the classic autist spasm OP referenced when I'm cold
> whenever I think about something cringy that I've done, my body physically revolts or I say "fuck me"
> if I need to shit and someone else is in a stall next to me, wait for them to leave. Have sometimes waited for over 20 minutes. Feels like an endurance test and I've noticed the dude next to me walk out in defeat sometimes.
> as a kid, if I ever woke up at like 2 am or something, I would compulsively hum the ABC station tune that used to play on Australian TV.
> when I'm the passenger seat of a car, I pretend like the car is jumping from shadow to shadow on the road in front of it while it is driving.
:^)
>>26552599
>>26552961
this, use it to your advantage and write a book, anon
>>26553029
> when I'm the passenger seat of a car, I pretend like the car is jumping from shadow to shadow on the road in front of it while it is driving.
Same here. I also imagine running beside the car and jumping on the roadsigns/trees so as not to touch the ground.
>>26546811
>>hate loud noises with a burning passion
this right here
>>26547304
I do all this except the toilet stalls (not too often at least) and 2D. That being said, I did have a 2D phase, and I still watch anime daily. I just stopped forming attachments to any female, no matter the dimension. Whenever I catch myself thinking of a girl, I immediately say to myself "STOP IT STOP IT FUCK OFF" and get upset. I used to pinch myself really hard as punishment, so I've generally conditioned myself not to think of any sort of female for extended periods.
>>26553207
I plugged my ears through the entirety of star wars 7 because the explosions were too loud.
>>26546477
>8-13 y.o
>in my head my eyes cut through things
>couldn't look at people because it virtually cut them up in my head
>when looking around it felt like i cut things wrong with my eyes, so i would have to go back and forth 7-14 times on spesific object, until it felt right
>tiled floor in bathroom
>learned to take a shit and brush my teeth without ever opening my eyes in the bathroom
>>26551418
>making up a 4chan filename for your image
>prefer to eat while standing up
>play with an imaginary kitty
>crack my knuckles like luffy
>when walking in a door, slowly close it behind so my feet just enter as it's nearly shut, with enough force to close it but not enough to slam
>sing stupid shit along to trite songs, like if robert plant is ooh baby I love you I'm like yeah he fucking loves you bitch suck on that dick
>go yeeeeeeeeeee-haw for no reason
>rub my lifting callouses together and clamp them like castanets
>have a >designated walking circle in my house
>want to unironically dress in historical fashions
>march (i.e. swing one arm in a military fashion) while walking
>walk very quickly
>can't smile
>about to get into collecting sabers, will practice with them solo
>plan out military campaigns that will probably never take place
>when I can't sleep, I bang on the walls until it wakes everyone up so that I'm not the only one who can't sleep
>fall in love with any pretty woman who shows me any kind of positive attention
>study military history, tactics, and strategy
>assume athletes are stupid
>want a cuirass to wear in private
>basically live in my own little fantasy world about half the time
>have panic attacks when I can hear the murmur of multiple conversations at once in a crowded room
>when it is bright outside, have to close my eyes tightly until they adjust to the light, usually for around 10 minutes
>bounce when I walk
Pic related (3rd from the right) is about how I walk, though, when I am walking really fast and nervously, the arm swing is enormous.
>>26546770
I just stopped. IDK why if I drink water too close to bed I still might but if I avoid that then I'm fine
>Talk to myself a lot when I'm alone in my apartment
>Run dialogues in my head of a character talking to me and then reply what she's saying, asking, or explain what I'm doing
>If I'm doing bad or something I talk to myself telling myself I'm useless and that I should kill myself
>Pace a lot
>Fuck up conversations a lot
>Long to be around people but when around people I have a longing to be at home on my own again
>Diagnosed Aspie
Reading this thread and seeing that some of you can still function in public and have friends just makes me realise how much of a fuck up I am.
>>26546910
Did they throw you in the theater jail?
>>26546477
>sing anime songs
>do weird hand gestures
>pretty much bad at anything
>get obsessed with hobby considered stupid by normies
>talk alone to myself at my house eve with family around
>sometimes can't understand what normies mean
>pretty weird at talking with normies
>crack my knuckles against my jaw
>>26550711
>dialogs
>>26546477
I get the weird spasm thing too, although sometimes it doesn't even have to be cold for it to happen.
>I can't talk on the phone without pacing
>I always try to sit in the back in every class
>I'm convinced that everyone I walk past on the street or sidewalk is giving me a weird look
>I get random and sudden feelings of fear for no apparent reason
>I don't make eye contact
>I can spend hours just daydreaming about something random while pacing in circles in my apartment
>>26546477
OP IS A GIRLLLLlllllllldghfhj
>>26546477
Are you me?
Some shit I do:
>act out hypothetical scenarios in my head that will literally never happen
>over explain myself constantly when I dont need to
>say incredibly autistic or embarassing things in attempts to keep conversation going
>move around like an anime character
>think I'm making expressions like an anime character
>>26546530
Same here anon, I fucking hate that I do this bc 1/3 times they hear me
>Sing and dance (or more accurately flail) while driving
>Walk as fast as possible in public
>Walk like Randall from clerks around the apartment
>Get shitfaced drunk, try to program, then yell and throw empty cans whenever I get an error that's hard to fix. I somehow find this fun or at least cathartic.
>>26555108
>I can spend hours just daydreaming about something random while pacing in circles in my apartment
This.
Also
>imagine that someone is in my mind sometimes
>usually someone I know, just seeing what I see, hearing what I hear and feeling what I feel
>>26552557
this fucking entire post
>>26553407
yeah well I simply can't remember girls names of whoever I don't talk to in a long time.
because I rarely speak to girls I act as if they just need something fixed and then are gone forever, that usually happens.
I feel used but I learnt to not care anymore.
it hurts a bit but the option would kill me instead.
>>26546477
>talk to myself in public and in English
English is not my first language
>constantly daydream/fantasize with being awesome at things
>before i go out to meet somebody I play in my head entire conversations and situations but when I finally go out I can't act on them because I am deathly ashamed of myself
>overthink everything
>compulsion for constantly lying with menial bullshit, i seriously don't know why I do it and why I can't stop it
>hope no one makes physical contact with me because I feel like they do it our of pity or politeness because I am so disgusting and horrid
>at the same time crave for a gentle contact like a hug or something
>pessimistic and paranoid
>i'd rather eat shit than ask a favor to someone because i feel i don't deserve it
>i trust almost no one and never confide my shit to anyone because i feel that by doing it i am being inconsiderate with the other person and i'm ashamed of my pathetic life
life wasn't meant for everybody
>>26546811
>loud noises
Its not the loudness it's SUDDEN loud noises, I fucking always jump like I've been electrocuted and/or my eyes water so I look like I'm either having a heart attack or scared and crying
>>26552740
what in the heck are you talking about?!
>>26550729
>other robots are /weboflies/
Glad it's not just me, I lie daily to people about my life
whenever I am taking the bus I make sure to make note of when the next bus after the one I am getting on is coming and I structure my greetings towards the driver accordingly
for instance if it's only about 10 minutes until the next one I won't give him any greeting, I'll just passively get on but if it's 20 minutes I'll give him a nod, but if it's like 3 hours until the next bus I'll give him a smile and simultaneous nod and an audible greeting like "how do you do?" or "good morning"
I don't know why
>>26551282
Fuck I do that sort of shit in my apartment constantly, it's the purest form of escape
>>26551634
You can if you buy online though you stupid faggot
>>26553184
Holy shit thought I was the only one
Only difference is I imagined Daredevil or some other capeshit doing the jumping
>>26552599
I literally do every single one of these things almost every day
>>26547350
im 20 and just recently got mine
>Self insert myself in everything as an all powerful god
>Constantly consider what I could manipulate and do with that power, running through situations in my head
I mean it can't be that odd. I'd still never tell anyone though.
>have intense bouts of imagination time where I flap my arms around and pace vigerously
>have a habit of making noises to go along with imagination
>stutter when I have to interact with people
>fantasize about playing for oneitis when I'm playing music
>when I have to interact with people, build my personality around fictional characters I like
>mutter Japanese words under my breath to ease tension when I get anxious
>sometimes recite dialogue from the plane scene in Dark Knight Rises to fill time
>masturbate exclusively to hentai
>wear a hoodie and jeans even in the middle of summer so people can't see my pasty fat body
>collect anime figurines and swords from shows I like
>walk somewhat hunched over with arms swinging wide
I'm 22 and have been a neet for five years. There's probably a lot more that I'm forgetting as I type this.
>constantly imagining fantasy scenarios
I've tried writing them out to make them manageable but I can't seem to do it.
>have a hard time looking above horizon-level when I'm outside or in a really bright room
>eyes get really wet and I have to blink a lot when it's windy, sometimes this happens for no reason at all
>get cold and sweaty hands when I'm with other people for to long
>when I'm on a bus I turn my Mp3-Player away so people who sit next to me don't see what I'm listening to
>think people know what I'm listening to anyways, they judge me
>pretend to be dumb to get sympathy and laughs
>the moment a funny conversation ends I feel depressed
>thinking about how much things there are to learn makes me procrastinate even harder
>insult people for stupid reasons lately, maybe just to show that I'm a cynical asshole
>Get nervous while holding things, causing my arm to spasm which in turn causes a chain reaction - constantly spilling things as a result
>Mind tries to get out information faster than I can speak; words get mixed up and jumbled
>Face gets flushed and body heats up whenever someone notices me, either through compliment or insult
>When walking on tiles, make sure to step on the ones with vertical lines as the ones with horizontal lines are like walls
>If the tiles don't have horizontal or vertical line, skip every other tile unless it's physically impossible to
>Worldbuild constantly and when sure I'm alone, start saying character lines and flinging myself around imagining the action
>When playing console video games, stand up and start jumping when the action is getting good. Can't seem to keep myself sitting down unless I'm at the computer.
>Skip when moving around the house
I used to walk swinging my arms back and forth, but I eventually broke that habit.
>>26556346
>Mind tries to get out information faster than I can speak; words get mixed up and jumbled
This so much.
I create 2 possible sentences for the situation and somehow mix them together.
No matter how smart and witty my replies are in my head I fuck up saying them.
>>26546653
>>26546999
In high school this kid got caught masturbating in the stairwell in between classes by a group of students, and then classes let out and he was swarmed.
He tried to leave out of the lower exit door but it was locked and the door to the hallway/the stairs were all crowded with students pointing and laughing.
>>26546530
When I think of something embarrassing or consider the prospect of just having made a faux pas I rapidly count 1-2-3-4 in my mind over and over.
when im in the house alone i
>sing
>talk to myself
>talk to my dog like an idiot and in german
>run around the house
>get drunk in my room alone on friday nights
also
>have loads of film and tv theme tunes on my phone
>writing a ww1 book in my head with characters and a story that i go through when im slaving at mcdicks
>if i see a qt when im on the train i imagine shes the love interest in the story
>>26551634
The theater that just opened up near me is reserved seating only, people keep taking other people's seats and causing small arguments
>>26556444
Reminds me of are you fucking sorry lel
>>26550958
>Always pretend to have hand to hand/sword fights in my living room
This senpai.
>>26551418
Jesus you are literally me with the fantasy character interaction stuff. I feel better knowing there are others out there.
>don't know if it counts but i am literally always listening to fortunate son
>you know how most people look at the ground when they walk?
>i look at head level when i walk
i swear counter strike is what caused this
>>26550744
im ok with this, i would never lie to you either. i could be your little pet friend
>>26554016
>cutting things with gaze
>do it "wrong" and keep flicking back over object
I DID THIS AND SOMETIMES STILL DO ANON FUCK
I have a manly body and a strong voice, nice chest and shoulders etc.
But when I got the feeling,I act like a diva that knows how to dance and act as feminine and bitchy as possible. I am not homo, but I love the fact that I would be such a whore If I was a woman.
>>26546477
>listen to the same song over and over
>live in a fantasy world more then reality half the time
>pace back and forth ferociously believe it or not i can actually think a lot better when doing this
>can't make eye contact like at all ever
>>26556155
This is pretty much me, minus the Dark Knight and fatness. In my case I'm full skelly, which is in my opinion worse.
>>26555168
how'd you know?
>>26555286
holy shit i do all of those except i usually look like spongebob not an anime character. I imitate all of his silly faces
>>26554085
>go yeeeeeeeeeee-haw for no reason
This except for the fact that Im from louisiana so I go coooooooooo-we to imitate the coonasses down here
>>26557327
I do that too lmao
>>26556023
I imagined it was Sonic
Lie in bed and imagine im cuddling a t with my face in her hair
>Lock the door
>it's obviously locked
>can bear the clank, meaning its locked
>still unlock and lock the door, in case it "magically" opens
>Try to open the locked door like 4 more times just in case
I swear this is starting to piss me off.
>>26546606
sometimes i do this, but the realization has just made me piss myself with laughter
>>26557651
The wonders of OCD my friend
>>26557913
I'm kinda fighting it at this point by turning the key as hard as I can, so I can hear a nice, loud klank. So far I've been seeing positive results
>'flex' my muscles in my neck and legs really quickly but its more of a twitch
>bite the skin around my fingernails
>>26554959
holy shit i do that ALL THE TIME
>have 6849469 imaginary friends
>sometimes they'll be obvious rip offs' of characters from books or games
>feel guilty about that
>can't fall asleep at night without thinking that my heart might stop in my sleep tonight, despite being a healthy person who works out often and eats relatively well, no red meat and lots of vegetables/no alcohol
>sometimes i can be really narcissistic and think i'm the fucking bee's knees, but in less than 30 minutes i'll be hiding in my closet crying about how shitty i am
>almost got kicked out of school because i would skip class to hide in the bathroom after really misc social events
>can't dry my hair with a dryer because as a kid my mom would punish me by burning my ears with the dryer
>in general i just don't trust anybody
>i have a wall of sticky notes reminding me not to trust specific people with specific reasons written down
also not really autistic but I get home invasion nightmares all the time, at least twice per week
Whenever I sneeze, I hold out the sneeze for as long as possible and freeze in place, bent over.
It sounds and looks stupid, but I do it because if I don't control my sneezes, my heart starts beating erratically for around 5-10 minutes.
>always fantasize about lucifer choosing me for no reason to become some kind of powerfull demon
>keep this fantasy for days, and when i get bored of it, i think about it, and i feel really fucking pathetic
>When I watch anime I suddenly see the real world as it is in the anime
>daydream like 2 hours per day, playing out situations that will never happen
>>26558319
>sticky notes reminding me not to trust specific people with specific reasons written down
That sounds smart, I might consider doing this.
>>26558630
remind yourself to rip up old ones so as not to leave loose ends lying around.
>>26549918
I do this too, so does my dad. It's not that uncommon it's just mild autism.
>>26549861
pretty much the same bro
>wake up every day feeling empty and bored
>just sit home and escape into my guitar/music
>or rank up in lol or hearthstone
>had beautiful girlfriends who sincerely loved me but i choose to be a man-child instead of maintaining healthy relationships (im 24)
>most days I feel like shit but every once in a while i will be in a great mood
>slowly realizing my erratic moods cause my friends and family to get estranged
>attractive and intelligent but my mind is just a mess
>i just want to die
literally the only thing i look forward to is rocking out once a week with my shitty band
>>26550874
yeah pretty much
also:
>split gum into 2 pieces when i chew it so i can chew on both sides
>frequently crack my left ankle
>frequently get tongue tied and mess up my words
>rarely eat or leave my room because im uncomfortable around my own family
>whenever i walk by something flat like a wall or box i run my finger or knuckle across it
>when i was angry would drive with max volume metal music and heater on full blast
>constantly have random songs and melodies in my head that sometimes makes conversation hard
>smoke weed everyday because i want to die when im sober
>masturbate on chaturbate for mostly dirty old men
>still in love with girl i met on the internet when we broke up over 2 yrs ago (we never met irl) even though she couldnt care less about me
>lost most of my friends over the years for dumb/petty reasons
>dont even consider bandmates best friends because i dont like hanging out with them other than to play music
>people actually want to hang out with me but id rather stay home and play because im boring and have nothing in common with anyone
when i was really young i saw an ad for autism and i noticed that it was sorta similar to what i experience and i told my mom i thought i had autism. she laughed and said no i dont but now that im older and after making this list i really think i have mental issues.
>>26550729
So much this, why can't i just be normal.
>>26551229
Holy shit this is literally me.
>>26551229
>give short answers and ask no questions when talking to people so they'll leave me alone
i do this but only because im uninteresting and have nothing to add to the conversation so people percieve me as offputting or careless.
>>26546910
Did the guy or chick punch back?
>>26558319
>>26558630
I might start doing this too.
Very schizo here and sometimes I forget what my relation to other people and what emotions I'm supposed to feel about them.
>post on /r9k/ (FREEBIE)
>notice combinations of letters that frequently appear on license plates
>imagine elaborate conversations with people I know who aren't there
>assume women want me to go away if they're crying
>stare at female friend's face to try and figure out what she's feeling until she asks me why I'm staring at her
>sometimes hear garbled noises like the TV is going on in the background talking away
>stopped seeing friends all together except for one person
>muddling up more words daily
>having to explain why I randomly changed the topic and how the new one is related
Helppppp meeeeeeee....... If this gets worse, I'm going to end it all.
>>26553184
>Same here. I also imagine running beside the car and jumping on the roadsigns/trees so as not to touch the ground.
I do this as well
>when listening to a song, imagine myself performing it
>constantly make fun of people and then apologise in my head, all the time
>get scared that my thoughts can be transmitted through physical objects via my feet or hands touching something, and from then on will spread to everyone else so they will know what my thoughts are>imagining a amicable conversation with the girl who rejected me about why she did it and finally getting closure
>getting really upset when imagining certain movements, kid's shows, or baby-talking, and apologising to everyone in my head
>>26555870
I do most of these things and I was diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder.
>>26558702
> erratic moods
Autism and bipolar or schizo are rarely together.
> can't control earworms
Many autists have a mp3 player in their heads they have full control over.
I'd say you're fucked over something else than the 'tism. Or in addition to it.
>>26546477
>prepare appropriate conversation topics for next day before I go to sleep
>always get cringy when people try to touch me
>hate with passion people who just cant shut up
>rather spend 30 minutes in freezing temperatures so I can board the bus as first and not to worry to look like creep when picking the seat
>hate when people try to help me with my backpack/jacket/whatever
>>26546606
Jesus Christ
Me too
I don't go outside during summer because I litteraly don't know what to do with my hands
>>26546811
>spasm thing that op does, makes people think I have Parkinson's
Same, not even when I'm cold
My arms just going "Fuck you" once in a while
>can't remember words when talking
>talk with myself and my dog in public
>fantasize about murdering people
>imagine what my funeral would look like
>keep touching my skin
>can't stand puffy jackets
>body spasms
>never drink water from glass
>maniacal laughing and rolling on the floor when listening to music
>I start talking nonsense when I don't know what to say
>I start crying all of a sudden when around people
>>26547304
>cling to the people i like a lot
I used to be the most clingy piece of shit my friends knew.
Always stayed with them always asking stupid questions, eye-scanning their entire body and randomly touching them, often in the belly
I still don't understand why I did this and I have to mentally slap myself when I see my last remaining friend to not do it again.
>Mentally talk about a random topic like if I was explaining it to someone else.
>Stop doing whatever I'm doing, stare into the nothingness and think about the meaning of life, why I haven't kill myself yet and when things went wrong.
>Walk fast. Not running, just walking much faster than normal people so I can arrive asap to where I'm heading.
>Slightly grin when someone mentions things like disabilities, deaths or something like that. I don't find it funny at all, but my body just reacts this way.
>Arrive at college at least half an hour before the start of the classes, so I can be the first one to enter the class and not feel the normies staring at me.
>If a woman touches me by accident or it's too close to me, I just freeze and wait until I think it's safe to continue doing w/e I was doing.
>Point at things, poking people and that things instead of just talking.
>Almost not talking at all. I don't talk unless it's absolutely necessary, and even then most of the time it's just short answers like "yes", "no", "I'm fine", "ok".
>When I fap, I MUST change my underwear if it doesn't provide the optimal amount of comfort.
>Not a huge waifufag, but sometimes I just sleep thinking what I would do If she was real and I pretend to cuddle with her.
>>26550514
>afraid of people I didn't met for a few months
>if a cashier starting to recognize me, I never go back to that shop again
I get so fucking tense when the streets are crowded, I'm not sure if I see go on high alert and scan the area for evasive maneuvers or if I should stick headphones and look at my feet
>>26557979
The best way to stop is to litterally tell yourself that the door is not locked and that you are fucked. If you accept the obsessive thoughts and think them volentarily, then it will help. Do NOT give into compulsions as they will fuck you up more. At least that's what I did.
>Imagine I have a stand like in JoJo
>Use my "stand" to slap people in the back of the head and shit like that
>Make myself smile or downright laugh in public by fucking around with my glorified imaginary friend
>>26554959
Why do I do this
>people in day hospital having conversation
>just watching them, not planning to participate
>what do you think, anon?
>all eyes on me
>cheek twitch
>did this bitch just talk to me
>start blushing
>"uuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh"
>my ears are burning
>eyes darting everywhere searching for escape
>they're still expecting an answer
>I'm really hot now
>mumble a vague answer
>sweating now
>this day officially went to shit
Fuck me up
>>26559422
Yeah bipolar sounds more like it, but I wouldn't be surprised. I mean I hope I'm not schizo or autistic but I realized I also do a lot of the shit I've been reading in this thread but I didn't point it out because my post was too long.
>not enough characters to explain my weird behavior ;_;
>>26553029
I do that but use my finger to dodge the shadows and jump across the gaps (inter sections
>know english and french but they're not my native language
>sometimes randomly switch between the 3 when I'm alone and talking to myself to seem intellectual
>>26558319
>>26558630
>>26558697
>>>>>mfw literally just started my list
>>>>>mfw literally two of them are 'best friends'
>>26550729
same here
>always have an exit plan
>always feel like someone is watching
