How are you guys holding up? I haven't taken out the initiative to find my Dad's shotgun though I'm in his house.
Psychotic Depression reporting in, I'm expected to live 20 years of my life in hopelessness and despair.
>>26542303
all i wanna be is dead
bipolar 2: unmotivated, lazy, hopeless. Medicine doesn't help for shit.
My family doctor tells me that I have agoraphobia and OCD and gave me meds that aren't doing anything to me.
But the family doctor doesn't want to send me to a psychiatrist.
>>26543118
what country senpai senpai?
>>26543381
Portugal, why?
>>26543412
Different countries make it harder or easier to get the help you need. I don't know much about Portuguese health care. If it's affecting your everyday life you should get more help.
>>26543412
Agoraphobic? Aren't you Portuguese supposed to be great explorers or something?
Schizophrenia and on Clozapine
life is hell
My attention span, memory and intelligence are permanently destroyed
>>26543478
That is what history says.
But in this case, I must be a defected product.
>>26543450
I have my free health care, but the only thing is that my doctor doesn't want me to go to a psychiatrist, and now my dad told me that in the next appointment he is going with me to tell that I need a specialist.
>>26543703
Any hallucinations or voices? I'm at risk of developing schizophrenia.
>>26543880
Not for a long time. I just have the cognitive and negative symptoms
flat affect sucks
anhedonia sucks
dissociation sucks
Sure wish weed was medical-legal for me so I could feel like a normal human bean!
I was diagnosed with depression, agoraphobia and social anxiety. Supposedly I also have pseudo delusions and I got medication for it, but it doesn't do anything. None of this is really a problem, unless I have to leave the house and interact with people.
In the process of dropping out of university , I have dragged it out for 3 months, I have been depressed since October, I thought university was supposed to be the best and I found out that I hated it and don't want to work in the field I was studying. My parents have been very understanding but I feel like a failure and I wanted to make 'something' of myself so I don't have to toil day after day working but I also know that wealth and prestige is not the way to true happiness. I am 21 and feel as if my last life is coming to an end. I wish I could snap out of it but I can't. I haven't talked to my friends for weeks. I am very confused and sick to death of life's bull shit. I am going to talk with my course coordinator to leave university and I am dreading it because I fucking hate walking onto that campus and I don't want it to be dragged out and awkward.
>>26544138
Dude you're 21. I'm the same age as you and we've got our whole lives ahead of us. Now is the time to make mistakes and learn from our experiences.
I'm OP, I dropped out of Uni to pursue a career in the electrical industry. University is a shitty meme, fuck society and do what you want.
Schizophrenia or "mood disorder" or autism or schizoaffective or schizotypal here
I basically just feel like life is incredibly stupid and meaningless at this point
>>26544266
Yeah you're right, thanks man
>>26542303
Haruka is so cute, I want to squeeze her and berry my face in her hair.
>>26544494
Haruka is perfect wife material. It's nice to see another Haruka fan.
>>26542303
>Last year in the military
>Still haven't been deployed to Crapganistan
T-thanks Obama
>>26544556
she is great. probably the most nurturing out of 765.
mental illnesses i've been diagnosed with are
>disorganized schizophrenia
and if you think personality disorders or "styles" matter then
>avoidant
>>26542349
Ditto.
Lamictal does help somewhat with the swings, and it has a nice numbing effect. Give it a try.
Like hell I'll take an SSRI, though, can't orgasm on those. (No matter how depressed I get, fapping is one of my few remaining pleasures.)
>>26544822
Kek I'm on an ssri and can still fap
This one antipsychotic toom away my boners tho (and started getting man boobs)
>>26544968
>Kek I'm on an ssri and can still fap
Well, they say it doesn't affect everyone.
Annoying thing was, it didn't take away my libido or boners, which would have made it easier. I simply could not do anything about it.
depression, alcoholism (recovering), benzo addiction (clean 2 years), anxiety, panic attacks reporting in
i actually don't know how i've made it this far
>>26542303
why 20 years? confused???
>>26544822
I remember when I took SSRI's fapping would pretty much be the only thing i do.
I think i fapped 5 times a day for a while...
>>26545117
what exactly does a panic attack feel like?
>>26545135
Psychotic Depression is the most severe form of depression, and my psychosis stems from agitated catatonia.
I'm expected to have 4-9 depressive episodes in my life that last no more than 2 years at a time, since I've already spent so much of my life depressed the future doesn't look good.
Fucking psychiatrists and nurses are trained as social workers so they know how to make things seem "less bad" then they are. It wasn't until I had to apply for education assistance that I found out I had a permanent disability in my head.
>>26545210
The most terrifying moment of your life. Rapid heartbeat like you're going to have (or are having) a heart attack, rapid breathing, frantic thoughts.
Extend that for several minutes, hours, even days.
>>26545265
even having that in public just sounds like it'll make everything worse when people notice that
I refuse to visit a mind doctor or take any mind altering prescription drugs.
my family has a history of mental illness and it is very likely i will have delusional disorder paranoid type like my mother does
I've wanted to kill myself since I was 9 years old and have expressed this to my mother at the time
alcoholism, delusional disorder, depression, alzheimers, psychotic disorder, hysteria, i'm fucked fucked FUCKED, but i'll be dead before you can sedate me like a fucking animal and rob me and my family of thousands of dollars.
>>26545341
I actually had one last week in the supermarket.
You have two choices: pretend to be calm, or flip right the fuck out. The latter is more troublesome (embarrassing in so many ways), so one learns how to pretend.
>>26545363
i know this sounds cheesy but when you meet the right people that will give you a better sense of hope
>>26545363
I was like you once, I refused medication. But some meds don't "zombifiy" you, on the meds I take I function how I would normally, just without them I wouldn't function at all.
It's like rating your mood, the meds just let me add some bonus points to it everyday.
>>26545363
A therapist? No drugs, obviously, and it's just someone to talk to. Walk away at any time, and they can't force you to talk about things you don't want to.
There also might be a crisis line. Not a suicide help-line per se, just a trained ear willing to listen. Anonymous, obviously.
I've never been diagnosed with anything, but it's apparent that I have depression to some degree and probably a personality disorder or something.
I'm probably going to kill myself early Saturday morning, going to get up Friday, go around to a couple of pharmacies, buy codapane and then hang myself.
>>26542349
Same. I did find one medicine that helped (nardil) but the side effects were hell and I became manic while on it and had to stop. Dozens of other drugs did nothing.
Anyone ever had Wellbutrin? Your sex drive goes through the roof.
Gave me tingles in my left fingers and hand, though, actually went to emergency for it as a precaution.
>>26545363
I see you've already gone full paranoid schizo and think doctors are all out to get you. What a shame.
they're going to turn my words against me, i just know it. i won't talk to them, they only want my money and for me to feed their egos by nodding my head and saying OH YES YES THIS CHECKLIST YOU HAVE FITS MY ENTIRE PSYCHE PERFECTLY, PLEASE LET ME SUCK YOUR HAIRY JEWISH COCK "DOCTOR" and giving them money.
>>26545609
How long did you have to take it to get these effects? I was prescribed it but just kind of stopped taking it because it wasn't doing shit
>>26542303
i bet you're 19
Generalized anxiety/social anxiety/a third anxiety one I don't remember/burgers/OCD/PTSD/depression, just counting diagnosed stuff.. I suspect I have borderline personality disorder.
>>26545635
This. Psychiatrists have so many made up illnesses for normal everyday problems that ANYONE can go in and get a prescription for antidepressants or other medications easily.
>>26545609
This worked for me for the first month, only took two days, it was my first antidepressant. But neither it nor anything else has worked at all since.
I get really nervous and angry in crowds and start to have the strong urge to just start flailing around, kicking and biting everyone.
>>26545775
>>26545652
Wellbutrin is a mild stimulant, try to get diagnosed ADHD for adderall/ritalin
Pretty sure I have both depression and anxiety, and on top of my terrible shyness I'm screwed. I just can't interact with anyone, I think I just scare people off at this point. I feel like a freak.
I'm at uni but it's just shit, fucking hate it. But I have absolutely no idea what to do with my life. No friends, no hope. I spent most of yesterday in bed crying.
>aspergers
>depression
>ADHD
>extreme social anxiety
I have not been happy since I was a small boy. I have been totally miserable since I started college in 2013. I turned to weed and alcohol to ease my pain and my anxiety, and discovered that I am an addict and I can't take any substance and use it moderately. My autism plays a big role in this. I obsess over everything.
I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I don't think I will ever have a girlfriend or lose my virginity. If I haven't managed to do it in the first few years of college, then I don't think I'll get much of a chance after I graduate. As far as jobs go, I have no ambitions. I'm an English major, and obviously that's not gonna get me very far. I'm thinking of applying for an apprenticeship in the carpenter's Union. I will most likely live with my parents until they die, and try to support myself through work. I'll save up a ton of money because I don't think my parents will charge rent. I'm going to try to retire as early as possible and live out the rest of my days at home, avoiding normies
I'm on a ton of meds right now, but I'm still very depressed. Abilify, sertraline, and ganapentinNot drinking or smoking weed and I finally kicked my cigarette habit, so I'm happy about that, but other than that everything is shit.
>>26545923
How do you feel after kicking alcohol, tobacco and weed? desu they're some of the only things that help make my life enjoyable.
Untreated depression and anxiety. Fat, barely bathe, sleep 12 hours a day. Can't get away with latter due to being wagecuck. Being smelly keeps coworkers away from me. No motivation to do anything.
Recently bought some modafinil off the internet and I take it when I need to accomplish shit. Gives me motivation to do shit for 10 hours, lifts my mood, no side effects, not an amphetamine. Effect can last a day or two afterwards.
It's a fucking god-pill for me.
Social anxiety/depression. Life is meaningless and I'm pretty much just existing until I don't anymore. Tried the meds/therapy routine years ago but it wasn't helping and I got frustrated and quit.
I'll be a wizard later this year though so that's something to look forward to
>>26545966
Incredibly bored and depressed. I miss alcohol and cigs the most desu. After school I would just get home and have 5 or 6 shots of whiskey and sit outside and smoke a couple cigs and all my worries would melt away. But I got a fucking DUI because I'm an idiot and now as long as I live with my parents they won't tolerate any consumption of alcohol in the house. They're right, of course, I'm an alcoholic and an addict, but that doesn't change the fact that nothing treats social anxiety faster and better (at least at first) than alcohol.
>>26546157
Tell me more about this modafinil. Is there a catch? Does it have some weird side effect?
Should I tell my psychiatrist about my tulpa? What do you think they'll say?
Bipolar disorder 1 here, mania is pretty alright it's fucking annoying how my psychiatrist keeps pushing me to take pilled jews tho fuck that shit
>>26542349
Same senpai, I don't take medicine for it.
Took it a couple of times wen i was a kid and it fucked my shit up even more.
>>26547496
If you want to get diagnosed as having hallucinations, go for it
>all these betas
Holy shit you guys make me laugh.
>autism
>major depression
>major anxiety/panic disorder
>depersonalization
>OCD
>possibly Tourette's
>PTSD
>agoraphobia
Fun combo. So far no meds have worked but sometime soon I'm gonna start seeing a psychiatrist. Right now even fapping almost isn't pleasurable, because my anxiety gets much worse for a few days afterward. All I enjoy anymore is wasting time on Netflix if I feel up to it at all, never do anything with friends, and sleeping. I can't drive or leave the house or else my panic gets out of control, yet somehow I'm still a wagecuck.
Depression, anxiety, dysphoria, 0 self-esteem, loneliness
Just end my life senpai
>tfw no qt dorky robotbf
Had my first appointment ever with psychiatrist.
Now I have 3 more times so I don't think I am doing well at least at their point of view.
